For Those With Less than 2 weeks Sober Part 2 - Page 8 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Dean62 · 02-20-2008, 05:31 AM

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Originally Posted by Kickit

Day 6, feeling fine (so far!). As I think I have said before, I have been here before and it was the later days when cravings kicked in for me, along with that 'Oh come on I can drink!' Like you Kasey I still long to be able to drink 'normally' and my mind tells me that 'of course I will be able to now', even though I know I just can't.

Does that stop, ever?

"The idea that somehow, someday he will control and enjoy his drinking is the great obsession of every abnormal drinker." AA big book.

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Originally Posted by Kickit

I am applying for a job today, having been out of work for about 2 years (after taking redundancy), fear and low self esteem kept me out of the job market, even though I worked for 26 years

I hear you Kickit. After six months without a job I was afraid I would never get a job again. I still have problems with self esteem but I am very grateful to have a good job today. I know you can too.

Dean62 · 02-20-2008, 05:36 AM

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Originally Posted by mtnmagic

I just finished day 14 for me. The horror and pain of these first weeks are very much in the front of my mind. I hope they stay there, cuz this has been the longest two weeks of my life.

Congratulations on your first 14 days of horror and pain.

It does get better.

Kickit · 02-20-2008, 05:48 AM

There I was saying I felt ok. Well, here I am trying to complete my job application, then out of the blue I think 'my friend is coming for a meal tonight, if she brings wine I will have some...yummm'... even thought about making sure she did!! I wanted to drink, but got past it a bit, had water and fruit and told that thought to 'get stuffed!!' (do you have that saying outside of the UK?!!)

PESKY PESKY PESKY!! Its still lurking..

Thanks for the advice Dean and hi wjw, well done for not giving in, catch up later!

(Just thought was the trigger my anxiety about this application - don't feel too bad about it on the surface, but if think maybe mild panic is bubbling, little voice saying 'don't bother?? It's all very frustrating.)

Dean62 · 02-20-2008, 08:56 AM

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Originally Posted by Kickit

PESKY PESKY PESKY!! Its still lurking..

I KILLED IT I KILLED IT!!! Oh wait.....what is that.

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Originally Posted by Kickit

(Just thought was the trigger my anxiety about this application - don't feel too bad about it on the surface, but if think maybe mild panic is bubbling, little voice saying 'don't bother?? It's all very frustrating.)

Anxiety is one of my favorite triggers. I have used it many times. Very handy it is.

Hope the job hunting goes well.

Kickit · 02-20-2008, 10:58 AM

Dean, I forgot to say congrats on the job, and thanks for the posts. LOL !!

I am thinking of getting Elmer Fudd and his shotgun it's geting that bad today! 'I'm a gonna git you you pesky critter'!!

Dean62 · 02-20-2008, 11:34 AM

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Originally Posted by Kickit

I am thinking of getting Elmer Fudd

I didn't know Elmer was an alcoholic although now that I think about it he does mumble a lot.

Kickit · 02-20-2008, 03:28 PM

LOL Dean! Yeah, one too many rabbits!

Well I got through the night, was quite hard, but not as hard as I have had before. My friend turned up and asked whether she should pop out for wine, I SAID NO, lets just have a cuppa and that was fine. Great... but later sneaky thoughts 'maybe at the weekend'!!

Day 7 tomorrow.... hope everyone else is doing well.

Negative Man · 02-21-2008, 12:38 AM

Got my day 2 today. Thanks for everyone's support and encouragement.

Kickit · 02-21-2008, 06:14 AM

Hey NM, well done.

How are you feeling?

How is everyone else doing today??

I am on day 7, got over wanting a drink yesterday and did apply for that job. Not sure how I am feeling today. Just been through a portion onf my past and recent behaviour, we try to ignore stuff don't we?! On one hand I feel that it has solidified my thinking - you are an alcoholic, on the other I feel like a bad person.

And yet again, I still have that pesky thought - maybe next week, maybe.....and I (stupidly) feel sad and resentful that I can't have a drink EVER!

Good luck on getting through today everyone.

Negative Man · 02-21-2008, 06:45 PM

Hey Kickit and everyone. I am feeling really lousy. I hit that skid today in the afternoon where it was a done-deal: I'd decided to drink. I got my shoes on and walked outside to go to the store. Then I walked back inside and made some lunch instead. Then I took a nap.

I don't think I've ever hit that "I'm definitely going to drink" feeling, and then not done it. I'd like to say "It feels great!!" But actually I physically feel really lousy.

I will try to make it four/five hours until bedtime. Going to talk with some friends. This is about what I should expect from a day 3, but that doesn't make it any easier.

I look forward to reading people's check-ins tonight. Hang in there.

warrens · 02-21-2008, 06:55 PM

First time on this thread, NegativeMan. Just checking in. Closing out my sixth day and feeling great. Hope you will too, soon.

warrens

Negative Man · 02-21-2008, 09:45 PM

Cool Warrens. Welcome. Congratulations on the sixth day. I remember day six -- feels great. Can't wait to get there again!

Keep rocking on.

wjw1970 · 02-22-2008, 05:16 AM

Got through another night, but nights are not getting easier for me. But, woke to another clear day.

Good going everyone.....just have to make it through today before I worry about another night.

SF69 · 02-22-2008, 08:41 AM

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Originally Posted by Negative Man

I don't think I've ever hit that "I'm definitely going to drink" feeling, and then not done it. I'd like to say "It feels great!!" But actually I physically feel really lousy.

Awesome NM! You might feel lousy at the time, but just how much better you feel than if you did drink.

Negative Man · 02-22-2008, 08:26 PM

Thanks SF69. I just had another "I'm definitely going to drink" on the ride home. But then I took twenty minutes when I got home and came to my senses. I think I can just ride the evening out today... You're right SF. I'd feel even lousier if I drank.

WJW: Congrats on another day.

Rock on!

Kickit · 02-23-2008, 03:07 AM

Hey everyone, you are all doing well . congraulations

I am on Day 1 again - drank last night. No cravings or anything, mates came round and I wanted to.

I had about 3/4 bottle wine. Too many units I know, but not bad for me. I felt a bit sick in the night. Pysically felt ok this morning, a bit less better that yesterday - of course that's drink for you, especially after 7 days sober.

Don't feel terrible that I did it, feel a bit disappointed that I didn't carry on, but just intend to not have anything else. Will I ever get this!

02-20-2008, 05:48 AM	#178 (permalink)
Kickit Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: UK Posts: 100	There I was saying I felt ok. Well, here I am trying to complete my job application, then out of the blue I think 'my friend is coming for a meal tonight, if she brings wine I will have some...yummm'... even thought about making sure she did!! I wanted to drink, but got past it a bit, had water and fruit and told that thought to 'get stuffed!!' (do you have that saying outside of the UK?!!) PESKY PESKY PESKY!! Its still lurking.. Thanks for the advice Dean and hi wjw, well done for not giving in, catch up later! (Just thought was the trigger my anxiety about this application - don't feel too bad about it on the surface, but if think maybe mild panic is bubbling, little voice saying 'don't bother?? It's all very frustrating.)
	__________________ don't give up 'cos you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet don't give up I know you can make it good Peter Gabriel

02-20-2008, 10:58 AM	#180 (permalink)
Kickit Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: UK Posts: 100	Dean, I forgot to say congrats on the job, and thanks for the posts. LOL !! I am thinking of getting Elmer Fudd and his shotgun it's geting that bad today! 'I'm a gonna git you you pesky critter'!!
	__________________ don't give up 'cos you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet don't give up I know you can make it good Peter Gabriel

02-20-2008, 03:28 PM	#182 (permalink)
Kickit Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: UK Posts: 100	LOL Dean! Yeah, one too many rabbits! Well I got through the night, was quite hard, but not as hard as I have had before. My friend turned up and asked whether she should pop out for wine, I SAID NO, lets just have a cuppa and that was fine. Great... but later sneaky thoughts 'maybe at the weekend'!! Day 7 tomorrow.... hope everyone else is doing well.
	__________________ don't give up 'cos you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet don't give up I know you can make it good Peter Gabriel

02-21-2008, 06:14 AM	#184 (permalink)
Kickit Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: UK Posts: 100	Hey NM, well done. How are you feeling? How is everyone else doing today?? I am on day 7, got over wanting a drink yesterday and did apply for that job. Not sure how I am feeling today. Just been through a portion onf my past and recent behaviour, we try to ignore stuff don't we?! On one hand I feel that it has solidified my thinking - you are an alcoholic, on the other I feel like a bad person. And yet again, I still have that pesky thought - maybe next week, maybe.....and I (stupidly) feel sad and resentful that I can't have a drink EVER! Good luck on getting through today everyone.
	__________________ don't give up 'cos you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet don't give up I know you can make it good Peter Gabriel

02-22-2008, 05:16 AM	#188 (permalink)
wjw1970 Pickachu...I choose YOU! Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: raleigh nc Posts: 84	Got through another night, but nights are not getting easier for me. But, woke to another clear day. Good going everyone.....just have to make it through today before I worry about another night.
	__________________ I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me! Author: ~Dr. Seuss

02-21-2008, 12:38 AM	#183 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 340	Got my day 2 today. Thanks for everyone's support and encouragement.

02-21-2008, 06:45 PM	#185 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 340	Hey Kickit and everyone. I am feeling really lousy. I hit that skid today in the afternoon where it was a done-deal: I'd decided to drink. I got my shoes on and walked outside to go to the store. Then I walked back inside and made some lunch instead. Then I took a nap. I don't think I've ever hit that "I'm definitely going to drink" feeling, and then not done it. I'd like to say "It feels great!!" But actually I physically feel really lousy. I will try to make it four/five hours until bedtime. Going to talk with some friends. This is about what I should expect from a day 3, but that doesn't make it any easier. I look forward to reading people's check-ins tonight. Hang in there.

02-21-2008, 06:55 PM	#186 (permalink)
warrens Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: 49 degrees north Posts: 743	First time on this thread, NegativeMan. Just checking in. Closing out my sixth day and feeling great. Hope you will too, soon. warrens

02-21-2008, 09:45 PM	#187 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 340	Cool Warrens. Welcome. Congratulations on the sixth day. I remember day six -- feels great. Can't wait to get there again! Keep rocking on.

02-22-2008, 08:26 PM	#190 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 340	Thanks SF69. I just had another "I'm definitely going to drink" on the ride home. But then I took twenty minutes when I got home and came to my senses. I think I can just ride the evening out today... You're right SF. I'd feel even lousier if I drank. WJW: Congrats on another day. Rock on!

02-23-2008, 03:07 AM	#191 (permalink)
Kickit Member Join Date: May 2006 Location: UK Posts: 100	Day 1 again, I drank Hey everyone, you are all doing well . congraulations I am on Day 1 again - drank last night. No cravings or anything, mates came round and I wanted to. I had about 3/4 bottle wine. Too many units I know, but not bad for me. I felt a bit sick in the night. Pysically felt ok this morning, a bit less better that yesterday - of course that's drink for you, especially after 7 days sober. Don't feel terrible that I did it, feel a bit disappointed that I didn't carry on, but just intend to not have anything else. Will I ever get this!
	__________________ don't give up 'cos you have friends don't give up you're not beaten yet don't give up I know you can make it good Peter Gabriel