Class of June-Part 2

[bnme247]

BJORK.....OMG, I AM SITTING HERE YAWNING AND FIGHTING TO KEEP MY EYES OPEN AS I TYPE.....WHAT IS GOING ON....I CAN'T SEEM TO GET ENOUGH LATELY!!!IT'S RAINING HERE RIGHT NOWMY FAVORITE WEATHER @ NIGHT...PERFECT FOR SLEEPING....I CA HARDLY WAIT TO NESTLE DOWN......GOOD TO HEAR FROM U....I'M SLEEPY BUT HANGING TOUGH....ALL I HAVE TO DO IS THINK ABOUT WHAT W/ DRAWAL WAS LIKE AND I REMEMBER REAL QUICK WHY I AM SOBER FROM NARCOTICS.....EWWWW, DON'T WISH THAT ON MY WORSTEST...LOL....OF ENEMIES!!!......FOR NOW GONNA SAY GOOD NIGHT....OR DAY WHICH EVER IT IS FOR U WHERE U ARE!!!,,,,,BNME!:

[Chamabama]

Just checking in for a quick hello. I'm still sober. Visit with the family is going nicely, but dang, kids are a lot of work!
I'll catch up when they leave next week. Hope all is well!

[bjork]

Chama-Thanks for checking in! Glad to hear the family visit is going well and the kids are keeping you busy

BNME-It's crazy how long the exhaustion lasts. I just keep in mind that my body has a lot of repair work to do for all the time I spent damaging it. Hope you get some strength back soon!

[Lindsay]

Good morning everyone!

Did anyone happen to see the most recent Intervention episode on ae? Bret's? Oh my gosh...it was so sad. If anyone is interested in watching, you can go to ae.com and watch full episodes. I have somewhat mixed feelings about families/friends staging interventions...but I enjoy watching and learning from this show none the less.

Anyways- TGIF!!!!!! I'm in a good mood today. I don't really have any big weekend plans. I've been discussing moving in with my boyfriend...and I'm about to really FINALIZE it. It's a huge move for me- not just physically...but emotionally... I've lived with my best friend since college. That's about 7 years! It will be strange at first and certainly an adjustment...but I think moving on is the best move for me right now. She does still drink and has some wreckless tendancies which I'd probably be better off not being around.

The main obsticale involved in moving out is that we bought the house together. She said that her parents will likely buy me out of the mortgage and pick up payments...just to avoid her having to move somewhere else. (she has 3 dogs and could never afford a house on her own) There is a part of me that feels kind of guilty leaving her with that burden...I'm not sure how she will be able to pay bills, etc...but as my parents have been telling me I really need to just focus on myself...

SO...what are everyone's weekend plans??? Anything exciting???

[Jade19]

OMG I am craving so bad right now.....I am bored and hot and a beer sounds soo good right now. i feel like jumping out of my skin right now...I think I am going to go for a walk or grab something to eat...I was doing petty good until today so I am going to try and think what is bringing this on...GUHHHHH!! HATE this feeling!!!!! Today will be my 20th day....I WILL NOT DRINK!!!!!

Write more later...

[Jade19]

Ok back I have to get this out of my head and onto here....if this triggers someone I apologize in advance and don't read further!!

I am completely glamorizing right now....
the can in my hand
the smell of it
the beads on the can
the taste, oh the taste
the calm it brings over me
the relaxed state
hmmmmmm breathing it in....


OK now back to reality
the hangovers, the guilt, the remorse, the shame, the pain in my soul...breathing it out now and remembering....the last 20 days have been too da&m amazing to throw away for this...I am BETTER than this!! I can't let my sick little thoughts creep back in and I will not let this win. I am pissed off at myself for even thinking this way!!!!

WHEW....I feel better...not by much but a little...ok off to go for that long walk now...

Thanks for letting me vent.....

~Reb

[waterfountain]

Hey guys!

I've been offline for easily a week the wireless network adapter in my laptop here had been incredibly buggy. I finally had to do a system restore to get back online.

What have I missed? How is everyone doing? I hope things are moving along well for everyone

I'm still doing well! I'm through day 38 (as of 25 minutes ago, hehehee), and am looking forward to hitting six weeks. My psychologist told me at this week's meeting that six-weeks is the well-regarded amount of time that it takes for "new habits" to start to stick. Starting an exercise routine now doesn't seem that difficult - afterall, the last few weeks have breezed by.
I have felt tempted to seek-out booze a couple of times in the past week or so.... but I've found that analyzing my environment/situation at the time has led me to easily disregard the urge, all by realizing that the environment/situation is just fine as it is, and "catching a buzz" wouldn't add to it at all. I highly recommend going through such a train of thought whenever any of you get a craving. Please let me know if it helps - I'd really like to think that this kind of (almost) mantra is as helpful as it is simple.

My long-term boyfriend has been out of state since Wednesday, and won't be back until Sunday night. I'm feeling a little lonely. In the past, I would've already been up to 5 or 6 drinks by this time of night while alone and bored. Tonight, I'm gonna go eat up time playing isketch (you all should try that, btw!), snacking, working out, and cleaning.

I'll come back in a bit (gotta restart to install a driver) and start reading through recent posts by you folks. I really feel out of the loop! I hope I can easily catch back up with you all!

Take care everyone; I'll talk with you all soon!

[Lindsay]

Hey Reb! How are you doing today? Sounds like you had some major cravings...congrats for really allowing yourself to think through it. It's beneficial to know the thought process and hear it come from someone else-- because we're all there at some point. You did a wonderful job of not letting that distorted alcoholic voice win. yay!!!

welcome back waterfountain! congrats on 38 days! i can relate to having to find things to keep you busy and occupy your time. for me, alcohol has always filled that void. if i was bored, i drank...what an entertaining way to pass time! (or...not) i've never heard of isketch, what's that?

bnme- you sure have been sleepy lately! are you getting enough rest? i know that your drug of choice was narcotics...but what exactly were you taking? i'm sorry, my memory is suddenly failing me... also, do you drink at all? i've always found it strange that some people who are addicted to narcotics can drink and have no problems in that department.

bjork- congrats on both your sober days AND your no-smoking days! that's great. being in a new place can DEFINITELY be triggering...i can relate...yay for staying strong.

cham! hope all is well with you. i'm sure you're staying busy...haha.


well today is 48 days. i'm excited to reach 60- haven't done that probably since i took my first sip of alcohol. well actually, i haven't since the day i started college, haha. so that would be since 2002. damn...7 years of insanity. i don't EVER want to waste away another DAY with alcohol.

today...i'm going to go to the gym and then head to my boyfriends to lay out. typical weekend! hope everyone has a great one.

[bjork]

Lindsay-Congrats on 48 days! I drank to alleviate boredom as well. I am much better with my time management now and manage to keep myself busy most of the time.

Reb-Your post was good! I could hear myself doing the exact same thing (except with a glass/bottle of wine). Thanks for reminding me of the games that my head can play. Glad you were strong!

My TV stopped working yesterday. I think the heat finally put it over the edge. Had dinner at a friend's house lastnight. NO temptation. Very easily declined the wine.

I hope everybody is doing well tonight!

[waterfountain]

Lindsay,
Thanks much! It's good to be back! It's funny, what you said:
"...what an entertaining way to pass time! (or...not)" is exactly the conclusion I've come to. For whatever reason, drinking did seem like the perfect thing to pass the time. Since going sober, I almost feel like time passes much to quickly sometimes! Of course, there are still bouts of boredom.... but part of the fun mystery of being sober is discovering new things to scare away the boredom - or, sometimes even better, rediscovering things that you enjoy that can eat-up a whole night
As for isketch; man is that fun! It's like online pictionary; there are 10 or so players allowed in each room, 10 rounds of drawing (drawers are randomly picked by the game) where everyone in the room gets to guess at what's being drawn. You earn points by guessing correctly (first person to get it gets 10 points, 2nd gets 9, etc), and at the end of 10 rounds, the person with the highest points wins. You can pass on drawing and only guess if you'd like (or if you hate using a laptop pad to draw, heheee), and there's a parallel chat function, so you can be as social as you want during the game. Oh, it's fun
If anyone here is interested in meeting up to play, I think you can make your own rooms, so we could make a SR room if we were so inspired. Either way, I highly recommend it as a fun way to destress online.

Bjork,
Good job! Did you get sort of a rewarding feeling after realizing you felt no temptation? I almost get a swell of pride when I feel completely at ease with politely refusing a drink, or even when I hear myself say "Just water, please".
Bummer about the TV, but... it is summer. Go out and play instead :P (yeah, I know it's probably damned hot... sorry! It's freezing here in MN... in July! Gah!)

Time for breakfast! Back in a bit!

[Jade19]

Hey Lindsay and Bjork, thanks for asking about me!! I made it through that dreadful day/night and am back on track, didn't drink YEAH!!...was a really scary moment for me though. Thanks again!!!

I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend!!!

HUGS to you ALL!!
Reb

[waterfountain]

Originally Posted by Jade19

Hey Lindsay and Bjork, thanks for asking about me!! I made it through that dreadful day/night and am back on track, didn't drink YEAH!!...was a really scary moment for me though. Thanks again!!!

I hope everyone is having an amazing weekend!!!

HUGS to you ALL!!
Reb

Today is a new day Reb; I'm very happy for you that you've come so far, even if it has been a tough journey

Today is day what for you? Are you at 3 weeks today? Well, no matter what the count, congrats and best of luck!

Well folks, I'm off to spend the morning and afternoon with my mom. We're going to a local casino (this will be our second time ever!), so wish us luck! If I win big, I'll happily send you junebugs some chocolate or candy of your choice and if not.... then I'll try not whine about it lol.

Take care everyone!

[bjork]

Hello everybody!

Reb-Glad you're staying strong!

Waterfountain-Hope you win big at the casino!!!!

Today is 30 days for me!!! YAY! (13 days no cigs)

Yes, I am applauding myself LOL

[bnme247]

.........CONGRATS, BJORK!!!!

[Lindsay]

congrats on 30 days bjork!

[Jade19]

WOOHOOO!!! CONGRATS ON 30 DAYS!!!!!


And Lindsay, I have 20 days, working on 21 today... =)

[Wantthatfeeling]

My sobriety date is June 8, 2009. I am looking for friends here on SR. Wanted to say hi and see if I can get some directions on how to integrate myself into this wonderful group.

Thanks!

[waterfountain]

No big monies
But my mom and I had a blast!

WHOOOO!!!! Congtats Bjork! Here's to at least 30 more! *ice-water w/lemom-cheers*

Reb,
I hope the rest of your day 21 goes over well - happy three weeks!!!!

Welcome, wantthatfeeling! I really love this group of people - June appears to have been a motivational month for us; there have been ups and downs, but there's also been tons of support and encouragement to go along with it all. So sit down, relax, and stay awhile

I'm off to spend the rest of the night with my boyfriend - he's just getting back into town after 5 days away. *happy dance*
Talk with you folks later!

Best wishes,
WF

[bjork]

Welcome Wantthatfeeling!! Just come on in and keep posting. Glad to have another person in the class of June! What have you been doing with yourself now that you are sober?

Waterfountain- Have fun!!!! ;0)

Today my student had to cancel tutoring with me, so I am going to the market and then the gym (earlier than planned). After that, I am going to the grocery store.

I have been cleaning all morning and will finish when I get back. Then I will watch The Bachelorette! It's still not on the site I download it from. Don't tell me anything PLEASE! I guess now is a good time to mention that I have a 1-2 day delay on The Bachelorette and Big Brother LOL

I was noticing that my hair was drier than usual. I thought it was ONLY b/c the water was hard here. I googled it and realized another reason to remain sober (alcohol also dries out your hair). Oy vay! Looking forward to better hair soon!

Enjoy your day. I'll check in later.

[NewBeginning010]

Hi Everyone & welcome Wantthatfeeling ;-)

So great to see everyone's sober time getting longer & longer. Things are good here & I had a wonderful weekend with family & friends as well as mountain biking & tennis.

I had to say no to few parties & events that I knew were going to be booze fests but it had to be done. I am starting to be able to listen to my internal self & say no when I need to (I used to be a pretty bad yes man in the past...especially if booze was involved).

I hope everyone is doing well.

P.S. Bjork or anyone else that is looking for movies or tv shows to catch up on I use www.ninjavideo.net just thought I would share.

Take Care,

NB

[ChameleonBoy]

24 days sober and I have been through too much this last week. I don't know how much longer I will be here, not because of drinking but because life is going so fast around me.

Alcohol, the way I drink it.....is not living. I started out using it to not feel the overwhelming onslaught of life coming at me.....now I have no desire in anyway to separate myself from the amazing awe and wonder of life.

Thank you for giving me this moment of your lives while I was getting back up and trying in my awkward way to be a part of this. I am now at peace with truth. Alcohol is a dead end lie. I am better then what alcohol has to offer.

Take care everyone here. You have been kind to me, and I thank you for it.

[NewBeginning010]

Originally Posted by ChameleonBoy

24 days sober and I have been through too much this last week. I don't know how much longer I will be here, not because of drinking but because life is going so fast around me.

Alcohol, the way I drink it.....is not living. I started out using it to not feel the overwhelming onslaught of life coming at me.....now I have no desire in anyway to separate myself from the amazing awe and wonder of life.

Thank you for giving me this moment of your lives while I was getting back up and trying in my awkward way to be a part of this. I am now at peace with truth. Alcohol is a dead end lie. I am better then what alcohol has to offer.

Take care everyone here. You have been kind to me, and I thank you for it.

Hi ChameleonBoy, so glad to see that you are doing well

[Jade19]

HI all and WELCOME Wantthatfeeling!!

I am so excited I made it to the 3 week mark..didn't think i could do it honestly..I slipped so many times before...

Interesting about the hair Bjork...I wondered why my hair was so dry and brittle..I was really starting to lose it towards the end there. I hope it comes back nice and glossy! LOL I am huge BB fan!! Darn that Ronnie!!! guh!

Anyway I am so glad to se sooo many posts today!! You guys are the whole reason I am here and I am so lucky to be a part of this fabulous group!!

ChameleonBoy, I hope you check in every now and then and I hope you keep kicking some booty!!! We'll miss you but life is calling and you got to answer =)


Hugs everyone!!
~Reb

[ChameleonBoy]

Did somebody say Big Brother? I may have spoke to soon about not spending as much time here......I confess, Big Brother is my weakness. I can go days without watching TV anymore.....until Big Brother starts.....my other addiction.

Originally Posted by bjork

I have been cleaning all morning and will finish when I get back. Then I will watch The Bachelorette! It's still not on the site I download it from. Don't tell me anything PLEASE! I guess now is a good time to mention that I have a 1-2 day delay on The Bachelorette and Big Brother LOL

Same here Bjork, I work Sunday and Tues day nights to I watch all three shows on Thursday nights. I just watch BB from the CBS site. Big Brother 11
Ok.....back to work for me.

Ronnie--->
Lydia--->
Russell--->

[bjork]

Hello everybody!

CONGRATULATIONS REB!!!! You are doing great! Yep, alcohol and smoking dry your hair out. I was fine until 35. Seems like maintenance gets a lot more intense in your mid-late 30's LOL

Chameleon-You are so right about Ronnie. Lydia drives me crazy. She was all for the underdog until she became a part of the "Jessie harem". Now she's becoming a bully (everything she cried about and said she hated in the beginning). Russell....not sure if he's just stupid or playing? I love Jordan and Jeff! I abhore Chima I have been watching after darks too. I've got to stop and just watch the show.

Today is day 32 for me (2 weeks no cigs).

Ummm....this may be TMI for some, but I am constipated for the first time in my life. UGH! I'm going to hold off on cutting the caffeine out of my diet.