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I keep noticing all the things I can do today that I could not do while I was drinking. When I drank it eventually became like being in solitary confinement in a prison. I really feel that I am alive again and I am now seeing feeling and experiencing life. I love being sober and living life as it is. I will not go back to the isolation again. Have a great day everyone!! |
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I was just thinking what a fine little prison I had built for myself too Dime. The pills were the bricks and the drink was the mortar. And could very easily be again. I can't believe something that I thought gave me freedom could have me so trapped! Nands, I heard something in a meeting from a bloke I really like. He said, I don't have to cope, I just have to not drink. I always think of that when I am feeling overwhelmed.
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Thats a useful saying Lost ![]() I can't say Im coping with life at the moment but I'm not drinking at least
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I'll join the not always coping but not drinking club please. Its true, I still mess up, just easier to sort things out when your sober and actually remember what you've done.
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pfft...ok your right sorta...i'm just not feeling the happy joy joy right now but i am sober....it just hasn't made the mess any easier...but...only early days i'll give it timeand i won't be working in this job come November 6th!
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My "things I have not done" list is longer than my "to do" list - and I don't care!!!! What will you do nands, when your notice is up. Do you want to change what you do completely, or do the same sort of thing, just in a less stressful position?
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i guess at this point i would like to just sit in a back office and post and balance and juggle funds all day...no more heating problems, babysitting other peoples work...just focus and kck arse lol i could even do the complicated grad student payroll stuff...it's just the constant preasure to do it all when i'm interupted every 10 minites that i can't handle. so..bottom line....not likely to find that..probably will end up with an "entry level postion at 1/4 the pay but at least only 1/2 the stress i have now. I'm a little afraid i'm gonna end up clerking at a store..but thats ok too...something had to change. I'll do mcdonalds if i have to..but i don't need to look at that yet..i've got 2 mos to sort this out...i always took great pride in that i would work at mcdonalds if it came to that...its not pride lol (well ok it would hurt a little lol) its that i find food service to be soooooo stressful ![]() but for now i need to redo my resume to down scale it a bit ... I choose what i'm wearing for chris's art reseption on Friday...that feels nice and he and i spent time together this weekend and thats a nice change... lots of other stuff sucks..but..i didn't destroy rome in a day lol...lb where are those soldiers you ran off with last year lol lol I didn't get the tat yet... right now..i have to find my check book so i can make my house payment tomarrow. and i really wanna get a load of dishes done...but i also hope to talk to a friend LB you are really doing great i wish i could have met you while i was over you would have loved my driving (grin)
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I have nothing worthwhile to contribute to this thread at the moment as it is 6 am however, I just stopped by to say I'm hungry. ![]() Nands, I took your checkbook and hid it somewhere. You'll never find it now. Why are you awake at 4 am looking for a checkbook anyways??
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Jason... *pops mom hat on* i'm glad to hear you are hungry..hope you do something about that *tucks mom hat behind her back* lol i need to pay my morgage today...so need to write a check to drop off at noon..but...backup plan..no stressing over the friggin check books that are here somewhere..i'll stop at the bank they can print me a check and i'll drop it off. I'm going to work with the solutions to 3 problems..should be able to do that in the one hour and 15 minites before my counceling...will close the door and get it done everyone can tear up my afternoon if they need to but i get my hour this morning while i actually feel confident to do some things that need to be done (god they need to give us more than 3 smiles lol) i'll worry about the afternoon...er well..this afternoon!jason..email me ok (hug) alley at least stop in and say good morning ![]() hey LB you been a great help to me thanks...the rest of you too but for some reason this morning i wanted to give here a special shout out sht..gotta run it's 7....i might check in for a minite before i leave but maybe not...hugs to all and yes they are real hugs snirkle
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yipeee!!!!!! my next paycheck was gonna be short cause i ran out of leave time..but!!!!! its the check i get my yearly bonus on ![]() so...saved by the bell.... just wanted to spread the joy..since you all listen to my incessent whining ![]() bye
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Hey I forgot to check in lol so shoot me ![]() Glad to hear some good news for a change Nands
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P. S. where the heck is Dee lately ? And Pixy if I have to check in so do you
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Nands, you know I kind of disappeared for a while having a little relapse of my own? Well, I missed why you started drinking again. It wasn't coming to England was it I know living over here makes us all want to drink!Pixy has run off with nands cheque book to play with roman soldiers!
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| it's only life after all |
Yeah, where is Pixy? PIXY
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if she is off with the romans and my bank account i'm gonna reevaluate our relationship! lol no seriously pix..check in. I'm still on track I'm having to begin the work i knew i needed to do last december and chose not to do... don't drink no matter what is step one but change and grow is step two happy, less stressed, but...serious about doing it different this time...I want to be sober and sane and i can as can all of you
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| it's only life after all |
I am up in the middle of the night because one of my cats is in and out of the litterbox every few minutes. I had this problem last year and thought we had it fixed with diet and medicine, but now I'm going to have to take her in again. Just went to the 24-hour store to pick up some containers that I will use for a urine sample. Isn't my life fascinating???
__________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready |
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I'm sure you are Funky Greeter ![]() At the moment I am sticking to a certain few threads the rest of the place is doing my head in lol
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just hang in there alley..i'm about a week from venturing off this thread...wanna strong base but i did do chat a while yesterday... it's good to start feeling i can be a part of again...i just needed to get some head stuff straightLB ok you don't HAVE to be sane...I expect the bouncing ball will always be my motto...but...admit it...you are changing aren't you (grin) i overslept..but i'm ready for work now...I'm keping in mind i don't have to try and save the world and i'm doing a good job I'm gonna make the transition as smooth as REASONABLY possible for the department..but i have to admit that I think they will learn alot about the expectations on the position when I leave...but there isn't another way for me or the department to progress except that I move on. i'm actually happy with where i am at on that...sometimes i get angry..but mostly i'm able to stay logical about itPix i sure hope you post soon CG remember your signiture line! I think of it often...you know some of our friends made some very insightful comments ... bless them (hug) Jiggy!!!!!! get your butt back on board! see you all later (exeded my limit of smiles)
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| it's only life after all |
They sure did, nands. Btw did you meet the donkey when you were over there? Pixy, I'm really getting worried now! ![]() It's not like you to go so long without checking in with us.
__________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready |
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| OMG everything's real |
Yeah, Pixy, I want to discuss ponies with you. I think it was getting the pony that made me drink again - seriously, I thought having a pony cured me of alcoholism. Now if that isn't alkie logic, I don't know what is. I kept going to AA tho, mainly coz I make the teas and coffees on a Sunday night. How I cursed that service position when I would rather be drinking.
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| it's only life after all |
Darnit, the pony didn't work, huh? Seems like it should!
__________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready |
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