rehab.

[JJK]

my name is justin and im an alcoholic.. im 29 yrs old and have spent the majority of my 20s sober in alcoholics anonymous, with a couple of slips here and there.. so i wouldnt consider myself to be a newcomer in that sense, but i need help and dont where else to post this..

i went back out for a while last year, and while im lucky enough to have found the rooms again, ive struggled and havent been able to build up much time, unfortunantly..

ive tried everything- doing it on my own (being very anti-aa/12 steps), moderation, going to meetings just for support, taking some suggestions, and finally while nothing else was working; surrendering completely and taking all suggestions..

my story is this- i can get 2 weeks.. 3 tops.. and then BAM! the urge hits and its so powerful that it completely overrides anything else, most importantly the one thing that im failing at- picking up the phone..

i can make 2 or 3 meetings a day, meet with my sponsor, fellowship, pray, crack the book, go to an aa event all in one day and still go get a drink afterwards.. thats how far my addiction has progressed.. also being daily drinker and abuser of other substances..

before making it back into the rooms this time, i was thoroghly convinced that i had to be stopped, because i couldnt stop on my own.. but i found myself a window and jumped in..

well a couple days ago that something stopping me happened.. dui number 3, which i know, and knew right off the bat, that its a blessing in disguise, since ive been meaning to check myself into a rehab/long term sober living facility for a while now.. but due to circumstances; my father passing a few weeks back and not wanting to leave my mom or my new puppy that i rescued from junkies, etc, etc, etc.. theyre all excuses..

SORRY THIS IS SO LONG.. but thats my back story.. and this is the scoop now..

im looking for a rehab.. and sober living afterwards.. im in the southwest region, so something nearby (az, cali, etc), but away from home (nm) would be ideal. im not sure how my insurance is looking right now, and money MAY BE an issue.. i have an arranment (sp?) on the 30th, but im not trying to do ANY jail time, and im also trying to check in some place ASAP.

im not sure how any of this works, since ive never had to do this before.. and beleive me when i say that im not doing this to look good for the courts or anyone else, etc.. ive been making meetings daily and have really been trying to stay sober, and i need this..

i just dont know where to start.. most importantly; with getting checked in somewhere.. then theres the legal part..

i know this website has 100s of listings, but "sober on a beach" and a nice picture of someplace means nothing to me..

if anyone has any recommendations or could help me out in ANY possible way, itd be so much appreciated..

ive asked around here at meetings, etc. but everyone here whos checked in some place has done so locally.. i need to be removed from my stomping grounds right now..

thanks a ton..

-justin..

[JJK]

also, sorry if i neglected to mention.. my previous 2 duis were over ten years ago..

[JJK]

oh well.. seems like this is just a place for people to post and vent about, "i think drink too much".. not to sound harsh.. but itd be helpful if there were a specific place to post about rehab/sober living.. and if there is; my apologies, i didnt see it..

[Zencat]

Comming up with a resource, hang in there BRB.

[Anna]

We do offer support here to people who think they drink too much and who are trying to stop drinking. That's what we do, and we do it very well.


Personally I have no advice about rehabs to offer, but others might.

[JJK]

thanks zen!

[suki44883]

Sorry, JJK, but it is Friday evening and many people are just getting home from work, having dinner, etc. Also, weekends are a little slower around here than during the week, especially in the summer months. I'm sure you will receive plenty of responses, but please be patient.

Also, if you will scroll down to the bottom of the Newcomers Forum, you will see treatment centers listed by state. Click on the state you want and several options will appear.

[JJK]

thank you.. i just dont know how to chose.. maybe im sounding a little bit needy, but ive never had to do this before..

[Zencat]

I've had two family member go through the the House of Hope Foundation, Inc. (HH) in San Pedro, CA. Its a very good program and depending on your income it can be a free expense. And it has worked for my family with a few years sober to date.

I went through Freedom House (FH) in Oxnard CA, its a sober living house with a similar feel to House of Hope except there is more treatment going on there than FH, where one has to pick at treatment plan on ones own. Whereas HH putts one into the AA program and checks-up on your AA progress.

[JJK]

zen, sounds like exactly what i was looking for.. im going to look more into this and i can not thank you enough!

[Zencat]

I can message you a link to my nephew that went to House of Hope, If you have a Facebook account that is and hopefully he will fill you in on his experience. Just give me the go ahead and I will.

[Dee74]

Hi Justin

This is a great database for rehabs and treatment centres in the US.


Substance Abuse Treatment Facility Locator

Just enter your state, then your local area...you'll get a lot of hits...every rehab will have a little blurb to let you know what they do and how much it might cost.

It might seem like a lot of leg work...but hopefully this will be a turning point in your life...short cuts don't really cut the mustard here...

I think it's pretty important that you do the hunting down, make the calls, speak to people yourself - that way you can find the place that you think meets all your criteria the best

good luck

D

[JJK]

thanks, dee.. zen, that place looks amazing and right up my alley.. but its for women, it says.. i have a buddy out in so. cal whos pretty plugged in and is working on helping me get into somewhere right now..

[JJK]

and whats the deal with rehabs not letting you smoke now? uhhh.. one thing at a time.. jeez.. got a crap lawyer who wasnt trying to help me get help (only reason i hired him, not beat any cases).. since i have a bed lined up for me in an amazing place in cali and got hooked up thru friends.. kind of like a scholarship.. most people get those for schools, because theyre smart or athletic.. i guess i get mine for excelling in alcohol/addiction.. so ive been trying to get benzies to get in.. ouch.. my crap lawyer wont have it.. i told him to **** OFF and walked out of our meeting.. my mom, for whatever reason, still hires him.. usually when somebody walks out of a meeting, thats it, its over, were done here, done with you.. im lucky at 30 days, which isnt bad.. just whish i could get the help that i needed first.. or even a DECENT, not even an amazing, lawyer could have worked something out to where i can get into some long term and just avoid jail time completely.. my lawyer is a bozo and isnt having it.. my arraignment is tomorrow morning.. so it maybe too late to find somebody who knows what theyre doing- getting me a continuance, let me go to rehab before i have to serve any time, or just get time served thrown out..

ive given it all up to god, but this is bullshit, imo, and i just keeping taking back and become angry and try and formulate plans.. such as buying a ticket out of here and just hitting the streets somewhere for a while..

also, there is a detox ill probably check into today.. but its right down the street and i dont feel very comfertable working on my **** with staff who are all neighbors and not even in recovery themselves..

i dunno, i was gonna run last night.. had it all planned out.. glad i didnt tho.. 30 days is nothing compared to a year in jail..

[JJK]

^ trying to get OFF benzies to get in.. excuse me..

[JJK]

"mom, where did you find this bozo?"

"so and so, recommended him to me.. all of her kids are in jail.."

"uhhh, yeah, im sure thats the guy who we need to hire then.."