Class of June-Part 2

[jade09]

WOW......i've been away from my computer since Saturday, i've missed so much!!! sorry to hear some have fallen, but like we always say...we have ALL been there, and i know i've fallen so many times i've lost count....but the most important thing to remember is that this is a PROCESS!!! everyone has to find what is going to work for you individually....i'm going on almost 4 years of trying to quit FOR GOOD, it sounds f*cking pathetic i know but i feel like i've finally found my magic formula to beat this for good. you have to be honest with yourself, realize you can take back control and stay in control. it's a miserable way to live, you deserve a better life.....now is your chance to take a stand and fight for yourself...you deserve to be happy, without this burdon hanging your neck....don't let yourself get down...just pick up where you left off and keep moving foward....YOU CAN AND WILL DO THIS!!!! you have to believe it though....your mind will play tricks on you...don't listen...stay focused on the life you really want to be living!!!
i'm so trying to follow this...it's hard, but it is enough to get me to the next day at least until i am stronger and more stable

day 16 here---so glad to here of 30 Chama---that is awesome!!!! keep going strong!! i know so many others posted thier dates too, i had 4 days of posts to read???? i have to go back...sorry

[Chamabama]

Waterfountain

[Chamabama]

Good to see you Jade! I was worried! Sorry I missed your 2 weeks!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!

[Eclipse]

Way to go Waterfountain! Keep up the great work!

Splen and bjork I hope no drinking will help me loose weight and get my buttocks out exercise.

Thanks for the nice words Lindsay and Cham.

Welcome carl,

Where are you Kimmy???

Today was a much better day for me. Went to 2 more AA meetings. I almost can't wait to go. Still scared of running into someone I know, what what would that mean?

I liked the women's meeting last night better. They really talked about the things that concern me...kids, keeping house up, finances and how the drinking messed with all that.

My doctor put me on Lorazapam, Secroul and still on Lexapro. What the heck. But she said if you had pneumonia you would take medicine for it wouldn't you?

So we'll try and see what happens.

Have a nice evening all.

Cindy

[jade09]

Hey Chama
i really haven't been posting my days...i've counted so many times before i felt like it wasn't enough to be proud of...but i re-thought that and i realized i'm proud of every single day that i choose not to drink...everyday sober is taking me closer to a better way of living...so YEAH for you on 30!!!! or is it 31 32 by now?? I kinda got lost trying to read back on everybodys posts....
and thanks for your other thread...and sharing...brought my emotional level up a notch....honesty with yourself is a powerful tool i've learned...it only took me a few years
i'm jealous of all the hiking you do!!!! makes me miss colorado and all the awesome hikes i could do there....where i'm living now makes it harder to enjoy outside!!

[Chamabama]

Jade - You should be proud! It's hard, especially at the begining, that's maybe why AA give sout so many chips at the begining, right? Positive reinforcement is always a good thing. I've spent enough time beating myself up for everything wrong I've ever done, why shouldn't we feel proud when we're getting something right? Doesn't hurt anyone, right? I'm finishing up day 32 and feeling just fine!
Glad my post was ok. And I'm so happy for the response I got so I'm really glad I took and chance.
Sorry you can't enjoy the outdoors as much. Too hot? Too many bugs? I hate bugs! Not too many bugs here which is wonderful. The hiking has been really good for me. Tomorrow my neighbor is going with me.

Cindy - If you run into someone you know, it would mean that they too have a problem that they are working on. You could support one another! Your worst fear could turn into a blessing? Who knows!

Glad you're enjoying the meetings. I think that's wonderful and I'm really glad that you're making new sober friends and getting connected. Have you found a sponsor yet?

Hope everyone is well tonight!

[jade09]

Congrats waterfountain!!!! Another day closer to the life you deserve!! Be proud, and stay strong

Chama---i'm back in New Jersey....and where i'm living at the moment does not have anything that I can just walk out my front door and go hiking...but when i'm at the beach house it's great i just got so spoiled when i lived in colorado....i walked everywhere, and the hiking was unbelievable!! plus right now i'm in school and working---and the two are not close to eachother, so my free time is hard to find

[Jade19]

Hey all, just wanted to pop in and say hi and still sober =)


HUGS!
Rebecca

[bjork]

Congratulations Waterfountain!

Jade19-I have missed your posts!!

Jade09-Congratulations on day 17!

I just realized there are two Jades LOL

Eclipse-I'm glad you are still checking in. I haven't been to a meeting here yet. I just found english speaking meetings in the area. I'm afraid of running into someone I know as well. One of my colleagues is a member of the church that hosts it and helps out with a lot of their activities. I'm a little apprehensive about going, but I know that I will eventually get over this.....I hope.

[bnme247]

Yep.....it's a regionalism!!!.....crawfishing is scooting backwards w/ur fist up!!!!...like a craw fish does....to back up....or back out...i use it all the time, i am notorious for doing just that!!!....i am 8 days free of the narcotics and i am starting to feel like me again,,,,,,not so bad....i used to like me......i believe i still got it!!!!hope to hear from u alll soon....hope everyone has a blesssed day!!......bnme

[eoghanacht]

Hello.. hey chama.. well I made it to this forum.. not sure exactly what it is, lol.. a bit nervous (and I don't know why).
I think it's like a daily posting thing, right? Just for people who have just started in recovery?
Well anyway just wanted to say hello/hi/hey/wotcha.
If it IS a daily posting thing then I'll just add that I'm tired today (oh, as usual, then), went to bed after 3am again.. I think it's a 'legacy' thing from my boozy evenings, in which I always went to bed at that time...
Well I'll post more later I guess... seeya

[Lindsay]

Day 24 today...yay!!! I'll check in later this afternoon.

[Chamabama]

EOG! Congrats again on 1 week. Guess you must be on day 8 today? Just like bnme! Congrats to both of you!

I don't know that there's any formal definition for this thread. It's just a bunch of folk that list June as their sobrity month so we're all going through the same sort of thing. From there, we just make it whatever we want it to be. I think we talk more than a lot of the "Clas of ..." groups.

Most of us check in pretty regularly, share our ups and downs, bad days and upcoming events that we're nervous about, etc.

Sorry you're nervous! No need to be. We're a nice group in my opinion.

Rebecca! (Jade19) - Day 3, right? AWESOME! It's so glad to have you back. How are you feeling?

Jade09 - New Jersey? That is quite a switch from Colorado. Is Rutgers in Jersey? If so, then I've been there once to visit a friend in school. If not, then I've never been there I was at a conference in Philly and took a train to see her. I know I crossed a State line, but I can't remember which... and I wasn't even drinking, duh

Bjork - When is the next English speaking meeting? Let us know and we'll ride along in your pocket with you. Tee Hee (I'm feeling goofy this morning!) Why are you in Italy? (if you feel comfortable to share)

Bnme - 'Crawfishing' - I love it! Now I want to use the term all the time but no one will have the slightest idea what I'm talking about... but that might be good too! I'm sure you still got it! I'm glad to hear that you are starting to get back in touch with your core!

I'm anxious today. But in a good mood! My therapy is usually on Tuesday but this week it's today (Wednesday) because I'm going to do a double session. I've got some stuff that I need to process with her and it's going to be hard. I'm sure it'll be worth it, but I'm also pretty sure it's going to be emotional stuff. I didn't sleep that well last night, kept waking up every couple of hours, and my stomach is a wreck. I'm going on a hike with my neighbor later this morning and maybe going to do a little housework to keep my mind off the upcoming session. Chances are good that I'm going to need some extra support this evening so I imagine I'm going to be very present on this board tonight. Doing whatever I need to do to keep myself sober. Day 33 for me!

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

[Chamabama]

Lindsay! Day 24! Yee Haw! Your getting real close to the 1 month mark! I can't wait! Have a reat day!

[Eclipse]

Good morning all,

Pretty foggy from the seroquel. Slept great, but brain is not processing well. I guess I'll see what happens after some coffee. Should be leaving for work by know, but that just ain't gonna happen. Luckily my boss is out of town.

I will check in later. Keep it up guys and hang in there all.

cindy

[Jade19]

Hey Chama,

It is day 3 and I am feeling ok..not the best but I remember feeling worse. I have been sleeping a lot and having wild dreams...well I should clarify, I have been sleeping a lot during the day and not so much at night. I am completely reversed. I have such a feeling of sadness...not sure where it is coming from but I am just dealing with it....haven't wanted to drink but I am just blah...blah blah blah....but I am so glad you all are doing well!! YEAH FOR US ALL!!!! When I chipper up I'll write more...love you guys....Reb

[jade09]

Hello everyone Glad to see everyone posting There is quite a few of us....it's hard keeping up with everyones story...
Thank you all for your posts....I know I've said this before, but I never imagined how much this was going to help me!!! I just happened to come across this website looking for aa meetings---i never did make it to a meeting, but I have found another support system here, so I thank you all for your posts, and always being out there, someone to talk to....anytime I want. I hope I can return the support......

[eoghanacht]

Hey Chama and everyone... Chama, thanks for the welcome..and the congrats!
I still don't know why I'm nervous. Must be an alkie thing. Or maybe I shouldn't say that? Oops.

Um.. I hope all goes well ..or rather goes not bad... actually by the time you read this you should be back from therapy.. not sure if I'll be in bed or not, so really I should say I hope you did ok. I know it's tough (from what my partner went thru). And it can really take it out on you. So I'm just sending you hugs after the event and just want to say that if you need to talk and I'm not around (because I'm asleep or out), you can always email me if you wanted to. It's entirely upto you. Just take care of you.
ok?

[bnme247]

hello everyone!!! just wanted to tell u all thanks for posting....sure is good to hear from all of u.....i'm tired 2 nite....gonna turn in early.....back in the a.m. hugs!!!bnme

[Chamabama]

Rebecca - I'm sorry your sleeping is all twisted around. You know that it'll turn around, right? That first week is wicked! Glad your surviving it. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help or if you ever need to chat.

Eog - Thank you for your wishes regarding my therapy today. That really touches my heart. Thank you for paying attention! It actually went very well overall. I mean - it was brutal! But the good kind of brutal where you walk out with a headache but feeling much lighter and very much 'heard'. You know you can pm me anytime too, right? I like to think I'm a very good listener! I hope you're doing well today. I'm not sure I have a handle on the time difference between California and the UK, but I guess you must be on day 8 or 9? Very well done my friend! Very well done!

WELCOME EOG!!!!!!!!!!! It's really nice to have you here!

[waterfountain]

Quick check in.... sorry I haven't been chattin' it up folks. Both last night and tonight I had late nights w/the boyfriend. I'm just getting back now. I gotta get to bed; it's after 11 already!
I'll hopefully have more time to talk with you guys tomorrow. I hope everyone is well!
Take care - talk to you all tomorrow!

(Onward to day 16 )

[bnme247]

well good morning june bugs.....all of you!......we had some much needed rain last night along with some lightning and the power went out....good thing i was ready for bed....just wanted to check in and tell u all i am looking forward to seeing what everyone's up to when i get in from work, today!!....have a good 1!!much luv.....bnme

[Eclipse]

Good morning. Feeling pretty good. Was supposed to get up and walk with a friend, but the doctor has me on seroquel and just knocks the heck out of me. So when I woke up it was 6:27 and were were supposed to walk at 6:00! I will have to call and apologize to her.

Been focusing and not drinking. I have been5 AA meetings in 3 days. It seems excessive, but it is so amazing to see all the women that are moms, grandmas, aunts and sisters that are normal as can be all attending and getting help from each other.

I hope you are all well. I am worried about Kimmy. Hope she gets her tushy back in here.
:ghug
Cindy

[bjork]

Hello everybody! Just checking and reading all the posts.

I had a nice day today going to the gym and getting my hair done.

I have watched two movies today and yesterday that make me think a lot about quitting smoking (Gran Torino and The Bucket List). Both are excellent movies!

[Chamabama]

Just saying hello! I'm having a kinda crappy emotional day. Just the aftermath of a tough therapy session. No danger of drinking.

I'm trying to keep busy. Did my volunteer work this morning. I'm supposed to go out with friends this evening but I'm really not sure I can do it. I know it would be good for me. I shouldn't sit around and stew. But I'm not 100% sure I can put on the happy face tonight.

Think I'll take a nap and see how I feel later.

Hope everyone's having a good day!