I give up! - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Jen26 · 01-12-2007, 10:07 PM

Hi Guys,
I'm so sick and tired of this.

I've spent too many days feeling like death, I'm 28 and already too old for this. I'm sick of not being able to trust myself around alcohol. I don't like spending $150 on a night out. I don't like waking up and not knowing what happened the night before, I can remember most stuff, but there are too many questions -how did I get home? Reading the stamps on my arm to figure out which night clubs I danced in! Talking crap to strangers, numbers in my phone and I've no idea who they are for, drunken text messages, fighting with friends, drunken plans that I can't follow through with because I'm too hung over, the embarrasment etc etc... I could go on and on and on!

Just wanted to put something in writing to kind of make it official. I give up. I have no control over how much I drink. One I can have, two is ok, but three= twenty!

Last night I went out and ended up blind drunk (again), I can't remember much after about 3am, I know I didn't do anything majorly stupid (which does happen) but I admit it. To myself and whoever reads this. I can't do this anymore. I quit.

I'm aiming for a month off to start with, but I know I really need to quit for good.

So thats it. Game over! I'm quitting alcohol.

Thanks for reading,
Jen

GlassPrisoner · 01-12-2007, 10:28 PM

Welcome !

You've taken part of your first step, congratulations ! We've all hit our respective bottoms, and felt as you do now.

For me, it was wanting to quit, but not being able to. If I went 4 hours without alcohol, I'd start going into withdraw. I spent 2 years of my life with a constant high BAL, and ended up getting arrested at my daughters High School for public intox (I blew a .26).

Get a program and work it. Things get better. They did for me.

4MyGuys · 01-12-2007, 10:39 PM

Jen,

You are so welcome here. We have all been through these feelings. The great news is that you can overcome your addiction. It takes time, support and persistence, but we are here for you. Please keep posting.

xoxo

brians · 01-13-2007, 01:18 AM

Good Step one Jen.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.
What I do is "Don't drink and go to AA meetings".
Try not to drink one day at a time but keep posting.This does help.

Mark_123 · 01-13-2007, 01:26 AM

Enjoy your beautiful country! I'm stuck in the land of natural disasters California, USA. I've developed a drinking game for us here. Everytime the state is on fire, take a drink. 2 for a landslide, 3 for a quake, etc. Seriously, best of luck from me @8100 miles away. I'm pulling for you! You hang on! Love ya!

northbelle · 01-13-2007, 01:57 AM

SURRENDER!! COOOOOOL!!!! That is a great start for sobriety!!!!
love north...

Thorn · 01-13-2007, 06:21 AM

Hi Jen, and welcome.

Your drinking describes mine exactly. You're still young and realizing you may have a problem is a big step.
You'll find a lot of support here. You can stop the cycle of drinking. There are different programs you can use.
I have one month sober today, so it can be done!

Best to you,

Thorn

NYCGirl · 01-13-2007, 06:44 AM

Welcome Jen,

You have cetainly come to the right place, I know, I've been there. You have takien the first. Keep coming back here read and post, there are many helpful links and the community will help you not to fell alone.

Have a sober day!

**CarolD** · 01-13-2007, 11:25 AM

Glad to see you again Jen!
What is your plan to keep your resolution?

Mega Hugs

**CarolD** · 01-13-2007, 11:29 AM

Well Done Thorn!

ANGELINA243 · 01-13-2007, 12:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jen26

Hi Guys,
I'm so sick and tired of this.

I don't like waking up and not knowing what happened the night before, I can remember most stuff, but there are too many questions -how did I get home?

I give up. I have no control over how much I drink.

First, we had to admit we were powerless over alcohol, that our lives had become unmanageable. Congratualtions on doing Step 1. It sound like you are starting the road to recovery! I'm proud of you!

hope3 · 01-13-2007, 01:20 PM

Welcome Jen

Great decision to do something.

Great step realizing you need help, we've all been there.

LOL hang in there... Read and post!!!!!!!

leviathon · 01-13-2007, 02:52 PM

Hey Jen, good for you for admitting the problem and the need to do something about it. Glad to have you here at SR.

Peace, Levi

PG1968 · 01-13-2007, 03:16 PM

Jen26,
I feel like that now too. I have lost way too much. these people on this site are big help and always here. I am sorry I don't have much advice because I am only 3 days sober, at this point. good luck friend.

curlylocks · 01-13-2007, 04:58 PM

jen, welcome..you will find lots of support here. keep posting.

Jen26 · 01-13-2007, 09:16 PM

G'day again,
Thanks so much for all of your messages. I still feel a bit sheepish today about Friday, but I know that this feeling will pass and in a weeks time I'll be at risk of doing it all over again, but fingers crossed I'll keep this resolve and I look forward to being able to say in a months time that I've done it!

The excerpts from "Under the influence" in the Alcoholism section are eye opening, I know this is genetic, but seeing all of the stuff about not being able to stop drinking once you've started is really interesting!

I'm a mid stage alcoholic, I'm not proud of it, but I'm also not going to get to the end stage, thanks to all of you and your wonderful words of advice and wisdom.

Thanks again and loads of Love,
Jen

Hope · 01-13-2007, 09:18 PM

We're here for you!
You can do this.

01-12-2007, 10:07 PM	#1 (permalink)
Jen26 Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Australia Posts: 43	I give up! Hi Guys, I'm so sick and tired of this. I've spent too many days feeling like death, I'm 28 and already too old for this. I'm sick of not being able to trust myself around alcohol. I don't like spending $150 on a night out. I don't like waking up and not knowing what happened the night before, I can remember most stuff, but there are too many questions -how did I get home? Reading the stamps on my arm to figure out which night clubs I danced in! Talking crap to strangers, numbers in my phone and I've no idea who they are for, drunken text messages, fighting with friends, drunken plans that I can't follow through with because I'm too hung over, the embarrasment etc etc... I could go on and on and on! Just wanted to put something in writing to kind of make it official. I give up. I have no control over how much I drink. One I can have, two is ok, but three= twenty! Last night I went out and ended up blind drunk (again), I can't remember much after about 3am, I know I didn't do anything majorly stupid (which does happen) but I admit it. To myself and whoever reads this. I can't do this anymore. I quit. I'm aiming for a month off to start with, but I know I really need to quit for good. So thats it. Game over! I'm quitting alcohol. Thanks for reading, Jen __________________ Courage is what you have when you do something you're afraid of; be it jumping out of a plane, or walking out your front door. Last edited by Jen26; 01-12-2007 at 10:27 PM.

01-12-2007, 10:28 PM	#2 (permalink)
GlassPrisoner Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Murrieta, Ca Posts: 2,685	Welcome ! You've taken part of your first step, congratulations ! We've all hit our respective bottoms, and felt as you do now. For me, it was wanting to quit, but not being able to. If I went 4 hours without alcohol, I'd start going into withdraw. I spent 2 years of my life with a constant high BAL, and ended up getting arrested at my daughters High School for public intox (I blew a .26). Get a program and work it. Things get better. They did for me. __________________ Life Happens

01-13-2007, 11:25 AM	#9 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 16,050	Glad to see you again Jen! What is your plan to keep your resolution? Mega Hugs __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

01-13-2007, 11:29 AM	#10 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 16,050	Well Done Thorn! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

01-13-2007, 01:20 PM	#12 (permalink)
hope3 Hope3 Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, NY Posts: 2,036	Welcome Jen Great decision to do something. Great step realizing you need help, we've all been there. LOL hang in there... Read and post!!!!!!! __________________ If I focus on the solutions, the problems won't seem impossible!

01-12-2007, 10:39 PM	#3 (permalink)
4MyGuys Searching for moments of peace Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: North Georgia Posts: 121	Jen, You are so welcome here. We have all been through these feelings. The great news is that you can overcome your addiction. It takes time, support and persistence, but we are here for you. Please keep posting. xoxo

01-13-2007, 01:18 AM	#4 (permalink)
brians Member Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: MAINE USA Posts: 312	Good Step one Jen. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. What I do is "Don't drink and go to AA meetings". Try not to drink one day at a time but keep posting.This does help.

01-13-2007, 01:26 AM	#5 (permalink)
Mark_123 Awaiting Email Confirmation Join Date: Aug 2006 Location: Beyond the Yellow Brick Road Posts: 22	Enjoy your beautiful country! I'm stuck in the land of natural disasters California, USA. I've developed a drinking game for us here. Everytime the state is on fire, take a drink. 2 for a landslide, 3 for a quake, etc. Seriously, best of luck from me @8100 miles away. I'm pulling for you! You hang on! Love ya!

01-13-2007, 01:57 AM	#6 (permalink)
northbelle Dopeless Hope Fiend Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: anchorage Alaska Posts: 1,746	SURRENDER!! COOOOOOL!!!! That is a great start for sobriety!!!! love north...

01-13-2007, 06:21 AM	#7 (permalink)
Thorn Member Join Date: Nov 2004 Location: Colorado Posts: 63	Hi Jen, and welcome. Your drinking describes mine exactly. You're still young and realizing you may have a problem is a big step. You'll find a lot of support here. You can stop the cycle of drinking. There are different programs you can use. I have one month sober today, so it can be done! Best to you, Thorn

01-13-2007, 06:44 AM	#8 (permalink)
NYCGirl Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Finding out what I have been missing! Posts: 1,013	Welcome Jen, You have cetainly come to the right place, I know, I've been there. You have takien the first. Keep coming back here read and post, there are many helpful links and the community will help you not to fell alone. Have a sober day!

01-13-2007, 02:52 PM	#13 (permalink)
leviathon Member Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: Somwhere over the rainbow Posts: 1,202	Hey Jen, good for you for admitting the problem and the need to do something about it. Glad to have you here at SR. Peace, Levi __________________ Hope springs eternal!

01-13-2007, 03:16 PM	#14 (permalink)
PG1968 Member Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Anywhere, US Posts: 68	Jen26, I feel like that now too. I have lost way too much. these people on this site are big help and always here. I am sorry I don't have much advice because I am only 3 days sober, at this point. good luck friend.

01-13-2007, 04:58 PM	#15 (permalink)
curlylocks Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: home Posts: 291	jen, welcome..you will find lots of support here. keep posting.

01-13-2007, 09:16 PM	#16 (permalink)
Jen26 Member Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: Australia Posts: 43	G'day again, Thanks so much for all of your messages. I still feel a bit sheepish today about Friday, but I know that this feeling will pass and in a weeks time I'll be at risk of doing it all over again, but fingers crossed I'll keep this resolve and I look forward to being able to say in a months time that I've done it! The excerpts from "Under the influence" in the Alcoholism section are eye opening, I know this is genetic, but seeing all of the stuff about not being able to stop drinking once you've started is really interesting! I'm a mid stage alcoholic, I'm not proud of it, but I'm also not going to get to the end stage, thanks to all of you and your wonderful words of advice and wisdom. Thanks again and loads of Love, Jen __________________ Courage is what you have when you do something you're afraid of; be it jumping out of a plane, or walking out your front door.

01-13-2007, 09:18 PM	#17 (permalink)
Hope Getting Better All The Time Join Date: Feb 2006 Location: Recovering Posts: 3,289	We're here for you! You can do this.

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