Living In Sobriety Part 4

[nelco]

YouTube - Days like this

[least]

Good morning everyone!

[Believe808]

Good morning everyone of my beautiful friends

"Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake." I will say this over and over to myself today. There will be no more negative feelings, I will Act as If.

Stone, I'm so happy you will be going to a meeting today, you know the right things to do. I'm glad you have been sleeping too. YAY FOR STONEY.

HOS, you have a beautiful soul and I'm so glad you found LIS so that We found you.

Least, Hope you have a wonderful, No Stress kind of day.

Nel, what a scary dream to have. But it was only that, a dream. Funny how your hubby felt the aftermath of something stressful. We are given reminders. Glad your lawn mower is fixed (does that mean I have to mow today too)
Thanks for the song I keep thinking of the song "Mama said there'd be days like this"
Well, I'm enjoying my first cup coffee of the day, and in my prayers I will ask my HP for help with my issues.

[Believe808]

Oops I forgot and I'm so sorry Espresso, Good morning honey. You are a treasured friend also. Hope you have a nice day.

Ro, I see you haven't gotten back yet, I really hope you had a nice time and that you are starting to feel your med's working. Can't wait to hear about your weekend.

[nelco]

Bee I am so glad you are here. I found myself popping in and out of here checking to see if you were back. .That song is much better if van morrisaon(the orignal) sings it but I couldnt find it... I am busy right now, I will be back later
Keep working that program......you are one hell of a girl!!

Hi Least . I hope the K's dont wreck your head too much today.

Espresso .... to you and all a big hug

[Dee74]

Hope everyone has a good day

night!
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[stone]

Hi Donna. You sound a little better, I hope you are.

Couldn't make the meeting, not feeling too good, I wont go into to detail but the toilet is involved. I feel guilty for not going even though there is no way I could.
I will go tomorrow for sure.


Nelco, I think Van Morrison doesn't allow much of his stuff on Toutube.

[Believe808]

Hope you feel better Stoney

[stone]

Thanks Donna.

It is always something with me, like headaches, can't sleep, feel crap physically in some way and then just when I think I am OK some freak occurrence like today's toilet episode, lol. Actually, I have a headache too now I think about it.
Somehow I have remained in a fairly good mood through the last few weeks anyway, so that's a positive. The step work has helped with that.
The melatonin arrived today.

[HideorSeek]

....God Bless you all for being in my life. We are all in this together, through thick and thin. Funny how I posted last night about saving my brownie points. I could have swatted (or socked) my hubby and both girls last night. See, I have to watch when I'm feeling good because it can change in an instant. But I went for a walk, took a deep breath, evaluated what little was within my control, and used my journal to vent. I "thought" about drinking (cuz I was pissy and thought, "well, take THAT then"!), but it was just a distant thought, because I knew I would be hurting MYSELF only and it wouldn't change a damn thing. Still, like I said, Bee, not having the "option" was kind of a bummer and I remained with me...not the best of company, but at least a sober one.

And like I knew it would, a new day day brought a fresh start. HUGE progress for this alcoholic.

Funny how our HPs work, huh? I saw it as a BIG HINT to listen to my own advice and look for the lesson embedded in these challenges.

Glad YOU are feeling better Bee. Hi, Everyone

[stone]

Hi Hos.


The thought of drinking crossed my mind earlier today too...came out of nowhere, then I when I knew I couldn't I got a sort of deprived feeling, lol, like a childish, "but I wanna!" sort of feeling.

I knew to just wait it out, it didn't last long.

[Believe808]

I am so glad both of you thought out the drink. It does pass when we use the tools of the program. I'm so glad we are here for each other, we can get through anything as long as we are sober. Hugs to both of you. I am proud of you guys
Going to meeting at 12:30, maybe I will ask topic to be Turning it over , Letting Go Letting God. Think I need that today and every day. See ya guys later.

Ro, I am waiting to hear from you. I miss you

[nelco]

I "thought" about drinking (cuz I was pissy and thought, "well, take THAT then

The thought of drinking crossed my mind earlier today too...came out of nowhere, then I when I knew I couldn't I got a sort of deprived feeling, lol, like a childish, "but I wanna!" sort of feeling.

Well, Im also glad you people did not drink! The power of sharing together seems to work. First we work on the not drinking and then the defects! I can relate to that immaturity......I'll show you and I wanna stuff but it had to go ......for peace of mind.
Its friggin raining!! have to walk the husky (in the picture) whether ir rains or not. He needs exercise.
Hope you have a good meeting Believe, I think Rowan is back today. She is probably very busy settling back etc. Im dying to hear also.
Thanks stone for the van the man info..

[Believe808]

I wish my dogs would do their "business" outside, I can walk them, let them out in yard and they still come in and go on the "pee pad" Its my fault because when I got them it was cold out and I didn't want them to freeze so I taught them on pee pads. Well we do learn from our own mistakes lol.

[tanyapmc]

Hi people!

I am home from a long but good weekend. My hubby had to work in town so I had to do the trailer business without him. But I had two workers so that was good. LONG drive yesterday. What normally takes 5 hours took 7. I am very glad to be home and thinking of staying home this weekend.

I am sorry for the ones here that are struggling. It happens. It will pass. It always does for me. I have 901 days clean and sober today. That is a freakin' miracle! I used everyday for 15 years. God's grace!!

I'm going to try and post more here. I feel quite disconnected from SR and I don't like that feeling.

Much love to all of you.

[HideorSeek]

Hey Nel's Bells, that is one BEAUTIFUL dog! Is he/she an albino? I've never heard of a white huskie, but I know that they are doing a bunch of cross-breeding, so I may be out of the loop. We have always been German Shepherd people, ourselves, but Huskies are a really close second (only because they shed even MORE than GS's)....

About the drinking...it was just a thought that I held in my hand and looked at queerly...I know it's not an option....but I must admit, in my heart of hearts, when I have family members who go all tetchy on me, I think WHY aren't THEY working "a program"? They sure as hell need one! That's a BIG stumbling block for me. I totally get that I can only "control" me, but it doesn't mean that I can't get pissed at them. That's where I have a hard time letting go and not feeling "deprived".

We'll just take it slowly, Stoney. Unless I'm mistaken, you and I are the "newbiest" here. I'm just glad you are getting some sleep and that your mood is better. I don't want to know about you toilet troubles, though

Bee, I agree the "thought for the Day" (Didn't we all have those on the blackboard in elementary school???!!!) should be "letting go" or "turning it over". Good call....

[Believe808]

I have 901 days clean and sober today. That is a freakin' miracle! I used everyday for 15 years. God's grace!!

That's super Tanya, Yes we are miracles!!!!

I'm going to try and post more here. I feel quite disconnected from SR and I don't like that feeling.

I think that is a really good idea sweetie

Unless I'm mistaken, you and I are the "newbiest" here.

We are all "newbiest" ha ha

HOS you have been around awhile and I haven't bothered you about it lately but WHERE IS THAT AVATAR yes it does bother me that there is none there Hey I have to focus on something other than my problems.

[HideorSeek]

You are just TOO cute! I TOLD you I liked the "?" I think it kinda fits, cuz most of the time I have NO CLUE!!!!

[nelco]

Hey Nel's Bells, that is one BEAUTIFUL dog! Is he/she an albino? I've never heard of a white huskie, but I know that they are doing a bunch of cross-breeding, so I may be out of the loop. We have always been German Shepherd people, ourselves, but Huskies are a really close second

Samoyed husky......Google them HOS they are fab!! I totally understand about the family thing by the way. It does not matter how long we are sober they can still drive us nuts!!
It is us that has the program though so we have the tools I suppose to change. Let me share an experience with you.... When I was getting sober I was once very angry with my family and shared it with a member (she was a while around) she told me to say I was going for a drink and it would not be long before they jump into place. I thought this was crazy and promised myself I would never blackmail them emotionally. I never threatened them with a drink. That woman is 20 yrs or more and she still does that stuff but a more miserable family I have yet to meet and they all walk on eggshells around her. NOT my idea of sobriety at all. Our families should not have to live in fear of us drinking if we have a bad day.

[HideorSeek]

I know that it's immature of me, but part of my problem is that I tend towards martyrdom complex. It's always a hard decision for me to decide between speaking my mind (To thine own self...) and "letting go". If I just let them "be them", then, honestly, I'm in danger of "stuffing stuff" and, to the best of my knowledge, this is one of the factors that landed me here in the first place. So....I try to figure out if saying something will do any good (is it for my benefit or theirs), if it's changeable behavior, will they WANT to change the behavior, how does it affect ME?...things like that. I know that I'm a perfectionist with myself. If someone pointed out some flaw in my reasoning, or some defect of character, I'd definitely try to change. but that's me. Sometimes I let it go (won't do any good) and sometimes I speak up. Does that sound like the right attitude? Really, I'm asking for honest feedback.

I guess it's all part and parcel of putting the "Serenity Prayer" into practice....

[least]

Having a decent day, bit of a headache but nothing too bad. Bee, why don't you take the 'pee pads' outside and re-train them that way?

Just came home from cleaning house for a friend from church. She pays me a little so I get some money and she gets her house cleaned for cheap. Gave me enough money to get cat food, lol. Trying a new food since the one cat gets urinary tract infections sometimes and this food is supposed to prevent those. The food wasn't cheap but still cheaper than vet bills!

Just taking it easy today. About to make some lunch cause I haven't eaten yet today and I'm hungry.

Have a lovely day everyone!

[nelco]

It can be difficult and I can only share my experience. Hopefully more of the LIS peeps will give you theirs. People should not have to except unacceptable behaviour from us but neither should we have to accept it from them today. It says in the big book "as God's people we stand on our own two feet we crawl before no one"
Believe is correct in that we are all newcomers in a way. When I got sober my son was 10 and I was dealing with a 10 year old. He is almost 22 now and its different. Same with lots of stuff. Things keep changing. What I try to do a lot of the time is speak in terms of I. Like I felt hurt when you said that or I feel disrespected when you leave the dishes or It makes me sad to see (insert whatever) ........... instead of "you did this" or "you didn't do that" or " you said whatever"...... This way I am getting in touch with my feelings, setting boundaries and I am not accusing. Its difficult to get it right all the time. I certainly don't but ........progress not perfection

[nelco]

Trying a new food since the one cat gets urinary tract infections sometimes and this food is supposed to prevent those

I have a cat like that Least. Whats the name of the food??

[least]

It's Purina One, Special Care, Urinary Tract Health. Don't know if it's available over there but would guess it is. I'm just trying it for the first time so don't know if it helps or not. I hope so...


Dry cat food, it cost me $25 for 16 lbs. I got it at PetCo.

[IO Storm]

Peeps... :

Congrats Tan on 901 sober and clean today, : and welcome home!

Nice to see everyone today...I really appreciate you all sharing what you gain from

your meetings. Because of my circumstances here, and with the protective order thing

with the x..and no car, I normally go to Monday Nite HG, and my Thursday Women's

Meeting and Alanon. I love hearing about meetings.

HOS...

Your positive sharing has lifted me up today...I've been a little depressed lately..it was

nice to some good stuff when I opened the page...sometimes we're strong, sometimes

not so strong..this the strength of the forums..neat!

Donna)))

Nelcs)))

Least)))

Stoney..very normal feelings you have going on there..."thirsty" feelings eh?

Why not get some ice cold bubbly water and sip all day? A treat. Lol...

I used to take my Perrier to meetings...an old timer said I was "sublimating"..

but it worked. Whatever works for you.

Better go. My real world is very busy today....hope to hear from Ro Ro real soon...