lost my way...

[Missymae737]

Conez,

Please forgive yourself...This is absolutely necessary in order to try sobriety again...Many of us fail at the first few attempts...

You are not alone...

Keep posting, we are here for you...

[Fluttering]

Hi Conez

The door is always open.. we are here for you and with you.. Try to get back to the basics..One moment at a time... and try to be gentle with you.. We can learn form relapses...more abut ourselves and more about this deadly disease.

If we keep doing what we're doing..We will continue to keep getting what we are getting.. When we decicde to change what we are doing and stop struggling...The change becomes easier. "We have ceased fighting anything and everyone, includiong alcohol". Try to say the short alcoholic prayer, "God help me"

Please keep us posted on your progress.. I will always save a seat for you

[kj3880]

I suggest that you reread your post here pretending that a dear friend, struggling for sobriety, not you, wrote it. Would you judge him/her and reject her as "bad," or a "disappointment" or would you say "welcome back, let's figure out why this happened and move on from there?" We're so much harder on ourselves than a friend would be.
kj

[Conez]

thanx for the msgs

a whurlwind week. i'm a lil shell shocked n shook up but have been able to put the drink down and claim today without a drink.

so u could image i'm a lil absent and full of internal dialouge... not even willing to take that to an AA meeting or face even my own family... silence and avoidance is the place i'm in..(my own dogbox, to lay low and tend to my wounds).
Anyways basic remorse, self loathing and all that BS has followed my disasterious week....
i've givin up on drinkin, its not going to ever get any better.

what do i do??? not drink in the next minute, hour or day?

its crazy but i could only wish it took one drink in one minute to do what i've been doing with alcohol for decades....
i realise drinking is a slow death i wish it was a one shot wonder n didn't take yrs of my life and pain to my family.

i'm feeling lost and so complusive even without the drink in me that i don't trust myself and what i could do.... i'm upset, angry and about to implode... but i sit here at home with anxiety tremors and feeling like a tickin time bomb...

[HideorSeek]

Hang in there conez. The power of support here is amazing. There are people all over the world who are behind you right this minute, and that fact gives me (and hopefully you) great strength.