For Those with Less than 2 Weeks Sober Part 6

[November77]

PB, I know what you mean. My first time around with AA was in April and I didn't go for very long. I thought that I could drink in moderation. At first, I was only drinking on the weekends, then I started drinking everyday. After work I would either go to the bar with friends, or drop by the liquor store and pick up a bottle and take it home. Even though I knew I had a problem, I got to the point where I just didn't really care anymore. I thought that it was the American way. Everyone and anyone I know drinks. I would read articles on how good wine was for the heart. But drinking more than one glass a day was probably not doing mine much good. I made a lot of excuses for why I drank. I had a bad day at work so therefore I need a drink, or I was having anxiety so I should drink to numb it. I couldn't get away from it. And in fact, I really didn't want to. I'm still struggling with this, but I realize that I am indeed powerless over alcohol. I guess since I realize this maybe I still have a chance. I am hopeful that I will not relapse this time around. I just know that I will not drink today, but I don't know about tomorrow.

[KindBird]

13 days - pretty soon it will be > 2 weeks! The frequency of thought about drinking is already getting less. Some of my new behaviors - drinking dilute cranberry juice or tea when I would be grabbing a glass of wine; cooking with a glass of water by my side instead of a glass of wine, picking up a book or some knitting instead of a glass of wine - talking with my husband every day about how it is feeling - some of these new things are beginning to feel good (not just acceptable for the moment). The clearness in my head is really amazing and something I had not expected is the decrease in aches in my joints.

So far I am getting more good from this than I ever expected.

Thank you for this thread..

[allport]

Day 15 today and im feeling ok, still fairly numb from the neck up but its better than being suicidal as i was just over two weeks ago, im starting to see a glimmer of hope which makes me nervous because thats when ive tended to slip in the past, fear of change and all that, but not today im still determined. Have a good weekend all X

[espresso]

Congratulations to everyone who is another day sober.

[rubycanoe]

hi,
today is day fourteen, so I am 2 weeks sober today! I get to graduate from this thread? lol, I have not made it for more than 2 weeks for more than a year and a half. I think I had 4 months before that, and 28 months a few years back. So I know I can do it. It is hard but I keep telling myself to feel my emotions and feelings and I can stay in control much better without drinking. I have a long ways to go but it is a start! Congratulations to all of you in continued sobriety!!

[Mariposa18]

Good Morning Everyone~ Day 9 for me today!!!! I slept great last night, better than I have in MONTHS! I only woke up a few times, but that was due to Hubby's snoring! lol Did my house cleaning yesterday so I get to spend the day relaxing before going out to dinner and a movie tonight =) Feeling Good~

Rubycanoe~ Congratulations on 2 weeks! That's great. Stay Strong and yes, you can do it =) God Bless~

[ksplash5]

hi all...

I had an internet free day yesterday just as a change of pace. but like so many here I am staying clean and sober. I am choosing to live today. I am choosing to be the best person I can be today. choosing to change the world by changing myself...one breath at a time.

keep up the good work everyone.

[subzero]

Hi .. I hope this isn't the wrong place for a "hi" post ..

The amount of positive energy I have found since finding SR has been amazing .. that was about 6days ago .. the support, help and inspiration around made me realize I should (and could) not pick up again, I know would eventually kill me. Was drinking around 15 375ml beers bottles / day, about 21 standard drinks per day (EVERYDAY), sometimes more.

I'm now just ending day 5, and about to go to bed (Australian time sets me at the opposite end of the day to most of you). Have to say, I am feeling pretty good (apart from getting to sleep), considering I haven't gone without a drink in my hand for more than 2 days in a row for probably the last 15years.

Thanks ppls, you've helped me get this far without realizing the power of your posts on ppl you have no idea exist .. keep up the great work

[Pixy1]

Subzero, welcome!

I'm back on day1

[CarolD]

subzero....

Welcome to our support thread
Congatulations on your sober days

[CarolD]

Pixy ...I am sorry to know you are struggleing
Day one is better than Day Zero

I had so many false starts I lost track.
Sooo...yes! I remember the frustration

Prayers that this will be your turning point.

[CarolD]

Hello Everyone....

Forward we go....Yes! we can and will win!

Thanks for helping me stay sober today

[espresso]

Hi Subzero and Welcome.
Hugs to everyone on here:ghug

[ksplash5]

way to go everyone.

I am choosing to stay clean today. I am living in the moment as best I can. I am changing my patterns. I am staying in recovery from morning till night as best I can.

I want to stay clean, to be clean, to live clean, to think clean.

SR helps me do these things...

so THANKS SR!!

[camellion]

guys I fell off the wagon hard. I am miserable and lterally broke w/no job or income coming in.. I am really scared

[ar41]

hello brand new tonight
quitting drinking and smoking
thanks for listening

[subzero]

Camellion - I'm very new to all this, but its great to see you back here and working on getting back on the wagon!! We can win this battle !! its hard, but winnable

ar41 - Hi ya, I was considering giving up both at the same time!! but didn't think I'd be able to manage both at once.. so trying to get the alkie in me under control first. After this fight, I rekon the smokes should be a lot easier tho (fingers crossed), have given them up for 2yrs in the past .. am sure I can do it again, just not at the same time as giving up the booze! All the best to ya mate !!!

I'm just getting towards 7pm on day 7 .. this is the hardest part of the day for me, but I am just working on staying sober till the end of the next TV show !! Last night was hard, and I was close, but managed to resist after logging back in here and reading a few threads. Thanks again SR !!!

[November77]

I made it through day 7 now working on day 8! I can't believe it. It's still tough though, but with each day it's getting better. I'm just staying away from places that sell liquor. Every restaraunt in town sells it of course, so I'm kind of being a reclusive. Anything to subside this feeling. Eventually, I'll be able to walk into a place and not bat an eye, I HOPE.

[ksplash5]

hello

this thread here is the one that helped me get to this: my 42nd day clean/sober. I'm so grateful for being able to come here, time after time, saying that i used again.

staying clean is the most important thing today., staying clean is my goal today. My focus and myt intention is on recovery.

congradulations everyone, be it day 1 or day 14

[espresso]

:ghug everyone,
and great news ksplash

[subzero]

Nov77 .. Seems we had similar start dates, I'm just finishing day 7, and look out day 8 when I wake up in about 7hrs again without a hangover .. gotta love that!! tho it still takes me ages to get to sleep.

I'm not too sure if the past 7 days has gone faster or slower than I expected .. anyway

ksplash.. 42days .. excellent work .. hope I can reach that !!

To everyone on SR!!

[November77]

Hi Subzero, congrats on the 7 days! We'll make it! We'll just take it an hour at a time if we have to.

So much happened in the last 7 days, I know what you mean by either time flying by or slowing down. So much to deal with at once.

It'll get better. I'm hoping...

[November77]

To Everyone here..

Congrats!!!! Let's beat this thing!!!

[November77]

Hi Camellion,

I understand how difficult this can be. It's only been 7 days for me, and I could relapse at any time. That's what is scary about this disease. However, I'm attending lots of meetings and have a lot of support. I'm sorry you are going through this. Is there anyone that you can contact to help you with your financial situation for the interm until you can find work? I know the economy isn't doing that great right now, but, have you tried the employment office or a temp agency?

My prayers are with you.

[Mariposa18]

Hello Everyone~ Day 11 for me today. I had a good weekend. Went to the movies Saturday and spent time with Friends on Sunday. Sunday on our way to our friends house I told my Husband I felt scared. I felt scared because I felt good, then a sort of panic that I can't explain settled in the pit of my stomach. I slept in today and almost immediately began to feel depressed when I got up and I don't know why. I started thinking of how nice a glass of wine would be tonight while watching TV. I started to think "Well, I feel good. I know I shouldn't have more than one glass. I can control myself!"

Then I started thinking about how I shouldn't have told anyone about my drinking because "it wasn't that bad" that I was just going through a "tough time" and that I can control this, I just felt stressed and drank too much for a while. Even now as I type this I'm telling myself again that I'm not an alcoholic, I just had a bad patch.

I'm not going to drink. My Husband sure as hell won't get it for me and I honestly don't want it bad enough to get in the car myself...But I keep thinking that I could...

I'm sorry if I"m not making sense. My mind is a mess today for some reason