Serious part 2

[stone]

This is it Ro......

[nelco]

any plans for tomorrow?? How are you sleeping lately?? are you grateful ur sober??

[Rowan]

Thank you for the YT vid, Paul. I love choral music! Love, love, love it.

That was funny about doing the fat old guy!

For a minute, I thought we were in Bottoms!

[stone]

Originally Posted by nelco

any plans for tomorrow?? How are you sleeping lately?? are you grateful ur sober??

Plans for tomorrow.....not really.

Sleeping OK but often needing to nap because I am so exhausted all the time.

Yes, I am grateful I am sober.

[stone]

I have often wondered if I have mild bi-polar disorder. My depression is cyclical and I have manic tendencies when not in the depression cycle. I have also had a breakdown that I sometimes describe as schizophrenic, it involved a lot of mania, delusions, hallucinations, paranoia, all symptomatic of both schizophrenia and bi-polar. The episode lasted over 12 months. The anti-depressants don't stop my cycling moods. They seem to getting worse.

[nelco]

Good a grateful alcoholic will not drink. Think I will hit the hay.....nite stone

[nelco]

oops we posted at the same time.... What does the doctor think??

[nelco]

nite

[stone]

My Doctor got struck off cos of various reasons, one of which was doing cocaine, lol. He diagnosed me with depression and put me on the ADs. Since then I have seen locums, so I never see the same one more than a few times, so I have no relationship with a GP that would allow them to make any kind of guess as to my mental state.
I would need to see a Psychiatrist for a diagnosis (or non-diagnosis) of bi-polar anyway.

[stone]

I have decided to strip the broken desktop PC and sell the bits....the decision has been made, lol.

I can't sleep so I will do it now.

[least]

I was dx manic depressive a few years ago. Now on rispiridone (sp?). Seems to help most of the time, tho I still go thru some cycles the meds don't touch, don't know why. I do know it's not as bad as when I was drinking. That was awful. Do seek a good shrink for a diagnosis.

Feels good coming to the end of another sober day.

[stone]

Least, yea not drinking is very good for our mental health!

I just put the CPU, graphics card and memory on Ebay...all state of the art stuff a few years ago...now, not so much, lol.

At least it is some money to offset the cost of the laptop.

3.20am here and I didn't even nap today. Feeling good though, just about sub-manic.

[Rowan]

What about Bipolar II, Paul? As I recall, it's characterized by less highs, more lows. I often wondered if I wasn't Bipolar, but never fit the profile for the extreme highs. Take it down a notch or two, though, and I qualify. I was on Risperdal before, just like least is. It's an anti-psychotic that I took to help with paranoia. My shrink thought I displayed schizoid tendencies. Short term, the risperdal helped, but in the end the side-effects weren't worth it. I was sooo sluggish.

You're quite the entrepreneur, Paul! Boy that word looks like it's spelled wrong! I've bought things off eBay, but never sold anything. I'd like to, one day.

I'm up early so gonna sign off - but knowing me, I'll be back. I didn't nap today either. YAY for us.

Way to go on staying sober, Paul. Lots of wub going out to you.

[stone]

Yea, I have less extreme highs and more lows, bad lows. I do fit the profile. I am worried about side effects of any meds too. I am gonna see how I go for now, just keeping seeing the Psych as an option if things get worse.

Thanks for the wub! LOL

[Rowan]

You're such an attention-***** LOL LOL

Goodnight!

[stone]

I have a good picture with that on it!

Not posting it though.

Anyway, it is 3.40am I am lonely!!!!

[nelco]

Good Morning Stone

A couple of Questions for you. You mentioned in the first post that you got 6 months sober while on "Bottoms" and it ended 2008. How did you feel depression wise and tired wise as the months went on?? Also, can you remember what brought you back to drink. In A.A they say we slip in our thinking etc long before we pick up a drink. Did you get fed up, get down, get resentful or angry about anything? Or had you just got restless, irritable and discontentent as mentioned in Big book??
Was there anything there you can learn from? Did you put anything in place last time or make any changes?

Since then I have seen locums, so I never see the same one more than a few times, so I have no relationship with a GP that would allow them to make any kind of guess as to my mental state

This is something you could work on. When I was drinking, I changed doctor often , i know your case may be different, but I was running and hiding, and did not really want anyone to know me fully even a doctor, plus they start trying to help me if I Kept going (god forbid) just give me the tablets so I can sleep!! When I got sober...it was suggested to me to find a doc and stick with him. I did that and it works for me. I must say though, since I got sober I seldom need the doc(fingers crossed) I was on anti-depressants etc and for me drink was a big part of my depression. I did not have that lingering depression you talk about, although I got very high and very low.....all or nothing. I just had to learn to slow down and balance out a lot of stuff. I either did not care or I was over-reacting.....It was the same with every area of my life for a while.
NOW im perfect ....(not)

[nelco]

I never thought of stripping the desktop and selling the bits. Would you get much?? As they say over here.......there is no flies on you, your a cute whoar!!
What the hell did you stay up that late for......I thought WE (playing matron) were trying to sort out sleep patterns!!
Well I'm off to shower and a meeting.................chat ya later!

[Rusty Zipper]

nah, some are around phal! lol

[least]

Another morning waking up feeling good. Staying sober is so worth the effort. My life is so much better this way, and if life throws me a curve ball, I'm clear headed to deal with it.

Good Sunday morning Stoney!

[stone]

Originally Posted by nelco

I never thought of stripping the desktop and selling the bits. Would you get much?? As they say over here.......there is no flies on you, your a cute whoar!!
What the hell did you stay up that late for......I thought WE (playing matron) were trying to sort out sleep patterns!!
Well I'm off to shower and a meeting.................chat ya later!

It is worth it yea, depends on the actual parts you have of course, like I say mine were pretty high spec at the time I bought them. People are trying to keep their old systems working so there is a market for the old stuff. I hope to get around £100 for the CPU, ram and graphics card.

I dunno why WE couldn't sleep, lol. WE couldn't help it.

I went to sleep about 6am and just woke so that's nearly 7 hours sleep, which is good. I hope to get to sleep at a more normal time tonight.

I will answer your other questions later on when I wake up more.

[stone]

Mornin Phal, Rusty and Least.

[stone]

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good morning!

[stone]

Good morning K.

Having woken up a bit I seem to be in an OK mood. Today I have some fiddling with computers to do, some Ebaying to do, a little laundry (lol).

I am also gonna have a bath, a walk and do some yoga and med.. If I can fit a roast dinner and an early night in then all the better my day will have been.

I will be sober today.