I saw your Post and they have been inspiring

[Time2qt]

Hi;
This is my first post, it is the first time I have ever wrote about my problem, never gone to a meeting or admitted anything, never miss work, and drinking - I don't miss a day.

I have done this for as many years as I can remember, and they were a lot. I have raised a family and have grandchildren. I do have a problem and hate myself for it. But before I go into too much detail, I have been reading your post and want to say one thing, it only gets worse with age. You don't wean off of it because you are older, your body needs more and more.

As you get older and your family and friends begin to leave you, you find that all you want to do is be alone and drinking makes all the anxiety and problems go away. Well at least at that moment. But they only keep growing.

I didn't really try to stop until this year, after getting really sick in December 09, I stayed abstent until mid April, surprised myself. Went through all the signs of detox, night sweats, jitters, but now with age I noticed it has also affected my health, high blood pressure, anxiety, nausea, weakness, arthritis, lack of appetite. So this year I decided to try to turn my life around.

I tried again a couple months ago, it only lasted 5 days. Once again I am on day three, it hasn't been as bad, contraire to the last two times I am focusing on what I need to achieve and how I can do it. I have visited many sites, read really inspiring literature on focusing on the positive, even ordered some. I think it has really helped because these last days haven't been so bad, yes, the first one was somewhat but nothing like the first time that put me in bed two days.


I am going to be reading these blogs daily, it is the first time I can actually relate to other people with the same problem. I hope it will be the inspiration I need to continue forward. I look forward to sharing ideas and experiences, hopefully we can help each other.


I personally am tired of having a useless life, work, come home, drink. I am decided to make a change.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, hope to hear back from you

Time2qt

[Anna]

Welcome, and I'm so glad you decided to post.

I am glad that you have decided to live a sober life.

I found that stopping drinking was the beginning. But, the hard work began at that point. I really had lost so much of myself, I felt there was little left. I had to take a leap of faith and believe that I could do this. You can do it too and you deserve a good life.

I'm a Grandma too, and I know that your Grandkids will be happy to have a sober Grandma.

[mama36]

Hi Time,

I am new here too. I am 36 and I have already noticed that it is worse and worse with each passing year, even month sometimes. I sweat all night, have nightmares, can't sleep other times, feel like my head is going to blow off with headaches and want so badly to eat but have to make myself. I think you are very encouraging and I think that you are going to do wonderfully.

Your words remind me of me - thinking ahead that is.

Good luck and you hang in there. You need to be healthy for those grandkids...

D.

[least]

Welcome to the family! I'm glad you decided to quit drinking. It means a better simpler life for sure.

[julez]

Time2qt, your post really touched me. I want to welcome you to our SR family, and say that I hope these forums can help you like theyve helped me.

[coffeenut]

Glad you are here. I'm in my 50's. Have 2 years sober after 30 years of drinking.

I did it with this website. You can do it too. Sobriety is the best gift you can give yourself AND your family.

Keep reading and posting.

[Time2qt]

I am still trying to figure out this forum, not sure if I can answer individual responses you have written. Can someone tell me how, I only see one reply button at the top and I think this is a general response. I would like to be able to write back to you.

I started drinking during a very abusive marriage, unfortuntely, by the time I finally had the strength and courage to walk away, after I raised my children, I walked away with this habit. Curiously enough since getting away from that, life got better, so it didn't seem to be a problem, as I figured I am alone now and if this is how I want to live, I paid my dues.

Well, it is very easy to justify when one has a bottle on the counter and a drink in the hand. I am always amazed at how you can feel good at the moment, or at least how at peace, as thing that worry you disappear for awhile but then there is so much guilt in the morning. The brain gets dimmed and the concience lets go, only to return with fury.

Time2qt

[coffeenut]

You reply to everyone when you hit the reply button.

You can always pm someone if you feel like you need more 'privacy'.

Your last paragraph about justification has probably affected all of us in one way or another. Another thing that hits most of us (okay, me)...are excuses. Any and everything can become an excuse to drink.

Those first few months of sobriety are tough. Long term sobriety is so worth it. On every level.

[julez]

Coffee all you have to do is double click on someones name and it will give you the option of sending a private message or a public message.

Oh and I am a fitness fanatic as well. I am a figure competitor, triathlete, and personal trainer

[artsoul]

Hi Time2qt - welcome to the forum! Glad you've decided to get your life back. I finally had to put the drink down, figuring that as I got older it would just continue to get worse. The pleasure got less and less, but the hangovers got more and more. It's such a relief to wake up in the morning now and feel like I can face the day.

Hang out with us - we're all in the same boat!!

[Dee74]

Welcome Time2qt

You'll find a lot of help and support here - and I agree with Anna - it takes a leap of faith to start the process but I've never regretted it - 3 years on and I'm much much closer now to being the man I know I can, and should, be, and thats a very great gift.

Its never too late

D

[CarolD]

Welcome to our recovery community...

I quit drinking at 52...despite physical limitations
I have acquired in the last 22 years....
it's remains the wisest thing I ever did.


Glad to know you are heading into a sober future
Please do keep posting with us.

[Ghostly]

Welcome Time! I am glad you have decided to quit. You will find a lot of support here. Thank you for your post...it meant a lot. Good luck and keep us posted.