Day 1 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Megnnj · 07-03-2012, 01:25 PM

Hi,
Alcohol has been a thorn in my side since I was 19. I'm now a 31 year old married mother of two boys. I have such a hard time accepting that I'm an alcoholic. On paper, I certainly look like one: two DUIs, many, many blackouts, drinking alone, drinking while pregnant/breastfeeding, hiding bottles, numerous bad experiences directly related to alcohol. But, on the outside, I present an image of health. I'm earning a master's degree, take good care of my husband and kids, physically fit. Although I don't want another DUI, there is a part of me that thinks if it happens, I'll be sent away for 30 days, which will force me to stop, because even though I go to meetings and absolutely relate to others, I just cannot put together any time. I went to rehab in my early 20s and it didnt work then, but it had not progressed to the level it is today. I want to have acceptance once and for all because I think that is part of my problem. I cannot stop drinking once I start and it's been this way since I was 13. I love my children more than anything. I want to be sober so bad, and would appreciate any advice.

Sapling · 07-03-2012, 01:31 PM

Welcome to SR Megnnj...You're in a great place for support...Glad you found us. As far as meetings go..They are great...But the program of recovery is the 12 steps...Have you ever gotten a sponsor...To guide you through them? That's where long term sobriety happens in AA.

freshstart57 · 07-03-2012, 01:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Megnnj

I cannot stop drinking once I start and it's been this way since I was 13. I love my children more than anything.

Megnnj, welcome to SR, this is a great step forward for you and anyone else looking for the answers to their drinking and the problems it causes. There are many aids around, so please take the time to read a bunch of stuff here. Some prefer a spiritual renewal and a closer relationship with God, while others can do it with a stern lecture from their Dr or a realization that taking even one more drink will result in consequences so dire to be beyond measure.

I think you may have found all you need already, Megnnj, but you might not realize it. Your answers may be right there in your post. Are you ready to make a plan about continuing to drink?

2granddaughters · 07-03-2012, 01:47 PM

Might be time to give AA a try.

Wishing you the best in your quest for sobriety and peace.

Bob R

DisplacedGRITS · 07-03-2012, 01:47 PM

Welcome to the forums. I'm a 31 year old married womman (no kids) and i'd been drinking for about 10 years. I went to rehab twice and was stuck relapsing over and over again. It wasn't until i started going to AA daily that i was been (and have continued to be) able to string together any long term sobriety. AA gave me a place to be among people in various stages of recovery which has been great. Working the steps and getting a sponsor has helped a lot too. I've slacked off on the steps recently and am between sponsors but being in AA, having these forums and going to meeting daily in the beginning really gave me what i needed to jump start my sobriety and keep me going.

sugarbear1 · 07-03-2012, 01:50 PM

Welcome to SR!

Listen to some AA recordings on xa-speakers.org, then maybe read the book Alcoholics Anonymous on silkworth.net.

Glad you are here!

Steve07 · 07-03-2012, 01:55 PM

Welcome, you have come to a great place for support and to be with others who understand where you are coming from. there are several programs available as other have mentioned from AA to counseling etc. Research them out and see which one will work best for you. Keep posting to let us know which program you choose and how it is working for you.

**Dee74** · 07-03-2012, 02:36 PM

Welcome Megnnj

You'll find a lot of support here and a lot of different recovery methods

Here's some links to some of the main players:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html (Recovery Programs and Resources Information)

I also recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.

SR helped me turn my life around - I know we can help you too

D

07-03-2012, 01:25 PM	#1 (permalink)
Megnnj Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Posts: 1	Day 1 Hi, Alcohol has been a thorn in my side since I was 19. I'm now a 31 year old married mother of two boys. I have such a hard time accepting that I'm an alcoholic. On paper, I certainly look like one: two DUIs, many, many blackouts, drinking alone, drinking while pregnant/breastfeeding, hiding bottles, numerous bad experiences directly related to alcohol. But, on the outside, I present an image of health. I'm earning a master's degree, take good care of my husband and kids, physically fit. Although I don't want another DUI, there is a part of me that thinks if it happens, I'll be sent away for 30 days, which will force me to stop, because even though I go to meetings and absolutely relate to others, I just cannot put together any time. I went to rehab in my early 20s and it didnt work then, but it had not progressed to the level it is today. I want to have acceptance once and for all because I think that is part of my problem. I cannot stop drinking once I start and it's been this way since I was 13. I love my children more than anything. I want to be sober so bad, and would appreciate any advice.

07-03-2012, 01:47 PM	#4 (permalink)
2granddaughters in my 24th year of sobriety Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Canada. About as far south as you can get Posts: 4,370	Might be time to give AA a try. Wishing you the best in your quest for sobriety and peace. Bob R __________________ . . .If you want to drink, that's your business ..... .If you want to quit, that's A.A.'s business. . . --- driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self-pity. . . L.D. 1989

07-03-2012, 01:47 PM	#5 (permalink)
DisplacedGRITS Crazy Cat Lady Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Milwaukee, WI Posts: 1,914 Blog Entries: 3	Welcome to the forums. I'm a 31 year old married womman (no kids) and i'd been drinking for about 10 years. I went to rehab twice and was stuck relapsing over and over again. It wasn't until i started going to AA daily that i was been (and have continued to be) able to string together any long term sobriety. AA gave me a place to be among people in various stages of recovery which has been great. Working the steps and getting a sponsor has helped a lot too. I've slacked off on the steps recently and am between sponsors but being in AA, having these forums and going to meeting daily in the beginning really gave me what i needed to jump start my sobriety and keep me going. __________________ Sobriety Date: May 3, 2013 If I can do it, you can do it. Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path. -The Big Book of AA, Chapter 5 Page 58

07-03-2012, 01:50 PM	#6 (permalink)
sugarbear1 ~sb Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: MD Posts: 9,753	Welcome to SR! Listen to some AA recordings on xa-speakers.org, then maybe read the book Alcoholics Anonymous on silkworth.net. Glad you are here! __________________ Someday everything will all make sense. For now, laugh at confusion, smile through tears, & remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. All Big Book quotes are from the first edition. Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

07-03-2012, 02:36 PM	#8 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 65,252	Welcome Megnnj You'll find a lot of support here and a lot of different recovery methods Here's some links to some of the main players: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html (Recovery Programs and Resources Information) I also recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach. SR helped me turn my life around - I know we can help you too D __________________

07-03-2012, 01:31 PM	#2 (permalink)
Sapling AA Member Join Date: Dec 2011 Location: Between Meetings Posts: 9,004	Welcome to SR Megnnj...You're in a great place for support...Glad you found us. As far as meetings go..They are great...But the program of recovery is the 12 steps...Have you ever gotten a sponsor...To guide you through them? That's where long term sobriety happens in AA.

07-03-2012, 01:55 PM	#7 (permalink)
Steve07 Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: Illinois Posts: 55	Welcome, you have come to a great place for support and to be with others who understand where you are coming from. there are several programs available as other have mentioned from AA to counseling etc. Research them out and see which one will work best for you. Keep posting to let us know which program you choose and how it is working for you.

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