Living in Sobriety - Part 18

[Dee74]

Continued from here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-17-a-21.html (Living in Sobriety Part 17)

Carry on, gang
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[Believe808]

Good morning LIS Peeps

[nelco]

morning!!


off to read last part!

[Rowan]

Some nice pics and slogans to wake up to! Good morning gang.

[Rusty Zipper]

yes it does nelc!

blessed day LIS

[Rowan]

Okay just caught up quickly on the last part.

Liz, I'm glad you were able to think the drink through. It's important to share that stuff - the thoughts of drinking, I mean. You sound good.

Red - you sound good too. I sure am glad you decided to join the LIS gang.

Oh - and Liz - it's safe to run in the dark here, I suppose. I don't give it a lot of thought - maybe I should.

[Believe808]

This thread and you peeps are such a big part of my sobriety.

[Believe808]

Morning Ro, Nel & Rusty

[Rowan]

Originally Posted by Believe808

This thread and you peeps are such a big part of my sobriety.

Same here, Bee.

[Rusty Zipper]

yeah, you do sound good red,

and morn row & Bee

[nelco]

Morninh RO
Morning rusty

passing that church last night BEE, and seeing.....you reap what you sow...amazing...after what we talked about. Its so true though for all of us. I try to be careful how I live today. I want people to want to be around me not politely visit cause they have too. My son calls a lot just for a "chat". cause he wants too, not cause he has too....not sure that would be happening if I was still drinking..going through old photos last night of when he was 9 and his face looked sad. You might not notice but I do. even in the photos where there were family smiles.....the eyes told a lot. Sadness, fear, confusion, it was all there. I need those reminders!!

When I think about what you shared NEWLEAF, I realized why I need those reminders. I also thought about a story I once read in Alcoholics Anonymous big book. Here is a piece from it......

HE HAD TO BE SHOWN

I didn't even know what a martini looked like, but I had heard a man down the bar order one. That was my first drink. I kept watching the man down the bar to see what he did with a contraption like that, and he just smelled of his drink and set it down again, so I did the same. He took a couple of puffs of a cigarette and I took a couple of puffs of my cigarette. He tossed off half of his martini; I tossed off half of mine and it nearly blew the top of my head off. It irritated my nostrils; I choked, I didn't like it. There was nothing about that drink that I liked. But I watched him, and he tossed off the rest of his, so I tossed off the rest of mine. He ate his olive and I ate mine. I didn't even like the olive. It was repulsive to me from every standpoint. I drank nine martinis in less than an hour.
Twenty-two years later, Doctor Bob told me that what I had done was like turning a switch and setting up a demand for more alcohol in my system. I didn't know that then. I had no more reason to drink those martinis than a jackrabbit. At that particular time, the boys put me on a shutter and took me out to the shed, and I lay in the car while they enjoyed their banquet

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Ps.....hope you got that audit sorted scredhead!!



Per SR guidelines... any quotes are from BB 1st Edition.

[Believe808]

I was just posting on gratitude list, last year I was in rehab,

the world looked so dark, actually MY world was very dark,

what a difference 1 year has made. Never would I have imagined this.

I am so blessed.

As you can see the gratitude glasses are all spiffed and sparkley and on my face.

[nelco]

oooh Bee, you brought rain to my eyes

[Believe808]

When I went back out this time it was on a martini, a double martini to be exact. I had never drank one in my life, but I ordered a double. And my nightmare into hell began with that 1 martini.

[stone]

I hate to be a downer but I am feeling pretty dark today, keeping active is so important for mental well-being and I cannot do it due to the M.E.. It is very frustrating and depressing. I am not as full of self-pity as I was a few weeks ago but I am quite down. I am having one fo those days were even getting out of a chair is hard work.
I am trying my best to use my tools but it is hard.

[nelco]

stone I dont often use this smiley . But today I think you need it.

[Believe808]

Well that s*cks (((Stoney))) I hope you will use your tools, maybe call your sponsor or another person in program. Take gentle care of yourself, this will pass, it always does. Just don't drink over it or it will be worse. You know all these things Stone, its these hard times we go through and get through that make us stronger.

[nelco]

also Stone, Is it bright over there?? the sun is out here and its a lovely fresh autumn morning. just try and cultivate positive thoughts. I said to Rowan the other day, when she was having a bad day.......compared to what?? I shared that because one time I was in a hard place and an old timer said that to me. He was allowing me feel where I was (which is important) but he was asking me to look back at the mess that was! Stone feel it and accept it...... no point in fighting it. But know.....This WILL pass!

and the darkness passes but what I learn in the darkness will stay with me forever.

we can grow strong out of these times.

[bohemianzen]

ditto ro -- i love pictures like that -- thanx u 2.
ready ready for work......... i hope........ i never know anymore what is going to happen at that crazy place. 2 ppl got fired last week---two ppl that needed to go but it blew everyone's mind that it actually happened. think they are going around eliminating wherever possible. i'm a tad worried but hopeful it won't happen to me.
hope LIS peeps have good stuff in store for them today

[nelco]

hiya Bo.....just try and keep in in this day and dont let tomorrow swallow today on you. Enjoy the NOW!! have a good day Bo

[Believe808]

Hi Bo

Stone, if you want to talk, I got dressed and have some time before I leave, skype?

[stone]

Thanks guys. Yes Nelcs, it is bright here.

[tanyapmc]

Good Morning LISers

Stoney.........I'm sorry you aren't feeling well but I am very glad your not drinking. i remember many times when you couldn't get through these dark places without drinking. I proud of you bubba!

I hope you all have a great day. Bee, I am also grateful not to be in rehab. I am getting close to 1000 days clean and sober. Amazing!! I never thought I could do it.

My root canal is scheduled this week. I'm going to try to move it up to tomorrow so I can quit thinking about it.

Happy Monday! Off to class..... I sure wish you could all come get facials! Think of the fun we would have!

[nelco]

have a great day Tan. Im off too bye.........

[stone]

Thanks Tan.


Donna, thanks for the offer but I don't feel like talking right now. You are very sweet to offer though. It means a lot.

I wont be drinking today.