Slipped Up - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Arcturus · 07-07-2007, 05:09 PM

What a pervasive thing is alcoholism.

I started my first thread a few days ago, detailing my fears and hopes, in regards to my addiction. Within two days I had drank again but resolved to attend a meeting on Friday. I did as planned and left feeling enthused and revitalised. Come today, I have drank yet again.

Deliberately, I have waited to sober up enough to compose this message. Strangely enough, I feel deeply ashamed yet somehow empowered; the mere act of sharing this tells me that my desire to stop hasn't vanished. I've come to understand that 'failing' isn't uncommon and doesn't mean the end of all things to do with recovery.

One thing that helps is the unconditional support of my wife. She sees how much I'm struggling and doesn't even think to judge me. Without her I'm almost sure I wouldn't muster the courage to keep on trying to lead a sober life.

I have an AA meeting tomorrow which I plan to attend, despite tonight's events. As they always say, "keep coming back". I already know that telling my fellow members (as well as you guys) will alleviate some of the guilt and spur me on. Nobody's perfect but as long as the will is there, there's most certainly a way.

***Anna*** · 07-07-2007, 05:22 PM

Hi Arcturus,

You are absolutely right, that having the desire to stop drinking is really important. Don't ever stop trying. And, you are so lucky to have a wife who is supporting you. That is really wonderful.

One thing I've learned is that we are all on a journey. Some of us are in moving faster than other, but the point is to move forward.

Alive · 07-07-2007, 05:24 PM

you know better, you know more of what to do to protect yourself from letting it happen again...and starting over is free...the fact you are doing that is a great thing....a start can be the road to a different, peaceful life....and you sure have the will...!

take care, stay strong

**CarolD** · 07-07-2007, 05:28 PM

Yes...I did slip and slide into sobriety.

Here is the info that convinced me to stop

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html (Excerpts "Under The Influence")

And I too use AA for recovery.

Blessings

**Dee74** · 07-07-2007, 05:59 PM

Never give up. That really is the key. well, that and really working it.

D

parentrecovers · 07-08-2007, 07:12 AM

good that you are attending meetings. hugs, k

lostmdboy · 07-08-2007, 07:19 AM

I slipped, and it took me over 6 years to get back in the rooms. Keep going back it will stick.

Rowan · 07-08-2007, 07:34 AM

Thanks for your honesty.

Keep going to meetings - and if you can, share your struggle with someone else while there.

Keep trying - keep believing in yourself - don't quit before the miracle happens, as we say in AA.

I hope you keep posting - we do care.

Rowan

Arcturus · 07-08-2007, 10:02 AM

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Originally Posted by Rowan

Keep going to meetings - and if you can, share your struggle with someone else while there.

I'd actually thought of doing that tonight. I've stayed sober today and intend to do so.

At the risk of repeating myself, many thanks to all of you for your encouragement and empathy, it really does help a great deal.

Rowan · 07-08-2007, 10:04 AM

Let us know how the meeting goes.

I, too, have a tremendous amount of gratitude for others here. We can all use a little help from our friends.

Arcturus · 07-08-2007, 10:09 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Rowan

Let us know how the meeting goes.

Will do.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Rowan

I, too, have a tremendous amount of gratitude for others here. We can all use a little help from our friends.

I now have Ringo Starr's voice in my head

Arcturus · 07-08-2007, 03:54 PM

Been back a while from my meeting. As usual, I feel better for going and I have one more day sober under my belt.

I'm off to bed now, see you all soon.

Alive · 07-08-2007, 03:57 PM

glad for you....take care! and stay strong!you're doing it!

GlassPrisoner · 07-08-2007, 04:41 PM

Quote:

As usual, I feel better for going and I have one more day sober under my belt

Awesome ! I actually look forward to my meetings now.

Now, wake up, and repeat. You'll have some time under your belt before you know it.

Patient Dreams · 07-08-2007, 05:12 PM

Read my reply in "Where Were You" under "sober but emotionally dead.

Rowan · 07-08-2007, 05:48 PM

Thanks for the update, A. Please keep posting.

pingtheduck · 07-08-2007, 07:38 PM

Hi Arcturus,

I slipped and slide around for about a year before getting serious again. I was 16 years sober and let myself get tripped up by OTC medications and Kava Kava. I can say I am really looking forward to NOT obsessing. Thanks for posting and inspiring me to keep on keeping on. I'm holding a good thought for you..

07-07-2007, 05:09 PM	#1 (permalink)
Arcturus Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: UK Posts: 12	Slipped Up What a pervasive thing is alcoholism. I started my first thread a few days ago, detailing my fears and hopes, in regards to my addiction. Within two days I had drank again but resolved to attend a meeting on Friday. I did as planned and left feeling enthused and revitalised. Come today, I have drank yet again. Deliberately, I have waited to sober up enough to compose this message. Strangely enough, I feel deeply ashamed yet somehow empowered; the mere act of sharing this tells me that my desire to stop hasn't vanished. I've come to understand that 'failing' isn't uncommon and doesn't mean the end of all things to do with recovery. One thing that helps is the unconditional support of my wife. She sees how much I'm struggling and doesn't even think to judge me. Without her I'm almost sure I wouldn't muster the courage to keep on trying to lead a sober life. I have an AA meeting tomorrow which I plan to attend, despite tonight's events. As they always say, "keep coming back". I already know that telling my fellow members (as well as you guys) will alleviate some of the guilt and spur me on. Nobody's perfect but as long as the will is there, there's most certainly a way. __________________ "Religion is something left over from the infancy of our intelligence, it will fade away as we adopt reason and science as our guidelines." Bertrand Russell.

07-07-2007, 05:22 PM	#2 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,764	Hi Arcturus, You are absolutely right, that having the desire to stop drinking is really important. Don't ever stop trying. And, you are so lucky to have a wife who is supporting you. That is really wonderful. One thing I've learned is that we are all on a journey. Some of us are in moving faster than other, but the point is to move forward. __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

07-07-2007, 05:24 PM	#3 (permalink)
Alive believer Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Europe Posts: 2,411 Blog Entries: 1	you know better, you know more of what to do to protect yourself from letting it happen again...and starting over is free...the fact you are doing that is a great thing....a start can be the road to a different, peaceful life....and you sure have the will...! take care, stay strong __________________ the biggest power a being is given is the now. in the now there is will, choice and therefore a power with no boundaries; for what is born from pure love has no seasons, only continuity, then growth. your spirit will tell you the truth. there's a silence within the silence.

07-07-2007, 05:28 PM	#4 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	Yes...I did slip and slide into sobriety. Here is the info that convinced me to stop http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html (Excerpts "Under The Influence") And I too use AA for recovery. Blessings __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

07-07-2007, 05:59 PM	#5 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,347	Never give up. That really is the key. well, that and really working it. D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-08-2007, 07:12 AM	#6 (permalink)
parentrecovers let it grow! Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: USA Posts: 15,536	good that you are attending meetings. hugs, k

07-08-2007, 07:19 AM	#7 (permalink)
lostmdboy Lurker Join Date: Jan 2007 Location: Western NC Posts: 783	I slipped, and it took me over 6 years to get back in the rooms. Keep going back it will stick. __________________ John, It works if you work it

07-08-2007, 07:34 AM	#8 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Thanks for your honesty. Keep going to meetings - and if you can, share your struggle with someone else while there. Keep trying - keep believing in yourself - don't quit before the miracle happens, as we say in AA. I hope you keep posting - we do care. Rowan

07-08-2007, 10:04 AM	#10 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Let us know how the meeting goes. I, too, have a tremendous amount of gratitude for others here. We can all use a little help from our friends.

07-08-2007, 03:54 PM	#12 (permalink)
Arcturus Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: UK Posts: 12	Been back a while from my meeting. As usual, I feel better for going and I have one more day sober under my belt. I'm off to bed now, see you all soon. __________________ "Religion is something left over from the infancy of our intelligence, it will fade away as we adopt reason and science as our guidelines." Bertrand Russell.

07-08-2007, 03:57 PM	#13 (permalink)
Alive believer Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: Europe Posts: 2,411 Blog Entries: 1	glad for you....take care! and stay strong!you're doing it! __________________ the biggest power a being is given is the now. in the now there is will, choice and therefore a power with no boundaries; for what is born from pure love has no seasons, only continuity, then growth. your spirit will tell you the truth. there's a silence within the silence.

07-08-2007, 05:12 PM	#15 (permalink)
Patient Dreams Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Riverside, Calif. Posts: 9	Take a look Read my reply in "Where Were You" under "sober but emotionally dead. __________________ Live like there's no tomarrow

07-08-2007, 05:48 PM	#16 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Thanks for the update, A. Please keep posting.

07-08-2007, 07:38 PM	#17 (permalink)
pingtheduck Member Join Date: Jul 2007 Location: Sacramento, CA Posts: 17	Hi Arcturus, I slipped and slide around for about a year before getting serious again. I was 16 years sober and let myself get tripped up by OTC medications and Kava Kava. I can say I am really looking forward to NOT obsessing. Thanks for posting and inspiring me to keep on keeping on. I'm holding a good thought for you..

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