The Feelings Thread Part 2 - Page 2 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

least · 02-24-2009, 04:46 AM

I feel sleep deprived cause I couldn't sleep but about an hour last night. Then woke up out of my little bit of sleep feeling quite sick. I have little to do today but my counseling appt, but don't feel like doing anything but sleeping... if I COULD sleep, that is.

Am stressed out beyond my ability to cope and now no sleep and sick. I don't want to know what else can go wrong...

LaDita · 02-26-2009, 11:27 PM

Happy that tomorrow is $ day and I'm going to buy some good food and make Morroccan Chicken.

least · 02-27-2009, 01:36 AM

Sick of waking up out of a sound sleep in the early morning.

Today's weather forecast calls for rain - yuck. I should be grateful it isn't snow!

least · 02-27-2009, 03:39 AM

Haven't been able to get back to sleep yet and now in a terrible anxiety attack,

drinking chamomile tea and breathing...

least · 02-27-2009, 08:23 AM

Despite the early waking, I feel pretty good today. Focusing on my neighbor's kid being here has helped to dissapate the anxiety for now. We're going over to his house to get their dogs and bring them over for a little dog party with my dogs. Four dogs in the house, that should be fun!

LaDita · 02-27-2009, 07:41 PM

Feeling exhausted yet inspired, tired but hopeful.

SpeedyJason · 02-27-2009, 09:40 PM

Can't believe it... utterly depressed..

***greeteachday*** · 02-27-2009, 11:04 PM

((((Jason)))))

least · 02-28-2009, 04:29 AM

Had a good sleep last night and woke up feeling better, surrounded by my dogs. Hugs for everyone!:ghug

least · 02-28-2009, 08:00 AM

Woke up feeling better but out of nowhere developed an upset stomach, which is not getting better, despite two shots of pepto bismol. Am feeling anxious as well, don't know why, besides the immediate problem of running out of cigs and having no money...

Am trying to take it one minute at a time here, trying to watch a movie and forget about my restless stomach.

SpeedyJason · 02-28-2009, 12:57 PM

... I don't even know how to describe how I feel.

LaDita · 02-28-2009, 01:11 PM

Feeling motivated to get stuff done today.

NewLeaf · 02-28-2009, 01:24 PM

IRRITABLE and angry. Because I can't drink.

SpeedyJason · 02-28-2009, 09:24 PM

Questioning God's motives.

Jules62 · 02-28-2009, 11:21 PM

Fed up with stupid people.Why can't everyone just live the way *I* think they should?They'd be so much better off......LOL!

(yes-I know.But geez it's hard sometimes to just let people do what they do and not comment)

Ugh!

hollyce · 02-28-2009, 11:39 PM

Hey Everyone,

Wow... I didn't even realize it until I sat down and counted these little boxes on my icalendar...

I'm past 100 days of sobriety (day 107 today) and well, I just wanted to share my feelings of accomplishment in my continued success as a new and fabulously sober ME.

Still craving sugar, and indulging regularly. Ha!

Right now my thing is Coffee Ice Cream + Hot Fudge and a Brownie = YUMMM (Think mini sundae)

Hope everyone out there is doing well...
Night,
Hollyce

least · 03-01-2009, 04:02 AM

Woke up a little earlier than I like and feeling depressed and anxious this morning. Hungry but little in the house to eat, will have to go to the store today.

least · 03-01-2009, 11:13 AM

Hadn't been to church much lately so I went today. It usually makes me feel better but not today it didn't. I couldn't keep from looking around at all the other members, happy and successful, but not me. I'm unhappy and unsuccessful. They all have great lives and did great things with their lives, but not me, I've done nothing to make a difference and when I am gone there will be nothing to remember me for.

Even took communion this morning, but only felt guilty and ashamed for it. Not as if I were participating but only mimicing the others. Do'nt know why I'm feeling so shi!tty today. I don't like myself much today, in fact, I dislike myself more today than usual. I feel like I'm on the outside looking in and wanting to be happy like all the happy people I see 'inside'. But just feel more 'outside' of it all than ever.

I'm supposed to go with mom and brother to a concert later on today but don't know if I even want to leave the house. I'm going to force myself to walk the dogs in a bit, because they need the exercise, fresh air, and sunshine, and those things wouldn't hurt me either.

I am full of regret today. All the things I didn't do, and all the bad choices I made, are haunting me, kicking me, telling me what an abject failure I am and have always been. I'm too old and tired to do much to change my life at this point, just hope I can wait it out to the end. I wish I'd done things so much differently, but it's too late now.

Mariposa18 · 03-01-2009, 11:16 AM

Sad, raw, very emotional. Alone~

SpeedyJason · 03-02-2009, 03:52 PM

Please not Michigan, please not michigan, please not michigan. Worried...tired, upset.

scaredykat · 03-04-2009, 11:49 AM

Keep those feelings coming everyone. It works.

Me- I haven't felt well lately. Hormones are all screwy.

SpeedyJason · 03-04-2009, 02:30 PM

Lost, angered, stressed, hurt..

nogard · 03-04-2009, 02:34 PM

sleepy, lazy and possible apathy

least · 03-04-2009, 03:03 PM

Unbearable anxiety and depression the last few days. Got my antidepressants and antianxiety meds refill scrips... but can't afford to get them refilled.

Fat lot of good it did to get the refill scrips if I can't afford to actually get them refilled!

Mariposa18 · 03-04-2009, 03:09 PM

Least~ Hubby just got us a prescription discount plan at Walgreens. Just thought you might want to look into it and see if that could help you in any way.

02-24-2009, 04:46 AM	#26 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	I feel sleep deprived cause I couldn't sleep but about an hour last night. Then woke up out of my little bit of sleep feeling quite sick. I have little to do today but my counseling appt, but don't feel like doing anything but sleeping... if I COULD sleep, that is. Am stressed out beyond my ability to cope and now no sleep and sick. I don't want to know what else can go wrong... __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-27-2009, 01:36 AM	#28 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Sick of waking up out of a sound sleep in the early morning. Today's weather forecast calls for rain - yuck. I should be grateful it isn't snow! __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-27-2009, 03:39 AM	#29 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Haven't been able to get back to sleep yet and now in a terrible anxiety attack, drinking chamomile tea and breathing... __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-27-2009, 08:23 AM	#30 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Despite the early waking, I feel pretty good today. Focusing on my neighbor's kid being here has helped to dissapate the anxiety for now. We're going over to his house to get their dogs and bring them over for a little dog party with my dogs. Four dogs in the house, that should be fun! __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-27-2009, 09:40 PM	#32 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 1,322 Blog Entries: 17	Can't believe it... utterly depressed.. __________________ Inní mér syngur vitleysingur [Inside Me a Lunatic Sings]

02-26-2009, 11:27 PM	#27 (permalink)
LaDita Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Posts: 381 Blog Entries: 27	Happy that tomorrow is $ day and I'm going to buy some good food and make Morroccan Chicken.

02-27-2009, 07:41 PM	#31 (permalink)
LaDita Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Posts: 381 Blog Entries: 27	Feeling exhausted yet inspired, tired but hopeful.

02-27-2009, 11:04 PM	#33 (permalink)
*greeteachday* Administrator Join Date: Mar 2006 Location: a better place Posts: 3,523	((((Jason))))) __________________ Sometimes your only available transportation is a leap of faith - Margaret Shepherd

02-28-2009, 04:29 AM	#34 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Had a good sleep last night and woke up feeling better, surrounded by my dogs. Hugs for everyone!:ghug __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-28-2009, 08:00 AM	#35 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Woke up feeling better but out of nowhere developed an upset stomach, which is not getting better, despite two shots of pepto bismol. Am feeling anxious as well, don't know why, besides the immediate problem of running out of cigs and having no money... Am trying to take it one minute at a time here, trying to watch a movie and forget about my restless stomach. __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

02-28-2009, 12:57 PM	#36 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 1,322 Blog Entries: 17	... I don't even know how to describe how I feel. __________________ Inní mér syngur vitleysingur [Inside Me a Lunatic Sings]

02-28-2009, 01:11 PM	#37 (permalink)
LaDita Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Posts: 381 Blog Entries: 27	Feeling motivated to get stuff done today.

02-28-2009, 01:24 PM	#38 (permalink)
NewLeaf Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Getting There Posts: 800 Blog Entries: 3	IRRITABLE and angry. Because I can't drink. __________________ It's never too late to be who you might have been. George Eliot

02-28-2009, 09:24 PM	#39 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 1,322 Blog Entries: 17	Questioning God's motives. __________________ Inní mér syngur vitleysingur [Inside Me a Lunatic Sings]

02-28-2009, 11:21 PM	#40 (permalink)
Jules62 member Join Date: Apr 2007 Posts: 2,300	Fed up with stupid people.Why can't everyone just live the way I think they should?They'd be so much better off......LOL! (yes-I know.But geez it's hard sometimes to just let people do what they do and not comment) Ugh! __________________ 'If you stand for nothing, you'll fall for anything'

02-28-2009, 11:39 PM	#41 (permalink)
hollyce Hollyce Jones Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: The Golden State of California Posts: 74	Feeling ACCOMPLISHED! Hey Everyone, Wow... I didn't even realize it until I sat down and counted these little boxes on my icalendar... I'm past 100 days of sobriety (day 107 today) and well, I just wanted to share my feelings of accomplishment in my continued success as a new and fabulously sober ME. Still craving sugar, and indulging regularly. Ha! Right now my thing is Coffee Ice Cream + Hot Fudge and a Brownie = YUMMM (Think mini sundae) Hope everyone out there is doing well... Night, Hollyce __________________ It's all in the story you tell yourself.

03-01-2009, 04:02 AM	#42 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Woke up a little earlier than I like and feeling depressed and anxious this morning. Hungry but little in the house to eat, will have to go to the store today. __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

03-01-2009, 11:13 AM	#43 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Hadn't been to church much lately so I went today. It usually makes me feel better but not today it didn't. I couldn't keep from looking around at all the other members, happy and successful, but not me. I'm unhappy and unsuccessful. They all have great lives and did great things with their lives, but not me, I've done nothing to make a difference and when I am gone there will be nothing to remember me for. Even took communion this morning, but only felt guilty and ashamed for it. Not as if I were participating but only mimicing the others. Do'nt know why I'm feeling so shi!tty today. I don't like myself much today, in fact, I dislike myself more today than usual. I feel like I'm on the outside looking in and wanting to be happy like all the happy people I see 'inside'. But just feel more 'outside' of it all than ever. I'm supposed to go with mom and brother to a concert later on today but don't know if I even want to leave the house. I'm going to force myself to walk the dogs in a bit, because they need the exercise, fresh air, and sunshine, and those things wouldn't hurt me either. I am full of regret today. All the things I didn't do, and all the bad choices I made, are haunting me, kicking me, telling me what an abject failure I am and have always been. I'm too old and tired to do much to change my life at this point, just hope I can wait it out to the end. I wish I'd done things so much differently, but it's too late now. __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

03-01-2009, 11:16 AM	#44 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 1,040	Sad, raw, very emotional. Alone~ __________________ *~ Be Happy, Love Life ~*

03-02-2009, 03:52 PM	#45 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 1,322 Blog Entries: 17	Please not Michigan, please not michigan, please not michigan. Worried...tired, upset. __________________ Inní mér syngur vitleysingur [Inside Me a Lunatic Sings]

03-04-2009, 11:49 AM	#46 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 4,486 Blog Entries: 5	Keep those feelings coming everyone. It works. Me- I haven't felt well lately. Hormones are all screwy. __________________ One Day at a Time Sobriety Date: Jan 19, 2008

03-04-2009, 02:30 PM	#47 (permalink)
SpeedyJason Silent Jay. Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: --- Posts: 1,322 Blog Entries: 17	Lost, angered, stressed, hurt.. __________________ Inní mér syngur vitleysingur [Inside Me a Lunatic Sings]

03-04-2009, 02:34 PM	#48 (permalink)
nogard dont take anything personally Join Date: May 2005 Location: Melbourne Victoria Australia Posts: 14,812 Blog Entries: 3	sleepy, lazy and possible apathy __________________ ...And like a bird that's on the wing and is flying free He can hear the song of home endlessly

03-04-2009, 03:03 PM	#49 (permalink)
least bona fido dog-lover Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 11,657 Blog Entries: 27	Unbearable anxiety and depression the last few days. Got my antidepressants and antianxiety meds refill scrips... but can't afford to get them refilled. Fat lot of good it did to get the refill scrips if I can't afford to actually get them refilled! __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

03-04-2009, 03:09 PM	#50 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 1,040	Least~ Hubby just got us a prescription discount plan at Walgreens. Just thought you might want to look into it and see if that could help you in any way. __________________ *~ Be Happy, Love Life ~*

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