Hello

[Pumpkinwaffle]

Hello friends .*
**I posted here sometime last year once. Still lurking about. Still working on a million day ones. This has GOT to stop. I hope today will be my last day 1. So many benders and hangovers and shame and guilt, depression an anxiety. The whole nine yards. I'm only 25 . I know if I don't stop now I'm just slowly killing myself. I know I have all the tools to fix the problem. I just get so down and bored sometimes and say "what the hell, go to the bar, you deserve it". But I know in my heart I CAN'T drink normally. I know that any amount of alcohol i put in my body effects my life in a negative way.Im newly single from a LTR and i get so lonely sometimes and sad and don't like myself for the way I am. The drunk that I am. I know that all the people in my life know me as a heavy drinker. "o yea, that's that girl that can slam a beer faster than any dude". I don't want to be that person anymore. If i don't respect myself and my body , nobody else ever will. I feel ok today. Kind of out of it
And tired like I'm tripping or something. Anxiety is pretty high but I dont feel I'm in any danger . Sorry for just rambling and unloading on y'all. Been a long day of me sitting around obsessing over the whole thing. I just want desperately to be better. Thanks for listening.

[sugarbear1]

You aren't alone anymore! We're here!! You can stay stopped!

[Dee74]

welcome back Pumpkinwaffle

The people here helped me change my life - I know we can help you do the same

good to see you again
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[Bikeguy]

This can be your last day one if you choose to make it that way. Welcome back.

[artsoul]

I had hundreds of day 1's, too - you're definitely not alone......

I imagine it's really hard when you're going through a painful breakup, but in my experience, drinking just made me more and more depressed. I was pretty broken down when I got here, but things got better.... a little bit each day.

You can do this - and we're here for you!

[FlyerFan]

welcome pumpkin.