Today is the Day

[Eclipse]

I decided I needed to make a thread so that this really stuck out there for myself to see. I am making a vow to start new today and stop drinking. I first quit 30 days last September then decided I could handle two glasses of wine. WRONG!!! Then because of the stress of the holidays I decided I needed to drink to keep the stress level down. Boy did that do me alot of good. So I officially am starting again on January 5, 2009.

I am tired of dealing with it. It really is so much easier to not deal with the alcohol at all. My body and mind really need the break! So here goes!

Hope everyone else is doing well in 2009.

[Mariposa18]

I'm glad you've made this decision =) Stay Strong and remember to come here as much as possible!! You can do this~

[doorknob]

Hi, Eclipse. Wishin' you strength and empowerment for your sober self...

[nocoincidence56]

I wish you the best. Do whatever you must not to drink, could be anything(meetings,SR, church, professional help), just know you most likely can't do this alone. Remember, getting sober is easy, staying that way can be really hard.
Hang in there there are a lot of people pulling for you!!!
No one wants to see you, or anyone else, fail!!!
What has happened up until now is the past, it's what we do from here on out that will make the difference.......................

[Eclipse]

Thanks for your support. Hey doorknob, how are you surviving the snow? I live in Spokane!

[KindBird]

Hi Eclipse,

I could have cut and pasted your message into this message - same feeling and same facts - the glasses of wine and coming off a month of sobriety (mine was Nov).

Welcome back to you and GO FOR IT. We do need to keep trying - that is what they say. I can so remember how good the month of sobriety felt. Here's hoping we both get that clear head back and our bodies feeling better and just getting the clutter of alcohol out of our lives!

Isn't this forum great! we are so lucky to have it and have each other!

Here's hoping that on Jan 5 2010 we are here writing that it has been one year sober!

kindbird

[doorknob]

I love the snow. I was thinking about driving in for some shoveling work later today and maybe a meeting.

[Grateful Heart]

Hi Eclipse, have you been to any AA meetings? This is a beautiful fellowship. I would not be sober today if it wasn't for AA and my Higher Power. Grateful Heart.

[Aysha]

You can do it.

[Anna]

Hi Eclipse,

Welcome!

I'm glad you found us.

[yeahgr8]

Go for it!

[Pixy1]

Good on you!

Right there with you :ghug

[TryingSoHard]

Hey there, girlfriend!

Glad to see you sounding strong-willed, like you know what you want and you're ready to go after it. I am here for you if you need anything!

[Eclipse]

Thanks! I feel determined like I did back in September! I have no excuses at all!

[James13]

Congratulations on your decision! That's great news.

Welcome back.

[Eclipse]

Originally Posted by Grateful Heart

Hi Eclipse, have you been to any AA meetings? This is a beautiful fellowship. I would not be sober today if it wasn't for AA and my Higher Power. Grateful Heart.

I've never gone, can't sure I can go there...

[TryingSoHard]

I was absolutely terrified to go to an AA meeting. Once I went, though, I was really glad I did. They were very understanding and accepting people, and it was a really nice feeling. I went quite often for about a month, and then I just quit going (after I had a really bad night of drinking - I went the next day and then I never went back). I've been thinking about going again lately. I think I need *something*. I'm not all into the religious aspect of it, but I like to follow the "take what you need and leave the rest" philosophy. The books that I have are great, but sometimes it just really hits the spot to get a hug from a real, live person. Ya know?

[Rouxballs]

Never quit quiting--thats good.
You can do it.

[shanman422]

Hi Eclipse, i wish the best for you... You can do this!

[Eclipse]

Day 2 - so far so good!

[TryingSoHard]

Keep it up sister!

[Mark75]

Way to go - day two!! We are pullin' for you.

Just go to one AA meeting, if you are not sure. You can always leave and not come back. If you didn't like your first meeting, try another group, maybe you'll like them better.

Don't worry about the higher power thing... the first step, the only one that mentions alcohol, and the most important one, doesn't mention God.

Mark

[least]

Glad you're back on Recovery Road!

[Eclipse]

Originally Posted by Cubile75

Don't worry about the higher power thing... the first step, the only one that mentions alcohol, and the most important one, doesn't mention God.

I'm not worried about the higher power. I just have this huge fear of walking into a meeting and everyone looking at me and knowing I am there for a reason. What if I know someone (stupid, I know). Maybe at that point I really have to admit that I am an alcoholic? I don't know. If you knew me you most likely would not know I even have a drinking problem. Only my close family and one friend even know I have a problem (and she still tells me I am fine even though I have come out and said "I think I have a drinking problem". I am supposed to be some super mom who helps out at school and runs committees for my kids athletic teams and has everything together (SO NOT). But I do notice I am getting more "out there" with drinking and drinking in situations or at events I would have never done before, and its really starting to scare me. Cuz like lots of us, once I get past a certain point there is no stopping me.

[Mark75]

I was a highly functioning active alcoholic. It wasn't until the end (I hope it was the end) of my drinking career that it was only my close friends who suspected.

You don't have to admit your an alcoholic... The only requirement for membership to AA or admission to a closed meeting is "the desire to quit drinking".

If you run into someone you know (I have, a couple of times, but I work with the public so I wasn't surprised...) they are there for the same reason you are.

Just don't drink today !!!

Mark