For Those With Less than 2 weeks Sober Part 2 - Page 5 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

scaredykat · 01-30-2008, 09:22 PM

Hi guys, feeling kind of blah tonight. I been so stressed the past few days. Which I really hate when I'm newly sober again. But i made it through day 12 sober.

Quote:

Originally Posted by alberta

Wow! That really spoke to me.

I'm on day one (again!) Over the past couple of years I've had long sober periods, punctuated with short, but fairly "wet" ones. The shortest sobriety I had was 2 months. That was the last one, and the only one that I did with AA. Odd, eh? Part of it was the never drinking again bit. Thanksgiving rolls around and that red wine was so civilized.... and here I am again.

The AA experience was good in some ways (dug having a place to go) but I honestly cannot relate to the Big Book! :-/ (Hope I don't offend anyone) It just doesn't describe me really and the language is, well, old-fashioned. Someone mentioned the NA book and I just read parts here and, while it does say the same things, it says them in a way that I "get." Problem is, I don't use drugs...

Then there is ACA....which is really where my core issue is. I come from a long line of Alcoholics and Children of them...and I am hopelessly codependent. (i.e., I can't let go of people even if they are unhealthy...like when I wasn't drinking my drinking friends were still wrapping their lips around bottles of booze in MY HOUSE (coming over with it) and I couldn't say "get that outta here." I just sat and felt angry and like drinking!!)

Soo where to go, who to be ... :-) Here is a good start.

Thanks for listening.
A

Alberta- I know what you mean about the big book. It is hard to understand sometimes. There is a 4th addition out now with newer stories. Also have you read the "Living Sober" book? Or the AA grapevine magazine. Here's the link to the Grapevine: AA Grapevine.org
Congratulations on starting the journey again. Keep reading and posting on here.

Glad to see you back TOW. I can relate to the "don't likes". I have them all the time. But i have to remember the biggest "don't like i had was being all alone and drinking by self everyday. I don't want to live that way any more.

Barb

vashti45 · 01-31-2008, 08:04 AM

My husband has job interview this morning. I want everyone to pray, keep their fingers crossed, light candles, summon the powers of the universe and whatever else strikes you as helpful. There are 12 other candidates.

In the not so good news front, I have a mammo today because my doctor found a lump. This has happened before, and it's always been benign, but every time it's a worry. And my favorite remedy for anxiety in these circumstances is of course a bottle of wine.

Day 13 for me. I hope it's lucky 13. My best to all of you today. I'm late and have to take the younger two to school because of hubby's interview, so I'd better sign off. C U late-uh ...

theonlyway · 01-31-2008, 10:44 AM

Dean, I'm so proud of you! Hang on... we're all here pulling for you.

Jana, my fingers, toes, knees and elbows are crossed!

Barb... you're such an inspiration. Thank you for being here with me...

Mcribb... Flat tires? ... BAH! U've got toenails tougher than that, right? ;-)

Anyhow... day 11 underway. Had a GREAT meeting last night. Was invited out to coffee afterwards and had a really nice visit. Strange to be out so late hanging with friends in a CAFE (the WhiteHouse, OMEGA MAN) having DECAF! i'm SUCH a social retard... it WAS uncomfortable, although enjoyable on a strange level... A drink certainly makes dealing with those situations easier (so says the committee in my head...) however, I "AM" thankful (and hopeful) that these new friends (as well as you all...) will *hopefully* never see that person I despise that has a tendancy to come out once and a while after that infamous "first drink"...

Cheers to herbal tea and diet coke -- and to my new found friends... cyber and otherwise.

I am blessed Thank you.

alberta · 01-31-2008, 11:43 AM

Thanks Barb! I did check out Grapevine...will go back for more.

In other news: :-) Day two and feeling optimistic already. The sun is shining (in reality) which helps a lot! I guess part of what keeps me coming back is how much more I want to do with my life...when I'm hung over, I feel hopeless. So, for today...it is really good!

I did nearly have a panic attack in the dentist office today thinking that there was NO booze in the house. Crazy, eh?

How's everyone else doin'?

Omega Man · 01-31-2008, 11:47 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by theonlyway

Had a GREAT meeting last night. Was invited out to coffee afterwards and had a really nice visit. Strange to be out so late hanging with friends in a CAFE (the WhiteHouse, OMEGA MAN) having DECAF! i'm SUCH a social retard...

Cheers to herbal tea and diet coke -- and to my new found friends... cyber and otherwise.

I am blessed Thank you.

The WhiteHouse - how could I have forgotten that name? In addition to my wild late night munchi runs in college, I used to stop in there for breakfast when hunting with my grandfather. Thanks for the reminder that brought a smile to my face, I really miss the guy.

BTW - your not a social retard, your doing what normal, sane and sober people do; having a chat over a cup of coffee. Glad you a had great meeting. Thanks Onlyway!

Happy to see all the new people on this thread, moving forward and making progress. I love reading your posts and accomplishments, it helps me keep heading the right direction.

vashti45 · 01-31-2008, 02:45 PM

Thanks again to everyone, and especially Omega Man, who started it all. I really owe a lot to that dude.

Hubby's job interview went well (he thinks--so keep those fingers and toes crossed). Mammo was clear, no problems, once again. I'm celebrating by having an RC cola.

TOW--thanks for posting. Cafes and coffee sound so good to me right now.

Dean, Alberta and all y'all a few days behind me. I graduate tomorrow.. Can't hardly believe it.

Peace,

Jana

Anodyne · 01-31-2008, 02:46 PM

Hittin' hour 36 now.

Group from 6-9 tonight, AA at noon tomorrow, might go to the 8 pm one, too,
guy who runs the rehab group called and said he'd be in the office doing paperwork
Saturday, and that I was welcome to come in and watch some videos and talk a bit,
and just have somewhere to go.

AA breakfast every saturday at 9, meeting at 10. Gonna go to that, too.
Group again Sunday, 6-9, we go as a group to AA at quarter to 8.
Plans in motion, good sirs and ma'ams.

scaredykat · 01-31-2008, 08:57 PM

Hi Guys, I'm late coming on here again. Oh well, at least I'm here and finished up 13 days myself. I almost forgot about graduating to the 3 month and under thread. How could i forget.

So many bad things happened this week. It's amazing I'm still sober. I'll write about it on my thread tomorrow.

Take care everyone,
Barb

Dean62 · 01-31-2008, 09:12 PM

Thanks theonlyway.

I worked 12 hours, made it to a meeting (got 3 phone numbers and a ride home) ate dinner and am going to bed.

Wish I had more time for this board but at least I made time for my new home group.

Good night.

Larry.

theonlyway · 02-01-2008, 08:48 AM

Day 12 all...

And still feeling pretty good. Positive Man was right...

I'll enjoy it before I get to the 20-30 day regression I'm hearing about...

Went to the 'shoe store' last night. Just to say Hello to my friends. Had a tonic, enjoyed my tonic, enjoyed saying Hello to people I love... Was, of course, invited, urged, to come back on Sunday for the Big Day.

I imagine that I'm not the only one strggling with the impending big day... Football this year has been such a big thing with my friends and I... such an "event" (i.e. "excuse") for getting together for drinks and fun.

I have my "local" Rubbles bar crowd that wants me there, and one of my best friends who also just happens to be my neighbor "counting on" my being THERE... (it IS nice to be loved...) --but my new friends from my new "Home Group" also invite me the other night to join them... SIGH... still praying on all this...

OMEGA MAN --WhiteHouse has new owners now, btw... It never really was a hang-out of mine but I know how very popular it is for that crowd. My first time there was actually during quite a drunk St. Patrick's day last year (big day here in nowhere Clare, MI)

Anyhow... "Open Hamburgers" as it is otherwise known is still kickin'...

Glad to see you pop in. Been peeking i on 3 months and I know things aren't always easy... My thoughts and gratitude are with you... ~C

Jana -- congrats on the husband's interview and "all clear" mammo...

Barb - is ur cat feeling better today?

HuGGGGGGGGGGGGGs to all!! ~C

scaredykat · 02-01-2008, 09:09 AM

Hi guys,

Well i made it to 14 days. I really need a meeting not being able to get to one since Monday with everything going on. So I'll be there tonight, bad weather or not. I usually see my sponsor there every Friday. I hope she's able to make it tonight.

Congrats on your 12 days today TOW. Sunday is just another day for me and my husband. We're not football fans at all. We'll probably just watch a Cd or something that day since there won't be much on TV that night. Chloe's foot is still not good. I hope we're able to get to the vet with the weather to get her X-rayed.

Hang in there everyone. You only have to worry about today. Hope to see everyone on the next thread.

Barb

Negative Man · 02-01-2008, 12:03 PM

Hi Two Weeks Thread,

Haven't checked in here in a few days. I'm a recent graduate. Going on 27 days. Part of me can't believe it. In any case, congratulations are in order. Look at this long list!

Scaredy and MxChaos: Congratulations on your 14 days. ROFL, me, and others will look forward to seeing you on the 3 month and under thread.

Wow: Vashti, theonlyway, alberta, anodyne, Dean, SF69, Longsleeves, pattismith, Mr. Patch, tommysi, bluepolarbear, mcribb... That's twelve people in their first two weeks, working it one day at a time, and making us all proud. Be proud of yourselves!

Finally, belchoir and Omega: You keep coming back, and on a personal level, I really appreciate it. It was not very long ago that I was making starts, falling back, getting back up again. Who knows? I may do that again. In any case, I'm proud of you for not giving up. Keep coming back.

It always makes me happy, stopping by this board that made such an impact on my life. Thanks everyone!

SF69 · 02-01-2008, 12:41 PM

Thanks Positive Man!

Day 13 for me. And it's a lucky 13. Ususally by this time on a Friday afternoon I'd be getting antsy to get out of work and go party. Now, I'm looking forward to going to my meeting tonight then getting some Chinese food afterward.

I know it's one day at a time, but I am looking foward to coming over to the '3 Month' thread.

Manda*Kittie · 02-01-2008, 12:56 PM

Day 6 for me..The only time i have wanted a drink all week was when my ex caused me to be upset twice in the evening...I am in good spirits today and it's the weekend...My cravings are worse than ever because the weekends were mainly the times i went out with friends and drank

I pray i make it through

Anodyne · 02-01-2008, 01:15 PM

Just think Manda, you're almost at a week!

I'll send you some of my prayers too.

You can do it.

Two days and 10 hours since last drink.
Still no desire.
Still feeling fairly sick.

01-31-2008, 08:04 AM	#102 (permalink)
vashti45 Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Truckee CA Posts: 126	good news My husband has job interview this morning. I want everyone to pray, keep their fingers crossed, light candles, summon the powers of the universe and whatever else strikes you as helpful. There are 12 other candidates. In the not so good news front, I have a mammo today because my doctor found a lump. This has happened before, and it's always been benign, but every time it's a worry. And my favorite remedy for anxiety in these circumstances is of course a bottle of wine. Day 13 for me. I hope it's lucky 13. My best to all of you today. I'm late and have to take the younger two to school because of hubby's interview, so I'd better sign off. C U late-uh ...

01-31-2008, 11:43 AM	#104 (permalink)
alberta Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 10	Thanks Barb! I did check out Grapevine...will go back for more. In other news: :-) Day two and feeling optimistic already. The sun is shining (in reality) which helps a lot! I guess part of what keeps me coming back is how much more I want to do with my life...when I'm hung over, I feel hopeless. So, for today...it is really good! I did nearly have a panic attack in the dentist office today thinking that there was NO booze in the house. Crazy, eh? How's everyone else doin'?
alberta Member Join Date: Oct 2007 Posts: 10	__________________ Keep the faith!

01-31-2008, 02:45 PM	#106 (permalink)
vashti45 Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Truckee CA Posts: 126	Thanks again Thanks again to everyone, and especially Omega Man, who started it all. I really owe a lot to that dude. Hubby's job interview went well (he thinks--so keep those fingers and toes crossed). Mammo was clear, no problems, once again. I'm celebrating by having an RC cola. TOW--thanks for posting. Cafes and coffee sound so good to me right now. Dean, Alberta and all y'all a few days behind me. I graduate tomorrow.. Can't hardly believe it. Peace, Jana

01-31-2008, 08:57 PM	#108 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 2,562	Hi Guys, I'm late coming on here again. Oh well, at least I'm here and finished up 13 days myself. I almost forgot about graduating to the 3 month and under thread. How could i forget. So many bad things happened this week. It's amazing I'm still sober. I'll write about it on my thread tomorrow. Take care everyone, Barb
	__________________ "Understanding is the first step to acceptance and only with acceptance can there be recovery." - Harry Potter 4 by JK Rowling Sober since: 1/19/08

02-01-2008, 09:09 AM	#111 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 2,562	Day 14 Hi guys, Well i made it to 14 days. I really need a meeting not being able to get to one since Monday with everything going on. So I'll be there tonight, bad weather or not. I usually see my sponsor there every Friday. I hope she's able to make it tonight. Congrats on your 12 days today TOW. Sunday is just another day for me and my husband. We're not football fans at all. We'll probably just watch a Cd or something that day since there won't be much on TV that night. Chloe's foot is still not good. I hope we're able to get to the vet with the weather to get her X-rayed. Hang in there everyone. You only have to worry about today. Hope to see everyone on the next thread. Barb
	__________________ "Understanding is the first step to acceptance and only with acceptance can there be recovery." - Harry Potter 4 by JK Rowling Sober since: 1/19/08

01-31-2008, 10:44 AM	#103 (permalink)
theonlyway Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Michigan -- Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Posts: 325	Dean, I'm so proud of you! Hang on... we're all here pulling for you. Jana, my fingers, toes, knees and elbows are crossed! Barb... you're such an inspiration. Thank you for being here with me... Mcribb... Flat tires? ... BAH! U've got toenails tougher than that, right? ;-) Anyhow... day 11 underway. Had a GREAT meeting last night. Was invited out to coffee afterwards and had a really nice visit. Strange to be out so late hanging with friends in a CAFE (the WhiteHouse, OMEGA MAN) having DECAF! i'm SUCH a social retard... it WAS uncomfortable, although enjoyable on a strange level... A drink certainly makes dealing with those situations easier (so says the committee in my head...) however, I "AM" thankful (and hopeful) that these new friends (as well as you all...) will hopefully never see that person I despise that has a tendancy to come out once and a while after that infamous "first drink"... Cheers to herbal tea and diet coke -- and to my new found friends... cyber and otherwise. I am blessed Thank you.

01-31-2008, 02:46 PM	#107 (permalink)
Anodyne Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: somewhere, SD Posts: 98	Hittin' hour 36 now. Group from 6-9 tonight, AA at noon tomorrow, might go to the 8 pm one, too, guy who runs the rehab group called and said he'd be in the office doing paperwork Saturday, and that I was welcome to come in and watch some videos and talk a bit, and just have somewhere to go. AA breakfast every saturday at 9, meeting at 10. Gonna go to that, too. Group again Sunday, 6-9, we go as a group to AA at quarter to 8. Plans in motion, good sirs and ma'ams.

01-31-2008, 09:12 PM	#109 (permalink)
Dean62 Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Salt Lake City, Utah Posts: 322	Thanks theonlyway. I worked 12 hours, made it to a meeting (got 3 phone numbers and a ride home) ate dinner and am going to bed. Wish I had more time for this board but at least I made time for my new home group. Good night. Larry.

02-01-2008, 08:48 AM	#110 (permalink)
theonlyway Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Michigan -- Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Posts: 325	Day 12 all... And still feeling pretty good. Positive Man was right... I'll enjoy it before I get to the 20-30 day regression I'm hearing about... Went to the 'shoe store' last night. Just to say Hello to my friends. Had a tonic, enjoyed my tonic, enjoyed saying Hello to people I love... Was, of course, invited, urged, to come back on Sunday for the Big Day. I imagine that I'm not the only one strggling with the impending big day... Football this year has been such a big thing with my friends and I... such an "event" (i.e. "excuse") for getting together for drinks and fun. I have my "local" Rubbles bar crowd that wants me there, and one of my best friends who also just happens to be my neighbor "counting on" my being THERE... (it IS nice to be loved...) --but my new friends from my new "Home Group" also invite me the other night to join them... SIGH... still praying on all this... OMEGA MAN --WhiteHouse has new owners now, btw... It never really was a hang-out of mine but I know how very popular it is for that crowd. My first time there was actually during quite a drunk St. Patrick's day last year (big day here in nowhere Clare, MI) Anyhow... "Open Hamburgers" as it is otherwise known is still kickin'... Glad to see you pop in. Been peeking i on 3 months and I know things aren't always easy... My thoughts and gratitude are with you... ~C Jana -- congrats on the husband's interview and "all clear" mammo... Barb - is ur cat feeling better today? HuGGGGGGGGGGGGGs to all!! ~C

02-01-2008, 12:03 PM	#112 (permalink)
Negative Man Member Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: California Posts: 302	Hi Two Weeks Thread, Haven't checked in here in a few days. I'm a recent graduate. Going on 27 days. Part of me can't believe it. In any case, congratulations are in order. Look at this long list! Scaredy and MxChaos: Congratulations on your 14 days. ROFL, me, and others will look forward to seeing you on the 3 month and under thread. Wow: Vashti, theonlyway, alberta, anodyne, Dean, SF69, Longsleeves, pattismith, Mr. Patch, tommysi, bluepolarbear, mcribb... That's twelve people in their first two weeks, working it one day at a time, and making us all proud. Be proud of yourselves! Finally, belchoir and Omega: You keep coming back, and on a personal level, I really appreciate it. It was not very long ago that I was making starts, falling back, getting back up again. Who knows? I may do that again. In any case, I'm proud of you for not giving up. Keep coming back. It always makes me happy, stopping by this board that made such an impact on my life. Thanks everyone!

02-01-2008, 12:41 PM	#113 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404	Thanks Positive Man! Day 13 for me. And it's a lucky 13. Ususally by this time on a Friday afternoon I'd be getting antsy to get out of work and go party. Now, I'm looking forward to going to my meeting tonight then getting some Chinese food afterward. I know it's one day at a time, but I am looking foward to coming over to the '3 Month' thread.

02-01-2008, 12:56 PM	#114 (permalink)
Manda*Kittie Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Laurel,Ms Posts: 18	Day 6 for me..The only time i have wanted a drink all week was when my ex caused me to be upset twice in the evening...I am in good spirits today and it's the weekend...My cravings are worse than ever because the weekends were mainly the times i went out with friends and drank I pray i make it through

02-01-2008, 01:15 PM	#115 (permalink)
Anodyne Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: somewhere, SD Posts: 98	Just think Manda, you're almost at a week! I'll send you some of my prayers too. You can do it. Two days and 10 hours since last drink. Still no desire. Still feeling fairly sick.

02-01-2008, 01:29 PM	#116 (permalink)
SF69 Anxiety King Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: Pittsburgh Posts: 404