Serious Part 5 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

***Anna*** · 05-11-2009, 07:30 PM

The last part:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-4-a-22.html (Serious Part 4)

least · 05-11-2009, 07:45 PM

Ok, let's get serious to the fifth power! I'm ready to be serially serious here...:ghug

Rowan · 05-11-2009, 08:00 PM

Dang. I wanted to be first.

Seriously.

stone · 05-12-2009, 02:58 AM

Woke up a complete mess, bed soaked with sweat, anxious as hell, thoughts all over the place, scared. Sort of rooted to the spot with fear, not as bad as yesterdays panic attack though.

Face everything and recover, you say frst? I think my plan is to face one thing a day for a while. And in 30 days or 50, I must remember that I am not fine and I must remember not to drink.

Ess, thankyou for the link I am going to phone them.

I really need to just concentrate on today and todays thing is a meeting tonight. Until then I am going to try and keep busy around the house and have a shaky walk at some point. The Jobcentre will be tomorrows thing, I cannot cope with it today.

Thankyou all for your support, I will get through this one day at a time and with help.

stone · 05-12-2009, 03:12 AM

Sent an Email to the Drug and Alcohol misuse team in Liverpool, thanks Ess.

Bamboozle · 05-12-2009, 04:05 AM

Hello, stone. Wishing you well.

stone · 05-12-2009, 04:11 AM

Thanks Bam.

Time to get moving...hard to do right now but have to, I am not good at brave, lol.

nelco · 05-12-2009, 04:26 AM

have a good day!!

Rowan · 05-12-2009, 04:28 AM

Yes - have a good day. You can do this.

stone · 05-12-2009, 04:40 AM

I don't think it is going to be good, as such but better than yesterday anyway.

I have spent 3 years saying "never again" after each binge...one time that is going to happen (isn't it?) ...please "God or whoever", let it be this time!

bugsworth · 05-12-2009, 04:46 AM

Morning Stone...after 3 years I would think you are coming to the realization that "God or whoever" is you. I sincerely hope you are getting sick and tired of this and are willing to push through the hard times.

stone · 05-12-2009, 04:52 AM

LOL, yea. Thanks Bugs.

ananda · 05-12-2009, 05:01 AM

:ghug

stone · 05-12-2009, 05:14 AM

Hi Nands.

I keep getting up, doing some cleaning and then I need to sit down again, lol. If I had just got through that one day, I would be OK now! Maybe I needed a final lesson.

I think at some point we accept defeat, I have felt like I have very often so I can't know if this time it is true either, I hope it is.

espresso · 05-12-2009, 05:41 AM

Stoney

Believe808 · 05-12-2009, 06:24 AM

Stoney, we start to get it when we are just sick & tired of being sick & tired. Good luck with your meeting tonight. Step I - We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable.

parentrecovers · 05-12-2009, 06:39 AM

love and support to ya today, stone. hugs, k

stone · 05-12-2009, 09:06 AM

Hi guys and thanks.

Oh I know step 1, Believe, the step I could never get, lol and the only one you need to get 100%. Cliches are coming back to me already! I am gonna fit right in tonight.

Step 1 is surrender, defeat, the smashing of the delusion we can drink like a normal person one day. AA or not, I think step 1 applies to everyone beginning recovery. Well, I surrender!
It is depressing how many times I have thought that but been wrong. I really do think one day we just have enough and until then all we can do is keep trying our best, but until we are beaten....

Believe808 · 05-12-2009, 09:36 AM

You know what Stoney, I have heard it over and over and it is so true, INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS!!!!! Maybe we are all nuts.....Really glad you are giving something different a try.
Now we have to get working on A Power Greater Than OURSELVES

ananda · 05-12-2009, 09:44 AM

Stoney.....i did have to come to believe that it was possible that i was done...and that sobriety was a possiblitiy...as long as i didn't believe....i was stuck in the hopless cycle

(hug)

yeah right...don't even talk to me about cleaning

least · 05-12-2009, 09:45 AM

This may sound silly to some, but sometimes my dogs are the Power Greater than Myself. THeir love and devotion to me is unconditional and overwhelming and has much to do with keeping my life centered and sober. I want to deserve their love, and to do that I must be sober to be the best Dog Mom I can be.

And in being sober for them, I am being sober for myself cause they are such a huge part of me, of my life. So they are a Great Power to me and help to keep me sober.

stone · 05-12-2009, 10:05 AM

Maybe we are all nuts, lol. Yes! As for a power greater than ourselves, well I am going to a meeting but lets not turn this into an AA thread, lol.

Hi Nands, not talking about cleaning. Yes, even though I have been here many times I have to believe it is possible that I am really done this time, otherwise I might just as well give in and drink to die.
Another good cliche is, I have a diease that tells me I am well, as soon as I get past all the trauma I think I am fine, well I am not.

Hey Least, whatever works.

IO Storm · 05-12-2009, 10:40 AM

All of this sounds so good, Stoney...all of it.

Good for you.

No high horse or soap box for me today..

(well, it is early..lol)

No, really..I am so glad for you.

:

Still praying in my own way...sweetie.

Much love,

Sher

stone · 05-12-2009, 10:46 AM

Thanks Sher.

IO Storm · 05-12-2009, 11:20 AM

See ya around later..Alanon meeting in awhile..need one! lol

Take care.

Hey to everyone else too..

:ghug2:

05-11-2009, 07:30 PM	#1 (permalink)
*Anna* Administrator Join Date: Aug 2003 Location: Dancing in the Light Posts: 22,768	Serious Part 5 The last part: http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-4-a-22.html (Serious Part 4) __________________ And I dont know what the future is holding in store I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end. John Denver

05-11-2009, 07:45 PM	#2 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 23,513 Blog Entries: 31	Ok, let's get serious to the fifth power! I'm ready to be serially serious here...:ghug __________________ I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley

05-12-2009, 02:58 AM	#4 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Woke up a complete mess, bed soaked with sweat, anxious as hell, thoughts all over the place, scared. Sort of rooted to the spot with fear, not as bad as yesterdays panic attack though. Face everything and recover, you say frst? I think my plan is to face one thing a day for a while. And in 30 days or 50, I must remember that I am not fine and I must remember not to drink. Ess, thankyou for the link I am going to phone them. I really need to just concentrate on today and todays thing is a meeting tonight. Until then I am going to try and keep busy around the house and have a shaky walk at some point. The Jobcentre will be tomorrows thing, I cannot cope with it today. Thankyou all for your support, I will get through this one day at a time and with help. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 03:12 AM	#5 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Sent an Email to the Drug and Alcohol misuse team in Liverpool, thanks Ess. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 04:05 AM	#6 (permalink)
Bamboozle I got nothin' Duck Hunt 2 Champion! Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: My house. Posts: 4,776 Blog Entries: 14	Hello, stone. Wishing you well. __________________ A strange game. The only winning move is not to play.

05-11-2009, 08:00 PM	#3 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Dang. I wanted to be first. Seriously.

05-12-2009, 04:11 AM	#7 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Thanks Bam. Time to get moving...hard to do right now but have to, I am not good at brave, lol. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 04:26 AM	#8 (permalink)
nelco Living in sobriety Join Date: Feb 2009 Posts: 3,868	have a good day!!

05-12-2009, 04:28 AM	#9 (permalink)
Rowan Member Join Date: Dec 2003 Posts: 12,138	Yes - have a good day. You can do this.

05-12-2009, 04:40 AM	#10 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	I don't think it is going to be good, as such but better than yesterday anyway. I have spent 3 years saying "never again" after each binge...one time that is going to happen (isn't it?) ...please "God or whoever", let it be this time! __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 04:46 AM	#11 (permalink)
bugsworth Member Join Date: Sep 2007 Posts: 1,925	Morning Stone...after 3 years I would think you are coming to the realization that "God or whoever" is you. I sincerely hope you are getting sick and tired of this and are willing to push through the hard times.

05-12-2009, 04:52 AM	#12 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	LOL, yea. Thanks Bugs. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 05:01 AM	#13 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	:ghug __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

05-12-2009, 05:14 AM	#14 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Hi Nands. I keep getting up, doing some cleaning and then I need to sit down again, lol. If I had just got through that one day, I would be OK now! Maybe I needed a final lesson. I think at some point we accept defeat, I have felt like I have very often so I can't know if this time it is true either, I hope it is. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 05:41 AM	#15 (permalink)
espresso Guest Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 4,151	Stoney

05-12-2009, 06:24 AM	#16 (permalink)
Believe808 Miracles Happen Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 9,977	Stoney, we start to get it when we are just sick & tired of being sick & tired. Good luck with your meeting tonight. Step I - We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and our lives had become unmanageable.

05-12-2009, 06:39 AM	#17 (permalink)
parentrecovers let it grow! Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: USA Posts: 15,536	love and support to ya today, stone. hugs, k __________________

05-12-2009, 09:06 AM	#18 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Hi guys and thanks. Oh I know step 1, Believe, the step I could never get, lol and the only one you need to get 100%. Cliches are coming back to me already! I am gonna fit right in tonight. Step 1 is surrender, defeat, the smashing of the delusion we can drink like a normal person one day. AA or not, I think step 1 applies to everyone beginning recovery. Well, I surrender! It is depressing how many times I have thought that but been wrong. I really do think one day we just have enough and until then all we can do is keep trying our best, but until we are beaten.... __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 09:36 AM	#19 (permalink)
Believe808 Miracles Happen Join Date: Mar 2009 Posts: 9,977	You know what Stoney, I have heard it over and over and it is so true, INSANITY IS DOING THE SAME THING OVER AND OVER AND EXPECTING DIFFERENT RESULTS!!!!! Maybe we are all nuts.....Really glad you are giving something different a try. Now we have to get working on A Power Greater Than OURSELVES

05-12-2009, 09:44 AM	#20 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 11,908 Blog Entries: 1	Stoney.....i did have to come to believe that it was possible that i was done...and that sobriety was a possiblitiy...as long as i didn't believe....i was stuck in the hopless cycle (hug) yeah right...don't even talk to me about cleaning __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom

05-12-2009, 09:45 AM	#21 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 23,513 Blog Entries: 31	This may sound silly to some, but sometimes my dogs are the Power Greater than Myself. THeir love and devotion to me is unconditional and overwhelming and has much to do with keeping my life centered and sober. I want to deserve their love, and to do that I must be sober to be the best Dog Mom I can be. And in being sober for them, I am being sober for myself cause they are such a huge part of me, of my life. So they are a Great Power to me and help to keep me sober. __________________ I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley

05-12-2009, 10:05 AM	#22 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Maybe we are all nuts, lol. Yes! As for a power greater than ourselves, well I am going to a meeting but lets not turn this into an AA thread, lol. Hi Nands, not talking about cleaning. Yes, even though I have been here many times I have to believe it is possible that I am really done this time, otherwise I might just as well give in and drink to die. Another good cliche is, I have a diease that tells me I am well, as soon as I get past all the trauma I think I am fine, well I am not. Hey Least, whatever works. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 10:40 AM	#23 (permalink)
IO Storm IO Storm Wheel Of Fortune Champion! Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Southern California Posts: 18,175 Blog Entries: 2	All of this sounds so good, Stoney...all of it. Good for you. No high horse or soap box for me today.. (well, it is early..lol) No, really..I am so glad for you. : Still praying in my own way...sweetie. Much love, Sher __________________ "God holds me still in the eye of the Storm"

05-12-2009, 10:46 AM	#24 (permalink)
stone Member Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,303	Thanks Sher. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

05-12-2009, 11:20 AM	#25 (permalink)
IO Storm IO Storm Wheel Of Fortune Champion! Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: Southern California Posts: 18,175 Blog Entries: 2	See ya around later..Alanon meeting in awhile..need one! lol Take care. Hey to everyone else too.. :ghug2: __________________ "God holds me still in the eye of the Storm"

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