Sober 3 months & under Part 2

[Last Call]

Hi all! I too am on day 14 today and I guess this will be my new home base for a while.

[SF69]

Welcome Least and Last Call! Pull up a chair.

So, anybody have any exciting plans for the day? I'm going to hit a couple of thrift stores this afternoon (a reward to myself for 12 weeks today) and hopefully finds some hidden treasure, then off to a meeting this evening. Not too exciting, but it sure beats the hell out of spending the day on the couch hungover.

[gravity]

Congratulations to Least & Last Call! - It keeps getting better!

SF69 - 12 weeks! Wow! Let us know what treasures you unearth.

My day got really busy in a good way. Was just doing chores, playing with the kids, went for a bike ride...kind of lazing around. I went to my afternoon meeting & afterwards, my sponsor asked me to go for coffee with him & a guy who is really struggling. Wants me to go to another meeting tonight with them. I'm less than four months sober and have not gone through all the steps but it's nice to help out (especially when I think about where I was just a short time ago).

"beats the hell out of spending the day on the couch hungover" I had the same thought first thing this morning when I was playing with my little girl (a tea party ). Saturday morning - not on a bender, not hungover, not craving alcohol.

Hope everyone is having a good weekend! D

[scaredykat]

Wow, lots of congratulating on here today.

Welcome Last call and congrats on your 14 days.

Also congrats to least with your 2 weeks sober; and SF69 on your 12 weeks.

Sorry i haven't been on here lately guys. Been real busy catching up with things a round here. I'm still doing good and I hit my 90 days next week. I've been wanting to shop the past couple of Saturdays. It weird, I'm not really a shopper. I only buy things when i need them. But i got some books today I really wanted.

Well take care everyone,
Barb

[ananda]

Scared Kitty - beware! I had never liked shopping in my whole life, but since I got sober I just went crazy. My latest is a endless desire for new shoes. I think it started out because I had not bought things I really needed for so long that I needed to make some purchases, but then I bought the stove I wanted not the stove I needed, twice the clothes I needed, same with shoes. So now I am working on "think, think, think...it through", don't act just as soon as the "desire" comes up...delay, and stuff like that.

But it is true that I didnt get myself anything that I needed for a long time.

[BUTTERFLY-7]

. . TO Least & Last Call

[scaredykat]

Thanks ananda. For me it's always buying books. I just spent 60.00 today, and i won't be able to read them for a while because I have a bunch of other things to read first. Not counting my recovery books i read everyday.

[least]

Today is 15 days for me!! I'm learning to live without alcohol. Didn't think I could ever do this. But with the help of AA and this forum I'm doing better than I ever thought possible! THanks to everyone here for their support and encouragement.

[warrens]

Great job, all! You are an inspiration to me. You teach me every day. Keeps me from becoming complacent. Reminds me that I no longer wish to be "brave" every minute of the day.

14 days, Least! Wow. I've followed your progress every day. Your words have taken on a far different tone. I feared for you. But no more. It is there for the taking, Lady!

Aldo and Paulos, please read this thread! People with huge responsibilities in addition to their recovery. If they can do it, so can y'all! People walking the tightrope without a safety net. No one to catch them. Perhaps it's an advantage.

warren

[Conez]

hi all, good to see everyone here and sharing their sobriety.... glad to be here, part of this journey with others, can't explain how grateful n the peace it brings. thanx SR community

things have not travelled well for me in the last 24hrs or so... i am sober.

last night, day14 off booze n 8days on anti-depressants... malfunction.
severe reaction to something... either lack of booze (paws) or meds firing off (seritonin shock).
i went in to a major anxiety or something... i remember laying down coz my head hurt.
My memory is vague of what occurred after that.... i was incoherent, high temp, slurred speach, halucinating, eyes rollin back in my head n having spasms... all i remember is crying awful head hurting with deafing screamin.
my partner called and ambulence and i ended up in hospital emergency. from what i was told i was in this state for over 6hrs. i ended up left with a pounding headache (still there now 24hrs later)
i refused admission to psych ward (think for possible sucide watch) which they couldn't force me. seen to in emergency ironicly by an overly pro AA well informed doctor (apparently she focused on AA n abstince in a thesis). i was stable n cleared to go home because i wanted to get to my sunday meeting.
doc agreed that i get what lil sleep was left for the night in the comfort of my own bed. get to the meeting which i said was definate coz i was being picked up.
She made me a cup of tea n strongly urged me to get a sponsor and start workin the steps (it was almost like a mini AA meetin/intervention). She stayed with me the whole time n seen me home safely.

got to the meeting feeling very anxious and sickly (dizzy, nausea) it helped being there tho. I made it thru today #15 sober... not elated or pleased, lil grateful, just for the shread that holds to what lil is left.

confused n scared i don't know what the hell is happening.
just a lil journey share, thanx.

[SF69]

Wow! It's good to see the newcomers help to put a little life in this thread. Thanks!

Conez: Wow, sorry to hear about your day. Glad to see you have a good support system, and that you kept sober. Way to go!

Gravity: My thrift store finds: A couple of books (a Steven King/Bachman book "Blaze" and a book of Shakespear plays), a cool retro hipster shirt, and a brand new pair of Timberland shoes..all for $10.

Barb: I understand about the less posting, I'm doing it less too, not by choice. In the part of recovery where we need to go out and do things and have a life is starting to kick in for me and really starting to fill up my time. Leaving me less time for here. Just check in when you can, and I'll do the same.

Least: Keep it up, Girl. You're doing GREAT!

[HideorSeek]

Hi All!

Just wanted to put in my 2 cents worth. I posted on the newcomers forum a few days ago. I have to say, once again, that this forum has helped me immeasurably. I am on it several times a day and always sign off inspired and empowered. Thank you all for being there for me. I'll keep you posted on my progress!

[ananda]

SF69 - your book list sounds like mine!

It's so great to see how everyone is hanging in there.

[Conez]

Hi
day16 and feeling really low... realising how strong these emotional triggers are, 'spose thats what kept me drinking all these yrs.
my headache is still there from saturday night. my mood is ugly... urging the worst craving for a drink. highly emotional (sad mostly) but yet very apathetic.

i don't understand why i have this growin urge to run down the bottlo, when my better thinking is to stay sober n go to a meeting tonight. i feel trapped in self resentment.
even tho i'd resent myself even more for picking up a drink... that isn't valid.
i'm looking at that drink thinking its my short-term saviour for my sadness/despair (even tho nothing good will come of it). my sheild and blanket to protect me from this growing realisation that i'm a total F**k up.... i hate the can of worms my sobriety has unleashed and unbearable weight of it paralizing me. i hate myself...whoever the f**k that is.
for today i stay sober but i want my blanket to comfort me.

[supernothing]

i made it through the weekend, despite my partner sitting so close to me drinking red wine last night i could SMELL IT:@
Day 17 and the longest ive been sober in 4 years
Staying strong and determained, and starting to let family/close friends know that i've quit, not that any of them seem particularly interested, i guess i must have hid the extent of my drinking quite well, im getting mixed responses, my sister was mortified saying *what? youre not going to drink EVER?* as if id lost my mind, if only she knew thats exactly what im trying to AVOID.
Other people seem quite uniterested, but then alcohol isnt an issue in their lives, and it is in mine- so i cant expect them to grasp what im saying either.
Im so glad everyone else is doing so well, im still finding this forum such a help and inspiration to me.

[least]

Day 16 for me!!!