For Those With Less than 2 weeks Sober Part 3

[FizzyWater]

Hang in there Someguy and New Leaf, its only 5 days ago I was going through just what your describing, feels like forever at the time then suddenly feels so long ago - if that makes sense.

[ROFL]

Just about done with day 8!

Newleaf: I like this thread for the same reason. It's DO-ABLE. And once you accomplish it, you feel like you can do 90 days, then a year (at least I hope).

For those of us who are here again because of a relapse, though our sobriety date may change, it doesn't take away all the time we have spent sober. The important thing is we come back here and keep working at it.

[NewLeaf]

Wow. I was having a really tough time tonight. All day long I felt CERTAIN I could make it through day 2. Then all my running around with the kids started -- the typical trying to be in three or four places at once syndrome. That's when thoughts of having "just one" drink started creeping in.

I kept going back and forth, wrestling with the idea. I finally remembered to check in here and BOY does it help.

I do still want that drink, but I want to make it through until tomorrow sober even more.

Thanks ROFL, Fizzy, Warrens, Wizard, NegMan --

Aa-vark -- on to day 4?

Justsomeguy -- let's work on day 3 together and cheer PB on to day 2!!!

Jus4today -- You're so right about HONESTY. It IS part of the program. Bouncing in and out is frustrating, humbling, and often embarrassing, but as you (and ROFL) said -- making it back truly is what's important.

[PaddingtonBear]

Just wanted to send good vibes to all my classmates here in this thread...

(((Wizard))) (((Doug))) - day 13 for you? Wow!
(((NM))) - day 12 - fantastic!
(((ROFL))) - day 9 - great!
(((Fizzy))) (((DrugFree))) - day 8 - marvellous!
(((Someguy))) (((NewLeaf))) - day 3 - excellent!
(((Least))) (((Jus4today))) (((Kiwi))) (((Honu))) (((Lambda)))- well done all of you! How are you doing?
Have I missed anyone? If so, big cuddles to you too!

And thanks to Warren, Aavark and any other sober long-timers for coming here to see how we're all doing, cheering us on and helping us! It means alot.

As for me, as Fred Astaire said in one of his songs when he was trying to learn to tap dance and kept falling over, "I'll get this thing yet..."

Well done everyone! Thanks for being here!!!

Little Paddington

[ROFL]

(((((Lil Paddi)))))

Day 9! Already? Last time it seemed like an eternity. I must be getting better.

[justsomeguy]

I'm Glad last night's over. Wednesday night I couldn't shut my eyes, I ended up on the computer all night till I had to go to work Thursday, all day Thursday at work my eyes were bloodshot and burning and stinging. I had the nervous cracked out feeling, biting my tounge all day and stuff. I finally got to sleep last night and feel a bit normal today, I got probably 7.5 hours sleep last night and my eyes feel normal again.

I guess I'm starting day 3 now, I haven't drank since Tuesday. Getting a bit stressful though as the realities of the hole I have dug myself into by missing so much work and being drunk all the time starts to show itself more and more as I try to get on track. Gotta get after it though and start fixing everything to get us going in the right direction.

I'm feeling good about it.

[whattyawantmeto]

I have been on this board twice in the past and have relapsed badly both times. I am back and on day 3. This time there will be meetings. I have to go to AA or some type of group meeting. I have no excuse. There are 5-8 meetings a day about 7 miles from my house.

Could alcoholism really be so pervasive in our society? It is an affluent area as well! Kind of scared who I'll see in there. Kind of put off by the God thing. In the end it doesn't matter. It's my last hope.

[PaddingtonBear]

Hey Whattyawantmeto!

Welcome to the 2 weeks and under thread. Good to have you here. I've run out of fingers on my paws to count the number of relapses I've had, but I'm working on my recovery...

Please keep posting and sharing, and let us know how your AA meetings go. I find this a really encouraging thread, as we all help each other to keep going...



And well done to you too on your day 3 Justsomeguy, you're doing great!

All the best to you
Paddington

[whattyawantmeto]

Good to hear a shout from so far away. Spent some time in London, Cambridge, Rugby and Bath. Beautiful country there. Good Luck and I plan on posting often.

[DES]

Yeah Paddington, day 13. I'm still hanging on. I have to. I must do this, I was killing myself!!!

Better physically, depression is no better and no life to speak of. No motivation.

Doug

[FizzyWater]

Just about through day 8, really felt like a drink on the way home tonight but now I'm safely home, played with the kids ( wee girl 18 months and boy 4 years) and got them to bed, know I'm sorted for at least today, cup of tea and a bit of tv then bed.

Bit concerned about tomorrow, got my in-laws visiting and never not offered my father in law a drink while he's been here. I reckon I can get some beers in for him and resist the temptation but it could be difficult. He's going to wonder why I'm not drinking. Do I want to explain to him that his daughters married a bloke with a drink problem, am I ready for that.

Reckon I'll just bluff my way through it, main priority is not having a drink. Stay strong and make up an excuse of having to drive or something could be my way out.

Can totally relate to Someguy, as this weeks went on I've noticed things at work I've missed through having time off and starting to think, how have I been getting away with this for so long, getting most of it fixed now though.

My best wishes to everyone, hopefully be back tomorrow.

[Negative Man]

Hi Everyone.

It's great to see so many people on our board. We're all struggling and having ups and downs. But we're doing it together. That's really helpful to us.

I went to three AA meetings today, and I kind of experienced an "overload." I'm not sure why. By the time I got home, it was incredibly hot in the house, I was really tired and hungry, and honestly I felt like getting two bottles of wine and just checking out for the day.

I decided to wait for 20 minutes, then an hour. Then I went to sleep for an hour and when I woke up I felt significantly better. Not awesome by any means, but just better. It taught me that these urges will continue to come up, and as much as I'd like to just flip a switch and turn them off (or check out), I have to just get through them.

And also, I learned that there's a real satisfaction on the other side. I'm proud of myself. And proud of everyone here for posting too.

Day 12 done! See you tomorrow everyone.

-- NM

[ROFL]

Wow. It sounds like everyone here had some struggles. I'm proud of everyone too. Keep on resisting the urge!

Day 10 for me.

[NewLeaf]

Go to the head of the class Fizzy, NM, DES, Paddington!

justsomeguy and whattywantmeto -- you're my study buddies... On to day 4 for us! Let's keep it together!!!

The last three days have been difficult and this weekend won't be any less stressful -- axiing around all four teens (one available car) to multiple events and having NO time to myself or to get anything useful accomplished.

The only good thing for me is that my husband's been away since Thursday a.m. and won't be back 'til tomorrow. I miss HIM but not the martinis he has every evening. In a way -- his opening up the Lake house for his dad has given me a respite from that!

I wasn't able to post at all yesterday and will be in and out all day today, but know that I'm with all of you in this.

Keep up the good work, and please send some good vibes my way...

[Horselover]

Hello everyone. I'm new to this forum, but am soooooo glad to have found it. Day 5 for me. I feel so much better physically today, but sometimes the thought of never drinking again depresses me. I then remember its one day at a time and that makes me feel a little better. I did have the stomach cramping in the beginning, but thankfully, that is gone. I have tried to change my routine in the evenings and now jump on the treadmill at 4:00 pm instead of grabbing that glass of wine. I used to drink everyday from 4 pm to bedtime. I am so glad that is in the past. I wasn't setting a great example for my son who is 5 years old.

Oh well. I'm moody too. Did I mention that?

[vashti45]

Hey everyone here in the recovery nursery!! ;-)

I remember being on this thread like it was yesterday. (Wait, it was yesterday ...) Just kiddin' I'm in that kind of mood.

But seriously folks, this thread helped me sooo much in my early early recovery. Now I'm looking at 60 days on Tuesday (God willing and the creek don't rise). As I said to a guy just out of detox last night at my home group, "It's just Day One, over and over and over again." In other words, don't get too caught up in the I'm-never-going-to-drink-again-for-the-rest-of-my-life routine. Just get through this one day. Or this one minute, whatever you're dealing with.

I had some baaaad cravings yesterday, but I just called my sponsor and by the time I was talking with her, they were gone. So for me, I just watch the cravings come, and then watch them go. Like waves on the ocean, building up and subsiding. I just get on my boogie board and ride them out to the shore.

NegMan, keep up the good work. Peace to all of you--

Jana

[FizzyWater]

Was worried yesterday but made it nearly through day 9.

Wasn't half as bad as I imagined, gave my father in law a beer and poured my mother in law a glass of wine and to be honest didn't really have the urge to have one myself. They're inside having a drink, my wife doesn't really drink anyway and I've just popped out with the laptop to post. As my name, I'll stick to the fizzy water, with a touch of lime !

In moments like this I'm tempted to say this is easy but I know I'm only one silly moment away from slipping, and one drink would never be enough, or even 10 drinks would never be enough.

Don't ever want to feel ill again, got to stay well.

Good to see you all here folks, just logging on and posting helps me stay straight.

Best wishes everyone, trust I'll be back tomorrow