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ElChupacabra · 02-09-2010, 02:19 PM

Here I am again.

Anyone who read my previous thread will know that I lost my fiancé, job and home all in the course of a few months. I hit rock bottom and hit the bottle more than I had up until that stage. I drank almost everyday. Sometimes moderately, sometimes more heavily. Mostly I would drink wine and it would average out at about two bottles a day. When I needed to I would cut down, but when I had free days I'd hide away and drink to numb the pain of life.

Now, the problem I have is that I have a job interview next week and I want a clear mind. I need to move on with my life. Yet, I can't say that I want to at the moment because of the withdrawals and the post booze depression that I am suffering. Also, the booze numbs the pain of losing my girl and the stress my lack of income is putting on my mortgage.

I have gone through plenty of detoxes before over the years that I have been battling my binge drinking. However, I had not drunk to the level that I have in recent times during those previous detoxes....and I had more reasons to go through the withdrawals. Reasons that no longer exist.

However, the other problem I have is that I can no longer afford the alcohol. Therefore I have no choice but to do this.

So, I need your support people. I know that if I can get through a week without the drink I'll be ok.

Pray for me.

least · 02-09-2010, 02:22 PM

Welcome back! I will keep you in my prayers.

Cold · 02-09-2010, 03:05 PM

I'll keep you in my prayers too

***Anna*** · 02-09-2010, 03:08 PM

I hope you find peace!

**Astro** · 02-09-2010, 03:24 PM

I'll keep you in my prayers, and I'll also pray that you take action and do the work.

Almost 5 years ago I gave away my marriage, home, dogs, almost gave away the kids and job.

5 years later I didn't get it back. What I got was much, much better. I wouldn't want that old life back. Living a life clean & sober has brought me to a place of peace.

It starts with not taking another drink, then you'll learn to live life one day at a time.

Anodyne · 02-09-2010, 03:53 PM

Great post Astro, ElChupacabra (great name, btw) I hope you can draw off Astro's experience, and know that the same can be had for you one day. One day, one hour, one minute at a time, you can do it.

You'll be in my prayers as well.

**Dee74** · 02-09-2010, 03:55 PM

Welcome back El C - I hope you make it through the week - like Astro says, take action and do the work.

I hope too that you find a sincere inner desire to quit

D

Omega10 · 02-09-2010, 06:23 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ElChupacabra

the booze numbs the pain

Welcome back, glad to see you are giving it another try!

Although the booze numbs the pain, it does not deal with it. I have learned that the hard way, myself. You may wish to consider AA or counselling to help you with your breakup.

Alice11 · 02-09-2010, 06:25 PM

2 bottles of wine a day=about $20 if you're drinking the cheap stuff.

Just think, you'll save at least $140 a week!

x4=$560 each month you could save....or at least use for the bills you need to pay

Things can only go up from here!

ElChupacabra · 02-09-2010, 06:46 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Omega10

Welcome back, glad to see you are giving it another try!

Although the booze numbs the pain, it does not deal with it. I have learned that the hard way, myself. You may wish to consider AA or counselling to help you with your breakup.

AA can help with the break up?

Omega10 · 02-09-2010, 07:59 PM

Sorry, I worded that incorrectly. It should have read:

You may wish to consider counselling to help with your breakup, or consider AA.

coffeenut · 02-09-2010, 08:21 PM

Glad you came back to SR. Stick Close.

02-09-2010, 02:19 PM	#1 (permalink)
ElChupacabra Live Long and Prosper Fridge Raiders Champion! Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: London, England Posts: 197	Back to Day 1 Here I am again. Anyone who read my previous thread will know that I lost my fiancé, job and home all in the course of a few months. I hit rock bottom and hit the bottle more than I had up until that stage. I drank almost everyday. Sometimes moderately, sometimes more heavily. Mostly I would drink wine and it would average out at about two bottles a day. When I needed to I would cut down, but when I had free days I'd hide away and drink to numb the pain of life. Now, the problem I have is that I have a job interview next week and I want a clear mind. I need to move on with my life. Yet, I can't say that I want to at the moment because of the withdrawals and the post booze depression that I am suffering. Also, the booze numbs the pain of losing my girl and the stress my lack of income is putting on my mortgage. I have gone through plenty of detoxes before over the years that I have been battling my binge drinking. However, I had not drunk to the level that I have in recent times during those previous detoxes....and I had more reasons to go through the withdrawals. Reasons that no longer exist. However, the other problem I have is that I can no longer afford the alcohol. Therefore I have no choice but to do this. So, I need your support people. I know that if I can get through a week without the drink I'll be ok. Pray for me.

02-09-2010, 02:22 PM	#2 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 23,488 Blog Entries: 31	Welcome back! I will keep you in my prayers. __________________ I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley

02-09-2010, 03:08 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,741	I hope you find peace! __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

02-09-2010, 03:24 PM	#5 (permalink)
Astro Forum Leader Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family! Posts: 11,826	I'll keep you in my prayers, and I'll also pray that you take action and do the work. Almost 5 years ago I gave away my marriage, home, dogs, almost gave away the kids and job. 5 years later I didn't get it back. What I got was much, much better. I wouldn't want that old life back. Living a life clean & sober has brought me to a place of peace. It starts with not taking another drink, then you'll learn to live life one day at a time. __________________ "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---WOW-What a ride!"

02-09-2010, 03:55 PM	#7 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,200	Welcome back El C - I hope you make it through the week - like Astro says, take action and do the work. I hope too that you find a sincere inner desire to quit D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

02-09-2010, 03:05 PM	#3 (permalink)
Cold Member Join Date: Feb 2010 Posts: 32	I'll keep you in my prayers too

02-09-2010, 03:53 PM	#6 (permalink)
Anodyne Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: somewhere, SD Posts: 177 Blog Entries: 3	Great post Astro, ElChupacabra (great name, btw) I hope you can draw off Astro's experience, and know that the same can be had for you one day. One day, one hour, one minute at a time, you can do it. You'll be in my prayers as well.

02-09-2010, 06:25 PM	#9 (permalink)
Alice11 Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Rocky Mountains Posts: 17	2 bottles of wine a day=about $20 if you're drinking the cheap stuff. Just think, you'll save at least $140 a week! x4=$560 each month you could save....or at least use for the bills you need to pay Things can only go up from here!

02-09-2010, 07:59 PM	#11 (permalink)
Omega10 Member Join Date: Jan 2010 Location: Toronto Posts: 297 Blog Entries: 220	Sorry, I worded that incorrectly. It should have read: You may wish to consider counselling to help with your breakup, or consider AA.

02-09-2010, 08:21 PM	#12 (permalink)
coffeenut 6/20/08 Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 4,051	Glad you came back to SR. Stick Close. __________________ Standing at the starting line, we're all cowards. Alberto Salazar

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