Sober 3 months & under Part 2 - Page 8 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

SF69 · 03-12-2008, 09:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by gravity

Losing sight of 'the goal' came up in the chat room the other day. Seems that when some people hit a certain point, they 'forget' where they came from & become complacent with their recovery effort. It seemed to be in the 50+ days area. This has happened to me in the past.

I hope I got mine out of the way early (in that 30 to 35 day range). I'm at day 54 right now, but I'm feeling pretty good. I even played another acoustic show with my band at this bar/restaurant tonight, and having a drink didn't even cross my mind (Thanks HP!)

But thanks for posting this Gravity. Any reminder of the dangers of complacency is a good thing for me.

Dean62 · 03-13-2008, 04:28 AM

It's a new day and life is good. Busy working, hope all is well with everyone here.

mattcake79 · 03-13-2008, 12:34 PM

So today is my 3 week mark. Time seems to be speeding up. Emotional rollecoaster seems to be over. I've just been feeling sad lately, a bit of an understatement - but that's okay, I don't miss my early withdrawal manic highs. And it sure beats feeling nothing at all. I think.

Matt

warrens · 03-13-2008, 07:11 PM

Thirty days hath September; April, June, November, and Warren!

I feel good, I feel happy. But I don't feel "proud." After all, it's one of the "deadlies" isn't it? I'm not actually sure why I am afraid of pride. Perhaps because I would somehow have to be proud of the whole process of becoming addicted?

No, I'm happy that I am so much healthier and emotionally capable. I feel like I am in a more advantageous position to tackle the next month. I feel good that I am treating the gifts given me with so much more respect. I feel ecstatic that self pity is being replaced with adoration for others in my life.

I feel good that I'm beginning to feel humble. Because I'm no longer throwing away the perfection that was bestowed upon me when born. I feel good that I am handling the challenge that god saw fit to lay in front of me and not others.

30 days. A trivial accomplishment. I have a ton of "accomplishments" in my life. Not as many as others, but enough that I don't think I have harmed the world, on balance. I may have an opportunity for yet another accomplishment. Perhaps equal to raising three children to productivity and worth. I have an opportunity to die sober. If I do, I may even be proud.

warrens

gravity · 03-13-2008, 07:58 PM

Hi Warren,

Congratulations on 30 days! Personally, I don't find it a "trivial accomplishment". Heck, I consider 1 day sober an accomplishment! The alternative could have been 30 more days of drinking and all that related stuff.

I get what you mean about the "adoration for others in my life". I used to be so focused on drinking, self pity that I could not fully appreciate how loved I am (just the way my little children look at me, absolute unconditional love) & how much I love others. A truly beautiful experience. One of the major, amazing benefits of sobriety.

I also scratch my head about the whole pride thing. I told my uncle (a very spiritual man) that I am proud of my accomplishments. He responded "as well you should be!". I told another long time sober AA member the same thing and she told me that I might want to say grateful instead of proud. Regardless, it just feels great!

scaredykat · 03-14-2008, 01:51 PM

Hi Guys, sorry i haven't been on here in a few days. I hope everyone is still doing well and sober. I'm still sober. Day 56 for me today. I feel good. My arm and back are screwed up again trying to take care of my cat Chloe and give her her medicine. It's been very frustrating.

Congratulations Warren on your 30 days. That's something to be grateful for. Life will get better each day little by little. That's what I'm told by my sponsor and my other friends in the rooms.

Take care everyone and have a great weekend.
Barb

SF69 · 03-14-2008, 02:25 PM

Barb: Hang in there, hopefully it won't be too much longer before Chloe is better and your arm and back can get a break...and congrats on your 56!

Warrens: Well done on your month, Sir! I can see that you've been changing for the better since you've come here. Happy to see that your hard work is paying off.

Matt: glad you're still hangin' in there. Time sure is funny. Early on for me, each day seemed like a week. Now that I'm almost at 2 months, looking back, it only seems like I've quit for a couple of weeks.

tesquizito · 03-14-2008, 11:41 PM

Day 4 for me. Been to an AA meeting every day since my first one on Tuesday. I know I'm expected to go every day, but I really love to go on long (30+ miles) bike rides on the weekends. It's another part of my recovery regiment I started doing when I could since last year. Normally, in alcoholic-mode I would drink all weekend long starting as soon as I woke up.

So tomorrow (weather permitting), I'm gonna take one of my regular routes up the bay, find a secluded place and meditate. Then on sunday, I found a meeting that's bike route accessible so I plan to hit that up.

Sober weekends (while not common for me) are rad, you get *SO* much done and on monday I'm always ready to kick-ass at my very-demanding and highly-challenging job.

g'night everyone :-)

tellus · 03-15-2008, 05:19 AM

I keep forgetting to check this thread. D:

Tesq, biking to a weekend meeting sounds fantastic. One of the things I'm going to do once the weather warms up is get back into biking--Madison's a wonderfully bike-friendly town, I can't wait.

SF69 · 03-15-2008, 10:37 AM

Tesquizito: Welcome and congrats on your 4 days. Sounds like you have a good plan in place to help your recovery.

Tellus: 9 weeks is awesome! You go girl!

Gravity: Now that you've graduated from this thread (great job man), I hope you don't forget about us.

Doing alright here. Had one of my stronger desires to drink last night than I've had in a long time. I had to go to the Criminal Investigations building at 10pm (10pm WTF?) to be fingerprinted and have my mugshot taken for that DUI. I was thinking of pulling a Nick Nolte and show up all disheveled and wearing a dirty Hawaiian shirt...but I didn't. Anyway, afterward I just felt so embarrassed and ashamed that I wanted to go out and get loaded to make that feeling in the pit of my stomach go away. Thankfully I didn't, and I'm feeling much better today (which is 8 weeks today). Just wanted to thank everyone for their past help that helped me deal with that unexpected trigger.

Negative Man · 03-15-2008, 11:34 AM

I've been traveling, but I'm back now. I'm losing track of the days (hopefully because I'm keeping things one day at a time!). I think I'm on day 26!

Congratulations to everyone on their big days, especially Gravity, Mattcake, and Warren!

SF69: Good job in not buckling to the pressure. I heard someone talk about mountain climbing this week. He said that 90% of all accidents happen on the descent, not on going up. This made me think: The times that I've slipped have not been when I'm worried about a particular event. It's when I've gotten PAST that event, and then I start to think "Cool, pressure's off now!... Where's that bottle?"

Rock on everyone. As always, I'm really grateful for our board.

-- NM

felly79 · 03-15-2008, 12:07 PM

I guess I have made it to this thread. I am glad I haven't been drinking but my depression has been getting worse, perhaps because I haven't been drinking? Oh well, time to get the dosage on the meds upped again.

SF69 · 03-15-2008, 12:58 PM

Welcome to the thread Felly!

mattcake79 · 03-15-2008, 11:52 PM

((fel)) How cool is it that we're on the same page again!

All we need now is the Go Gos as background music. But please don't sound as reluctant as I feel though lol.

NM: It's good to have you back! I really liked your mountain metaphor.

SF69: I think Time will always be an issue; I'll just respect it. Every minute that passes right now is a minute in our favour.

Gravity: I guess you've graduated to whatever comes next. Every day should be a promotion! So happy for you.

Warren, Deany, stop hiding!!

So I'm not doing all that well to be frank. I'm still sad. But I'm tired of whining. It's comforting to know I'm in such good company, though.

to you all

Matt

tesquizito · 03-16-2008, 12:02 AM

Feeling a little weird tonight. I don't know if I'm psyching myself out or not with mysterious symptoms.

I went 2 weeks sober last month no problem at all (my longest in a year), then relapsed hard. This time I'm serious and with AA, and I think I'm so obsessed with this I'm imagining symptoms.

Went to the doctor anyway to get some tests, really nervous, I hope this is just all in my head.

Still planning to bike to AA tomorrow.

g'night everyone.

Omega Man · 03-16-2008, 12:44 AM

Just checking in. Glad to see so many of our original group still here and fighting.
NDZ - you rock mate!
Mayorob, Gravity, Negative Man, Tellus, theonlyway - Love You Guys!

I'm a little stuck at the moment, not making the best decisions, but life is OK. I know what I should be doing and that life could be so much better but I just don't know how yet.

5 wks sober - 2 wks, same old crap; 3 wks sober - 3 days same old crap!

I didn't want to distract anyone from our original goal of a life free of booze, so I didn't post anything. I feel like a hypocrite when I post anything here, I hope I'm not sending any negative vibes.

Thanks guys - your all an inspiration and I'm very proud to be walking this path with you.

03-13-2008, 04:28 AM	#177 (permalink)
Dean62 Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Salt Lake City, Utah Posts: 325	Moody man It's a new day and life is good. Busy working, hope all is well with everyone here.

03-13-2008, 12:34 PM	#178 (permalink)
mattcake79 come, kneel with me. Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 276	So today is my 3 week mark. Time seems to be speeding up. Emotional rollecoaster seems to be over. I've just been feeling sad lately, a bit of an understatement - but that's okay, I don't miss my early withdrawal manic highs. And it sure beats feeling nothing at all. I think. Matt
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03-14-2008, 01:51 PM	#181 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 2,568	Hi Guys, sorry i haven't been on here in a few days. I hope everyone is still doing well and sober. I'm still sober. Day 56 for me today. I feel good. My arm and back are screwed up again trying to take care of my cat Chloe and give her her medicine. It's been very frustrating. Congratulations Warren on your 30 days. That's something to be grateful for. Life will get better each day little by little. That's what I'm told by my sponsor and my other friends in the rooms. Take care everyone and have a great weekend. Barb
	__________________ "Understanding is the first step to acceptance and only with acceptance can there be recovery." - Harry Potter 4 by JK Rowling Sober since: 1/19/08

03-15-2008, 05:19 AM	#184 (permalink)
tellus Chin up, kid. Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Madison, WI Posts: 627	Sixty-three today I keep forgetting to check this thread. D: Tesq, biking to a weekend meeting sounds fantastic. One of the things I'm going to do once the weather warms up is get back into biking--Madison's a wonderfully bike-friendly town, I can't wait.

03-15-2008, 12:07 PM	#187 (permalink)
felly79 Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Bellingham, WA Posts: 608	I guess I have made it to this thread. I am glad I haven't been drinking but my depression has been getting worse, perhaps because I haven't been drinking? Oh well, time to get the dosage on the meds upped again.
	__________________ Sleep in peace tonight, sleep, O sleep gently, what a sight. A smile I see in slumber deep, What visions make your face bright? Are the angels above smiling, At you in your peaceful rest? Are you beaming back while in Peaceful slumber on mother’s breast?

03-13-2008, 07:11 PM	#179 (permalink)
warrens Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: 49 degrees north Posts: 723	Thirty days hath September; April, June, November, and Warren! I feel good, I feel happy. But I don't feel "proud." After all, it's one of the "deadlies" isn't it? I'm not actually sure why I am afraid of pride. Perhaps because I would somehow have to be proud of the whole process of becoming addicted? No, I'm happy that I am so much healthier and emotionally capable. I feel like I am in a more advantageous position to tackle the next month. I feel good that I am treating the gifts given me with so much more respect. I feel ecstatic that self pity is being replaced with adoration for others in my life. I feel good that I'm beginning to feel humble. Because I'm no longer throwing away the perfection that was bestowed upon me when born. I feel good that I am handling the challenge that god saw fit to lay in front of me and not others. 30 days. A trivial accomplishment. I have a ton of "accomplishments" in my life. Not as many as others, but enough that I don't think I have harmed the world, on balance. I may have an opportunity for yet another accomplishment. Perhaps equal to raising three children to productivity and worth. I have an opportunity to die sober. If I do, I may even be proud. warrens

03-13-2008, 07:58 PM	#180 (permalink)
gravity Keep me where the light is Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 900	Hi Warren, Congratulations on 30 days! Personally, I don't find it a "trivial accomplishment". Heck, I consider 1 day sober an accomplishment! The alternative could have been 30 more days of drinking and all that related stuff. I get what you mean about the "adoration for others in my life". I used to be so focused on drinking, self pity that I could not fully appreciate how loved I am (just the way my little children look at me, absolute unconditional love) & how much I love others. A truly beautiful experience. One of the major, amazing benefits of sobriety. I also scratch my head about the whole pride thing. I told my uncle (a very spiritual man) that I am proud of my accomplishments. He responded "as well you should be!". I told another long time sober AA member the same thing and she told me that I might want to say grateful instead of proud. Regardless, it just feels great!

03-14-2008, 02:25 PM	#182 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Barb: Hang in there, hopefully it won't be too much longer before Chloe is better and your arm and back can get a break...and congrats on your 56! Warrens: Well done on your month, Sir! I can see that you've been changing for the better since you've come here. Happy to see that your hard work is paying off. Matt: glad you're still hangin' in there. Time sure is funny. Early on for me, each day seemed like a week. Now that I'm almost at 2 months, looking back, it only seems like I've quit for a couple of weeks.

03-14-2008, 11:41 PM	#183 (permalink)
tesquizito I am McLovin' Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Bay Area, CA Posts: 76	Day 4 for me. Been to an AA meeting every day since my first one on Tuesday. I know I'm expected to go every day, but I really love to go on long (30+ miles) bike rides on the weekends. It's another part of my recovery regiment I started doing when I could since last year. Normally, in alcoholic-mode I would drink all weekend long starting as soon as I woke up. So tomorrow (weather permitting), I'm gonna take one of my regular routes up the bay, find a secluded place and meditate. Then on sunday, I found a meeting that's bike route accessible so I plan to hit that up. Sober weekends (while not common for me) are rad, you get SO much done and on monday I'm always ready to kick-ass at my very-demanding and highly-challenging job. g'night everyone :-)

03-15-2008, 10:37 AM	#185 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Tesquizito: Welcome and congrats on your 4 days. Sounds like you have a good plan in place to help your recovery. Tellus: 9 weeks is awesome! You go girl! Gravity: Now that you've graduated from this thread (great job man), I hope you don't forget about us. Doing alright here. Had one of my stronger desires to drink last night than I've had in a long time. I had to go to the Criminal Investigations building at 10pm (10pm WTF?) to be fingerprinted and have my mugshot taken for that DUI. I was thinking of pulling a Nick Nolte and show up all disheveled and wearing a dirty Hawaiian shirt...but I didn't. Anyway, afterward I just felt so embarrassed and ashamed that I wanted to go out and get loaded to make that feeling in the pit of my stomach go away. Thankfully I didn't, and I'm feeling much better today (which is 8 weeks today). Just wanted to thank everyone for their past help that helped me deal with that unexpected trigger.

03-15-2008, 11:34 AM	#186 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 320	I've been traveling, but I'm back now. I'm losing track of the days (hopefully because I'm keeping things one day at a time!). I think I'm on day 26! Congratulations to everyone on their big days, especially Gravity, Mattcake, and Warren! SF69: Good job in not buckling to the pressure. I heard someone talk about mountain climbing this week. He said that 90% of all accidents happen on the descent, not on going up. This made me think: The times that I've slipped have not been when I'm worried about a particular event. It's when I've gotten PAST that event, and then I start to think "Cool, pressure's off now!... Where's that bottle?" Rock on everyone. As always, I'm really grateful for our board. -- NM

03-15-2008, 12:58 PM	#188 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Welcome to the thread Felly!

03-15-2008, 11:52 PM	#189 (permalink)
mattcake79 come, kneel with me. Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 276	((fel)) How cool is it that we're on the same page again! All we need now is the Go Gos as background music. But please don't sound as reluctant as I feel though lol. NM: It's good to have you back! I really liked your mountain metaphor. SF69: I think Time will always be an issue; I'll just respect it. Every minute that passes right now is a minute in our favour. Gravity: I guess you've graduated to whatever comes next. Every day should be a promotion! So happy for you. Warren, Deany, stop hiding!! So I'm not doing all that well to be frank. I'm still sad. But I'm tired of whining. It's comforting to know I'm in such good company, though. to you all Matt

03-16-2008, 12:02 AM	#190 (permalink)
tesquizito I am McLovin' Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Bay Area, CA Posts: 76	Feeling a little weird tonight. I don't know if I'm psyching myself out or not with mysterious symptoms. I went 2 weeks sober last month no problem at all (my longest in a year), then relapsed hard. This time I'm serious and with AA, and I think I'm so obsessed with this I'm imagining symptoms. Went to the doctor anyway to get some tests, really nervous, I hope this is just all in my head. Still planning to bike to AA tomorrow. g'night everyone.

03-16-2008, 12:44 AM	#191 (permalink)
Omega Man Ending the Old Me. Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Orange County, CA Posts: 240	Just checking in. Glad to see so many of our original group still here and fighting. NDZ - you rock mate! Mayorob, Gravity, Negative Man, Tellus, theonlyway - Love You Guys! I'm a little stuck at the moment, not making the best decisions, but life is OK. I know what I should be doing and that life could be so much better but I just don't know how yet. 5 wks sober - 2 wks, same old crap; 3 wks sober - 3 days same old crap! I didn't want to distract anyone from our original goal of a life free of booze, so I didn't post anything. I feel like a hypocrite when I post anything here, I hope I'm not sending any negative vibes. Thanks guys - your all an inspiration and I'm very proud to be walking this path with you.
	__________________ "It only takes one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or fourteenth." George F. Burns "I had a lot less money when I was drinking!" Omega Man