Class of January 2017 Support Thread Part 5
Day 87 here
Just a quick check in. I've been really busy lately...in a good way. This past weekend my AV was the quietest yet!!! I've been reading all your posts from my phone, which as always keeps me strong and going! Will write a more thorough post later
Just a quick check in. I've been really busy lately...in a good way. This past weekend my AV was the quietest yet!!! I've been reading all your posts from my phone, which as always keeps me strong and going! Will write a more thorough post later
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Hi all,
Sorry of I have been missing for a little while. I have been working as a substitute teacher for the last couple of weeks and have been super busy with that. I spent much of my lunch breaks checking in on this thread and reading around SR, though.
Not much to say again. Things have been a struggle with my wife recently, but there are lots of reasons for that not connected to the change I am making in my life (though lots connected with it too, I admit). We did go out for dinner for my birthday over the weekend. Not a problem for me as I am taking Antabuse, so drinking is just not an option if I make the positive decision to take it every day.
Right now I'm very much at the "Huh? What was all that about?" stage. I can't believe drinking was such a big part of my life for so long. Seems unreal.
Sorry of I have been missing for a little while. I have been working as a substitute teacher for the last couple of weeks and have been super busy with that. I spent much of my lunch breaks checking in on this thread and reading around SR, though.
Not much to say again. Things have been a struggle with my wife recently, but there are lots of reasons for that not connected to the change I am making in my life (though lots connected with it too, I admit). We did go out for dinner for my birthday over the weekend. Not a problem for me as I am taking Antabuse, so drinking is just not an option if I make the positive decision to take it every day.
Right now I'm very much at the "Huh? What was all that about?" stage. I can't believe drinking was such a big part of my life for so long. Seems unreal.
Morning everyone!
I've been jet lagged for a few weeks now, but last night I finally slept the whole night! I feel like a brand new person.
Day 79 for me - good thing AA sober day counters are easy to find! I'm not a count every day kind of person, but I do like to check it every once in a while.
Still working on not smoking. I seem stuck at 2 cigarettes a day. Better than what I was doing, but I might as well quit everything at once!
It's nice to see people overcoming tough situations on here while staying sober. I hope everyone who hasn't checked in recently will do so soon! I agree with dontlookbacchus - I wish I had come back sooner when I started drinking again! Waiting a year was such a waste.
I've been jet lagged for a few weeks now, but last night I finally slept the whole night! I feel like a brand new person.
Day 79 for me - good thing AA sober day counters are easy to find! I'm not a count every day kind of person, but I do like to check it every once in a while.
Still working on not smoking. I seem stuck at 2 cigarettes a day. Better than what I was doing, but I might as well quit everything at once!
It's nice to see people overcoming tough situations on here while staying sober. I hope everyone who hasn't checked in recently will do so soon! I agree with dontlookbacchus - I wish I had come back sooner when I started drinking again! Waiting a year was such a waste.
Day 88.
Yesterday was the most stressful work day in my current job. We all have stress in life and this was right up there. BUT ... I didn't drink. I almost walked out but not to go to buy booze or go to bar, to "wind-down".
I found my choosing to stay sober was my way of saying F-you to the people and situation that upset me so much. I wasn't going to let them break my resolve. I was going to win.
I stayed at work and had a semi-productive day afterwards. Lots to think about, work wise now, but I am proud I held on to my inner strength. To me. This journey is too important to let my disappointment in people f*ck everything up.
Today, I have that thing where you wake up and the previous days events are still with you. I did sleep and am rested enough to take on the day again. I am certain it will be a lot calmer. Happy to feel capable and be hungover free. I have my bike ride at dawn, coffee, reading teammates posts and reflecting a bit before getting ready to face the world.
Thinking of you all. Have a healthy, sober day classmates. One more day !
Yesterday was the most stressful work day in my current job. We all have stress in life and this was right up there. BUT ... I didn't drink. I almost walked out but not to go to buy booze or go to bar, to "wind-down".
I found my choosing to stay sober was my way of saying F-you to the people and situation that upset me so much. I wasn't going to let them break my resolve. I was going to win.
I stayed at work and had a semi-productive day afterwards. Lots to think about, work wise now, but I am proud I held on to my inner strength. To me. This journey is too important to let my disappointment in people f*ck everything up.
Today, I have that thing where you wake up and the previous days events are still with you. I did sleep and am rested enough to take on the day again. I am certain it will be a lot calmer. Happy to feel capable and be hungover free. I have my bike ride at dawn, coffee, reading teammates posts and reflecting a bit before getting ready to face the world.
Thinking of you all. Have a healthy, sober day classmates. One more day !
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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Day 85.
A great, sober Sunday morning with coffee and a super helpful and interesting class thread.
J9, first of all, congratulations. 60 is awesome. The fog will lift, then maybe come down again a bit , and lift again. My guess is it goes completely at some point but I am still in the same boat as you. My big fog/depression around 50/60 day mark was physically gut wrenching and paralysing. Thank God I had SR and just kept on.
I am probably not in a place to give advice on how to handle long trips with alcohol. I have yet to properly socialise in surroundings with lots of boozing. I think if I had to do one night, or a short trip, I would definitely plan ahead. Choose my drinks ahead. Plan my excuses ahead. Maybe even call the venue to see what non-alcoholic drinks they had and plan around that. And set up an exit plan to leave for when it became too much.
I have a history of sober stretches and failing and this one is too precious. There is no going back now.
If you *have* to go, and it was a full vacation, my advice would be to just come clean and tell them you have a problem. If that isn't possible tell them you are "quitting for a year" or something. And plan early nights and super early mornings on your own, taking photo's or something. Have a separate vacation that overlaps with your friends. It could still be really fun.
Personally, it would be too stressful for me to be around booze for that long but other people are stronger than I am. Hope that 2 cents is helpful. just my point of view. And remember I know nothing about maintaining sobriety. This is the best I have ever been. Other SR classmates will be way more informed than I am.
I am off to re-begin my Sunday to-do list. Have a great day fellow Januarians. One more day.
A great, sober Sunday morning with coffee and a super helpful and interesting class thread.
J9, first of all, congratulations. 60 is awesome. The fog will lift, then maybe come down again a bit , and lift again. My guess is it goes completely at some point but I am still in the same boat as you. My big fog/depression around 50/60 day mark was physically gut wrenching and paralysing. Thank God I had SR and just kept on.
I am probably not in a place to give advice on how to handle long trips with alcohol. I have yet to properly socialise in surroundings with lots of boozing. I think if I had to do one night, or a short trip, I would definitely plan ahead. Choose my drinks ahead. Plan my excuses ahead. Maybe even call the venue to see what non-alcoholic drinks they had and plan around that. And set up an exit plan to leave for when it became too much.
I have a history of sober stretches and failing and this one is too precious. There is no going back now.
If you *have* to go, and it was a full vacation, my advice would be to just come clean and tell them you have a problem. If that isn't possible tell them you are "quitting for a year" or something. And plan early nights and super early mornings on your own, taking photo's or something. Have a separate vacation that overlaps with your friends. It could still be really fun.
Personally, it would be too stressful for me to be around booze for that long but other people are stronger than I am. Hope that 2 cents is helpful. just my point of view. And remember I know nothing about maintaining sobriety. This is the best I have ever been. Other SR classmates will be way more informed than I am.
I am off to re-begin my Sunday to-do list. Have a great day fellow Januarians. One more day.
Day 89.
Good morning all. A shorter check-in today.
Yesterday was also , inevitably, stressful but not as bad. And, again, I chose to remain sober as a deliberate F* you to the people and situation and resolved to stay on course. Went to bed sober, woke up at my normal time and reset myself for the day.
It occurred to me that these emotional or stressful triggers we all run to sometimes can be just excuses for our AV to kick in. I think, in previous attempts at sobriety, it was complacency, fatigue and stress at work that pulled me off my course.
I hope everyone has a healthy, happy and sober day on their own journeys.
Good morning all. A shorter check-in today.
Yesterday was also , inevitably, stressful but not as bad. And, again, I chose to remain sober as a deliberate F* you to the people and situation and resolved to stay on course. Went to bed sober, woke up at my normal time and reset myself for the day.
It occurred to me that these emotional or stressful triggers we all run to sometimes can be just excuses for our AV to kick in. I think, in previous attempts at sobriety, it was complacency, fatigue and stress at work that pulled me off my course.
I hope everyone has a healthy, happy and sober day on their own journeys.
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Ontario, Canada
Posts: 67
Day 89.
Good morning all. A shorter check-in today.
Yesterday was also , inevitably, stressful but not as bad. And, again, I chose to remain sober as a deliberate F* you to the people and situation and resolved to stay on course. Went to bed sober, woke up at my normal time and reset myself for the day.
It occurred to me that these emotional or stressful triggers we all run to sometimes can be just excuses for our AV to kick in. I think, in previous attempts at sobriety, it was complacency, fatigue and stress at work that pulled me off my course.
I hope everyone has a healthy, happy and sober day on their own journeys.
Good morning all. A shorter check-in today.
Yesterday was also , inevitably, stressful but not as bad. And, again, I chose to remain sober as a deliberate F* you to the people and situation and resolved to stay on course. Went to bed sober, woke up at my normal time and reset myself for the day.
It occurred to me that these emotional or stressful triggers we all run to sometimes can be just excuses for our AV to kick in. I think, in previous attempts at sobriety, it was complacency, fatigue and stress at work that pulled me off my course.
I hope everyone has a healthy, happy and sober day on their own journeys.
Day 66 for me.. Looking forward to 90. For some reason I have it in my head that it is the magical number where the fog will clear and daily life will become much easier to manage...which is most likely not the case, however it's what floats my boat for now!! ... and BTW, I am here at work at this ungodly hour trying to get out from under a huge mountain of work and sharing your same F-U sentiment... Cheers to everyone for making it through another day. Have a good one! J9
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Join Date: Mar 2017
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So true PhoenixJ!!...even us dinghies. Congratulations to everyone for hitting their various milestones...I am finding myself in a very light mood today, almost giddy which is such a welcome feeling after the last few desperate weeks...so, enjoying it while it lasts...charge on fellow Januarians!
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Hi guys. Day 63 here and feeling quite good today. Things have really settled down and that makes me feel so much more relaxed. Almost feel scared to say that as I don't want to jinx things.
Thinking of my fellow travellers and very proud of you all. ❤️
Thinking of my fellow travellers and very proud of you all. ❤️
Hello all. 73 days still hanging in there. Got a job!! Woo hoo. Starts on the 13th. And now working on getting my drivers license back before that finally.. Hoping that goes well can use some good vibes yall . We are all doing so great.. This is is the best I've felt in several years. God has been so good. Have a great day all!!!!!
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Hello all. 73 days still hanging in there. Got a job!! Woo hoo. Starts on the 13th. And now working on getting my drivers license back before that finally.. Hoping that goes well can use some good vibes yall . We are all doing so great.. This is is the best I've felt in several years. God has been so good. Have a great day all!!!!!
Hello all! Day 87.
CNGY CONGRATS on the job! That is awesome. Best of luck to you with it!
DLB you're knockin' on the door of 90 days! And I'm guessing that by the time you read this, you will already be there! Congrats to you, what an amazing milestone.
Just a short check in today, as I am already in bed with my tea on my nightstand! No classes tomorrow just rehearsal, so I will be spending my day learning lines!
So proud of everyone here. You guys are my rocks, I am so lucky to have you all to get through this together.
Night all.
NACN
CNGY CONGRATS on the job! That is awesome. Best of luck to you with it!
DLB you're knockin' on the door of 90 days! And I'm guessing that by the time you read this, you will already be there! Congrats to you, what an amazing milestone.
Just a short check in today, as I am already in bed with my tea on my nightstand! No classes tomorrow just rehearsal, so I will be spending my day learning lines!
So proud of everyone here. You guys are my rocks, I am so lucky to have you all to get through this together.
Night all.
NACN
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