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Kcey---lots of good advice and support on here. I think deep down you know that the longer you stay sober the better you will feel. Booze is the short term "fix" that will actually be the long term disaster. You can do it!! and no need to apologize for the vent that's one of the great things this is for!!!

Kcey

Thanks so much everyone
After calming down - I can actually feel myself calming down /
Like my anxiety must have gone through the roof
I honestly don't feel as bad as I did on day 4 and it's over quicker
Please ignore my grammar I'm dyslexic and sometimes struggle
To put my sentences together on my I phone

milly4me

Kcey, Great job riding it out. That's good work. Feel proud of yourself.

Elliemae- no worries about slipping up. Tweek your plan and begin again.

I understand what you guys are saying about activities that seem to go hand-in-hand with drinking. Cooking is a big one for me too. And I've just discovered sitting down to balance my bank account and paying bills is a trigger activity. I know it goes back to the days when I didn't have enough money to cover the bills and I would be in a panic.

This last month I've given myself permission to eat out and I only pay the bills (one by one - not all at once) when they are due. I haven't reconciled the account. Whatever . . . it can wait until I feel more confident in myself to do it sober.

Kcey

I've decided to reconcile my account tomorrow funnily enough
I'm going to get all my bills come out on the same day (pay day obviously)
I'm just going to take control of my finances

Kcey

I'm going to make a dentist and optician appointment next week too

charliesworld

Hi. I'm back off hols so not been on for over a week.

First challenge tonight. My partner is away so in theory I could have a drink tonight and no-one would know. That's where it fell apart next time. I'm not going to tonight.

Back to work and school for us tomorrow after half term holidays. I really need to get my head back into the exercise and eating right.

Kcey

You will get back to the healthy diet if you don't drink tonight
Just think of how fab you will look this summer
Welcome back

Kcey

Purple cat thanks for your support

RetiredGuy

Hi All,

Welcome to the newcomers, it is day 18 for me and I have a confession to make.

The primary reason that I stopped drinking this time was that I had my annual physical coming (it was today)and I wanted make sure my blood work didn't show that I had a drinking problem. Anyways the physical is now behind me (blood work results will be in several days).

However, unlike past physicals when I have done the same thing, I am not going to start drinking again. The biggest reason for that is this forum, it is really nice to know that I am not the only one who cannot handle alcohol. Reading all the posts helps to strengthen my resolve. Although I am not posting often, I am reading about everyone's experience and it is funny how most things sound very similar to what I have been through. I would like to thank the administrators and moderators, it is a great website.

Good luck to my fellow classmates, I am off to the gym!

Kcey

18 days that's brilliant so pleased for you
Good on you for sticking with it after you've completed your goal
Your an inspiration

BabyBlues2

Day 1 for me! Just hoping to make it through Day 3! Baby steps...

RetiredGuy

Hi Kcey,

Thanks, I am certainly no inspiration and am struggling just like everyone else. I guess you could say the my addictive voice likes to talk way too much!

Glad you made it through your rough patch!

Kcey

Hi baby blue welcome - this is a very supportive forum
I don't know I'm no expert but
Could you have a bit of postnatal depression
Could you have a chat with your doctor- with 2 little ones no one would judge you - it's the hardest job in the world.
It would be confidential and you may need a bit of support

Kcey

Retired G - I didn't think I would get through it but I did
It will be that bit easier when I have my next wobble

BYB

Thanks for your message Kcey,

I went through detox about 4 weeks ago and noticed that my periods of extreme anxiety were on a daily cycle for the first week or 2 after the detox. Between 4am and 12 noon, the anxiety was almost unbearable. Around noon to 2PM, it slowly started to lift and I was fine during the afternoon and evening. Believe it or not, coffee helped me get through it a little easier. After 2 more weeks, everything leveled out and although it isn't perfect, it is better.... Much better than it was.. It's funny because during that time, I felt like if I drank alcohol, it would have made the anxiety worse.

Hang in there!

Kcey

Thanks - I am drinking coffee and its helping me too
Once the anxiety passes you can breathe again can't you
It's a relief and yes drink would make it worse

axeman5971

Retired guy, I am waiting on blood work results too, but my doc knows my struggles. If the results are bad, I have to work to try and reverse them, if they are good, I will work to keep them that way. Optimism!

(And don't worry. I'll have my day when I feel weak, and I will need your optimism. Today, it's my turn.)

PurpleCat

Mine were bad. I'm glad I know now while I can do something about it, rather than later when I can't.

Food for thought, retiredguy, since you're trying to influence your results.

TheRuralJuror

Hi all,

Just caught up with everyone's posts the past few days. Glad to see so many good things happening for people here. To everyone struggling...keep going.

I made it through my 4 day mini vacation with husband and friends SOBER.

I'm SO proud of myself.

Funny though, after the kids went to bed last night and I settled into bed with a book - I suddenly had the urge to pour myself some wine while I read (a common pastime for me - drinking + reading). I couldn't believe I'd made it through 4 days of being constantly surrounded by alcohol yet when I was alone I had the biggest craving. I didn't drink though. Instead I put the book down, turned on the TV and watch 2 episodes of "The Office" (always a good distraction!)

It was so wonderful to wake up rested and not hungover every morning of our trip. So many of my friends woke up feeling crappy at least one of the days, my husband one day, too! But I was bright eyed ad bushy tailed every day. We're having unseasonally warm weather here in the northeast, and Friday/Sat it was gorgeous - nearly 70 degrees out. Took advantage by hiking through the words around the cabin we were staying at.

Sorry for the lengthy post, but I just can't believe I made it though vacation sober. As much as I wanted to do it, I was almost sure I'd mess it up and drink.

Today I'm 8 days sober.

Sober369

Hey Kcey, I hope it's all good and you're sleeping soundly and sober. It's only 7:30 here.
Last night I posted that I was so sleepy I knew I would sleep through the night. I was, too, my eyes were trying to go to sleep as I was typing.
Then, I got in bed and was wide awake until at least 3 a.m. Ha! But, I felt great today. Good energy, good mood (mostly) and got a lot done.
I hope everyone is doing well!
Axeman, I love your take on this. Right! If I'm not an alcoholic, then it shouldn't bother me at all go go without booze.