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Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:23 PM

Hi, I'm a 21 year old male living in Los Angeles.
I used to drink heavely every weekend since I was 14.
About 3 moths ago I got slapped with withdrawal syndrome, which until I ended up in the ER, I knew nothing about.

A little over a month ago the absolute worst part of the withdrawal hit me.
DEPERSONALIZATION.
It is the feeling that I do not exist. I become confused when I look at my body and I start to think about how It does not belong to me. Also stuck in a dream state!!
I need a sympathetic human being who can finally tell me if they have ever made it past this :/ I literally feel like I'm on the verge of death. I'm losing hope.
I do not need for someone to tell me to see a doctor! I do not have insurance and cannot afford it! Please help me.

lifewithoutbooz · 07-16-2012, 04:27 PM

welcome garrett,

can't say i've experienced what you're going through but I'm sure you'll be hearing from other members who can offer some insight. hang in their kiddo!

Stevie1 · 07-16-2012, 04:35 PM

Hi Garrett.

I've experienced this both when I was using drugs, and transitionally when very depressed. It's scary but not life-threatening, and actually something that some people who are heavily into meditation seek out.

But it would be irresponsible not to advise you to go to the emergency room if you are feeling very overwhelmed and scared. Even with no health insurance, you'll get some help there.

Is AA an option for you? Being around other peop[le who have had real struggles with alcoholism might really help you feel connected and not so alone.

2granddaughters · 07-16-2012, 04:36 PM

Are you attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings?

Lots of folks there who have had "out of body" experiences.

All the best.

Bob R

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:40 PM

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Originally Posted by lifewithoutbooz

welcome garrett,

can't say i've experienced what you're going through but I'm sure you'll be hearing from other members who can offer some insight. hang in their kiddo!

Thanks alot! sometimes the best help is just a sympathetic ear. Thank you for fulfilling the role of a human being. Really.

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:43 PM

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Originally Posted by Stevie1

Hi Garrett.

I've experienced this both when I was using drugs, and transitionally when very depressed. It's scary but not life-threatening, and actually something that some people who are heavily into meditation seek out.

But it would be irresponsible not to advise you to go to the emergency room if you are feeling very overwhelmed and scared. Even with no health insurance, you'll get some help there.

Is AA an option for you? Being around other peop[le who have had real struggles with alcoholism might really help you feel connected and not so alone.

Are you completely free from depersonalization? And how long did it take

Gravesmeister · 07-16-2012, 04:44 PM

I agree. AA is totally free and you may connect with 1 or more people that have gone through what you are going through. I would say go check it out and see what happens. It can't hurt you to at least check it out right?

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Gravesmeister

I agree. AA is totally free and you may connect with 1 or more people that have gone through what you are going through. I would say go check it out and see what happens. It can't hurt you to at least check it out right?

You're absolutely right, it would cause no harm (: other than my pride of course. Thank you.

Stevie1 · 07-16-2012, 04:46 PM

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Originally Posted by Garrett624

Are you completely free from depersonalization? And how long did it take

Yes, it's been quite a few years since I last experienced it...like 15 or so.

Stevie1 · 07-16-2012, 04:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Garrett624

You're absolutely right, it would cause no harm (: other than my pride of course. Thank you.

Pride, shmide.

Absolutely NOTHING shameful about going to AA or seeking help! Quite the opposite actually - it takes guts. Do it.

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:49 PM

Thank you this give me hope.

Rudie · 07-16-2012, 04:50 PM

I have not experienced that symptom of withdrawals. Don't lose hope, friend. I agree that an AA meeting may be helpful to you. If you feel it may not be, keep on posting here. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Most here have been through some sort of withdrawals, and are very empathetic to what you are going through.

I agree with the above poster, if you need help, don't hesitate to hit an ER!

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:53 PM

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Originally Posted by Rudie

I have not experienced that symptom of withdrawals. Don't lose hope, friend. I agree that an AA meeting may be helpful to you. If you feel it may not be, keep on posting here. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Most here have been through some sort of withdrawals, and are very empathetic to what you are going through.

I agree with the above poster, if you need help, don't hesitate to hit an ER!

Thank you. I've actually been to the ER quite a number of times. And all theyve done is pump me full of Ativan and slap me with a 2,000 dollar bill. I've not met a single doctor who is not indifferent to my situation.

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 04:55 PM

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Originally Posted by Stevie1

Pride, shmide.

Absolutely NOTHING shameful about going to AA or seeking help! Quite the opposite actually - it takes guts. Do it.

I'm going to do it! Thank you.

Zee · 07-16-2012, 05:09 PM

Hi there, I sent you a PM. Its about Deperonalisation/derealisation. (I get it sometimes and its really scary) read the link, its really useful. Take care x

sugarbear1 · 07-16-2012, 05:38 PM

Welcome to SR!

Glad you are here!

Live2Run25 · 07-16-2012, 06:16 PM

You are real Garrett, and you are here. We are all a great group of people. Please talk whenever you can, and we will try and help you! Welcome =)

Garrett624 · 07-16-2012, 06:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Live2Run25

You are real Garrett, and you are here. We are all a great group of people. Please talk whenever you can, and we will try and help you! Welcome =)

Thank you so very much Brit. And can't begin to thank all of you enough. I'm feeling a bit better, and I know with time everything will be ok. Like I said before. Thanks for being a selfless person and Assisting a fellow human being. Many people turned a blind eye to what was happening to me. Including my former physicians.

Live2Run25 · 07-16-2012, 06:28 PM

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Originally Posted by Garrett624

Thank you so very much Brit. And can't begin to thank all of you enough. I'm feeling a bit better, and I know with time everything will be ok. Like I said before. Thanks for being a selfless person and Assisting a fellow human being. Many people turned a blind eye to what was happening to me. Including my former physicians.

The medical system is a complete and utter joke. I feel you. I went misdiagnosed for almost 7 years for a disease and I eventually diagnosed myself and demanded blood work. Turns out I was right. Don't listen to the doctors.

karilynn27 · 07-16-2012, 06:40 PM

Welcome to SR Garrett.
Glad you found us. Hang in there. Stay in contact with the people here. I have found meetings to be very helpful in making me feel like a member of the human race. It has been amazing to me how caring the people here on SR and in AA are.
People do care, we care

07-16-2012, 04:23 PM	#1 (permalink)
Garrett624 Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Los Angeles California Posts: 12	Please help need a helping hand. Hi, I'm a 21 year old male living in Los Angeles. I used to drink heavely every weekend since I was 14. About 3 moths ago I got slapped with withdrawal syndrome, which until I ended up in the ER, I knew nothing about. A little over a month ago the absolute worst part of the withdrawal hit me. DEPERSONALIZATION. It is the feeling that I do not exist. I become confused when I look at my body and I start to think about how It does not belong to me. Also stuck in a dream state!! I need a sympathetic human being who can finally tell me if they have ever made it past this :/ I literally feel like I'm on the verge of death. I'm losing hope. I do not need for someone to tell me to see a doctor! I do not have insurance and cannot afford it! Please help me.

07-16-2012, 04:27 PM	#2 (permalink)
lifewithoutbooz A girl can dream... Join Date: May 2012 Location: Recovery Road Posts: 374	welcome garrett, can't say i've experienced what you're going through but I'm sure you'll be hearing from other members who can offer some insight. hang in their kiddo! __________________ To know the road ahead, ask those coming back.

07-16-2012, 04:36 PM	#4 (permalink)
2granddaughters in my 24th year of sobriety Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Canada. About as far south as you can get Posts: 4,395	Are you attending Alcoholics Anonymous meetings? Lots of folks there who have had "out of body" experiences. All the best. Bob R __________________ . . .If you want to drink, that's your business ..... .If you want to quit, that's A.A.'s business. . . --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. . . L.D. 1989

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sugarbear1 ~sb Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: MD Posts: 9,770	Welcome to SR! Glad you are here! __________________ Someday everything will all make sense. For now, laugh at confusion, smile through tears, & remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. All Big Book quotes are from the first edition. Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

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Live2Run25 Run to live... live to run Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Western Maryland Posts: 936 Blog Entries: 5	You are real Garrett, and you are here. We are all a great group of people. Please talk whenever you can, and we will try and help you! Welcome =) __________________ -Britt Sober Since 6/3/2012. "And the day came for the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom" 9 Half Marathons completed in 1yr 5 months. Getting Married on 9/6/2013!!

07-16-2012, 04:35 PM	#3 (permalink)
Stevie1 Member Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: midwest Posts: 755	Hi Garrett. I've experienced this both when I was using drugs, and transitionally when very depressed. It's scary but not life-threatening, and actually something that some people who are heavily into meditation seek out. But it would be irresponsible not to advise you to go to the emergency room if you are feeling very overwhelmed and scared. Even with no health insurance, you'll get some help there. Is AA an option for you? Being around other peop[le who have had real struggles with alcoholism might really help you feel connected and not so alone.

07-16-2012, 04:44 PM	#7 (permalink)
Gravesmeister Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Vancouver, wa Posts: 27 Blog Entries: 3	I agree. AA is totally free and you may connect with 1 or more people that have gone through what you are going through. I would say go check it out and see what happens. It can't hurt you to at least check it out right?

07-16-2012, 04:49 PM	#11 (permalink)
Garrett624 Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Los Angeles California Posts: 12	Thank you this give me hope.

07-16-2012, 04:50 PM	#12 (permalink)
Rudie Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Posts: 32	I have not experienced that symptom of withdrawals. Don't lose hope, friend. I agree that an AA meeting may be helpful to you. If you feel it may not be, keep on posting here. I'm sorry you are having a rough time. Most here have been through some sort of withdrawals, and are very empathetic to what you are going through. I agree with the above poster, if you need help, don't hesitate to hit an ER!

07-16-2012, 05:09 PM	#15 (permalink)
Zee Member Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: Sussex, England Posts: 847	Hi there, I sent you a PM. Its about Deperonalisation/derealisation. (I get it sometimes and its really scary) read the link, its really useful. Take care x

07-16-2012, 06:40 PM	#20 (permalink)
karilynn27 Member Join Date: Jan 2012 Location: Middle of no where, oklahoma Posts: 2,692 Blog Entries: 5	Welcome to SR Garrett. Glad you found us. Hang in there. Stay in contact with the people here. I have found meetings to be very helpful in making me feel like a member of the human race. It has been amazing to me how caring the people here on SR and in AA are. People do care, we care __________________ "You can work at least as hard at sobriety as you did at getting drunk" My daughter

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