Class of November-Part 10

[SpeedyJason]

Blimey
Sorry, I just love that word.

I'm fine and dandy today. Since I don't have any "real" jobs I'll probably just hang out with friends today and tomorrow is father's day so I know I'll spend at least part of it with Ken. Not really looking forward to tomorrow

[SpeedyJason]

I got a job

[ananda]

*wirls around the room...jumps from chair to chair...does a hula on the table...wears a lampshade and sings old show tunes*

I'm chuffed Jason

I painted the bedroom today...er rather my 80 year old mom and my son painted it...i sorted clothes...so...i'm really quite horrified...i have 3 walk-in size closets full of clothes and i just bought two new shirts yesterday...I think this is getting just a tad bit ridiculous....

How much will I have to pay for each extra peice of luggage i take on my trip...i wonder i the small care will have enough room for all my clothes???



:ghug

hopeing to get some chat time tomarrow...but not holding my breath...mom is here till Monday

[Pixy1]

Jason thats fantastic news, well done!!

Nands as I type this I am looking at my pathetic excuse of a closet (it's half built) it's about a metre in width and the clothes that hang there dont even fit me. I have just noticed that all my clothes are black! There is one white top, a lemon skirt and a pink top!!! How dull and depressing my clothes are. Hmm must give this some thought!

I couldn't sleep this morning, well actually I could but my brother text just after 6am to ask if I could have the dog for the day as he is out with his new girlfriend and family. Now I can't get back to sleep

It's fathers day today and my first without my dad. This time last year we spent the day with him in the hospice. I don't remember much about the day but I remember laughing with him.

So much has happened in the last year, yet I'm standing still. Life changing events happen in an instant but adapting to them is draining and relentless and lasts years. I'm so sick and tired of greif. It's holding me in a place I don't want to be in and it has done for the last three years. But it's a natural process I suppose and all part of the healing I guess.

Now wouldn't it be nice to have to spend the next three years getting over winning the lottery or something like that?...........Sigh,

I can dream!!

[Dee74]

that's awesome - well done Jase

Pix I'm sorry...but you're right - it's a process

D

[allport]

Good morning all I'm having a great time

I'm so pleased for you Jason and glad you got some work done Nands lol

Hope today isnt too tough for you Pixy

And a big hug for Dee and Fizzy.

[ananda]

Wow

A lot of novemerites have had their fathers die fairly recently

this is my 4th fathersday without dad. He died the 7th of June 4 years ago. As many of you know he and i had a very dificult and painful relationship, but we had healed greatly and were fairly close by the time he died. He had lung cancer and had had the surgery and was awaiting treatment. Unfortunately he had an adverse reaction to a medicine he recieved after a heart probelm during the surgury (not an uncommon occurance). I was down to visit him about two weeks before his death when supposely everyhting was fine and he would start chemo the next day. And I new when I left that it was the last time I would see him. Everyone said he was fine, but actually he was already sick from the medication and He had already distanced himself from the world. The poem that kept running through my head

When I was walking down the stairs
I met a man who wasn't there
He wasnt there again today
I wish I wish he'd go away.

He was taken to the hospital the next day and instead of chemo he was put on a ventalater. He was close to death within a week. Then he took a turn for the better. However, at the time i was drinking, and when he appeared to be better and I still couldn't stay sober enough to go to work I went to the hospital and checked into detox at 8am. At 4pm my sister in law called to say things had changed and he was dying. The next morning at 4 am he died.

I was released from detox, and the dr. told me he didn't think I would be able to stay sober...and i didn't. It was another year before i went to treatment and started on this sobriety.

My father thought i was in the hospital for my diebedics. And before he died he spoke with my brother and told him to tell me that he new that everything i had ever said about what happened in my childhood was true....I love him for that so much. I wasn't there for his death, but i feel that he has been there with may at many points since. It's a buddhist thing and I don't believe in time...won't try to explain it...

Anyhow just felt like sharing about him today.

Thanks for the ear.

[Dee74]

night nands
ty for sharing

D

[Dee74]

for ally and pixy and CG too
manly handshakes for youse blokes LOL

D

[Pixy1]

Thanks for sharing that nands

[colagirl]

That was very nice, nands

I spent Father's Day with my family, including the new niece! I can't believe how big she's getting. She can't quite crawl yet but she sort of rolls herself around the room. It was a nice day.

Hugs to those of you who have lost your fathers.

[ananda]

OK..my bedroom is almost done...mom and chris will finish tomarrow and the dryer will be repaired.

I didn't get much work done...my computer fizzed out and the geek just fixed it a little bit ago...so tomarrow will be interesting to put it mildly.

I'm late getting to bed..so i may not get much SR coffee time in the morning

between painting, bill payment, computer geeks, shopping, cooking dinner for my aa friends ..... i got a lot done today and feel content sort of....

see you guys in the morning...and dee (biggggggggg hug and smooches grin)

oh yeah...wonkey, LB, jiggy, timmy and others...you know who you are

[Dee74]

Nands!

lol

D

[ananda]

just buzzing through..mom is glaring at me ... gotta find a bra! you knw how moms are

:ghug

[allport]

I had a nice weekend

But strangely enough I'm glad to be home, a house full of childrens laughter isn't all its cracked up to be!

And the mess drove me crazy, lego loses it appeal the first time you stand on a piece in bare feet.

Hope everyone had a good weekend too and hope to speak to you all soon.

[Pixy1]

Hey all :ghug

Oh how I remember standing on that lego!!! brings back painfull memories!

Nands I lose bras all the time!

Still loving my hours. I can't tell you what a difference it is making. Just think by 4pm tomorrow I will be half way thorugh my working week

Bloody skint though! but it's worth it

[colagirl]

Stepping on legos is like stepping on the plug for your curling iron after you've unplugged it in the morning. OW. I find aunthood quite lovely for getting a good dose of the cuteness of children but being able to leave for all the tantrums, diaper changes, messy house, etc.

Pixy are you working 4 long days? We have an option like that and I'm considering it.

Nands have you survived your mom?

Dee I forgot to return your hug yesterday so here are three for you:

[allport]

Ouch you are right CG plugs are even worse than lego

And I find being an Aunt absolutely perfect, all the fun none of the responsibilty.

It's a lovely day here, so I'm off out to do some shopping

Have a great day everyone.

Night Dee

[ananda]

ok...crunch time 2....all bills must be paid by 5 or encumbered which delays payment about a month...and omg i forgot payroll!!!!!

Well....wish me luck and i will have an encumberance deadline soon plus grants that need to be balanced and trasnfered by well by yesterday arggghhhhhhh

I'm still floating anyways....but focused and working hard (proud of that)...hopeing i don't do a nose dive crash but gently float back down to a normal mood when it's time

nite nite dee (hug)

[Dee74]

night all ! it's nearly 11 now
:wtf2

pumpkin time

LOL


hugs!
D

[ananda]

mmmm....ok i didn't get all the bills paid so double the work to encumber and then pay and call all the vendors

er...i'm still ridiculaously happy.......

I'm seriuosly considering going to bed...it's that or load up my ipod...still trying to figure out itunes, but at least i have it finally and the ipod works...just gotta figure out more how to use it and stuff...

[Pixy1]

Hey all

I had an early night last night and feel good

CG yes I do 4 days and it's great. It has made such a difference to our quality of life.

"er...i'm still ridiculaously happy......." Nands I can't remember the last time I felt that happy.

[allport]

Yeah whats with the ridiculously happy thing

I don't think I have ever been that happy, I'm adding that to my list of things to do before I'm fourty

[Jaman34]

nice

[SpeedyJason]

Nothin to say except:

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