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Old 08-05-2016, 06:34 PM
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I'm parked outside the store. I've been here for 10 minutes in my car.
Please go home! You are worth so much more than what that bottle will ever hold. You have to find it it YOU to quit. You can do it! Hugs! :-)
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Old 08-05-2016, 06:36 PM
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Oh no, Angie. Dont do it. It leads to nothing good at all. Its just a black hole to get lost in and not in a good way.
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Old 08-05-2016, 06:37 PM
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I think I'm going to get something to eat. I'm not going to drink. Thank you all.
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Old 08-05-2016, 06:47 PM
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That's a good choice Angie. There are NO answers at the bottom of a bottle, only regret.
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Old 08-05-2016, 06:52 PM
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Whats got you so rattled Angie?

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Old 08-05-2016, 07:15 PM
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I just went to the cafe and got a tuna sandwich with avocado, French fries and a lemonade. They gave me a free cream cheese wonton too. I just got back home.
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Old 08-05-2016, 07:27 PM
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It was a very sudden urge after a bunch of self loathing thoughts on the way home. I think I need a cry and I'll be fine. Thank you all, you helped me so much. Also, when I was in the parking lot, I saw two kids around Alex's age running to buy something in the store. They came out all happy with probably candy and skipping like kids do. I think I need that cry now.
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Old 08-05-2016, 07:35 PM
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Sometimes a good cry can make you feel so much better.
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Old 08-05-2016, 08:06 PM
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Glad you decided not to drink, Angie. That's not the answer for us. It's part of the problem. Keep on keeping on, my friend!
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Old 08-06-2016, 05:36 AM
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Angie you handled it well, giving yourself a nice meal and allowing yourself time to cry.

I didn't realize I had self loathing and depression until well into my sobriety. I agree with the above comments that drinking will only lead to MORE problems, more self loathing, more depression.

I cried A LOT during my first year sober. Here's the good news: I remember when it started to get better during the 2nd year.

Keep doing the right things and you'll get healthier too.
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Old 08-06-2016, 10:57 AM
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I'm proud of you Angie! You made a smart choice :-)

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Old 08-06-2016, 11:16 AM
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Thank you all so much. You're so kind to me, beyond what I deserve. I need to ask a question. I have two older brothers. I'm in a difficult position with my ex husband and neither brother will try to talk to my ex husband. I'm not a difficult sibling, I don't ask for money or embarrass the family. We all get along so well when together. I just want to have that added protection but neither want to get involved. I've been alone for 9 years and I hear of protective brothers and I get jealous. It's just been a long nine years and I'm tired.
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Old 08-06-2016, 11:21 AM
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I just have to be strong because Alex needs me but it would be so nice to have that added support so my ex husband knows I have it.
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Old 08-06-2016, 11:24 AM
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I've only asked twice for help as in talking to my ex husband and both were treated in silence.
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Old 08-06-2016, 11:30 AM
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I'm sorry. Just sad today. I think I'm gonna get out of the house for some thrift store shopping. I want to find Elvis an Elvis Presley rhinestone cape for Halloween but I think I'll have to look online for that.
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Old 08-06-2016, 12:52 PM
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Thank you all so much. You're so kind to me, beyond what I deserve.
Please don't think that about yourself Angie. You seem like a nice, kind and caring person. You deserve to treated with kindness.

I can't really help you about the protective, or lack of, brother situation. It doesn't say anything about you that they don't want to get involved.

I hope your day is going better.
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Old 08-06-2016, 02:07 PM
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Thank you so much Up! I'm sorry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I'm baking peanut butter brownies. I'm planning on giving most to neighbors but I'm taking two or three squares for myself. Elvis jumped up on the counter and put his paw on my arm as I was mixing. How I love this cat. I gave him a rub and a kitty treat. Still had to be careful as I didn't want kitty hair in the brownies, lol. I get Alex on Wednesday and I'll be back to my regularly scheduled time where he is with me most of the time. Everything will be okay.
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Old 08-06-2016, 03:47 PM
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No number of overprotective brothers will make your ex act nice. Your ex can know you mean what you say if you detach & dont react to his mean comments and do what you say you'll do. That's worth more than an unlimited number of overprotective brothers, anyway.

Focusing on doing what you can do is how you'll find the life you want.

What are you up to tonight, besides baking?
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Old 08-06-2016, 08:47 PM
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Thank you all for everything.
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Old 08-06-2016, 10:43 PM
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This is a very updated pic of my handsome, sweet young man. I'll change it soon.
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