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**CarolD** · 11-05-2009, 06:29 PM

ND ......

Early sobriety is really difficult for most of us
Keep moving forward ...

thirtybubba · 11-06-2009, 12:49 PM

((Nouble))... you sound like me. Don't buy booze don't buy booze don't buy booze...

It is hard, ND, but it's worth it... and I've only been on the other side of 14 days twice in my life, that's how worth it is. Heck, I can't even remember what was so darn good about it at this point, I just remember it was worth going through all this again.

Me, I still got this flu. Still 'living' in the chatroom... Still suffering incredible stress from my roommates. Worried about school. Sometimes not thinking about drinking, sometimes thinking about it a lot... like last night. It's becoming less common than not thinking about drinking though... as I stay distracted.

Probably never gonna get over this flu till I get some peace. Guess that'll come in a few more years... Life's never been easy for me, I don't know why I keep complaining...

TB

**CarolD** · 11-06-2009, 04:46 PM

Yea for us......

Let's all have another day of progress

HideorSeek · 11-06-2009, 05:17 PM

I wanted to tell you how inspiring each of you are! The first weeks are challenging, no doubt about it. The physical changes as well as the mental reprograming take patience, kindness to yourself and support. Everyone is doing so well. Hope you don't mind the company! (me, that is). It will take me awhile to get everyone's names and stories, so please bear with me. I have over 2 weeks, but I feel I lived here, on this thread, for a long time and you help me stay sober today.

Three cheers to each of you!

thirtybubba · 11-06-2009, 05:47 PM

Company = welcome. Going somewhat inane by myself anyways...

TB

**CarolD** · 11-06-2009, 05:55 PM

Glad to see you again HideorSeek......

I've noticed that the "Group Of"/"Class Of" threads
are more active than we are these days.
I'm always pleased to see members here sharing.

Forward we go...side by side....

HideorSeek · 11-06-2009, 06:02 PM

Hi my longtime friend (Carol) and my new one (TB)!

Yes, Carol, forward we go....Correct me if I am mistaken, TB, but are you not at Day 13?

thirtybubba · 11-07-2009, 03:49 AM

Friday 2 weeks ago I woke up with a shot, like always.

I had to go to a meeting (not the AA variety, a real meeting where I really had to give a report on something--don't remember what and I don't think I did at the time, either) around noon. I had planned the night before to take myself down, and I didn't have any pills this time, but I was frustrated enough with myself that I didn't care.

So by noon, I had only had about 6oz of whiskey, which was not enough for me to not feel miserable--just enough to stop the shaking.

I was sweating and probably smelled like liquor--the sweat if not my breath. And the turnout was incredible--I had to sit in a chair very close to other people, which made for a very self-conscious 'Bubba.

I made it through... Lord knows how, and raced home to take another drink (I hadn't brought my bottle with me...). That lowered the liquor from 5" in the bottle to 2 and a half--reality was setting in that I was quitting (again), and the thought made me queasy. But I persevered, and around 4 pm I took the last gulp of bourbon and pepsi...

Showtime.

Well, it's been a fun two weeks, I gotta admit. By 'fun' I don't mean what the dictionary means. And this flu dang near knocked me back into day one more than a few moments... But somehow, somehow, I stayed sober. Lotta being busy, lotta reading here and chatroom (man! that was what saved me through this flu) and stuff.

So I'm graduating too! And somehow, I feel pretty good about this time... kinda like the first time... Hopefully I've learned enough since then, and put it all to good use, to prolong this time a lot longer... forever would be nice, but in the meantime, baby steps.

Take care y'all... Carol & Hide and Seek & any lurkers / new members joining...
TB

HideorSeek · 11-07-2009, 05:47 AM

Congratulations, TB! From my limited knowledge, you have certainly had some challenges these past 2 weeks and YOU DID IT!!!! SOBER!!!!! I don't know what your history is (ie, if you have been sober b4, and if so, for how long), but I can assure you that the further you get from a drink, the more insane your drinking will seem. Keep up the good work! A sober life isn't always easy, but it is always better.

**CarolD** · 11-07-2009, 07:38 AM

TB......

cambridge · 11-07-2009, 09:37 AM

Hi Everyone and well done so far! I'm on day 12, so almost at the two week mark. Been the longest few weeks of my life in some ways, but also some of the most illuminating.

mirage · 11-07-2009, 11:55 AM

I didn't know this was here, but I'll jump aboard, please! Day 6 here...it does seem to go by really slowly. Makes the big picture (future) seem impossible, so I try not to think about it. I still have the creeping thoughts about maybe it doesn't have to be forever, but I'm trying to push those away. Thanks for lettin me join in!

Asta1 · 11-07-2009, 12:27 PM

After 17 days sober, I messed up -- twice. Back on day 2 again. CRAP!

noubledegative · 11-07-2009, 02:08 PM

8 days sober w00t!

havnt been on here due to staying at a friends place who doesnt have the internets. last night was my biggest challenge yet (to get to 2 weeks) i produce dance music & DJ in nightclubs. last night was a big gig & i was determined to perform & stay sober. I got alcohol thrust in my hand & offered other illegal substances...turned it all down. the night kinda sucked tho & i didn't really enjoy myself due to thinking constantly about alcohol.but i performed well. i dont want to have to give up my passion 'MUSIC' due to drinking. bit stupid i know, like an over weight person trying to diet walking into a cake store.; but as i said, im not willing to sacrifice my passion just YET which is performing electronic music.

anywayz its sunday morning. im sober & i bought a kitten

meet 'Nathan Explosion' Nate for short

have a look if you like hes cute!
h**p://img694.imageshack.us/img694/3907/1002248small.jpg

*need to adjust the url, cant post links just yet for some reason.

now aint that a reason to get sober if i ever saw one!

keep it up! y'all def an inspiration. TB you sound like you got it rough, keep strong & think of the better life you will have getting sober & staying sober...thats what im trying to do.

6 days to go for me (to make 2 weeks)

Believe808 · 11-07-2009, 02:53 PM

Woo Hoo Bubba, you done did good, girlfriend!!!!! 2 weeks is awesome.

Quote:

I didn't know this was here, but I'll jump aboard, please! Day 6 here...it does seem to go by really slowly. Makes the big picture (future) seem impossible, so I try not to think about it. I still have the creeping thoughts about maybe it doesn't have to be forever, but I'm trying to push those away. Thanks for lettin me join in!

Mirage, just do it only 1 day at a time, that you don't have to pick up. For 1 day, you can do it!!!! And then that 1 day will become 2 and they start to add up, there is no big picture, we are all sober today.

Oh, I hope no one minds me coming aboard

Believe808 · 11-07-2009, 02:58 PM

Congratulations to each of you staying sober today.

ViciousCycle · 11-07-2009, 04:35 PM

Day two for me here..........tired, but feeling positive about the days ahead........anything is better than the hell hole I was in. Captive from alcohol, oh how it ties my hands......nice to drink juice in the morning instead of the poison..........nice to be able to go out in the afternoon without the fear of driving.......... happy to have taken a couple steps in the right direction...........AGAIN.

Believe808 · 11-07-2009, 04:38 PM

Good for you VC, keep the gratitude, for me I sit down each day and write down things I am grateful for that day. It really does help me stay sober each day. You can also post on the gratitude lists here on SR.

Dean62 · 11-07-2009, 05:09 PM

(((( Bubba ))))

First Grrr now you. It's been great to watch and be a part of seeing it happen. I hope to see you in chat more.

It's great to see all of the new or returning people here. Nouble, cambridge, mirage, Asta1 and Vicious Cycle! What a nice size group we have here this week. Stick to gether and let's do it together.

Always good to see you Horselover and Believe808 coming here and supporting us in need.

(((( Carol )))) as always.

Keep active and focused in recovery and lets all graduate but not leave this thread.

Dean62 · 11-07-2009, 05:11 PM

Oceanbound? Thinking of you.

mirage · 11-07-2009, 05:51 PM

Why are words of encouragement making me teary eyed? Hittin close to home, I think...feeling a bit raw emotionally..not sure why. Thanks folks...I really needed those words today..so appreciated.

grrrr · 11-07-2009, 05:59 PM

This is an awesome thread. I have struggled and continued to come back here for support. I kept trying different things and finally have a program that is sticking. Coming up on 4 weeks for me tomorrow. You all can do this!

HideorSeek · 11-07-2009, 06:00 PM

Evening Asta, Camb, nouble Viscious, Dean and welcome to Mirage. Howdy Carol and Bee too...I know you're out there!

Ditto to what Bee said...just try to focus on the moment at hand. One more minute, one more hour, one more day. We can do this..together!

Dean62 · 11-07-2009, 06:38 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by mirage

Why are words of encouragement making me teary eyed? Hittin close to home, I think...feeling a bit raw emotionally..not sure why. Thanks folks...I really needed those words today..so appreciated.

The hope that we may find peace in our minds and joy in our hearts is enough to bring anyone to tears. To feel once again in early sobriety is quite the ride mirage....Hang on.

We never have to drink again.

thirtybubba · 11-07-2009, 06:58 PM

Wow... I started something?

Nouble, good to see you still posting...
Asta, bounce back, I've been there... well I only got to 17 once... but I've been there. Nothing to do but bounce back...
Cambridge, yeah, you learn things. Surprised me too.
Mirage, like they said, don't focus on it. Day at a time/hour at a time, whatever works for you... 6 days is a long time to focus on all at once.
VC, keep at it woman. You can do this--and like Bee said, write down the gratitudes... have something tangible to remind yourself why you're doing this.
OB, also thinking of you.

Grrrr, my motivation... how are you doing?
Dean, my late night chat victim, I'll be around... less so now that I'm off bedrest, but around.
Bee, welcome to the new-newbie thread... can't see why you wouldn't be welcome...
HideorSeek, sorry for messing up your name... and it's always good to see people with time available for us new people to ask questions/get answers... sometimes we're shy.
Carol, (((Carol))). Thank you for answering all the inane questions that really bothered me...

Okay, truth is, pretty much every thing I said applied to everybody...

If I forgot anybody, that's my fault.

Take care,
-TB, still feeling good locked into day 15

11-05-2009, 06:29 PM	#226 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,875	ND ...... Early sobriety is really difficult for most of us Keep moving forward ... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

11-06-2009, 04:46 PM	#228 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,875	Yea for us...... Let's all have another day of progress __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

11-06-2009, 05:55 PM	#231 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,875	Glad to see you again HideorSeek...... I've noticed that the "Group Of"/"Class Of" threads are more active than we are these days. I'm always pleased to see members here sharing. Forward we go...side by side.... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

11-07-2009, 07:38 AM	#235 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,875	TB...... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

11-07-2009, 11:55 AM	#237 (permalink)
mirage Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 209	I didn't know this was here, but I'll jump aboard, please! Day 6 here...it does seem to go by really slowly. Makes the big picture (future) seem impossible, so I try not to think about it. I still have the creeping thoughts about maybe it doesn't have to be forever, but I'm trying to push those away. Thanks for lettin me join in! __________________ "Just keep swimming.." -Dory

11-06-2009, 12:49 PM	#227 (permalink)
thirtybubba Person... Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,247	((Nouble))... you sound like me. Don't buy booze don't buy booze don't buy booze... It is hard, ND, but it's worth it... and I've only been on the other side of 14 days twice in my life, that's how worth it is. Heck, I can't even remember what was so darn good about it at this point, I just remember it was worth going through all this again. Me, I still got this flu. Still 'living' in the chatroom... Still suffering incredible stress from my roommates. Worried about school. Sometimes not thinking about drinking, sometimes thinking about it a lot... like last night. It's becoming less common than not thinking about drinking though... as I stay distracted. Probably never gonna get over this flu till I get some peace. Guess that'll come in a few more years... Life's never been easy for me, I don't know why I keep complaining... TB

11-06-2009, 05:17 PM	#229 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 1,633	I wanted to tell you how inspiring each of you are! The first weeks are challenging, no doubt about it. The physical changes as well as the mental reprograming take patience, kindness to yourself and support. Everyone is doing so well. Hope you don't mind the company! (me, that is). It will take me awhile to get everyone's names and stories, so please bear with me. I have over 2 weeks, but I feel I lived here, on this thread, for a long time and you help me stay sober today. Three cheers to each of you!

11-06-2009, 05:47 PM	#230 (permalink)
thirtybubba Person... Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,247	Company = welcome. Going somewhat inane by myself anyways... TB

11-06-2009, 06:02 PM	#232 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 1,633	Hi my longtime friend (Carol) and my new one (TB)! Yes, Carol, forward we go....Correct me if I am mistaken, TB, but are you not at Day 13?

11-07-2009, 03:49 AM	#233 (permalink)
thirtybubba Person... Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,247	Friday 2 weeks ago I woke up with a shot, like always. I had to go to a meeting (not the AA variety, a real meeting where I really had to give a report on something--don't remember what and I don't think I did at the time, either) around noon. I had planned the night before to take myself down, and I didn't have any pills this time, but I was frustrated enough with myself that I didn't care. So by noon, I had only had about 6oz of whiskey, which was not enough for me to not feel miserable--just enough to stop the shaking. I was sweating and probably smelled like liquor--the sweat if not my breath. And the turnout was incredible--I had to sit in a chair very close to other people, which made for a very self-conscious 'Bubba. I made it through... Lord knows how, and raced home to take another drink (I hadn't brought my bottle with me...). That lowered the liquor from 5" in the bottle to 2 and a half--reality was setting in that I was quitting (again), and the thought made me queasy. But I persevered, and around 4 pm I took the last gulp of bourbon and pepsi... Showtime. Well, it's been a fun two weeks, I gotta admit. By 'fun' I don't mean what the dictionary means. And this flu dang near knocked me back into day one more than a few moments... But somehow, somehow, I stayed sober. Lotta being busy, lotta reading here and chatroom (man! that was what saved me through this flu) and stuff. So I'm graduating too! And somehow, I feel pretty good about this time... kinda like the first time... Hopefully I've learned enough since then, and put it all to good use, to prolong this time a lot longer... forever would be nice, but in the meantime, baby steps. Take care y'all... Carol & Hide and Seek & any lurkers / new members joining... TB

11-07-2009, 05:47 AM	#234 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 1,633	Congratulations, TB! From my limited knowledge, you have certainly had some challenges these past 2 weeks and YOU DID IT!!!! SOBER!!!!! I don't know what your history is (ie, if you have been sober b4, and if so, for how long), but I can assure you that the further you get from a drink, the more insane your drinking will seem. Keep up the good work! A sober life isn't always easy, but it is always better.

11-07-2009, 09:37 AM	#236 (permalink)
cambridge Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Cambridge, UK Posts: 64	Hi Everyone and well done so far! I'm on day 12, so almost at the two week mark. Been the longest few weeks of my life in some ways, but also some of the most illuminating.

11-07-2009, 12:27 PM	#238 (permalink)
Asta1 Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Oregon coast Posts: 138	After 17 days sober, I messed up -- twice. Back on day 2 again. CRAP!

11-07-2009, 02:08 PM	#239 (permalink)
noubledegative Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: wellington nz Posts: 11	8 days sober w00t! havnt been on here due to staying at a friends place who doesnt have the internets. last night was my biggest challenge yet (to get to 2 weeks) i produce dance music & DJ in nightclubs. last night was a big gig & i was determined to perform & stay sober. I got alcohol thrust in my hand & offered other illegal substances...turned it all down. the night kinda sucked tho & i didn't really enjoy myself due to thinking constantly about alcohol.but i performed well. i dont want to have to give up my passion 'MUSIC' due to drinking. bit stupid i know, like an over weight person trying to diet walking into a cake store.; but as i said, im not willing to sacrifice my passion just YET which is performing electronic music. anywayz its sunday morning. im sober & i bought a kitten meet 'Nathan Explosion' Nate for short have a look if you like hes cute! h*p://img694.imageshack.us/img694/3907/1002248small.jpg need to adjust the url, cant post links just yet for some reason. now aint that a reason to get sober if i ever saw one! keep it up! y'all def an inspiration. TB you sound like you got it rough, keep strong & think of the better life you will have getting sober & staying sober...thats what im trying to do. 6 days to go for me (to make 2 weeks)

11-07-2009, 02:58 PM	#241 (permalink)
Believe808 Miracles Happen Mahjongg Champion! Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: New Jersey Posts: 8,800	Congratulations to each of you staying sober today. __________________ She believed she could so she did.... FAITH makes all things possible...not easy

11-07-2009, 04:35 PM	#242 (permalink)
ViciousCycle Member Bubble Bugs Champion! Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Montana Posts: 982	Day two for me here..........tired, but feeling positive about the days ahead........anything is better than the hell hole I was in. Captive from alcohol, oh how it ties my hands......nice to drink juice in the morning instead of the poison..........nice to be able to go out in the afternoon without the fear of driving.......... happy to have taken a couple steps in the right direction...........AGAIN. __________________ If you get up one more time than you fall, you will make it through.

11-07-2009, 04:38 PM	#243 (permalink)
Believe808 Miracles Happen Mahjongg Champion! Join Date: Mar 2009 Location: New Jersey Posts: 8,800	Good for you VC, keep the gratitude, for me I sit down each day and write down things I am grateful for that day. It really does help me stay sober each day. You can also post on the gratitude lists here on SR. __________________ She believed she could so she did.... FAITH makes all things possible...not easy

11-07-2009, 05:09 PM	#244 (permalink)
Dean62 Adjusting my Sails Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: SLC Posts: 912 Blog Entries: 5	(((( Bubba )))) First Grrr now you. It's been great to watch and be a part of seeing it happen. I hope to see you in chat more. It's great to see all of the new or returning people here. Nouble, cambridge, mirage, Asta1 and Vicious Cycle! What a nice size group we have here this week. Stick to gether and let's do it together. Always good to see you Horselover and Believe808 coming here and supporting us in need. (((( Carol )))) as always. Keep active and focused in recovery and lets all graduate but not leave this thread. __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town." -- George Carlin

11-07-2009, 05:11 PM	#245 (permalink)
Dean62 Adjusting my Sails Join Date: Jan 2008 Location: SLC Posts: 912 Blog Entries: 5	Oceanbound? Thinking of you. __________________ "Just cause you got the monkey off your back doesn't mean the circus has left town." -- George Carlin

11-07-2009, 05:51 PM	#246 (permalink)
mirage Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 209	Why are words of encouragement making me teary eyed? Hittin close to home, I think...feeling a bit raw emotionally..not sure why. Thanks folks...I really needed those words today..so appreciated. __________________ "Just keep swimming.." -Dory

11-07-2009, 05:59 PM	#247 (permalink)
grrrr being me Join Date: Feb 2005 Location: SD, CA Posts: 249	This is an awesome thread. I have struggled and continued to come back here for support. I kept trying different things and finally have a program that is sticking. Coming up on 4 weeks for me tomorrow. You all can do this! __________________ "You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection." -Buddha-

11-07-2009, 06:00 PM	#248 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 1,633	Evening Asta, Camb, nouble Viscious, Dean and welcome to Mirage. Howdy Carol and Bee too...I know you're out there! Ditto to what Bee said...just try to focus on the moment at hand. One more minute, one more hour, one more day. We can do this..together!

11-07-2009, 06:58 PM	#250 (permalink)
thirtybubba Person... Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: SoCal Posts: 1,247	Wow... I started something? Nouble, good to see you still posting... Asta, bounce back, I've been there... well I only got to 17 once... but I've been there. Nothing to do but bounce back... Cambridge, yeah, you learn things. Surprised me too. Mirage, like they said, don't focus on it. Day at a time/hour at a time, whatever works for you... 6 days is a long time to focus on all at once. VC, keep at it woman. You can do this--and like Bee said, write down the gratitudes... have something tangible to remind yourself why you're doing this. OB, also thinking of you. Grrrr, my motivation... how are you doing? Dean, my late night chat victim, I'll be around... less so now that I'm off bedrest, but around. Bee, welcome to the new-newbie thread... can't see why you wouldn't be welcome... HideorSeek, sorry for messing up your name... and it's always good to see people with time available for us new people to ask questions/get answers... sometimes we're shy. Carol, (((Carol))). Thank you for answering all the inane questions that really bothered me... Okay, truth is, pretty much every thing I said applied to everybody... If I forgot anybody, that's my fault. Take care, -TB, still feeling good locked into day 15

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