Doing alright, drinking a lil, but coping and living life alright

[MagicMan08]

So I am only drinking in little bits now, rarely talk to the girlfriend. I kind of agree that like making it the forbidden fruit, almost makes me want it more.

I d'no it is my nature to like to get buzzed up, and I am a relatively pure user yet....minus a couple of things.

I still get that tendency to drink and drive tho, just this last Tuesday, I drank and drove like an 18 pack deep. I was blacked out through most of it, but I know in my mind I KNEW i was confident enough to drive and I am sure did just fine.

But later my brother called and said one of his buddies passed me,and he was asking if i was alright, so I donno what is up. Jus an update, still going to meetings, pretty much have lost all contact with my ex. I see it as a transition into a new better me.

[steamvessel]

Originally Posted by MagicMan08

So I am only drinking in little bits now, rarely talk to the girlfriend. I kind of agree that like making it the forbidden fruit, almost makes me want it more.

I d'no it is my nature to like to get buzzed up, and I am a relatively pure user yet....minus a couple of things.

I still get that tendency to drink and drive tho, just this last Tuesday, I drank and drove like an 18 pack deep. I was blacked out through most of it, but I know in my mind I KNEW i was confident enough to drive and I am sure did just fine.

But later my brother called and said one of his buddies passed me,and he was asking if i was alright, so I donno what is up. Jus an update, still going to meetings, pretty much have lost all contact with my ex. I see it as a transition into a new better me.

I'm glad to hear you are doing well, but I kind of question that. It sounds like you feel pretty guilty for drinking and driving, as you should it's a bad habit. Believe me, I've done it myself.

I have one comment regarding your mentioning of the 'forbidden fruit'. This is a concept where you put something on a pedestal and thereby increasing your desire for it because you are not allowed to partake. The worse thing you can do is give in to the desire. You are only teaching yourself that you cannot live without it. The real way to debunk the myth of the forbidden fruit is to remind yourself why you don't want to drink, why you don't drink, and why you are not going to drink. I like reading the why I hate drinking thread for this, and to remind myself daily how much better it is to be sober. Anyway, just my thoughts. Hang in there and let us know how you're going.

[MagicMan08]

yea i wanna sit and have a good conversation with this one guy at my meetings, but I think I only have the courage to ask him is to call him when I am drinking, and then be confident that I had asked him already

[51anna]

Originally Posted by MagicMan08

I still get that tendency to drink and drive tho, just this last Tuesday, I drank and drove like an 18 pack deep. I was blacked out through most of it, but I know in my mind I KNEW i was confident enough to drive and I am sure did just fine.

Are you serious?

MagicMan, if you think drinking 18 beers and driving is 'living life alright', I just don't get it.

[MagicMan08]

so i have this urge to like call my dad and tell him i drank like 8 of the beers out of the cooler in the porch right.......cuz i know someone will discover it sooner or later.......is it better to not say anything and wait til' later.......my parents are very passive

[MagicMan08]

[quote=51anna;1768685]

Originally Posted by MagicMan08

I still get that tendency to drink and drive tho, just this last Tuesday, I drank and drove like an 18 pack deep. I was blacked out through most of it, but I know in my mind I KNEW i was confident enough to drive and I am sure did just fine.
/QUOTE]

Are you serious?

heck yes, i didn't get my dwi when I was driving. It was daylight, and I did just fine driving, cruise control......

I got picked up in a bar for supposedly driving there, and blew over .20...no one saw me drive there, no one called in, they wanted me to leave the bar, and they asked me how I got there

I am not proud or bragging, but I do alright. I don't WANT to do it, and I am ashamed.

[51anna]

I have nothing more to say.

[MagicMan08]

i know, 100% of what you are saying. I almost lost a brother in a drinking and driving accident.........I need no reinforcement, but it is easy to forget

[ken67]

Originally Posted by 51anna

I have nothing more to say.

Whoa......I don't know what to say either.

Cunning, baffling, and powerful, and able to leap tall buildings in a single bound.

[stone]

Driving on an 18 pack is not just about getting a DWI or not, it is about not being safe to drive. You could easily have killed people.
I am not being holier than thou here, you seem to think you drove 'just fine' though?
That is dumb.

[MagicMan08]

ugh, i KNOW i didn't drive alright, and I feel guilty for it. I was spelling out my thinking

[stone]

Originally Posted by MagicMan08

ugh, i KNOW i didn't drive alright, and I feel guilty for it. I was spelling out my thinking

Fair enough, but you can see how the confusion could happen? It sounded like you still thought you were fine.

[MagicMan08]

but no one wants to pay attention to my other posts....cmon now people.....and answer those questions

[warrens]

Is there something that I'm failing to understand here?

Most people come here because they WANT something. Of all the billion or so websites, this one is pretty lame unless it fills a need. When it does it is a godsend.

I am simply curious as to what I might be able to for you. What is it that you seek?

warren

[51anna]

Originally Posted by MagicMan08

but no one wants to pay attention to my other posts....cmon now people.....and answer those questions

Again....are you serious?

Is that what you do to get attention?

Why don't you just ask the questions you would like answered?