Wanting to quit-New here

[collingwood]

I'm an addict who can't stop using pot and pills. Everyday I tell myself I won't use. by the afternoon I change my mind. When I use I tell myself this is the last time. I'm so tired of this. I feel bad when I don't use and I feel bad when I do. How do I get off this merrygoround? I'm depressed. I wake up everymorning feeling bad. I'm having a hard time trying to get myself to a 12 step meeting. I'd appreciate any advice you all have. Thanks

Hello collingwood! Welcome! It's tough getting out of the rut at first. If you're going to feel bad, you might as well feel bad at a meeting. People will understand. I think I swore off quitting alcohol at least a thousand times. Always broke my promise. When I finally surrendered, I was still drinking for two weeks, even as I went to meetings daily.

You don't have to drink. You don't have to drug. You have a choice.

[Arura]

Welcome Colin... .............Im sure you will find the help you need on this site as i dont think you will find such a more Genuine,... bunch of peolpe Recovering from drugs n drink, ...........n much, much more......! safely...!

Im also on Benzo's and at this time i need them .!........But a day WILL come that i dont...! and i celabratrate that .

Good luck and i look forward to hearing more from you...! Keep postin Hon...!

Big SR welcome...............((( ))).................xXx.............!

[Onlydreamin]

Originally Posted by collingwood

I'm an addict who can't stop using pot and pills. Everyday I tell myself I won't use. by the afternoon I change my mind. When I use I tell myself this is the last time. I'm so tired of this. I feel bad when I don't use and I feel bad when I do. How do I get off this merrygoround? I'm depressed. I wake up everymorning feeling bad. I'm having a hard time trying to get myself to a 12 step meeting. I'd appreciate any advice you all have. Thanks

Can you ask somebody to go to a meeting with you? Just having somebody there with you, to give some support might make a difference. The fact that you're getting tired of this situation is somewhat a good sign. You know you need some help. Best of luck to you. Remember that you don't always have to feel the way you do now. Things really can change.