For those w/Less than 2 wks Sobriety Only Please.

[Mcribb]

i kept myself busy for hours here during the weekends when i want a drink. Even if is just typing away about yourself it keeps you busy

[scaredykat]

Welcome Selfwill. Just one day at a time is all we have to do. If its one hour at a time that OK too. Just don't pick up that first drink.

I'm glad you made it through the day Vashti. I'm glad everyone did. Everyday will get a little better and a little more.

My day wasn't too bad. I did some step work and reading. I came on here a few times today. Now I'm catching a cold which sucks.

Take care everyone,
Barb

[vashti45]

Day 6 has arrived. I'm reading and posting like mad this morning because I don't have my first work meeting until 8:00, so I feel like I have tons of extra time. Yesterday was a tough day; I'm hoping today will be easier. Either way, I'll let you know.

Sorry about your cold Barb. Hope you feel better soon.

[theonlyway]

Hi All....
Well, day 4 is officially underway. Somehow, I don't feel terribly accomplished. This isn't like my first sober 4 day run ever. BUT it IS my first day 4 when I'm still believing I'm an alcoholic... Does that make any sense?

I've had plenty of day ONE's when I've sworn off drinking forever, as most people have... And several day ONE's when I've "known" I need help... and a few day TWO's where I've still been swearing off drinking... but RARELY have I made it to day THREE without changing my resolve and "realizing" that it was just a drunk night and next time I'll be better and it will be fine.

Made my first AA meeting Tuesday night. Took plenty of tears, LOTS of reading on this board, and a ton of anxiety to get me through those doors. Right down to the wire, I was telling my husband that I should just stay home with the kids (like my 14 year old is ok to babysit when I go to the bar, but not when I go to a 1 hour AA meeting???) --

Anyhow, I told him "I don't know how to do this". He says "U don't have to do anything, u can just sit there and listen and say 'pass'..." Well, I know plenty ABOUT AA, being an Al-Anon veteran... It wasn't the actual process of the meeting that I didn't know how to do-- and of course, his explanation just frustrated me more.

I was trying to explain that I didn't know how to "do" AA... how to BE an alcoholic... well, hell, who has to understand how to be that????? STill, I knew what I meant... Anyhow, I made it through those doors and oh, how I wanted to crawl in a hole and not be seen, just a fly on the wall... and if I couldn't do that WHY hadn't I at least brought a pair of sunglasses -- like I'm a three year old that thinks that would hide me??? Who knows where those thoughts were going...

Still, I listened, I cried, I passed on reading a tradition -- which is funny b/c I've read plenty of them at Al-Anon, but somehow, this familiar experience was so foreign! ??

OK, so ..... I've babbled enough. Thanks for listening.

oh -- and... Yesterday was a day that I NEVER would have thought of going through without a drink (or a few...) before listening to you all on Tuesday and getting through that meeting... And as I sit here this morning, I'm still in AWE that I didn't drink yesterday... It was SUCH a no-brainer day deserving of a drink! ?? !! Going to my husband's pre-trial, and one of the most significant, emotional, important meetings I've had in the past 12 years -- AND two tonics in the bar, where I originally met them!!

Strange.... so... again, for that, I Thank You.

Have a Blessed Thursday.

[theonlyway]

Guess that should have been a BLOG... didn't realize it was so long... SORRY!!

[coming_clean]

yes i'm back again to day one...i have exactly 20 hours sobriety under my belt now.

can't think of anything else to say right now.

[theonlyway]

Well........ Monday I was in bed most of the day hung over, so I really didn't want to drink.

Tuesday was AWFUL as I decided to make a decision to get help -- and didn't talk myself out of it -- and made it to a meeting... and without finding SR, I know I would have had a drink...... or two or four, who knows??????

Wednesday was an ANXIETY ridden day and I soooooooo wanted a drink.... or two or four, again...... who knows??

Today has been a GREAT day... Fabulous news from an old, very dear to my heart friend... a new born, healthy niece..... And I would think I would like a celebratory drink.....

So far so good. I've spent entirely TOO much time today hitting the "REFRESH" button on this website, just soaking in the insights and whines and information....

Onward......

[scaredykat]

Hi Guys, still not feeling well. I slept the afternoon away when I normally come on here. I hope i feel better by Saturday. That's my home group meeting and i don't want to miss it. Otherwise I'm doing OK. I'm still trying to get back into my recovery routine that i had before. My alcoholic brain likes to talk, but i just ignore it. I know it lies.

Originally Posted by theonlyway

Guess that should have been a BLOG... didn't realize it was so long... SORRY!!

You write as much as you want theonlyway. A newborn baby is exciting. I never had any children myself. My husband and i didn't want any. But I love being a Aunt to all my neices and nephews.

Glad your back comingclean. Don't ever give up trying.

Barb

[mxchaos]

I don't really feel like I fit on this thread because I just had almost seven months clean before relapsing now I have 10 days and feel good about them. I didn't stay out long enough to have withdrawls and my mind stopped craving.

but with all that in mind stay healthy by excerising eating right and keeping busy one day at a time. Being sober does get easier each day you don't quit

[scaredykat]

Originally Posted by mxchaos

I don't really feel like I fit on this thread because I just had almost seven months clean before relapsing now I have 10 days and feel good about them. I didn't stay out long enough to have withdrawls and my mind stopped craving.

but with all that in mind stay healthy by excerising eating right and keeping busy one day at a time. Being sober does get easier each day you don't quit

I felt the same way mxchaos. I had 100 days the end of last year and relapsed on New Years Eve. My withdrawls were not to bad. mostly the insomnia. but that's going away too. I'm on day 6 today. I think my HP wanted me to come on this thread. LOL Now, I'm glad. Getting acquainted with some more people on SR.

Glad to see you back with us.
Barb

[SF69]

Ok, I'm at the end of my 5th day, and have really been tested tonight (though, this may be better for the 'whine' thread).

I get home from work and the paperwork for my DUI charges are in the mail. Ok, deep breaths, my lawyer said I should get in the the rehab program...

Then tonight is my bowling league night. A prime drinking time for me, but I just drank coffee. Not too bad, until half way through the first game, while trying to pick up the 10 pin, I miss in the gutter and my $180 bowling ball hits a loose bolt or something and splits in two.

I guess my HP is really testing me to see if I'm serious. I just kept repeating to myself something I read somewhere here about how no problem gets better by drinking.

So anyway, still sober, but I sure do feel crappy.

[theonlyway]

SF... Glad to see you're still here. Congrats on holding out today.

Wish I had something amazingly insightful to say about your terrible day, other than I'm sorry. I'm confident that the pro's here will be "on it" soon though.

You may feel crappy, but know that you SOUND positive... I had huge tests yesterday, I hear you on that HP. I think you're right - checking to see if I'm going to bail... But I'm still here!!

Actually hit meeting #2 tonight. Different meeting, different people... wasn't as "connecting" or inspiring, but I was there,... and for that I'm grateful.

oh -- and did I mention -- i HATE that 10 pin! ;0)

[Mr. Patch]

SF: That was a tough day. I am so proud of you for not picking up a drink. Don't know what I would have done. But, I must say, if it was a test... You passed with flying colors... WAY TO GO!

Coming Clean: I'm on day 7 today, (for the second time in this string) just don't give up. We all have a few (or more) false starts. Just keep up trying. You'll get there.

Scaredykat: Hope you get to feeling better soon. I HATE being sick... I've been pretty sick a few times and you have my sympathy.

Mxchaos: We all belong here. I had 60 days for the first time in 30 years and fell off the wagon pretty good around the holiday. I got back on and then fell off again. I'm back on today for day #7 and I am feeling pretty good about myself today. SR has been a big help. Keep posting, it can only help you as another resource.

Well, that's it for me today. Everybody take care. I'm off to play "Are you smarter than a 5th grader" with my kids. I'll bet that I loose.

[SF69]

Thanks Onlyway & Mr. Patch!

One thing I did pick up from going to the meeting last night was one man saying how for him by just talking about a problem, it helped lessen his urges. So I figured I'd try it here. And I got to say, it seems to work. Seeing your support and kind words has really lessened my craving to 25% of what it was. I can handle that.

And yeah Onlyway, those 10 pins are buggers!

[PG1968]

umm. going on almost 8 day's since detox. Been going to meeting's everyday. I have been trying to go to different meetings around town, until i find one I feel good with. The one person that I asked to sponsor told me to just call some of the numbers I had received.. but, said he would be happy to start going over the steps with me. I am not upset, but.. I guess I will keep looking. I have been taking Camprel for a week, it has totally brought the cravings down, however, the anxiety and anger is hard to control." I obviously have a lot of issues".. ha. I have done this before (abstained)and lasted 3 months, but without the help of the meds. It's seems more anxiety based at the moment. angry about the fact that everybody know's I have a drinking problem.friends, family, co-workers. I just get sick of it.. sorry about rambling. good luck everyone.

[scaredykat]

Glad everyone made it through the day.

Sorry about your bowling ball SF.

Barb