Class of August 2014 Part 8
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Originally Posted by sthlondonab 
Hey folks
Early morning London Town and ready for some work. Only two days to get through and then it's the weekend.
I was reading the posts on 'Stoptober' this morning. This is a great way for me to say that I have stopped drinking at work to colleagues etc. I have a couple of client dinners coming up that I have been worried about. Maybe then at the end of the month, god willing, I can say - I like this not drinking, going to continue.
Believe me, I would love to come clean at work but in my industry it's not an option to admit this illness, addiction. That's how I feel now anyway - I am hoping a day at a time to get to the stage where I don't give two hoots what others think. Working on the fear of what others think of me, as it's a big part of previous drinking.
Morning share done! Wishing everyone a peaceful and sober day today.
Early morning London Town and ready for some work. Only two days to get through and then it's the weekend.
I was reading the posts on 'Stoptober' this morning. This is a great way for me to say that I have stopped drinking at work to colleagues etc. I have a couple of client dinners coming up that I have been worried about. Maybe then at the end of the month, god willing, I can say - I like this not drinking, going to continue.
Believe me, I would love to come clean at work but in my industry it's not an option to admit this illness, addiction. That's how I feel now anyway - I am hoping a day at a time to get to the stage where I don't give two hoots what others think. Working on the fear of what others think of me, as it's a big part of previous drinking.
Morning share done! Wishing everyone a peaceful and sober day today.
I have never mentioned my problem to anyone IRL, especially not at work. I was managing vice-president at a large firm in the Boston area. I would blame my allergies and sinus condition frequently. When I realized I could easily afford early retirement at 55, I took it, sold my Boston condo and moved to my Cape home. I love being retired; but, the drinking really escalated at that time.
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You will 1step...I was always very extreme and very prone to catastrophising...
But I got better...eventually - fundamental change like that isn't overnight
these two articles have some useful tips
What is Catastrophizing? | Psych Central
What is Catastrophizing? - Cognitive Distortions | Psychology Today
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But I got better...eventually - fundamental change like that isn't overnight
these two articles have some useful tips
What is Catastrophizing? | Psych Central
What is Catastrophizing? - Cognitive Distortions | Psychology Today
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Good morning, Team.
1Step, I get that hangover feeling if I eat too much junk food and/or overdo it on the exercise.
Choobie, hope the flu goes away and stays away.
Pink, CONGRATS on 5 weeks!
808, one year ago I was drinking very heavily, in the middle of a bad bender. I am sure because I pulled out of a charity event the night before because I was too drunk to cook.
Yesterday I served my Italian sausage soup; it was good, but it did not win. The winning soup was a creamy carrot soup with ginger. I did not eat while serving my soup at the fundraiser, so my AV came calling. I fought it off with m&m's, Klondike bars, dark chocolate-covered sunflower seeds and two huge brownies. I could not eat dinner, but had crackers and cheese before bed, and I woke with a slightly nauseaus feeling - - way, way too much junk, but no alcohol.
I am off to the YMCA to swim. My plan is to eat healthy today with no sugar at all.
Good luck everyone. Let's have a safe, happy and sober day!
1Step, I get that hangover feeling if I eat too much junk food and/or overdo it on the exercise.
Choobie, hope the flu goes away and stays away.
Pink, CONGRATS on 5 weeks!
808, one year ago I was drinking very heavily, in the middle of a bad bender. I am sure because I pulled out of a charity event the night before because I was too drunk to cook.
Yesterday I served my Italian sausage soup; it was good, but it did not win. The winning soup was a creamy carrot soup with ginger. I did not eat while serving my soup at the fundraiser, so my AV came calling. I fought it off with m&m's, Klondike bars, dark chocolate-covered sunflower seeds and two huge brownies. I could not eat dinner, but had crackers and cheese before bed, and I woke with a slightly nauseaus feeling - - way, way too much junk, but no alcohol.
I am off to the YMCA to swim. My plan is to eat healthy today with no sugar at all.
Good luck everyone. Let's have a safe, happy and sober day!
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So many great posts already today! I'm up earlier than usual and it feels great. My sleep was out of whack when working at home. I guess I need some structure to get me out in the morning.
Pink - great job on 5 weeks!
1StepUp - I relate to so much of your post.
Determined - I agree with you. Will write more to that later.
Here's to another sober day Team A! One day at a time!
Pink - great job on 5 weeks!
1StepUp - I relate to so much of your post.
Determined - I agree with you. Will write more to that later.
Here's to another sober day Team A! One day at a time!
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Good morning team. Off to take dh to dentist to get that bad tooth pulled. He's taking the rest of the day off, so I'm going to be giving him much needed TLC. Hope everyone enjoys a good, sober today. Will check in later if I can.
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G'day guys!
Hey London, that really helped me actually, I was wondering about how I would explain my not drinking at a new job. I know it's ok just to say that I choose not to, but with stoptober going on it will def seem less unusual.
Scooter, yes I always feel worse when I overdo my eating also. I'm trying to improve moderation in all areas!
Welcome back 808, good to have you here!
Happy to hear you are feeling better 1stepup!
Happy birthday for yesterday dingo!! sorry I'm late but hope you had a good one!
Great to see this thread going so strong and so much activity! I've had a pretty great day and got some promising job leads. In fact I think I may be starting a temp job (with a view to permanent) next week. Just waiting for confirmation, but also have 2 more interviews in the pipe line. Sobriety and recovery remain the most important factor of my life though, without that there is no way I would be able to work. Feeling blessed!
Off to a meeting tonight and then reading my step 5 to my sponsor tomorrow, small steps in the right direction.
Have a great days guys.
Hey London, that really helped me actually, I was wondering about how I would explain my not drinking at a new job. I know it's ok just to say that I choose not to, but with stoptober going on it will def seem less unusual.
Scooter, yes I always feel worse when I overdo my eating also. I'm trying to improve moderation in all areas!
Welcome back 808, good to have you here!
Happy to hear you are feeling better 1stepup!
Happy birthday for yesterday dingo!! sorry I'm late but hope you had a good one!
Great to see this thread going so strong and so much activity! I've had a pretty great day and got some promising job leads. In fact I think I may be starting a temp job (with a view to permanent) next week. Just waiting for confirmation, but also have 2 more interviews in the pipe line. Sobriety and recovery remain the most important factor of my life though, without that there is no way I would be able to work. Feeling blessed!
Off to a meeting tonight and then reading my step 5 to my sponsor tomorrow, small steps in the right direction.
Have a great days guys.
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Hey team A, back from dentist, all went ok. I've decided since I'm only on day 5 here, I'm actually closer to being in the Oct class. So, I might pop over there, and introduce myself. Will be checkin back in here with all you good folks though, from time to time. Team A has been awesome to be a part of. Thanks all!
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Hi Team A-
I have noticed most if not all of us addicts/alcoholics have this empathetic quality. I see it in SR and in meetings. We share something in common. That "low" feeling, rock bottom...when you here someone post or share you feel that connection. Now it's milestones and successes. News jobs, getting finances in order or just righting the wrongs we have done to our loved ones (big one for me). Leaving no stone unturned never would I have thought about a psychologist, group therapy much less give up drinking two months ago.
We want this...we are motivated. If we slip we get back up.
Rock on Team A!
I have noticed most if not all of us addicts/alcoholics have this empathetic quality. I see it in SR and in meetings. We share something in common. That "low" feeling, rock bottom...when you here someone post or share you feel that connection. Now it's milestones and successes. News jobs, getting finances in order or just righting the wrongs we have done to our loved ones (big one for me). Leaving no stone unturned never would I have thought about a psychologist, group therapy much less give up drinking two months ago.
We want this...we are motivated. If we slip we get back up.
Rock on Team A!
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Wow, thank you so much for the links Dee, I definitely fall into the catastrophizing category, its an irrational thought but its real at the same time.
I developed OCD as an 11year old after overhearing my father worrying about overhead pylons swaying in the wind, they were directly over our home and I remember him saying that if they fall we'll all get electrocuted.
It had a HUGE impact on me a sensitive, emotional sponge, after this I had to touch things a certain number of times or the something terrible would happen like the whole family dying, it was worse when its was windy and I went from being the captain of the school football team to pretending to be ill in case a tree fell on my mums car on the way home from taking me to school etc, if I did go to school Id be a nervous wreck and be having to kiss or touch things all the time!!!. Its laughable now and Im ashamed to be admitting this but its affected me.
As I got older, the OCD stopped but when I was in early teens I developed acne and it shattered my confidence and the OCD came back in another form though- constantly washing in case the acne got worse, not socialising with friends, not helping out on the farm in case I got dust on my face which made my Dad call me a wimp even more.
When I was 15 I discovered what I thought was a cure- Alcohol, and it did help short term, didn't stop the acne but it did stop the over thinking about it and healed my shattered confidence.
Ive used it ever since, and its scary for me because Im scared of the obsessional thinking coming back, as it tends to the longer off the drink I am, its like being between the devil and the deep blue sea.
Im not going to give up and drink but I know that Ive got a lot of issues to deal with other than just the alcohol and now Ive put that down I know Its up to me to overcome them.
I developed OCD as an 11year old after overhearing my father worrying about overhead pylons swaying in the wind, they were directly over our home and I remember him saying that if they fall we'll all get electrocuted.
It had a HUGE impact on me a sensitive, emotional sponge, after this I had to touch things a certain number of times or the something terrible would happen like the whole family dying, it was worse when its was windy and I went from being the captain of the school football team to pretending to be ill in case a tree fell on my mums car on the way home from taking me to school etc, if I did go to school Id be a nervous wreck and be having to kiss or touch things all the time!!!. Its laughable now and Im ashamed to be admitting this but its affected me.
As I got older, the OCD stopped but when I was in early teens I developed acne and it shattered my confidence and the OCD came back in another form though- constantly washing in case the acne got worse, not socialising with friends, not helping out on the farm in case I got dust on my face which made my Dad call me a wimp even more.
When I was 15 I discovered what I thought was a cure- Alcohol, and it did help short term, didn't stop the acne but it did stop the over thinking about it and healed my shattered confidence.
Ive used it ever since, and its scary for me because Im scared of the obsessional thinking coming back, as it tends to the longer off the drink I am, its like being between the devil and the deep blue sea.
Im not going to give up and drink but I know that Ive got a lot of issues to deal with other than just the alcohol and now Ive put that down I know Its up to me to overcome them.
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Just barging in with my post as its just happened. I received a call off my ex boyfriend and we had another heated argument. Now I feel sad, rejected, ugly, unwanted. This guy cheated on me two years ago and yet I allow him to come in and out of my life to feed me little seeds of hope, just enough to keep me in the background. But in reality he doesn't want to commit to me and this whole relationship is messing with my head.
He is a massive trigger for me to get absolutely hammered but guys! NO MORE! I am sick of feeling that I am not good enough!! Sick of the way he plays with my mind.this has been going on for years!! I wish I had left him two years ago when he told me he cheated!
I am done with him for good!!!! Delete ing and blocking his number, gonna get rid of all pictures, sentimental messages of him.
But I am gonna go to the gym and sweat it out first. Just gonna process these emotions healthily. Ifeel so rejected by him and it's an awful emotion to deal with. But not gonna drink on it.
Time to change my destructive attitude and this is another text. I am scared but just gonna do the sensible thing for once in my life. Gonna let the mum part take care of the child part of me now
Sod you AV! And sod you ex!!!
He is a massive trigger for me to get absolutely hammered but guys! NO MORE! I am sick of feeling that I am not good enough!! Sick of the way he plays with my mind.this has been going on for years!! I wish I had left him two years ago when he told me he cheated!
I am done with him for good!!!! Delete ing and blocking his number, gonna get rid of all pictures, sentimental messages of him.
But I am gonna go to the gym and sweat it out first. Just gonna process these emotions healthily. Ifeel so rejected by him and it's an awful emotion to deal with. But not gonna drink on it.
Time to change my destructive attitude and this is another text. I am scared but just gonna do the sensible thing for once in my life. Gonna let the mum part take care of the child part of me now
Sod you AV! And sod you ex!!!
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53 days today- Whew! Still chugging alone, sober each day.
Can't say it has been easy, but I also don't know if I would call it terribly difficult either.
I will say, and this might sound funny, but watching "Cops", and even moreso now "Jail" reminds and reinforces my sobriety, even though (especially) since I NEVER was in that situation. I take it like "yes- and now you never WILL be either."
Can't say it has been easy, but I also don't know if I would call it terribly difficult either.
I will say, and this might sound funny, but watching "Cops", and even moreso now "Jail" reminds and reinforces my sobriety, even though (especially) since I NEVER was in that situation. I take it like "yes- and now you never WILL be either."
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Originally Posted by knb02
I am crying and hurt but gonna go for a run :-(
Why is love so complicated? Why can't Cupid be nice to me for a change :-(
Why is love so complicated? Why can't Cupid be nice to me for a change :-(
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