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SilentEyes · 06-25-2008, 06:16 PM

so here i go again i wish i could just be rid of this all!!!!!!!!!!!I didn't really think there was an issue until my therapist suggested to me that im self destructing at a rapid rate.i was taken aback by it and of couse did not want to hear it.So now i'm considering the possibility there could be a problem and its driving me insane.i can't seem to convince myself to even try to quit.I know i deserve better and that im worth it i just wish that was enough alot of things should have been enough (DUI and a crashed car,Concussions and a canvas of bruises.why do i have to be so stubborn i know alot of it has to do with the alcohol i would like to think im stronger than that but i guess maybe im not.i just need to set a time period like some of you mentioned and not drink if im not successful then at least there is a starting point i suppose.I just wish i.......i just dont know anymore=(thanks to all who listen=)

"I dont want to be a dying dreamer who accompanies herself into oblivion"
-Brett Butler-

Aa_vark · 06-25-2008, 06:22 PM

wow, thank you for the powerful sharing.

Keep posting, everything can change for the best at anytime, as everything always does change.

I especially like the quotation at the end of your post, thats a wonderful quote with a thread of hope. gues i still need to see hopealso, today, although i believe for us all hope is always present. ( i see the "I dont want" as being hope, and a seed of action to no longer be the dying dreamer. Wow, though, powerful quotation. gawsh. )

PS: absouletly a solid suggestion, of quitting for a period of time. I would suggest that if you cant (like i couldnt) that you take more definate action to find an active face to face support program. AA and NA are WORKING! in my life. You can recover also,

Toomutch · 06-25-2008, 06:25 PM

Welcome to our recovery forum silent-eyes.
I can sense your desperation and your coming to terms that alcohol may infact be a problem for you.
There are alot of great people here to give you support and or advice. So please keep posting.

**CarolD** · 06-25-2008, 06:35 PM

I suggest you have an honest talk with your doctor
as to what is the best way to de tox from alcohol.
That way you can be both sober and safe.

Do keep posting...we understand.

**51anna** · 06-25-2008, 06:40 PM

SilentEyes,

I think you are expressing frustration that most of us have experienced.

Talk to your dr, set a time period for staying sober, and we'll be here to give you lots of support.

**Rowan** · 06-25-2008, 06:44 PM

Welcome. I'm very glad that you found us.

22NGONE · 06-26-2008, 07:01 AM

Silent Eyes,

WELCOME!! Your honesty runs true in your post! I wouldn't beat yourself up too much, some of us just need to gather more data in order to make a well informed decision!

John

SoBearish · 06-26-2008, 09:04 AM

Welcome Silent - I'm sorry for you trouble and pain. Stick around there is help for you here.

1963comet · 06-26-2008, 09:34 AM

Hi and Welcome

I knew I had issues with drinking. One time I was walking out of a county jail because of a DUI. And I said to myself " If jail is not rock bottom, then what is?" I did drink that same day.

I did stop drinking because my health was a mess. And I think today, why was I even waiting for a rock bottom anyway. I knew that I drank to excess and that was not normal.

My life today is wonderful and I do not miss drinking at all. Wish I would not have wasted so much of my life drinking. But my life means more to me today because of my past. So, the negitive in my life turned out to be a blessing.

06-25-2008, 06:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
SilentEyes broken wings Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: the other side Posts: 40	can't get away so here i go again i wish i could just be rid of this all!!!!!!!!!!!I didn't really think there was an issue until my therapist suggested to me that im self destructing at a rapid rate.i was taken aback by it and of couse did not want to hear it.So now i'm considering the possibility there could be a problem and its driving me insane.i can't seem to convince myself to even try to quit.I know i deserve better and that im worth it i just wish that was enough alot of things should have been enough (DUI and a crashed car,Concussions and a canvas of bruises.why do i have to be so stubborn i know alot of it has to do with the alcohol i would like to think im stronger than that but i guess maybe im not.i just need to set a time period like some of you mentioned and not drink if im not successful then at least there is a starting point i suppose.I just wish i.......i just dont know anymore=(thanks to all who listen=) "I dont want to be a dying dreamer who accompanies herself into oblivion" -Brett Butler-

06-25-2008, 06:25 PM	#3 (permalink)
Toomutch with a new light in my eyes Join Date: May 2007 Location: A very busy place Posts: 1,808	Welcome to our recovery forum silent-eyes. I can sense your desperation and your coming to terms that alcohol may infact be a problem for you. There are alot of great people here to give you support and or advice. So please keep posting.
	__________________ Don't fight with the pillow, but lay down your head And kick every worriment out of the bed. ~Edmund Vance Cooke

06-25-2008, 06:35 PM	#4 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 14,332	I suggest you have an honest talk with your doctor as to what is the best way to de tox from alcohol. That way you can be both sober and safe. Do keep posting...we understand.
	__________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery...

06-25-2008, 06:40 PM	#5 (permalink)
51anna Forum Leader Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 10,507	SilentEyes, I think you are expressing frustration that most of us have experienced. Talk to your dr, set a time period for staying sober, and we'll be here to give you lots of support.
	__________________ Anna "I don't know what the future is holding in store I don't know where Im going, Im not sure where Ive been Theres a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I don't need to see the end." John Denver

06-26-2008, 09:04 AM	#8 (permalink)
SoBearish Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: NYC - New York Posts: 296	Welcome Silent - I'm sorry for you trouble and pain. Stick around there is help for you here.
	__________________ Find Your Strength (and keep a lookout for mine will ya? k thx)

06-25-2008, 06:22 PM	#2 (permalink)
Aa_vark Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Specific north left Posts: 455	wow, thank you for the powerful sharing. Keep posting, everything can change for the best at anytime, as everything always does change. I especially like the quotation at the end of your post, thats a wonderful quote with a thread of hope. gues i still need to see hopealso, today, although i believe for us all hope is always present. ( i see the "I dont want" as being hope, and a seed of action to no longer be the dying dreamer. Wow, though, powerful quotation. gawsh. ) PS: absouletly a solid suggestion, of quitting for a period of time. I would suggest that if you cant (like i couldnt) that you take more definate action to find an active face to face support program. AA and NA are WORKING! in my life. You can recover also,

06-25-2008, 06:44 PM	#6 (permalink)
Rowan Moderatin' Newf Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 8,596	Welcome. I'm very glad that you found us.

06-26-2008, 07:01 AM	#7 (permalink)
22NGONE Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Medina, OH, USA Posts: 265	Silent Eyes, WELCOME!! Your honesty runs true in your post! I wouldn't beat yourself up too much, some of us just need to gather more data in order to make a well informed decision! John

06-26-2008, 09:34 AM	#9 (permalink)
1963comet Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Michigan Posts: 1,356	Hi and Welcome I knew I had issues with drinking. One time I was walking out of a county jail because of a DUI. And I said to myself " If jail is not rock bottom, then what is?" I did drink that same day. I did stop drinking because my health was a mess. And I think today, why was I even waiting for a rock bottom anyway. I knew that I drank to excess and that was not normal. My life today is wonderful and I do not miss drinking at all. Wish I would not have wasted so much of my life drinking. But my life means more to me today because of my past. So, the negitive in my life turned out to be a blessing.
	__________________ Just Maybe... It is true that we do not know what we have until we lose it, But it is also true we do not know what we have been missing until it Arrives.

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