Class of November-Part 10 - Page 18 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

FizzyWater · 07-12-2009, 02:46 PM

Hope yer ok Nands.

I actually had a bottle of vodka in my hand yesterday when I was in Tesco's.

I picked it up looked at it, really wanted to buy it, then just a little something made me put it back, don't know what ..............................................

I actually kind of know I'm going to drink again just don't know exactly when yet, and every day I manage to push the day back makes it less likely, or so I hope, maybe I'm just delaying the inevitable.

Anyhows, for me anyway, its not the day I drink again that I'm that bothered about to be honest, its the day after.

If I do drink and am able to cut it off at just one day then I'll be fine, the concern is that I find myself back in the situation where I've been drinking for a year again.

So ok Nands you drank yesterday or today or whatever timezone we're in, we are allowed to leave it at that though, you don't have to keep on going into today or tomorrow.

So you drank one time out of nearly the last 2 years, so what, worse things will happen, please don't go on to make this blip something bigger than it is.

**Dee74** · 07-12-2009, 03:00 PM

OK blunt time

Nands - there is no 'hope I wake up sober' - you have numbers, use them.

Fizzy - once you start think about inevitability, you're gone. You can stop this if you want. Do you want to?

Drinkings no answer to your stress right now.

And the 'just one night' thing is bollocks - I know if I go I'll go for weeks, if not years.
D

FizzyWater · 07-12-2009, 03:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Dee74

Fizzy - once you start think about inevitability, you're gone. You can stop this if you want. Do you want to?

Drinkings no answer to your stress right now.

And the 'just one night' thing is bollocks - I know if I go I'll go for weeks, if not years.
D

There's a "maybe" in there mate !!!!!!!

Do I want to stop it, I'm here ain't I, and I'm still sober.

Do I agree the " just one night " thing is bollocks ? Probably, I can't be sure though unless we try, and I guess thats not a secure way to find out.

I've already said myself in another post that whatever happens this week is better met sober, don't mean I don't have thoughts though, ain't far enough down the road yet for that.

**Dee74** · 07-12-2009, 03:31 PM

It was rhetorical, Fiz.
You wouldn't be here otherwise.

But you can stop it - no maybe about that.
We all can.

Keep it up, mate.
D

Pixy1 · 07-12-2009, 04:55 PM

You both talk a lot of sense!

Fizzy thank you for sharing that and being so honest about yourself

colagirl · 07-12-2009, 06:26 PM

Hi everyone!
(((Nands))) are you okay? I hope you check in here soon! And I agree with Dee, use those numbers!

Fizzy I've been so convinced about that one night thing a number of times. It's never worked out for me. Sometimes it might be one night for a little while, but within a few weeks it's back to one more night, and then one more, and then why not another. Don't do it!

Day 7 for me today. Even made it through a get-together with my condescending, irritating-as-f*ck visiting uncle yesterday!

Hope you are all well.

ananda · 07-12-2009, 11:16 PM

bottle is done....see you all tomarrow......i know the drill

**Dee74** · 07-13-2009, 12:36 AM

See you tomorrow!
D

allport · 07-13-2009, 04:20 AM

It is so hard when people are struggling

I totally believe that everyone can get back on track and back to enjoying sobriety rather than just getting by.

I hope everyone keeps posting to let us know whats going on.

I know (to my own cost) that being on SR isn't the be all and end all of staying sober but I also know that isolating is the wrong way to go.

Everyone look after yourselves. x

Pixy1 · 07-13-2009, 06:13 AM

Nands How has your day started? Have yoy gone to work?

**Dee74** · 07-13-2009, 06:16 AM

Hope everyone has a good day - you too Nands
night!

D

colagirl · 07-13-2009, 08:43 AM

Morning everyone! This phone keeps deleting what I'm writing so sorry if none of this makes sense (less sense than usual, I mean).

Nands you're usually up and about by now, how is it this morning?

Ally I agree, it's hard to see others struggle. I hate this disease!

LB - how are you doing?

Anyone heard from the legendary donkey?

Alright, tunnels coming up, have to go... stay safe everyone.

ananda · 07-13-2009, 10:21 AM

not gonna lie

i'm not making the right decsion

i have negotiated a commitment with my son. I had told him when i got sober that if i drank i would go back to treatment immediatly.

instead, my mom is going to come this evening and stay with me for a few days to see that i eat right, take care of the physical problems and get that few days away from the drink so i canget things back on track and do the deal.

i don't know if this is the right thing, but i am not willing to just let myself go down the tubes. I am gonna fight to get my life back. I'll try not to post to much drivil...and i'm trying to watch myself in chat.

I have alot of feeling that i've harmed people by drinking...but that just leads to a bs reason for me to drink....and i refuse to go there

I hope it is ok that right now i'm a little bit pissed off...i'm angry that i am drinking and i am determined that i am gonna stop.....i refuse to let this go on

Pixy1 · 07-13-2009, 12:45 PM

Good on ya nands!

Keep use posted on how you are doing. Hug

**Dee74** · 07-13-2009, 02:57 PM

hey Nands

did you stop? I hope so.

We both know drinkings not gonna make anything better - it just means you keep opening the same old wound. I hope having your mom there resets the clock.

...and you haven't harmed me

take it easy
D

SpeedyJason · 07-13-2009, 06:21 PM

Check in time...

:ghug2

ananda · 07-13-2009, 10:41 PM

mom's here...bottle is dumped...i'm back on board

she won't want me posting and on the comuter much....and since she is here willing to help i'll go along.

i'll get in when i can

**Dee74** · 07-13-2009, 11:42 PM

D

ananda · 07-14-2009, 05:32 AM

just checking in quickly.

pretty sick at the moment

just gotta get past these first few days

Pixy1 · 07-14-2009, 05:34 AM

Thats good to hear nands. You will be back to your old self in no time

Jason how are you doing?

And everyone else for that matter, Dee, Fizzy,LB? and anyone else that reads the November thread but doesn't post

CG Wonky is doing really well and just being a Wonky

Pixy1 · 07-14-2009, 05:36 AM

I didn't mean that it's good to hear that you are sick nands. You posted that while I was replying to your previous post

**Dee74** · 07-14-2009, 05:48 AM

Hope you feel better soon Nands

I'm ok Pix - hope you are too

D

allport · 07-14-2009, 06:49 AM

Well I am away from home for a while now and I'm not sure how good internet access will be so I might not be around much

I hope everyone stays well (especially you nands hug) and I should be back soon.

I will ring you next week Pixy x

Pixy1 · 07-14-2009, 07:51 AM

Ok hun have a good week ,take Care

colagirl · 07-14-2009, 08:27 AM

Morning all, doing fine here. Just off for a fun day of work.

07-12-2009, 02:46 PM	#426 (permalink)
FizzyWater Sober since 9th May 2008 Join Date: May 2008 Posts: 2,937	Hope yer ok Nands. I actually had a bottle of vodka in my hand yesterday when I was in Tesco's. I picked it up looked at it, really wanted to buy it, then just a little something made me put it back, don't know what .............................................. I actually kind of know I'm going to drink again just don't know exactly when yet, and every day I manage to push the day back makes it less likely, or so I hope, maybe I'm just delaying the inevitable. Anyhows, for me anyway, its not the day I drink again that I'm that bothered about to be honest, its the day after. If I do drink and am able to cut it off at just one day then I'll be fine, the concern is that I find myself back in the situation where I've been drinking for a year again. So ok Nands you drank yesterday or today or whatever timezone we're in, we are allowed to leave it at that though, you don't have to keep on going into today or tomorrow. So you drank one time out of nearly the last 2 years, so what, worse things will happen, please don't go on to make this blip something bigger than it is. __________________ There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you.

07-12-2009, 03:00 PM	#427 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	OK blunt time Nands - there is no 'hope I wake up sober' - you have numbers, use them. Fizzy - once you start think about inevitability, you're gone. You can stop this if you want. Do you want to? Drinkings no answer to your stress right now. And the 'just one night' thing is bollocks - I know if I go I'll go for weeks, if not years. D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-12-2009, 03:31 PM	#429 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	It was rhetorical, Fiz. You wouldn't be here otherwise. But you can stop it - no maybe about that. We all can. Keep it up, mate. D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-12-2009, 06:26 PM	#431 (permalink)
colagirl it's only life after all Join Date: May 2008 Location: Oregon Posts: 1,133 Blog Entries: 2	Hi everyone! (((Nands))) are you okay? I hope you check in here soon! And I agree with Dee, use those numbers! Fizzy I've been so convinced about that one night thing a number of times. It's never worked out for me. Sometimes it might be one night for a little while, but within a few weeks it's back to one more night, and then one more, and then why not another. Don't do it! Day 7 for me today. Even made it through a get-together with my condescending, irritating-as-f*ck visiting uncle yesterday! Hope you are all well. __________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready

07-12-2009, 11:16 PM	#432 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	bottle is done....see you all tomarrow......i know the drill __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

07-12-2009, 04:55 PM	#430 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	You both talk a lot of sense! Fizzy thank you for sharing that and being so honest about yourself

07-13-2009, 12:36 AM	#433 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	See you tomorrow! D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-13-2009, 04:20 AM	#434 (permalink)
allport Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: north yorkshire, england Posts: 1,900	It is so hard when people are struggling I totally believe that everyone can get back on track and back to enjoying sobriety rather than just getting by. I hope everyone keeps posting to let us know whats going on. I know (to my own cost) that being on SR isn't the be all and end all of staying sober but I also know that isolating is the wrong way to go. Everyone look after yourselves. x __________________ 'Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too' Douglas Adams

07-13-2009, 06:13 AM	#435 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	Nands How has your day started? Have yoy gone to work?

07-13-2009, 06:16 AM	#436 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	Hope everyone has a good day - you too Nands night! D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-13-2009, 08:43 AM	#437 (permalink)
colagirl it's only life after all Join Date: May 2008 Location: Oregon Posts: 1,133 Blog Entries: 2	Morning everyone! This phone keeps deleting what I'm writing so sorry if none of this makes sense (less sense than usual, I mean). Nands you're usually up and about by now, how is it this morning? Ally I agree, it's hard to see others struggle. I hate this disease! LB - how are you doing? Anyone heard from the legendary donkey? Alright, tunnels coming up, have to go... stay safe everyone. __________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready

07-13-2009, 10:21 AM	#438 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	not gonna lie i'm not making the right decsion i have negotiated a commitment with my son. I had told him when i got sober that if i drank i would go back to treatment immediatly. instead, my mom is going to come this evening and stay with me for a few days to see that i eat right, take care of the physical problems and get that few days away from the drink so i canget things back on track and do the deal. i don't know if this is the right thing, but i am not willing to just let myself go down the tubes. I am gonna fight to get my life back. I'll try not to post to much drivil...and i'm trying to watch myself in chat. I have alot of feeling that i've harmed people by drinking...but that just leads to a bs reason for me to drink....and i refuse to go there I hope it is ok that right now i'm a little bit pissed off...i'm angry that i am drinking and i am determined that i am gonna stop.....i refuse to let this go on __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

07-13-2009, 12:45 PM	#439 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	Good on ya nands! Keep use posted on how you are doing. Hug

07-13-2009, 02:57 PM	#440 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	hey Nands did you stop? I hope so. We both know drinkings not gonna make anything better - it just means you keep opening the same old wound. I hope having your mom there resets the clock. ...and you haven't harmed me take it easy D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-13-2009, 06:21 PM	#441 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 2,368 Blog Entries: 33	Check in time... :ghug2 __________________ I'm locked inside a cell in me, I know that there's a jail in you Consider this your bailing out, so take a breath, inhale a few My screams is finally getting free, my thoughts is finally yelling through "Words I Never Said" - Lupe Fiasco

07-13-2009, 10:41 PM	#442 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	mom's here...bottle is dumped...i'm back on board she won't want me posting and on the comuter much....and since she is here willing to help i'll go along. i'll get in when i can __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

07-13-2009, 11:42 PM	#443 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-14-2009, 05:32 AM	#444 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	just checking in quickly. pretty sick at the moment just gotta get past these first few days __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

07-14-2009, 05:34 AM	#445 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	Thats good to hear nands. You will be back to your old self in no time Jason how are you doing? And everyone else for that matter, Dee, Fizzy,LB? and anyone else that reads the November thread but doesn't post CG Wonky is doing really well and just being a Wonky

07-14-2009, 05:36 AM	#446 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	I didn't mean that it's good to hear that you are sick nands. You posted that while I was replying to your previous post

07-14-2009, 05:48 AM	#447 (permalink)
Dee74 SR Moderator Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: South Seas Posts: 42,369	Hope you feel better soon Nands I'm ok Pix - hope you are too D __________________ “When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be”Lao Tzu

07-14-2009, 06:49 AM	#448 (permalink)
allport Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: north yorkshire, england Posts: 1,900	Well I am away from home for a while now and I'm not sure how good internet access will be so I might not be around much I hope everyone stays well (especially you nands hug) and I should be back soon. I will ring you next week Pixy x __________________ 'Isn't it enough to see that a garden is beautiful without having to believe that there are fairies at the bottom of it too' Douglas Adams

07-14-2009, 07:51 AM	#449 (permalink)
Pixy1 Member Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: England Posts: 1,920	Ok hun have a good week ,take Care

07-14-2009, 08:27 AM	#450 (permalink)
colagirl it's only life after all Join Date: May 2008 Location: Oregon Posts: 1,133 Blog Entries: 2	Morning all, doing fine here. Just off for a fun day of work. __________________ There was darkness all around me There were times that I was sure I was drowning There were people who tried to reach me But no matter how they loved me I kept sinking When I got tired of my own hell I reached inside, and I saved myself ~ Mindy McCready

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