Class of December 2014 Part 6
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Canada! wtf eh?
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Originally Posted by brynn 
Night fabl! Sweet dreams!
And tonks...we would have told you, but were waiting til you were further along in you recovery. Sorry you had to find out this way, brother.
And tonks...we would have told you, but were waiting til you were further along in you recovery. Sorry you had to find out this way, brother.
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Posts: 1,462
Good morning friends 
After a good nights sleep, I am waking up today committed and determined. I've said it all before, both to myself and out loud, but I really feel I have turned a corner.
I can drift through life, back and forth with sobriety, struggling, hiding my alcohol, sneaking to the store, empty cans and bottles in my closet, forever tired, doing the bare minimum, being distracted from real life my my exhaustion and aches and pains from my drinking the night before. Pretending I'm fine, but I'm dying inside.
Or I can turn all of this around, like I've done a hundred times before, but this time stick with it to get the real rewards, the true, lasting benefits. I recognize that preceding a slip, my typical thought process goes like this: " This monotonous. I'm too structured, too organized, I just need some relief. Everyone drinks. I'll just drink tonight and go right back to sobriety. No one will know. I'm overwhelmed with responsibilities and issues in my life, I just need some relief The day/night/weekend seems so boring and long and empty without a few drinks to dull the monotony, calm my thoughts and worries." On and on and On.
I know who that is talking... It's not me. I know better. I know how I feel when I'm sober, how things are just .. Right... Even when things go wrong.
So please put me down for day one 1/25/15.
No more of this nonsense.
After a good nights sleep, I am waking up today committed and determined. I've said it all before, both to myself and out loud, but I really feel I have turned a corner.
I can drift through life, back and forth with sobriety, struggling, hiding my alcohol, sneaking to the store, empty cans and bottles in my closet, forever tired, doing the bare minimum, being distracted from real life my my exhaustion and aches and pains from my drinking the night before. Pretending I'm fine, but I'm dying inside.
Or I can turn all of this around, like I've done a hundred times before, but this time stick with it to get the real rewards, the true, lasting benefits. I recognize that preceding a slip, my typical thought process goes like this: " This monotonous. I'm too structured, too organized, I just need some relief. Everyone drinks. I'll just drink tonight and go right back to sobriety. No one will know. I'm overwhelmed with responsibilities and issues in my life, I just need some relief The day/night/weekend seems so boring and long and empty without a few drinks to dull the monotony, calm my thoughts and worries." On and on and On.
I know who that is talking... It's not me. I know better. I know how I feel when I'm sober, how things are just .. Right... Even when things go wrong.
So please put me down for day one 1/25/15.
No more of this nonsense.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Northern Illinos
Posts: 1,757
Good Morning Littermates.
51 days for the royal triplet sisters.
Shannon, I am glad you had a nice birthday.
FABL - you sound the best ever this morning. You sound like this time you are doing it for yourself. You can try to hid drinking from everyone else but in the end you know exactly what you are doing. I would love to hug you right now. Congrats on day 1 - so glad you are in our litter.
Tonks, the royal triplet sisters will take you on a pedicure date.
51 days for the royal triplet sisters.
Shannon, I am glad you had a nice birthday.
FABL - you sound the best ever this morning. You sound like this time you are doing it for yourself. You can try to hid drinking from everyone else but in the end you know exactly what you are doing. I would love to hug you right now. Congrats on day 1 - so glad you are in our litter.
Tonks, the royal triplet sisters will take you on a pedicure date.
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Join Date: Dec 2014
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Originally Posted by Tonks
Not possible as I obviously wear socks with my sandals.
and you don't drink coffee. 
Della- is that a picture of you? You are lovely!
FABL- are you going to church today too? If so I hope you meet some new friends. I love my church family. Like I love my SR family.
BBQBiker- I really want to see that movie now! Sounds awesome!
Maximus- Your story is your story. You lived it!! Later on in your recovery you may look back and see things differently but that has to be on your own terms.
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
Posts: 7,808
Good morning littermates! I've been so busy the last couple of days - just finished reading and getting caught up. Lots going on in our class!
Erin I LOVE your new avatar. We are big Whovians at our house. That's one of my favorite episodes. And quite an appropriate image for what we are doing.
Sorry I can't reply individually to everyone - I simply don't have time right now.
53 days for the older triplets! Woot!
I'm 51.
Erin I LOVE your new avatar. We are big Whovians at our house. That's one of my favorite episodes. And quite an appropriate image for what we are doing.
Sorry I can't reply individually to everyone - I simply don't have time right now.
53 days for the older triplets! Woot!
I'm 51.
Giving up is NOT an option.
Join Date: Jan 2015
Location: Western Wisconsin
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Oh and speaking of toenails, I have decided I'm going to reward myself (in a sober way) at each month milestone. So next week at day 60 I'm getting a pedicure. No one but me will probably see it, but it's pampering I deserve.
...holds the key
Join Date: Dec 2014
Location: Texas
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Good morning y'all!
Wow! We've got some gorgeous ladies in our class!
((Fabl))...I have every confidence in you! You so deserve to be free! ❤️
Tonks...I'm beginning to think an intervention is in order.....tell me, are they black dress socks?
Can't believe how all our days are adding up! Woohoo! Sobriety is beginning to feel normal for me. And actually, being sober IS our bodies normal state. Yay!!
Hope everyone has a great day!
xoxo
Wow! We've got some gorgeous ladies in our class!
((Fabl))...I have every confidence in you! You so deserve to be free! ❤️
Tonks...I'm beginning to think an intervention is in order.....tell me, are they black dress socks?
Can't believe how all our days are adding up! Woohoo! Sobriety is beginning to feel normal for me. And actually, being sober IS our bodies normal state. Yay!!
Hope everyone has a great day!
xoxo
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Posts: 1,462
Midwest, church plans fell through today. I was actually looking forward to it though.
Mld51.. Love the milestone reward idea. Pedicures are such a treat! You deserve it.
Going to my parents today but not sure how it's gonna go. Dads drinking and he just got chemo Friday and he has a small surgery tomorrow that he needs to fast after 7 tonight for the anesthesia. It's all one big mess and I'm so worried, yet helpless.
Just trying to focus on what I can control and do what is right.
Happy Sunday everyone.
Mld51.. Love the milestone reward idea. Pedicures are such a treat! You deserve it.
Going to my parents today but not sure how it's gonna go. Dads drinking and he just got chemo Friday and he has a small surgery tomorrow that he needs to fast after 7 tonight for the anesthesia. It's all one big mess and I'm so worried, yet helpless.
Just trying to focus on what I can control and do what is right.
Happy Sunday everyone.
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Originally Posted by brynn
Tonks...I'm beginning to think an intervention is in order.....tell me, are they black dress socks?
xoxo
Mld51-you look lovely too! It is nice to put faces to names!
FABL- I sm sorry you didn't make it to church! Maybe next week. I hope your day goes well with your parents and your dads thing goes well tomorrow! HUGS!!
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