Living In Sobriety - Part 20

[gypsytears]

Framing shower with red oak & oak



Closer up of molding at top



New shoe bench for hallway from Pier One once foyer is painted.... just cuz I like posting pix! Right now it's residing on my side of our office in my yoga space.

[PaperDolls]

I'm coming up on one year of sobriety and I've never been happier.

[scoob]

[gypsytears]

Originally Posted by PaperDolls

pocket doors are soo cool! seriously

Someone that understands !

[Believe808]

That is great PD, I just saw Nov 9th is your sobriety date.

[gypsytears]

Originally Posted by PaperDolls

I'm coming up on one year of sobriety and I've never been happier.

WOOT! Way to go PD. I am soooooo proud of you .

[Believe808]

It is snowing here in Jersey!!! Woo Hoo

I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, Snow!!! It's not sticking

and will probably stop soon,

but it is snowing now.

[gypsytears]

What? Nooooooo! We only have rain here in Central NJ.Not ready for snow. Nope not at all!

[scoob]

www.peopleofwalmart.com

My guilty pleasure of the day.

[bananagrrrl]

LOL, scoob!

That was like a trip to the flea market.

[HideorSeek]

I'm still laughing over Liz's Living in Senility and PR's Senility prayer....

Hiya PD...welcome to love, laughs and loonies....

...we are NOT a glum lot, eh peeps???!!!

BUT..we know when to laugh and we know when to support....we take care of each other through thick and thin!

Congrats on your almost-year!!!!

Bee...in case I miss you b4 the big DO...good luck tonight. Your pocket should be jumping from the standing ovation going on! ((((((Hugs))))))) If we pat you on the butt, understand that we can't reach your back...

...too much stuff going on in this thread for my poor brain. Don't make me resort to taking notes

Love you all!
(our signature "signature", PD)

[Believe808]

Just got home from work, NOT snowing here either,

I guess where I work it is a higher elevation, only rain here.

Got papers from my lawyer, the Divorce papers will probably

be to him today if not yesterday.

Picking up my year coin,

and he's picking up his divorce papers.

I should feel good about this,

but honestly it doesn't feel good.

It is the right thing, I know that but

being the right thing doesn't make it

feel any better.

[gypsytears]

{{{ Hugs Believe }}}

[louis]

Believe:

New beginnings hey?
You know your in the place your meant to be.... i know it dont feel good... alot fo emotions today... but its just a new begininning....one you have been waiting very long time for...
Be proud of all you acheived for you and your kids... you guys are who matter... you guys are who will go into your future with you... you guys are who is meant to be there....
I hope you find peace with this believe... you know deep down...

I heard this on a speaker tape....

I am where i am meant to be... cos if i wasnt meant to be here... i'd be somewhere else...
Cant argue with that now can you?

Big hug my friend... take it easy on yourself

[Believe808]

I know that Louis, and you are right, lots of emotions today.

So happy my children are there to give me this special coin

that will remind me just how far I have come,

and yes they will be moving forward with me. I am blessed.

Its letting go of the past, trying to move past all those

good times and trying to remember the hurt that was done.

I don't think about the hurt, almost like I block it out because

I don't want to feel it. Kinda like grieving the death of a loved one,

some have a harder time dealing with it, so they just put blinders on.

Its something I have to go through, and maybe this is how I am

to get through it. I let go of the anger because I know anger is

so very bad in recovery, so letting go of it, I mourn the good times

that have died along with my marriage, and that's what makes

me sad.

[louis]

Believe:

Your family and friends here will walk along side you....
We will listen to you laugh and laugh along with you
We will listen to you cry and cry along with you (except us hard boys of course )
You are never alone... but i do understand... I wasnt married but i was very close to my partner... and when our relationship ended i lost her kids too... my family who i loved very much..
I cant live in them times though... they will pull me down... i need to live in the present... but i can never forget my past... just grow and learn form it...
I lost 3 beautiful children who i brought up for 5yrs of there life... i know that dont sound a lot... but they were great years...
So i guess i lied here... i do have kids... just they dont have me now..

Bugger... hard boys do cry....

We are with you though Believe... talk it through with us... tell us about them good times... we might even tell you some of ours...

Sorry.. that got abit heavier than i thought

[nelco]

Thanks for sharing that louis. youu are really doing so well these past weeks.

Bee I feel all sorts of mixed emotions for you. I know you are sad about the divorce but while you close the door on that part of your life another door has swung wide open and tonight is a celebration of that.

YOU ROCK BEE AND WE LOVE YOU!!!!!! celebrate your life tonight because today its a real good one. you help a lot of people xxx

[nelco]

Originally Posted by stone

Thanks Liz, I am still waiting.

I got my blood test results today, not for the licence, for the Doc to rule stuff out, basically if they rule everything out we know it is the M.E. again. All the results were good including liver function which he seemed to think were the best liver function results ever, even for a non-alkie. I have the kidneys of a 21 year old too, lol.

He arranged more tests that the CRAP Doctor I saw last time didn't arrange, vitamin tests and something else, I don't know what.

Haven't been out today, too exhausted.

great news about the results Stone.

[Believe808]

Louis, you are the best. I am amazed at how far you have come

you make my heart smile, thank you I too am sorry for your pain,

but that which hurts us, can only make us stronger.


Thanks Nel for your encouragement too, it means so much to me

to see there are so many in my life who really do care about me.

I have come far and will continue to move forward, this too

is a learning experience that I will grow from, I know that,

but I also know that my sharing my pain helps not only me grow

but someone else too. Life is life, no matter how old we are

it still goes on and yes, sometimes it su*ks, but we do get

through it as long as we stay sober.

[Believe808]

i do have kids... just they dont have me now

you are so wrong Louis, you were a part of their life and that

will always stay with them. Their lives were touched by an angel, YOU.

How lucky they were to be with you for those years.

[Believe808]

Okay I'm leaving, Hang on everyone

[stone]

I know what you mean about only remembering the good times, Donna. It is weird isn't it?

You know the drill, let go and let God, acceptance is key, yadah yadah. I am pretty much an theist but I still have to let go and let "nebulous god concept"/the universe/ life.

Originally Posted by Louis

I am where i am meant to be... cos if i wasnt meant to be here... i'd be somewhere else...

Yea, everything so far has brought us to where we are, we couldn't be any other place. Now we are here we can make choices how we deal with it. I am still having trouble accepting the M.E., had a bad day with it today. If I fight it it will break me, I have to "bend like a reed in the wind".

[nelco]

I have to "bend like a reed in the wind".

[stone]

Originally Posted by nelco

Hey, I am just quoting my sig! I just mean I have to accept.

[Rowan]

Hey Bee I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you. I understand some of the grieving you are going through. I know it hurts. I'm proud of you for showing up and carrying the message, day after day. You really do inspire me.