Living in Sobriety Part 14

[51anna]

The last part:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...t-13-a-22.html (Living In Sobriety-Part 13)

[KenL]

Ooooh. I get to be the first one.

Well then, welcome to part 14 of LIS. Let the fun begin...

[KenL]

Here's me in my college days.

[Believe808]

You haven't changed Ken

YAY a New Part of Living in Sobriety!!!!!!!! Sobriety Rocks!!!!!!!!!


Now where is everyone

Met a friend for meeting and so glad I did go, it was a great meeting. How we start losing gratitude, stop meetings, start thinking everyone is wrong, poor me, then RELAPSE time.

[KenL]

I'll be back later. I gotta air out my head. Dang paint fumes. Even with no ceiling (thanks to Angel and B) it still stinks.

[Angel1]

Hey Bee...
did you notice in that close-up picture of Ken how his face & neck don't match???
Someone's really got to give that boy some make-up lessons....
and it's not going to be me! LOL

[Believe808]

Good eye Angel, lol.

[Rowan]

Hi and bye folks. Busy day at the ranch. Up and at 'em early tomorrow.

[Rusty Zipper]

Massive Thank You Button!

[KenL]

I don't use makeup. See, we plastic folk don't tan like you fleshy folks do. We actually get what's called, in plastic land, a "negative tan". It's normal for us to have that happen as we get more and more exposed to the UV rays of the sun.

[Believe808]

Originally Posted by Rusty Zipper

Massive Thank You Button!

Right back at cha!!!!

[Angel1]

yeah...and stay away from piercings too. I remember what happened to Barbie.

(remember the green ears???)

[KenL]

Hmmm. Nothing comes to mind.

[Angel1]

you never seen a Barbie with pierced ears??

My Barbie probably would have been worth quite a bit of money if I hadn't pierced her ears & it turned her ears all green.

...ohh, and the bad haircut I gave her too lol

[KenL]

I've only seen the new ones with piercings.

Everyone must be sleeping. It's quiet here.

[Angel1]

it's a school night for all of us youngins...or is that old geezers...I keep forgetting (lol)

[KenL]

I feel a little of both.

[anono]

gosh you lot have been busy!! i just ducked home for lunch... will say

and will catch up on posts later

bye

[stone]

[Believe808]

Stoney, Congratulations on your 90 days, that is so awesome.




I know you have struggled but you have perservered. You really have come a long way since we first met here on these boards. I'm so glad we have been on this journey together.

[stone]

Thanks Donna. That means a lot to me.

[Believe808]

I must have been so excited by your 90 days that I couldn't sleep all night.

So please share, how are you feeling today Stoney, on this 90th day of continuous, well earned sobriety?

[stone]

Originally Posted by Believe808

I must have been so excited by your 90 days that I couldn't sleep all night.

So please share, how are you feeling today Stoney, on this 90th day of continuous, well earned sobriety?

I feel like I celebrated it yesterday, lol. Got carried away there.

My recovery so far has been a rollercoaster emotions-wise and I am afraid lately I have been in a down phase. I have had my head in the sand about the return of the M.E. because I haven't wanted to admit to myself that it was back. I am frustrated about it.

However! I am quite proud of my 90 days (in a good way, not an ego way), I am happy to be sober. To be able to get up in the mornings. I am not plagued by an out of control brain, most of the time I feel normal and normal is all I want. I have some beginnings of a real peace of mind. Yes, lately it is a bit of a struggle but I know I will not drink today.

[Believe808]

Good for you Stoney.

The main thing for me is to know that no matter what goes on each day in my life, the good, the bad and the ugly, I don't need to pick up the drink or drug I use to just to get through it. It will pass, it always does. I look back on the things that have happened in this year and when I was going through them, I just couldn't see pass them but the light at the end of the tunnel always did shine for me and from each low point I became stronger because I didn't pick up and it did pass, so it was then that I began to trust.

I know you have had some difficulties due to your health and also with your past, but you are stronger than you think you are. I remember you saying that you just couldn't get pass the 60 days, but today you are here celebrating 90 days. Bravo to you my friend.

[stone]

Originally Posted by Believe808

from each low point I became stronger because I didn't pick up and it did pass, so it was then that I began to trust.

That is true. We gain real strength by getting through the bad stuff without picking up. And the next time bad stuff comes along it is that much easier to get through.
Stopping drinking does not make everything wonderful and that can come as a shock, lol. It does, however give the opportunity for good stuff to happen. I have had lots of good days along the way too, it is all a journey not a destination, I have to remember that.

Something changed after my last drink, I usually would be determined that it was the last time and THIS time I would do it. After the last drink I was beaten, I could not be determined to beat it because I was beaten, I thought I would most likely do it again, no matter how much I didn't want to. I was scared. Hopeless.
I didn't know it but I was having a step 1 experience, not an intellectual exercise but a gut level experience. I got a new sponsor and began the steps again and this time step 1 was real, I also suddenly felt part of AA, not a visitor or someone on the outside. I came up with a simple concept of HP that worked for me. My sponsor has been a big part of this, he has helped a lot.

Anyway, that all just came out, I hope it made sense.