Living In Sobriety Part 4

[stone]

Originally Posted by nelco

The site was down/ Where exactly is upgraded??

It is just working better I think, "fixed" more than upgraded.

[Believe808]

Good morning Did my readings this morning and todays DR was about humbly asking my HP to remove my defects of character and a light bulb went off in my head. I have not been doing this each day, so it is something I need to work on from here on in. When I first got sober I remember them talking about defects of character and I didn't think I had any, ha ha. I asked my daughter & her gf one night if they thought I had any and both answered "No Mom, you really have no defects" HA HA gotta love those kids. But I do have many and I need to keep asking that they be removed. I don't want them anymore.
Now that is out of my system for now, how is everyone's day going so far?

[stone]

Hi Donna, yea I had to make my defects up at step 5, lol. Only joking.

If your HP is the people in the rooms, how do they remove your defects?

[Believe808]

I don't know how to answer that Stoney, maybe the same way I do. I ask my HP to remove them and You are using the rooms as your HP so you say your prayer to the people in the rooms.

[stone]

Originally Posted by Believe808

I don't know how to answer that Stoney, maybe the same way I do. I ask my HP to remove them and You are using the rooms as your HP so you say your prayer to the people in the rooms.

Yea that makes no sense to me. I am not using the people in the rooms as my HP anyway though. But the HP I do use....doesn't really work for step 7 either.

I could just ask the universe or something, I suppose. Anyway, I am still on step 3 right now so I wont worry about it yet.

[least]

Good morning all. Slept good last night and feeling some better this morning, not so anxious as yesterday. Only one thing to do today, take dk to an appt this afternoon, so will take it easy the rest of the day.... at least, that's the plan...

[Believe808]

Glad you got some rest Least, you sound much better

[Rowan]

Good morning folks - I have to go to work today - for my sister who has her own business. I promised her some hours while I was on vacation so that starts today. A few hours a day is all. My hair turned out nice so did Sarah's. I didn't sleep well and I'm still very flat. Hopefully that will change. My sister and her partner are very fun so I am hoping that will lift my mood.

I hope you all have a really good day.

[least]

It helps when I wake up with my doggies snuggled up to me on the bed! And usually, early upon waking up, diabetic boy will let me rub his tummy and will enjoy it. He'll stretch out and enjoy the tummy rub, which he doesn't do during the day. He's rather shy about his tummy... The beagirl is a tummy-rub-junkie! Can't get enough tummy rubs! I once estimated that with at least five tummy rubs a day, and having had her for 11 yrs, she's gotten at least 20,075 tummy rubs in her life so far!

My doggies really are My Life and my "reason for being". Especially with the kids mostly grown up and not 'needing' me as they did when they were little. I've always been a 'cat person' until we got our beagirl 11 yrs ago, and then I fell deeply and madly in love with dogs.

[stone]

Is it the sister in the coffin, Ro?

Hi Least!

[Believe808]

Hey Ro, what's been happening with the kids and your sister? I have been thinking about that lately. What kind of business does this sister have? How many sisters do you have? Questions, questions, questions. Go ahead say it

[Believe808]

Is it the sister in the coffin, Ro?

[Believe808]

Where the heck is everybody today? Damn I don't like being by myself.

Oh and Ro, this is from me to you

[HideorSeek]

Hey all...Good Morning!

I've been MIA because the site was down It was very frustrating not being able to contact any of you. I'm pondering how to "fix" (how alcoholic!) this dilemma. I'm glad that you had a good time Ro, am glad that you are feeling better Least. Stoney, you continue to be a hoot, so I know you are fine and Bee, you are a gem, as usual. Hi Nel's Bells and Tan, too! I hope I haven't forgotton anyone again...

Went to therapy yesterday, which was good (it usually is), but I'm always late and I think he was kind of pissed. I really have to work on that. I blamed my tardiness on one of my multiple personalities. He asked if I was serious. I laughed and said, no, it was just a joke. Not a very good one, I guess.

I watched the recap of MJ's funeral. It WAS sad. The poor man lead a tortured life. In my pop-pysch mind, he never had a childhood, nor any control over his life and so he created an adult child and a fantasy world for himself. What really bothered me is how the "public" hounded him (and every other wealthy, hollywood figure) while he was alive. Cruelty, plain and simple. NOW they talk about how he was a wonderful parent, a music icon, the king of pop, etc.

We were watching an old "boston Legal" one time, and a character (Michael J Fox) who knew he was going to die, planned his funeral to take place b4 he died, so he could hear what people had to say and be with his friends. Very quirky and typical for BL, but it started a family semi-joke about what each of us wanted included in our eulogies. I'm always saying, now remember to mention "THAT" in mine. It doesn't seem right to hold off our appreciation for someone until they are "gone". They deserve to know it while they are alive.

Anyways............I'm off for the rest of the day and won't be back until tomorrow afternoon (meeting the Brazilian soccer team..., so have a great day everyone!

HOS (aka, e) HOS always reminds me of Bonanza and "little HOS," who wasn't so little as I recall)

[parentrecovers]

yuck. i'm still right in the middle of this crisis with my friend and that new mom and baby. he is so codependent .... now he's supposed to come HERE tomorrow for the weekend, and boy i am dreading that very much. we've been friends for over 20 years. i know we can get through this. i just have to keep the focus on the baby. i know that.

rainy day here today, and i have indoor housework to do. gotta change a few beds, water my houseplants, etc. i might take a library break. i sure wish i could land a job.

i'm not a real good place today. i'll get up and get busy, that usually helps me get out of my own head - lol!

HUGS! k

[Rowan]

Originally Posted by stone

Is it the sister in the coffin, Ro?

It is. I'm sitting in her office across from it (the coffin). She evicts tenants for landlords and always takes a trophy. The coffin was the best (?) thus far. She filmed a commercial in it, Bee. She also just read me a suicide note that a tenant mailed before taking her own life. My sister framed it on her wall. The tenant actually killed herself. My sister sees the morbid humour in this but I just don't - not today. And, every time her phone rings, it plays some haunted house type tune. I'm not sure what I will be doing today - sending out invoices or something I think. I understand weird humour, working for the cops and all - but boy - this is too much, so far, today.

[Rowan]

I agree about not holding off our appreciation for people until they are dead, Elizabeth.

[Believe808]

i sure wish i could land a job.

K I'm right with you. This is really getting to me now. I am starting to feel like maybe my emails aren't being delivered when I send them out. I really need a F*CKIN JOB.

HOS, I will try very hard to stop calling you that, bad habits are hard to break. Have a good day and stop this stuff about eulogys. I honestly don't care what happens after I am dead and gone, only that I touched and made a difference in someones life.

[Rowan]

K, I am sorry for the position you find yourself in. Yes, keep the focus on the baby, and helping to keep him/her safe. I'll be keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers today.

[Rowan]

And I wish you guys could find a job, too. It's one thing I am grateful for, my job security, being 20 years with the cops. Maybe if we all got a place together? We could share the bills and the upkeep. I would love to live with a bunch of recovering women. We would take turns shopping, cooking, gardening, cleaning. The house would always smell good, the windows would be open with a gentle breeze blowing the curtains in, windchimes and flowers, houseplants, candles, soft soft music, Buddhas. Wouldn't it just be the best?

[HideorSeek]

OK, now I'm stewing over this...what is it about humans, that we concentrate on peoples flaws, not their strengths? We crucify (intentional word choice) most that are good and then elevate them to sainthood, posthumously. AND, we think that we are the most highly evolved of species. Frankly, I think we are seriously missing the boat (AND destroying the ocean as well). Don't get me started...

Sorry for the rant, but it really bugs me...

[Believe808]

Oh now I remember Ro. I was actually sitting here feeling bad that I even posted that because I couldn't remember the story behind it. Now I feel better, boy that is a load off the mind.

[HideorSeek]

Originally Posted by Rowan

And I wish you guys could find a job, too. It's one thing I am grateful for, my job security, being 20 years with the cops. Maybe if we all got a place together? We could share the bills and the upkeep. I would love to live with a bunch of recovering women. We would take turns shopping, cooking, gardening, cleaning. The house would always smell good, the windows would be open with a gentle breeze blowing the curtains in, windchimes and flowers, houseplants, candles, soft soft music, Buddhas. Wouldn't it just be the best?

Now THAT would go a long way towards making the world a better place (which is the POINT, isn't it?)

[Rowan]

It bugs me too. Elevating these celebrities - anyone for that matter - to sainthood, but only after they are dead.

[least]

I don't guess I care what people say or think about me when I'm gone, I just want my dogs to be loved and cared for as I did for them. And what a hoot, when family go thru my 'things' and say to themselves: "mom did this?" or "mom thought/felt this?" Ha ha. And it will take them a long time to go thru all my "stuff"... since I have so much "stuff"...

Watching a movie right now to pass the time. Might go back to bed for a while to pass more time. I have nothing to do yet and nowhere to be yet so I can do as I please... just don't know what I want to do!