Class of April - Page 2 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Kelly19 · 04-08-2009, 04:24 AM

Newcomer to the April Class here. Yesterday was day 1 for me and things went good. I managed not to drink alcohol. I spent the evening sipping sprite. I didnt sleep all that well, starting to have alot of aches and pains and one hell of a headache.

bartender129 · 04-08-2009, 07:42 AM

Welcome Kelly...

Day 8 here guys after a spectacular day 7.

It is amazing how much better a week of sobriety makes me feel!

Keep on keeping on folks...

Eclipse · 04-08-2009, 07:51 AM

hang in there Kelly, id does get better.

The anxiety is lessening for me...thank goodness. That is the worst ever.

ADayAtATime · 04-08-2009, 10:17 AM

Hi Eclipse,
Thank you for starting this thread...Class of April.
I think I'm ready to join it now.
Day 1 for me again.
Hugs everyone. :ghug
XOXO

Eclipse · 04-08-2009, 11:14 AM

It is so hard to say this, but I am back on Day 1. I was going to just not say anything and keep going, but that is cheating. I had a great chat with the husband last night about some issues that took alot of weight off my shoulders. So here goes again!

ADayAtATime · 04-08-2009, 11:56 AM

Eclipse,
Thank you for coming out and sharing with us.
Well kiddo, it looks like we're starting over on the same day again.
I'm here for you.

XOXO

redshift · 04-08-2009, 02:53 PM

Day 3 here, hoping to get a good night's sleep finally tonight... headache is wearing off

yeahgr8 · 04-08-2009, 03:24 PM

OK so end of day 1, day 2 in 30 mins...watching lord of the rings then off to bed:-)

Kelly19 · 04-08-2009, 04:25 PM

As ready as I thought I was, Im back square one - well, really back to nowhere. Im scared. Im scared of what could happen - I tried to contact my GP today to discuss this with her but never got in touch with her. Im afraid of going through the stage 2 withdrawal or worse alone. I dont know what to expect from day to day - when the symptoms cease, nothing...I've drank 3-6 beers everyday for 5 years - some days double. Not to mention this is going to be a sole participation deal - hubby has no intention of quitting - havent talked to him about it, but I know already it wont happen. I'm just stuck, here in this black hole for now..

redshift · 04-08-2009, 07:35 PM

Kelly, I know how you feel. I felt like I was black hole three days ago, with no way out, grasping at straws... Only, one of those straws happened to pull me out, and I held on with dear life.

You can do it!! Stick with us

**CarolD** · 04-08-2009, 07:52 PM

Welcome to our newer members.......

nibroc

Kelly19

ADayAtATime

redshirt

Moving forward we the correct direction...

Yes! you can!

Maggot4Life · 04-09-2009, 02:32 AM

Day 9 here for me and I'm doing great. Still having cravings to drink at night but they don't have that much control over me. Whenever I feel the urge to drink I try and remember that awful sick feeling in the morning, most of the time that is enough to stop the cravings.

Kelly19 · 04-09-2009, 03:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Maggot4Life

Day 9 here for me and I'm doing great. Still having cravings to drink at night but they don't have that much control over me. Whenever I feel the urge to drink I try and remember that awful sick feeling in the morning, most of the time that is enough to stop the cravings.

Congrats on day 9!

yeahgr8 · 04-09-2009, 05:30 AM

Day 2 today thank goodness, spent all of yesterday in bed and had an ok'ish sleep...just going to watch rest of lord of the rings trilogy today and come on SR...one of the biggest things that has kept me going back to drinking is not accepting that it has literally ruined the life i could have had without it, i don't mean money...i mean friends and family! I know the person i want to be and it's not a fantasy, it's reality but i have never managed to get there and that is the hardest thing to live with i think, just have to accept the fact that's it's always been the alcohol that has ruined things and stop looking at jobs, places, faces etc. as excuses for it...

I was thinking about a quote from Lethal Weapon (the film) where the bad guy offers Mel Gibson a drink and he says 'That stuff'll kill you quick'...what bullshit...it kills you slow and there isn't a lot of glamour to it either!

Hope everyone stays sober today:-)

redshift · 04-09-2009, 06:09 AM

Good morning class, hope everyone has a great day today.

bartender129 · 04-09-2009, 06:15 AM

Good morning folks...

Day 9 here, let's make it a great one!

Eclipse · 04-09-2009, 09:48 AM

I give up.

Maggot4Life · 04-09-2009, 10:15 AM

don't give up man, you can do this. One day at a time

Eclipse · 04-09-2009, 02:05 PM

I am just tired of it. How can I control it if I can't control it? I am fine until 3:00 then I a-line to the grocery store for bread, milk....WINE. I do not seem to have the self control to not go there. I am tired of fighting it and thinking about it, so I feel like giving up and giving into it....but where would that get me? Not far. I felt great yesterday, and then drank excessively last nite. I read over and over again about how others go back and drink after 60 days. How the hell I am supposed to make 2 f'in days,? I see lots of people come and go on this site and bless their hearts and I pray for them...what about the rest of us???? I am so lost.

yeahgr8 · 04-09-2009, 02:50 PM

Eclipse sounds like you need external help, imagine that is definitely the case so you will and can never do this by yourself, and what are your options?

HideorSeek · 04-09-2009, 02:55 PM

Hi Eclipse and everyone else. I feel your pain, each and every one of them and I am sorry for those who feel hopeless. I know how awful it feels to be controlled by something, to KNOW that this is a dead end (literally), yet be unable to stop it. But the fact is, that you must feel hope because you are here. Do you feel like you are doing EVERYTHING you can to be sober? I know that I seemed to always get stuck at day 3 or 4 and was unable to break the vicious cycle. What it took FOR ME was to take Antabuse. I knew that it would take the decision out of my hands. Obviously, "my hands" weren't getting me anywhere. This may not be the course FOR YOU, but perhaps a different approach to the one you are trying would be the magic ticket. FOR ME, sober time begat wanting MORE sober time (and reluctance to lose what I had). I think that ANY WAY that you can achieve sobriety for longer than you have in the past will fuel your commitment. Get P#$%%d at your disease! BELIEVE in your ability to overcome the obstacles on the path to sobriety. It is never going to be easy, but it can be done. My support goes out to all of you.

HideorSeek · 04-09-2009, 07:20 PM

Hi everyone! I hope that you are having a peaceful night. In rereading my post, I kind of cringed because I sounded harsh to my ears. I didn't mean it that way at all. This IS hard, probably the hardest thing we will ever ask of ourselves. I just want you to know that I love you all and want us all to succeed so badly. Please, please let us have the strength that we need to do what we know we must.:praying

fighttowin · 04-09-2009, 07:30 PM

day 1 almost done....But all I think about is drinking and when is it going to start again. I know tomorrow will be nice a clear head..
one day at a time

**CarolD** · 04-10-2009, 12:16 AM

fighttowin.....good to see you here with us...

Welcome!

**CarolD** · 04-10-2009, 12:25 AM

Eclipse....

How about trying this?
Go to the grocery with one of your children.
Then buy enough to last more than one day.

When 3 o'clock comes.....distract yourself with a bubble bath
a walk....read....watch TV....anything but drinking alcohol.

How about seeing a counselor? Make the appointment at 3.

I too took Antabuse in early recovery. That's a good idea too.

Don't forget we AA members are waiting to
welcome you in meetings. We all have been
where you are...we do understand....

04-08-2009, 07:52 PM	#36 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	Welcome to our newer members....... nibroc Kelly19 ADayAtATime redshirt Moving forward we the correct direction... Yes! you can! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

04-09-2009, 02:32 AM	#37 (permalink)
Maggot4Life Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 249	Day 9 here for me and I'm doing great. Still having cravings to drink at night but they don't have that much control over me. Whenever I feel the urge to drink I try and remember that awful sick feeling in the morning, most of the time that is enough to stop the cravings. __________________ Right now is all we will ever get in this lifetime, so lets make it happen!

04-09-2009, 10:15 AM	#43 (permalink)
Maggot4Life Member Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 249	don't give up man, you can do this. One day at a time __________________ Right now is all we will ever get in this lifetime, so lets make it happen!

04-10-2009, 12:16 AM	#49 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	fighttowin.....good to see you here with us... Welcome! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! Last edited by CarolD; 04-10-2009 at 12:33 AM.

04-10-2009, 12:25 AM	#50 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	Eclipse.... How about trying this? Go to the grocery with one of your children. Then buy enough to last more than one day. When 3 o'clock comes.....distract yourself with a bubble bath a walk....read....watch TV....anything but drinking alcohol. How about seeing a counselor? Make the appointment at 3. I too took Antabuse in early recovery. That's a good idea too. Don't forget we AA members are waiting to welcome you in meetings. We all have been where you are...we do understand.... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

04-08-2009, 04:24 AM	#26 (permalink)
Kelly19 Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: Ga Posts: 25	Newcomer to the April Class here. Yesterday was day 1 for me and things went good. I managed not to drink alcohol. I spent the evening sipping sprite. I didnt sleep all that well, starting to have alot of aches and pains and one hell of a headache.

04-08-2009, 07:42 AM	#27 (permalink)
bartender129 learning Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Where I need to be Posts: 281	Welcome Kelly... Day 8 here guys after a spectacular day 7. It is amazing how much better a week of sobriety makes me feel! Keep on keeping on folks...

04-08-2009, 07:51 AM	#28 (permalink)
Eclipse Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 796 Blog Entries: 10	hang in there Kelly, id does get better. The anxiety is lessening for me...thank goodness. That is the worst ever.

04-08-2009, 10:17 AM	#29 (permalink)
ADayAtATime Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Ohio Posts: 602	Hi Eclipse, Thank you for starting this thread...Class of April. I think I'm ready to join it now. Day 1 for me again. Hugs everyone. :ghug XOXO

04-08-2009, 11:14 AM	#30 (permalink)
Eclipse Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 796 Blog Entries: 10	It is so hard to say this, but I am back on Day 1. I was going to just not say anything and keep going, but that is cheating. I had a great chat with the husband last night about some issues that took alot of weight off my shoulders. So here goes again!

04-08-2009, 11:56 AM	#31 (permalink)
ADayAtATime Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Ohio Posts: 602	Eclipse, Thank you for coming out and sharing with us. Well kiddo, it looks like we're starting over on the same day again. I'm here for you. XOXO

04-08-2009, 02:53 PM	#32 (permalink)
redshift Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 117	Day 3 here, hoping to get a good night's sleep finally tonight... headache is wearing off

04-08-2009, 03:24 PM	#33 (permalink)
yeahgr8 Member Pacman Turbo Champion! Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: UK Posts: 3,950 Blog Entries: 8	OK so end of day 1, day 2 in 30 mins...watching lord of the rings then off to bed:-)

04-08-2009, 04:25 PM	#34 (permalink)
Kelly19 Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: Ga Posts: 25	As ready as I thought I was, Im back square one - well, really back to nowhere. Im scared. Im scared of what could happen - I tried to contact my GP today to discuss this with her but never got in touch with her. Im afraid of going through the stage 2 withdrawal or worse alone. I dont know what to expect from day to day - when the symptoms cease, nothing...I've drank 3-6 beers everyday for 5 years - some days double. Not to mention this is going to be a sole participation deal - hubby has no intention of quitting - havent talked to him about it, but I know already it wont happen. I'm just stuck, here in this black hole for now..

04-08-2009, 07:35 PM	#35 (permalink)
redshift Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 117	Kelly, I know how you feel. I felt like I was black hole three days ago, with no way out, grasping at straws... Only, one of those straws happened to pull me out, and I held on with dear life. You can do it!! Stick with us

04-09-2009, 05:30 AM	#39 (permalink)
yeahgr8 Member Pacman Turbo Champion! Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: UK Posts: 3,950 Blog Entries: 8	Day 2 today thank goodness, spent all of yesterday in bed and had an ok'ish sleep...just going to watch rest of lord of the rings trilogy today and come on SR...one of the biggest things that has kept me going back to drinking is not accepting that it has literally ruined the life i could have had without it, i don't mean money...i mean friends and family! I know the person i want to be and it's not a fantasy, it's reality but i have never managed to get there and that is the hardest thing to live with i think, just have to accept the fact that's it's always been the alcohol that has ruined things and stop looking at jobs, places, faces etc. as excuses for it... I was thinking about a quote from Lethal Weapon (the film) where the bad guy offers Mel Gibson a drink and he says 'That stuff'll kill you quick'...what bullshit...it kills you slow and there isn't a lot of glamour to it either! Hope everyone stays sober today:-)

04-09-2009, 06:09 AM	#40 (permalink)
redshift Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 117	Good morning class, hope everyone has a great day today.

04-09-2009, 06:15 AM	#41 (permalink)
bartender129 learning Join Date: Jul 2003 Location: Where I need to be Posts: 281	Good morning folks... Day 9 here, let's make it a great one!

04-09-2009, 09:48 AM	#42 (permalink)
Eclipse Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 796 Blog Entries: 10	I give up.

04-09-2009, 02:05 PM	#44 (permalink)
Eclipse Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Posts: 796 Blog Entries: 10	I am just tired of it. How can I control it if I can't control it? I am fine until 3:00 then I a-line to the grocery store for bread, milk....WINE. I do not seem to have the self control to not go there. I am tired of fighting it and thinking about it, so I feel like giving up and giving into it....but where would that get me? Not far. I felt great yesterday, and then drank excessively last nite. I read over and over again about how others go back and drink after 60 days. How the hell I am supposed to make 2 f'in days,? I see lots of people come and go on this site and bless their hearts and I pray for them...what about the rest of us???? I am so lost.

04-09-2009, 02:50 PM	#45 (permalink)
yeahgr8 Member Pacman Turbo Champion! Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: UK Posts: 3,950 Blog Entries: 8	Eclipse sounds like you need external help, imagine that is definitely the case so you will and can never do this by yourself, and what are your options?

04-09-2009, 02:55 PM	#46 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 2,187	Hi Eclipse and everyone else. I feel your pain, each and every one of them and I am sorry for those who feel hopeless. I know how awful it feels to be controlled by something, to KNOW that this is a dead end (literally), yet be unable to stop it. But the fact is, that you must feel hope because you are here. Do you feel like you are doing EVERYTHING you can to be sober? I know that I seemed to always get stuck at day 3 or 4 and was unable to break the vicious cycle. What it took FOR ME was to take Antabuse. I knew that it would take the decision out of my hands. Obviously, "my hands" weren't getting me anywhere. This may not be the course FOR YOU, but perhaps a different approach to the one you are trying would be the magic ticket. FOR ME, sober time begat wanting MORE sober time (and reluctance to lose what I had). I think that ANY WAY that you can achieve sobriety for longer than you have in the past will fuel your commitment. Get P#$%%d at your disease! BELIEVE in your ability to overcome the obstacles on the path to sobriety. It is never going to be easy, but it can be done. My support goes out to all of you.

04-09-2009, 07:20 PM	#47 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 2,187	Hi everyone! I hope that you are having a peaceful night. In rereading my post, I kind of cringed because I sounded harsh to my ears. I didn't mean it that way at all. This IS hard, probably the hardest thing we will ever ask of ourselves. I just want you to know that I love you all and want us all to succeed so badly. Please, please let us have the strength that we need to do what we know we must.:praying

04-09-2009, 07:30 PM	#48 (permalink)
fighttowin Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: warming up Posts: 114	day 1 almost done....But all I think about is drinking and when is it going to start again. I know tomorrow will be nice a clear head.. one day at a time

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