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keitheo · 07-03-2009, 10:42 PM

Keith O’s
Steps 1-12
6/23/2009 sobriety date _ this time been trying for EVER

We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable.

Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.

Steps 1 & 2
Alcohol almost never produces my intended effect and ALWAYS, eventually produces unintended remorse and regret, the unintended consequences therefore render me ineffective to deal with life on life’s terms (e.g. relationship with my wife, potential negative and real negative consequences with the law, unhappiness…etc.) Since I myself have made hundreds if not thousands of attempts to restore myself to sanity (ie not keep drinking night after night to excess, when I feel remorseful each morning without obtaining intended effects such has joy and happiness (except briefly while I was drinking, more relief), and with no success of moderating after sometime, I therefore must be powerless and the entity that can restore me to sanity must be a greater power than myself.

Step 3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

Step 3
Based on the items I discuss in Steps 1 & 2 and in order to retain any happiness for myself I’m placing my self will that has guided my entire life in the hands of the universal creator (fifth force) or God as I understand him and as he speaks to me through my cognitive thought (my neocortex.) The neocortex is the complex, conscious section of the brain. It is the part of the brain that gives you a sense of individuality - a sense of "being you."

**Dee74** · 07-03-2009, 10:51 PM

Good to see you thinking about this stuff keitheo

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Firehazard · 07-03-2009, 11:12 PM

You can eat a whole cow one hamburger at a time. Do you know what I'm saying. Keep at it!!!

NewBeginning010 · 07-04-2009, 02:59 AM

Great work Keith

Keep it up!

Rusty Zipper · 07-04-2009, 03:45 AM

welcome keith

and keep up the work...

i try to not say "Good"

the humility bit you know!

good wishes,

rz

***Hevyn*** · 07-04-2009, 04:56 AM

"Remorseful each morning without obtaining intended results" - very well said, Keitheo, and I can relate. Don't be discouraged in these early days - everything gets better and makes more sense as you leave the fog & come out into the sunshine. This can be the last time you ever have to go through this transition period - the rollercoaster ride is over. We're glad you're here with us.

vegibean · 07-04-2009, 07:06 AM

Good for you for going over those steps. One way to make them work is to being willing to work. I hope you have a sponsor to guide you through the steps. The steps are so crucial to becoming "better" as this all life changing. Congrats!!!

***Anna*** · 07-04-2009, 07:46 AM

Hi and Welcome!

I'm glad you're working on your recovery!

igottobesober · 07-04-2009, 07:56 AM

My higher power (God) is what is helping me.

07-03-2009, 10:42 PM	#1 (permalink)
keitheo Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: mill valley ca Posts: 3	my first steps - looking for encouragement Keith O’s Steps 1-12 6/23/2009 sobriety date _ this time been trying for EVER We admitted we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. Steps 1 & 2 Alcohol almost never produces my intended effect and ALWAYS, eventually produces unintended remorse and regret, the unintended consequences therefore render me ineffective to deal with life on life’s terms (e.g. relationship with my wife, potential negative and real negative consequences with the law, unhappiness…etc.) Since I myself have made hundreds if not thousands of attempts to restore myself to sanity (ie not keep drinking night after night to excess, when I feel remorseful each morning without obtaining intended effects such has joy and happiness (except briefly while I was drinking, more relief), and with no success of moderating after sometime, I therefore must be powerless and the entity that can restore me to sanity must be a greater power than myself. Step 3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. Step 3 Based on the items I discuss in Steps 1 & 2 and in order to retain any happiness for myself I’m placing my self will that has guided my entire life in the hands of the universal creator (fifth force) or God as I understand him and as he speaks to me through my cognitive thought (my neocortex.) The neocortex is the complex, conscious section of the brain. It is the part of the brain that gives you a sense of individuality - a sense of "being you."

07-03-2009, 10:51 PM	#2 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	Good to see you thinking about this stuff keitheo D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-03-2009, 11:12 PM	#3 (permalink)
Firehazard SHARING THE LOAD Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Oregon Posts: 440 Blog Entries: 17	Hamburgers You can eat a whole cow one hamburger at a time. Do you know what I'm saying. Keep at it!!!

07-04-2009, 02:59 AM	#4 (permalink)
NewBeginning010 Member Join Date: Feb 2009 Posts: 1,923	Great work Keith Keep it up! __________________ "Today is the first day of the rest of your life"

07-04-2009, 03:45 AM	#5 (permalink)
Rusty Zipper Member Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: my room in ct. Posts: 34,764	welcome keith and keep up the work... i try to not say "Good" the humility bit you know! good wishes, rz __________________ *Rule 62*

07-04-2009, 04:56 AM	#6 (permalink)
*Hevyn* Learning to live again Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Catskills, NY Posts: 5,416	"Remorseful each morning without obtaining intended results" - very well said, Keitheo, and I can relate. Don't be discouraged in these early days - everything gets better and makes more sense as you leave the fog & come out into the sunshine. This can be the last time you ever have to go through this transition period - the rollercoaster ride is over. We're glad you're here with us.

07-04-2009, 07:06 AM	#7 (permalink)
vegibean Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: SE and then South some more Posts: 1,872	Good for you for going over those steps. One way to make them work is to being willing to work. I hope you have a sponsor to guide you through the steps. The steps are so crucial to becoming "better" as this all life changing. Congrats!!!

07-04-2009, 07:46 AM	#8 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,768	Hi and Welcome! I'm glad you're working on your recovery! __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

07-04-2009, 07:56 AM	#9 (permalink)
igottobesober Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Posts: 60	My higher power (God) is what is helping me.

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