letting go

[Hope4life]

I'm struggling to let go of things I can't change. It is overwhelming my mind and causing so much anxiety. My anxiety level has been through the roof the past 2 weeks.

How do I let go?

[ANGELINA243]

Have you tried prayer/meditation......or writing in a journal about your feelings. Getting it out somehow--whether on paper, computer, or by making a simple phone call and speaking to someone who understands might help. Have you ever been on any meds for anxiety? How long prior to the past 2 weeks has this been going on?

[Hope4life]

I start my summer classes tomorrow and I'm all sad tonight.

I got slapped with more consequences of my past actions. I can't get school money for next year ( yet). I am trying to find other avenues now since my original plan didn't work out.

I'm scared that I've totally ruined everything I had planned for my life.

[Hope4life]

Things were going really well in my life for a while. The consequences of my past finally caught up to me and it's crushing me.
Plus the guilt of it all has finally caught up. I seemed to be on a pink cloud at the beginning of my recovery but the pink cloud has faded into the real deal of life.

I accept the responsibility of my past actions. It's just that it's all a mess now and I'm overwhelmed by it all.

Most of the time I can control the anxiety. But lately it's a lot for me to deal with.

I started exercising again and trying to take better care of my physical health. Maybe that will help the anxiety and stress.

[ANGELINA243]

Your past will eventually catch up to you. (It did with me.) As far as the school--what avenues have you already tried--financial aid..etc? All isn't over or lost. Don't try to clear away the "wreckage of the future' today. You don't know what will happen tomorrow. Focus on today--what you can do about your situation today. Maybe you should get some rest tonight and concentrate on getting to your class early tomorrow--then take it from there. Have you prayed about it? Do you pray? If so, I believe that if you just do the best that you can do with what you've got, then the God "of your own understanding" can handle the rest. Focus on putting one foot in front of the other--and stay sober>just for today.

[1963comet]

Yes, I had issues with this to. You can try some reading in SMART recovery. There is reading on Behaviors, Emotions and how to deal with them.

Not trying to get you to change programs but thought this was helpful to add to what you are doing.

There is a link here in programs.

[Hope4life]

I found out that my financial aid application for grants was denied because I didn't earn enough hours last year.

Then I applied for a student loan with my grandma as a cosigner and it was denied because my addict uncle stole all of her credit cards and racked up thousands of dollars of debt in her name and she is overloaded.

I'm so close to graduating and my world has crumbled now.

I have been so worried that I haven't prayed as I should.

I have been trying to control everything on my own and as a result of that, I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and it's tiring. I'm going to practice "turning it over" and then stop trying to take it back.

[Katecan]

I have a severe problem with the same issue Hope4life. I'm so frustrated because in my mind/heart if we all let go, we that are good, evil can take over. No what I mean? We have some responsibility to do something or everything can fall. That's my big struggle. I need to get strong enough to fight.

Satan is trying to beat the crap out of me right now.

[Hope4life]

I wrote out a plan for tomorrow. I am going take a shower and get some sleep.

I can't figure everything out in one night. I'm just going to get some rest and focus on my class tomorrow.

I am going to start keeping a journal.

[Hope4life]

There's a book by Joyce Meyer called "Battlefield of the Mind". I got the book and workbook but I haven't read it yet. Maybe it's time to dig it out.

Maybe it's really a one day at a time thing in dealing with all of this stuff too.

Baby steps... it still takes us somewhere.

[Katecan]

I'm thinking there's a reason we are being challenged right now.

[Dee74]

you beat me to it Cheryl...this, like anything else, is one day, one step at a time. We can do it - just sometimes not in the way or the timeframe we thought we would.

Kate I don't believe in a God/Satan dichotomy myself but I appreciate what you're saying. You're obviously a woman of faith - so long as we don't work against ourselves, have faith that things will work out

D

[Hope4life]

I can't sleep tonight.

[Dee74]

I have no advice on insomnia LOL.

Worry's a pretty useless thing tho - we can't change tomorrow yet anymore than we can change yesterday.

Try your best to chill out - do whatever it is you usually do to relax, maybe?
D

[least]

neither can i ia m so worried about going to rehab tomoorw, i hope it' tomorrow. i cant wait to getthere. i want to start over. i unsderstand you r anxieity. it's racking my brain also. i lay down with my dogs for reliefe.

[marle]

You can always get a job and go to school part time. It may take you longer to graduate but you will get there. It took me 8 years to get my degree because I did not want a crapload of school loans and I had to pay for everything myself and work full time too. You can do anything if you really want it. Sending hugs and prayers that things work out for you. Marle

[Honu]

You said your plans haven't worked out. Depending on your beliefs, let the "God of your understanding" handle the details. Maybe there is another plan that is better, and you should just let yours go, and see what happens?

Just do the next right thing, do what you can, be proud that you've done all you can, and then, see what happens.

Letting Go is a great thing, if we can just wrap our brains around it. I think that this is one thing that challenges all of us.

Honu in Japan for now.