For Those With Less than 2 weeks Sober Part 2 - Page 6 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Dean62 · 02-04-2008, 09:48 AM

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Originally Posted by grrrr

I have realized that depression and anxiety takes me back to smoking, and I am learning to handle this without drugs. Just getting off my butt and taking care of my chores or reading inspirational SR threads helps me keep positive. And being sober does feel so good.

Singing tho choir K.

Mandarina · 02-06-2008, 03:56 AM

Hi there.

Where is everyone?

I'm on day four now. I stopped drinking on the first day of the year but slipped up last weekend.

I just came across this cool poem, what do you think?

Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
by Portia Nelson

I. I walk down the street.
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I fall in.
I am lost.....I am helpless;
it isn't my fault.
It takes forever to find a way out.

II. I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place;
but it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

III. I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in....it's a habit.
My eyes are open.
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.

IV. I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.

V. I walk down a different street.

trakin · 02-06-2008, 04:05 AM

I love it, Mandarina! How totally appropriate. I bet a lot of people can relate. I wonder if Portia was an alcoholic.

grrrr · 02-06-2008, 08:26 AM

That is a nice poem, with a sentiment i think a lot of us can understand.

I am on day 3 today. Feeling a little down, stupid things happening lately. I know my sobriety will be challenged tonight, i need to gear myself up to say no. I can see that hole in the ground coming...

K

grrrr · 02-07-2008, 08:29 AM

Didn't smoke last night, even though I could have. Feeling good today and optimistic that I will graduate from this thread.

I had actually counted my days wrong, on day 5 today!

Where are all the newbies??

K

alberta · 02-07-2008, 01:04 PM

Boo. I so blew it. :-( I blew it so bad I even smoked cigs which I quit doing 7 years ago. Just out of some weird old winter boredom and restlessness. But, today I'm back. And it is my goal to make it off this thread and into the graduate group.

Today is as good a day as any. Right?!
A

SF69 · 02-07-2008, 01:59 PM

Alberta, slips happen. The fact that you're going to keep trying is the important thing. Good luck and yep, today is as good a day as any.

Krissy 72 · 02-07-2008, 08:13 PM

Hey everyone, haven't been on here in awhile. I've actually been really depressed... it's like I skipped over the good part... at least, last time I quit, I felt really great for awhile after the horrible week one, anyway.

Anyhow, before I get booted to the whiner thread, just wanted to say that despite it, I made it to day 14, and wanted to wish you all the BEST of luck and say thank you for all your wonderful posts

Take care all

PG1968 · 02-07-2008, 10:26 PM

day 2 here.. rough stuff. good luck everyone.....later

SeekSobriety · 02-07-2008, 11:33 PM

Day 1.5 Sober here writing on Buisness trip in Wellington NZ,
I was really happy last night believe it or not because I really wanted to stop and was happy that I was still sober but the pink cloud may have passed and now I am feeling tempted by the devil. If I work through the cravings they pass and I feel good that I did not give in, but there are signs all around me trying to pull me down, there whispering into my ear that just one drink after work with the mates is ok, just one puff is ok, just one.... I hear myself begin to rationalize, yeah thats right, just one drink, only one puff its ok, hey who needs sobriety anyways. Thats how it begins, thats how it takes me down. But Im stronger then that, those are not even my voices, those are my fears trying to hide me from myself, I've been down that road brother, I've been hiding and running from me all my life, you know being Sober is like a new drug, hate to say it like that but, i've been so used to being on the drink or the smoke that not being drunk or wasted is something totally new, just like when we started drinking that was a new experience, well now 20+ years later its an old experience. And being sober, truly sober, Is something totally new. I tell the devils whispers to STOP, because I am not going to have just one DRINK or Just ONE PUFF, Ill go for a walk instead, hydrate with water, lots of it. And move a step forward. One more step forward. If not now then when.
This is the only time we've got.
Thanks for listening, this group and forum has really saved my life.

Omega Man · 02-08-2008, 12:34 AM

Do whatever you have to in order to stay clean and sober today. Call someone, read and post here on SR, go to a meeting, go to church, whatever you need to do.

Try to smile and laugh today! Even if your in the middle of day 2 and sweating it out - it could be worse! You could be doing it in jail - right!

Go to bed tonight, clean and sober and know tomorrow that it will be a little better. Stick with it, no matter what. It does get better!

CurioAndTheCat · 02-08-2008, 08:41 AM

Day three. I really don't want a drink. I have no desire for a cigarette or any other kind of substance. But I can't eat. My stomach is in knots and I'm racked with guilt about the last time I drank. I keep feeling like something I did or said is going to come back to haunt me and ruin whatever I have that's going well. It's not withdrawl... it's just guilt. Last time I quit I didn't have that guilty feeling. It was more of a I-can-do-this-and-I'll-prove-it-to-you feeling. This time... a world of difference.

Guilt is not something I'm used to feeling.

Has anyone made it a year their first time? I'm trying for an entire year... a lofty goal after only 3 days, but if you're going to go, go big, right?

SF69 · 02-08-2008, 09:27 AM

Curio,

Maybe it seems different this time because you are quitting for yourself, and not to prove something to someone else.

This is my first real attempt at quitting, and I'm on day 20 (the longest I've been sober since the late 1980's). I really haven't set a goal for how long I'm trying to stay sober (unless my life time counts?), because I fear if I reach that goal, I'll start thinking that it's okay to drink again.

CurioAndTheCat · 02-10-2008, 09:31 AM

Let's keep this thread bumped to help all of us who need the encouragement in this difficult first fortnight.

SF69: I think you're right. It's a totally different feeling. Completely.

How's everybody doing? Hanging in there?

SF69 · 02-10-2008, 10:40 AM

Glad to see you still hanging in there Curio!

Plenty of ups and downs here, but I guess that's the nature of the beast. Though, the downs seem to fade away much quicker now that I'm sober than those 3 or 4 day funks I'd get after a big binge.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

mtnmagic · 02-10-2008, 10:50 AM

Day 6 for me....Lots of ups and downs. Struggle with sleep, but
am trying to hang on. Keeping busy helps me.

trooper913 · 02-10-2008, 01:29 PM

I am new here as of today. I know I have a problem but everytime I try to quit I fall into depression.. and all the bad things I have done come back up. I guess I need to let that happen and deal with it?

SF69 · 02-10-2008, 02:42 PM

Welcome Trooper!

I'm not sure what your situation is like, but it couldn't hurt talking to a doctor about it.

02-06-2008, 03:56 AM	#127 (permalink)
Mandarina Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 55	Hi there. Where is everyone? I'm on day four now. I stopped drinking on the first day of the year but slipped up last weekend. I just came across this cool poem, what do you think? Autobiography in Five Short Chapters by Portia Nelson I. I walk down the street. There's a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost.....I am helpless; it isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out. II. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in the same place; but it isn't my fault. It still takes a long time to get out. III. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in....it's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately. IV. I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it. V. I walk down a different street.
Mandarina Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 55

02-06-2008, 04:05 AM	#128 (permalink)
trakin Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 127	I love it, Mandarina! How totally appropriate. I bet a lot of people can relate. I wonder if Portia was an alcoholic.
trakin Member Join Date: Dec 2007 Posts: 127

02-06-2008, 08:26 AM	#129 (permalink)
grrrr moving forward Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: SD, CA Posts: 22	nice poem That is a nice poem, with a sentiment i think a lot of us can understand. I am on day 3 today. Feeling a little down, stupid things happening lately. I know my sobriety will be challenged tonight, i need to gear myself up to say no. I can see that hole in the ground coming... K

02-07-2008, 08:29 AM	#130 (permalink)
grrrr moving forward Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: SD, CA Posts: 22	I made it Didn't smoke last night, even though I could have. Feeling good today and optimistic that I will graduate from this thread. I had actually counted my days wrong, on day 5 today! Where are all the newbies?? K

02-07-2008, 01:04 PM	#131 (permalink)
alberta Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 10	Boo. I so blew it. :-( I blew it so bad I even smoked cigs which I quit doing 7 years ago. Just out of some weird old winter boredom and restlessness. But, today I'm back. And it is my goal to make it off this thread and into the graduate group. Today is as good a day as any. Right?! A
alberta Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 10	__________________ Keep the faith! Last edited by alberta; 02-07-2008 at 01:13 PM. Reason: mispellings

02-07-2008, 01:59 PM	#132 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Alberta, slips happen. The fact that you're going to keep trying is the important thing. Good luck and yep, today is as good a day as any.

02-07-2008, 08:13 PM	#133 (permalink)
Krissy 72 Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 27	Hey everyone, haven't been on here in awhile. I've actually been really depressed... it's like I skipped over the good part... at least, last time I quit, I felt really great for awhile after the horrible week one, anyway. Anyhow, before I get booted to the whiner thread, just wanted to say that despite it, I made it to day 14, and wanted to wish you all the BEST of luck and say thank you for all your wonderful posts Take care all
Krissy 72 Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Posts: 27

02-07-2008, 10:26 PM	#134 (permalink)
PG1968 Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Anywhere, US Posts: 63	day 2 here.. rough stuff. good luck everyone.....later

02-07-2008, 11:33 PM	#135 (permalink)
SeekSobriety Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Los Angeles, CA Posts: 56	Day 1.5 Sober here writing on Buisness trip in Wellington NZ, I was really happy last night believe it or not because I really wanted to stop and was happy that I was still sober but the pink cloud may have passed and now I am feeling tempted by the devil. If I work through the cravings they pass and I feel good that I did not give in, but there are signs all around me trying to pull me down, there whispering into my ear that just one drink after work with the mates is ok, just one puff is ok, just one.... I hear myself begin to rationalize, yeah thats right, just one drink, only one puff its ok, hey who needs sobriety anyways. Thats how it begins, thats how it takes me down. But Im stronger then that, those are not even my voices, those are my fears trying to hide me from myself, I've been down that road brother, I've been hiding and running from me all my life, you know being Sober is like a new drug, hate to say it like that but, i've been so used to being on the drink or the smoke that not being drunk or wasted is something totally new, just like when we started drinking that was a new experience, well now 20+ years later its an old experience. And being sober, truly sober, Is something totally new. I tell the devils whispers to STOP, because I am not going to have just one DRINK or Just ONE PUFF, Ill go for a walk instead, hydrate with water, lots of it. And move a step forward. One more step forward. If not now then when. This is the only time we've got. Thanks for listening, this group and forum has really saved my life.

02-08-2008, 12:34 AM	#136 (permalink)
Omega Man Ending the Old Me. Join Date: Dec 2007 Location: Under a Rock Posts: 240	Do whatever you have to in order to stay clean and sober today. Call someone, read and post here on SR, go to a meeting, go to church, whatever you need to do. Try to smile and laugh today! Even if your in the middle of day 2 and sweating it out - it could be worse! You could be doing it in jail - right! Go to bed tonight, clean and sober and know tomorrow that it will be a little better. Stick with it, no matter what. It does get better!
	__________________ "It only takes one drink to get me drunk. The trouble is, I can't remember if it's the thirteenth or fourteenth." George F. Burns

02-08-2008, 08:41 AM	#137 (permalink)
CurioAndTheCat Guest Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Athens, OH Posts: 22	Day three. I really don't want a drink. I have no desire for a cigarette or any other kind of substance. But I can't eat. My stomach is in knots and I'm racked with guilt about the last time I drank. I keep feeling like something I did or said is going to come back to haunt me and ruin whatever I have that's going well. It's not withdrawl... it's just guilt. Last time I quit I didn't have that guilty feeling. It was more of a I-can-do-this-and-I'll-prove-it-to-you feeling. This time... a world of difference. Guilt is not something I'm used to feeling. Has anyone made it a year their first time? I'm trying for an entire year... a lofty goal after only 3 days, but if you're going to go, go big, right?

02-08-2008, 09:27 AM	#138 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Curio, Maybe it seems different this time because you are quitting for yourself, and not to prove something to someone else. This is my first real attempt at quitting, and I'm on day 20 (the longest I've been sober since the late 1980's). I really haven't set a goal for how long I'm trying to stay sober (unless my life time counts?), because I fear if I reach that goal, I'll start thinking that it's okay to drink again.

02-10-2008, 09:31 AM	#139 (permalink)
CurioAndTheCat Guest Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Athens, OH Posts: 22	Let's keep this thread bumped to help all of us who need the encouragement in this difficult first fortnight. SF69: I think you're right. It's a totally different feeling. Completely. How's everybody doing? Hanging in there?

02-10-2008, 10:40 AM	#140 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Glad to see you still hanging in there Curio! Plenty of ups and downs here, but I guess that's the nature of the beast. Though, the downs seem to fade away much quicker now that I'm sober than those 3 or 4 day funks I'd get after a big binge. Hope everyone else is doing well!

02-10-2008, 10:50 AM	#141 (permalink)
mtnmagic Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Lake Tahoe CA Posts: 333	Day 6 for me....Lots of ups and downs. Struggle with sleep, but am trying to hang on. Keeping busy helps me.

02-10-2008, 01:29 PM	#142 (permalink)
trooper913 Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 45	I am new here as of today. I know I have a problem but everytime I try to quit I fall into depression.. and all the bad things I have done come back up. I guess I need to let that happen and deal with it?
trooper913 Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Posts: 45

02-10-2008, 02:42 PM	#143 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Welcome Trooper! I'm not sure what your situation is like, but it couldn't hurt talking to a doctor about it.