Thump thump thump.... Really? - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Weasel1966 · 07-20-2012, 05:20 AM

On my back door at 10:30 last night. I go to bed early now that I am abstinent. So it woke me up.

I don't know many in the area so who the F could this be?

My dealer? Really? And I don't mean car.

Ok... This is wrong on so many levels but when you take away $1500 a month in income from someone they tend to resist a little.

First off I did not use even with the opportunity in my face.

I was pissed. Really angry. I never opened the door and yelled at him through the glass.

Now this guy is harmless as I have known him three years now. But he is tenacious.

The good in this is twofold... Obviously I did not use... AND...I pissed him off by balling him out and not buying that he will not do that again.

If there was going to be a physical confrontation it was going to be from the sleepy former user standing in his underwear late at night. Ha ha!

I describe this flippantly because I am kind of on a high. Yes I did not use.... And that makes me feel great...

But today is my 18 anniversary! My partner and I promised each other a sober before during and after this date and we are doing it!

Going out to dinner tonight and beach tomorrow for a sober celebration. Our first in at least 10 years. That's a lot of wasted time.

I have certainly struggled these last few weeks. Things are not getting easier but I am getting stronger.

When it comes right down to it I win by staying abstinent and getting on with the good things in life.

I have dramatic ups and downs still but I am rolling a bit better with them not drinking.

Thanks everyone for your continued support. It is making a huge difference to me!

NoFireWater · 07-20-2012, 07:42 AM

Happy Anniversary Weasel! Hope you guys enjoy a wonderful celebration.

Loved your story about the dealer-good for you for resisting a huge temptation and telling the guy off!! I'm sure that wasn't easy. Dealers probably hate it when people quit

aeo1313 · 07-20-2012, 07:55 AM

Happy Anniversary and congrats to you!

HitRockBottom70 · 07-20-2012, 07:56 AM

AWESOME Ken! Happy 18th aniversary to you both!

mecanix · 07-20-2012, 07:58 AM

Learn to ride those emotional ebbs and flows of up and down like a surfer, if you fall off we'll keep our eyes open for you , to see you with hope, waving not drowning .

M

07-20-2012, 05:20 AM	#1 (permalink)
Weasel1966 A simple guy making his way Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Long Island New York Posts: 2,189 Blog Entries: 36	Thump thump thump.... Really? On my back door at 10:30 last night. I go to bed early now that I am abstinent. So it woke me up. I don't know many in the area so who the F could this be? My dealer? Really? And I don't mean car. Ok... This is wrong on so many levels but when you take away $1500 a month in income from someone they tend to resist a little. First off I did not use even with the opportunity in my face. I was pissed. Really angry. I never opened the door and yelled at him through the glass. Now this guy is harmless as I have known him three years now. But he is tenacious. The good in this is twofold... Obviously I did not use... AND...I pissed him off by balling him out and not buying that he will not do that again. If there was going to be a physical confrontation it was going to be from the sleepy former user standing in his underwear late at night. Ha ha! I describe this flippantly because I am kind of on a high. Yes I did not use.... And that makes me feel great... But today is my 18 anniversary! My partner and I promised each other a sober before during and after this date and we are doing it! Going out to dinner tonight and beach tomorrow for a sober celebration. Our first in at least 10 years. That's a lot of wasted time. I have certainly struggled these last few weeks. Things are not getting easier but I am getting stronger. When it comes right down to it I win by staying abstinent and getting on with the good things in life. I have dramatic ups and downs still but I am rolling a bit better with them not drinking. Thanks everyone for your continued support. It is making a huge difference to me!

07-20-2012, 07:56 AM	#4 (permalink)
HitRockBottom70 Member Join Date: May 2012 Location: Florida Posts: 944	AWESOME Ken! Happy 18th aniversary to you both! __________________ I will never drink alcohol again, and I am not changing my mind. May 12,2012.

07-20-2012, 07:58 AM	#5 (permalink)
mecanix Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: uk Posts: 1,385 Blog Entries: 8	Learn to ride those emotional ebbs and flows of up and down like a surfer, if you fall off we'll keep our eyes open for you , to see you with hope, waving not drowning . M __________________ Ups and downs still happen, it's how we deal with them that counts. gave up 3rd sept 2011. I post because i have some experience , not because i have any answers for you .

07-20-2012, 07:42 AM	#2 (permalink)
NoFireWater Clear Eyes Full Heart Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: New England Posts: 604	Happy Anniversary Weasel! Hope you guys enjoy a wonderful celebration. Loved your story about the dealer-good for you for resisting a huge temptation and telling the guy off!! I'm sure that wasn't easy. Dealers probably hate it when people quit

07-20-2012, 07:55 AM	#3 (permalink)
aeo1313 sobriety date 5-2-12 Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Midwest Posts: 903	Happy Anniversary and congrats to you!

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