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firestorm090 · 11-26-2009, 03:19 AM

I can easily say today that my addiction to alcohol has done just that, it's taken all I have or have ever had to get to this point in my life. I've lost a great marriage, a good business, my self, my identity, my sense of who I am, all in the course of chasing my addiction. Thousands, and I'm not kidding, literally thousands of dollars have went in pursuit of my disease. It boggles my mind that I, a fairly intelligent man, would lay so much at the alter of alcoholism, that I would sacrifice so much in my pursuit of something that I've never been able to accurately determine whether I needed it or not.

It is a one way ticket to hell, and I spent my last dime on a ticket to hell so many times.

Today, I rather have a penny for health than a million for a delusion.

**Dee74** · 11-26-2009, 04:03 AM

Look to the future mate

D

Aysha · 11-26-2009, 04:13 AM

Well you have taken the first step toward the light and it was free.
Hang in there.

***Hevyn*** · 11-26-2009, 05:42 AM

Here is where it ends, though. No more devastation and chaos. As Dee said, look to the future, don't let this disease rob you of that.

***Anna*** · 11-26-2009, 05:50 AM

You don't need to go through this again.

WakeUp · 11-26-2009, 06:19 AM

Hang in there firestorm.

Mark75 · 11-26-2009, 06:39 AM

Be ready to "give it all you've got"... if you do, you will recover. Half measures avail us NOTHING...

You are gonna be fine Dallas. Good luck tomorrow, I'll be thinkin' of you.

Mark

FanofJoeMcQ · 11-26-2009, 07:00 AM

I had a relapse in 96. I don't have any left. Truly, I was kept alive in spite of me. That is what my recovery counselor says. Its so true. I don't resist anymore. Our purpose is to help others now. There are days when I 'don't wanna play'....every time that comes up my HP places a funny delightful struggling person in my path. I love this life. Even financially broke.

11-26-2009, 03:19 AM	#1 (permalink)
firestorm090 Member Join Date: Feb 2009 Location: CA desert Posts: 1,529	Sometimes it takes all you've got I can easily say today that my addiction to alcohol has done just that, it's taken all I have or have ever had to get to this point in my life. I've lost a great marriage, a good business, my self, my identity, my sense of who I am, all in the course of chasing my addiction. Thousands, and I'm not kidding, literally thousands of dollars have went in pursuit of my disease. It boggles my mind that I, a fairly intelligent man, would lay so much at the alter of alcoholism, that I would sacrifice so much in my pursuit of something that I've never been able to accurately determine whether I needed it or not. It is a one way ticket to hell, and I spent my last dime on a ticket to hell so many times. Today, I rather have a penny for health than a million for a delusion.

11-26-2009, 04:03 AM	#2 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,200	Look to the future mate D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

11-26-2009, 04:13 AM	#3 (permalink)
Aysha Looking For Myself...Sober Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Where the heart is Posts: 10,087 Blog Entries: 26	Well you have taken the first step toward the light and it was free. Hang in there. __________________ Dont just count your days...Make your days count! It may not get easier, But it will get better.

11-26-2009, 05:50 AM	#5 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,741	You don't need to go through this again. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

11-26-2009, 06:19 AM	#6 (permalink)
WakeUp Awakening... Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: in the present Posts: 998	Hang in there firestorm. __________________ I am not who I think I am. All quotes from the 1st Edition of Alcoholics Anonymous (aka The Big Book)

11-26-2009, 05:42 AM	#4 (permalink)
*Hevyn* Learning to live again Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Catskills, NY Posts: 5,385	Here is where it ends, though. No more devastation and chaos. As Dee said, look to the future, don't let this disease rob you of that.

11-26-2009, 06:39 AM	#7 (permalink)
Mark75 Friend of Bill W. Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Looking for snow Posts: 5,599	Be ready to "give it all you've got"... if you do, you will recover. Half measures avail us NOTHING... You are gonna be fine Dallas. Good luck tomorrow, I'll be thinkin' of you. Mark __________________ "Be Kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle."....Philo of Alexandria "Your fear of the future is your greatest mistake." .... Stephen Kellogg

11-26-2009, 07:00 AM	#8 (permalink)
FanofJoeMcQ Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Central Florida Posts: 215 Blog Entries: 28	I had a relapse in 96. I don't have any left. Truly, I was kept alive in spite of me. That is what my recovery counselor says. Its so true. I don't resist anymore. Our purpose is to help others now. There are days when I 'don't wanna play'....every time that comes up my HP places a funny delightful struggling person in my path. I love this life. Even financially broke.

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