Sober 3 months & under Part 2

[Last Call]

Day 69. Anyone left in the <3 months group? Seems pretty dead around here. Things are going OK, no major drinking urges.

Sort of existing on the fringes of AA, going to meetings a couple times a week, but haven't really engaged in the program at this point. I feel like I am regaining some clarity in my thinking and I am giving some thought to exactly how I plan to approach recovery going forward.

I am no longer the miserable, isolated, angry person I was drinking. And I don't feel like there are these deep rooted issues that left unaddressed will force me to be miserable and drink again if I don't start doing steps. Removing alcohol has made a big difference, part of me feels like not drinking is enough, every part of my life is better as a result.

Last night I got to a meeting and "Is Not Drinking Enough?" was the topic, so I got to hear 15 people explain how people like me are doomed to be a dry drunk, miserable and certainly drunk again, if we don't get a sponsor and get busy. I just listened and did not participate in the discussion. But it certainly has me thinking.

Oh well, I hope everyone is doing well.

LC

[steamvessel]

Originally Posted by Last Call

Day 69. Anyone left in the <3 months group? Seems pretty dead around here. Things are going OK, no major drinking urges.

Sort of existing on the fringes of AA, going to meetings a couple times a week, but haven't really engaged in the program at this point. I feel like I am regaining some clarity in my thinking and I am giving some thought to exactly how I plan to approach recovery going forward.

I am no longer the miserable, isolated, angry person I was drinking. And I don't feel like there are these deep rooted issues that left unaddressed will force me to be miserable and drink again if I don't start doing steps. Removing alcohol has made a big difference, part of me feels like not drinking is enough, every part of my life is better as a result.

Last night I got to a meeting and "Is Not Drinking Enough?" was the topic, so I got to hear 15 people explain how people like me are doomed to be a dry drunk, miserable and certainly drunk again, if we don't get a sponsor and get busy. I just listened and did not participate in the discussion. But it certainly has me thinking.

Oh well, I hope everyone is doing well.

LC

Yep, I'm still here. It's nice having someone who is always that next step away from me. I think you are doing an excellent job, no need to stress yourself wondering if not drinking is enough, it is. If you are always not drinking then you are reaching your goal of sobriety right? Isn't that what you came here for in the first place?

[steamvessel]

Wow, this thread has really died. It seems us 60-90 dayers are becoming rare. I'm on day 64 here. I actually went to attend an AA meeting last night, but I walked all along the rec center where it was being held and there was no such meeting. I'll probably try again sometime soon.

[Last Call]

Day 73 here. No changes really, just checking off the days. No issues with not drinking.

I have a doctor's checkup tomorrow, have not had a physical in several years. I turned 51 back in December, and with 2 1/2 months sober, I bet they are going to want to run every test in the book... Somewhat apprehensive about it, but the fasting and no coffee before hand will hopefully be the hardest part. Well and hoping they run out of probes before they run out of places to put them.

I hope everyone is doing OK.

LC

[Last Call]

Day 75.

Doctor's visit went OK, except I could have done with out the DRE. All the blood work came back fine, including the liver enzymes. So all that worry for nothing. Still have to get the colonoscopy, yippee. But getting old sucks, like I needed any confirmation apparently I am shorter, fatter, blinder and more deaf than I used to be...

LC

[steamvessel]

Day 70 for me. Back at day 5 no smoking. I'm feeling rejuvinated. I'm going to try and hit my first meeting this week. I've had some good job prospects and had an interview today for a full time position at Nike that I was called for this morning. I am really very grateful for what has been going on for me, and I've noticed that I am focusing on a lot more of the positive things in my life recently.

[Last Call]

Day 80.

Things are going fine on the quit front, I hardly think about it any more.

Good luck on the job steam vessel.

LC

[kj3880]

Congrats to all of us! Pretty soon we'll be out of this forum and what next...I know, I know, day 91. Love from
kj

[Last Call]

Day 91 today. Anyone still here?

[steamvessel]

Congrats on your 90 days Last Call. I'm on day 82. I have a quit date of smoking for tommorrow. Can't wait to get to 90 days myself.

[steamvessel]

In one hour I will be on day 84 (12 weeks). I have decided that June 30th is going to be a new landmark date similar to my sobriety date- April 7th. I start a new job tommorrow, I just smoked my last cigarette. I am going to treat this like a new year, right now. I've got baggage, and I'm going to start getting rid of it. Nothing too bold, I will be successful and find happiness in my job, I will be kind and courteous to people, I will focus on my music and get a website and business cards made and make my way to getting paid gigs. I will be keep a cleaner house, a tighter check book (already made huge strides with this by just not drinking alone), I will smile more genuinely and find the goodness in others, and I will always focus on the future and keeping a good attitude and set goals that are realistic but also force me into change. I am now ready for this commitment, I may attend meetings but not because I believe I should but for an enhancement to my plan and to keep an open mind and to communicate and help people face to face. I am really excited about this new time and I thank every one of you on this board for helping me get to where I am today. I'm excited.

[Negative Man]

Hi Steamvessel and everyone. It's good to see this thread coming back to life. And congratulations on your new start, SV. I am feeling the same way. I'm on day 57, but I've slipped back into isolating. For no good reason! I'm going to get back into the world today.

Right on with you: I'll smile more too, and keep a good attitude. Set more realistic goals and work towards them. And most importantly: be available to others and be a positive force in the world.

Three days, higher power willing, and I'll be in here full time. Rock on.

-- NM

[steamvessel]

Bumping for Negman.. welcome I'm on day 88, but I'll stick around here to support the newbies after my inevitable 3 months passes next week. I'm doing well, the results are happening for me. Not in the way I expected, but I now know that the work I am putting in has a direct causal relationship with my life experience. I plan on continuing this journey, I really don't see an end. I'm not being naive or overconfident, but I am seeing that sobriety for me isn't about an X amount of days anymore, it's about the process and keeping my mind free of chemicals. I want to live right, and live a good life. I always have, I just never knew how to. This is changing, it's quite amazing.

[steamvessel]

90 days at last. What a journey it has been. I have decided that this will mark the end of counting days for me, at least publicly. I want to shift my mind set to viewing sobriety as a way of life, rather than a streak. I have set goals and achieved them, I want to now focus on the overall quality of my life and begin to heal. Thank you all for your tremendous help.