For Those with Less than 2 Weeks Sober Part 6

[ksplash5]

hello 2weeks and under thread\

way to go everyone on your time. we can do this. we never have to use or drink again.

my goal is to stay clean and be clean today. just for today.

have a wonderful weekend everyone

[rubycanoe]

yeah, I have made it a week, (again) hopefully I can make it this time!
I ended up getting the flu and getting very sick on day 5 so that was not fun, but it is going around here. I am looking forward to feeling much better next week I hope. Lots of stress in my life and I am having a hard time coping.

[kissmeimamie]

finishing day 3!!! Doin' alright I suppose..it's getting better each day.

[least]

Big hugs for those piling up positives one day at a time! You inspire me to stay sober.

[mtnmagic]

Hey CatsWings - Sorry I called you CatsWalk in an early post. I tell you sometimes my mind is absolute mush. I think I'm doing better then blam..can't even read right.

Congratulations bumble - Day 5 is awesome. So glad the anxiety is gone for you. That is an awful feeling. I was always in a state of panic when I was drinking. My nerves were fried. This is a great place. Hope to get to know you better.

RubyCanoe - A week is great. Hope you are feeling better. Hugs to you.

Day three is down kissmeimamie - You are doing it! Good for you! Hope you have a restful night with no headaches.

Hey least - Wanted to give you well wishes for your upcoming trip.

I keep coming here, because I was exactly where you all are just a few short days ago. I got through it those very, very early days with a lot of support.
I want to offer what little I can, and never forget that I do not want to go back to Day 1 ever again.

[allport]

Good morning, hope everyone had, or is having, a restful night. Its day nine for me and although I feel good and have had a great nights sleep yesterday was a bit of a strange day. I started off well by doing some work and finally finishing the assignment Ive been working on, then I spent about eight hours playing on the computer which is a bad sign, anyway I will try and get out of the house today and let the fresh air blow the cobwebs away. Had a really vivid drinking dream last night Id forgotten about them and when I woke up, for a few seconds I was convinced Id really had a drink! Why do our brains do this to us?

[kissmeimamie]

I hate those dreams!

[mtnmagic]

Hi Allport - Excellent job on day nine. Those drinking dreams are terrible aren't they? I wake up feeling panic when I have them. I have to ask
myself if I really drank before I even realize it is a dream. I dunno why, but I have told myself maybe it's my mind's way of releasing compulsion in a safe way. I'm not going to sleep walk and go buy alcohol and I don't keep it in the house. Don't know if this is true or not, but it makes me feel better about the situation. Hope you get out and about today.

Amie - Good one for you. Day 4 right? Please keep it up, no matter how hard it is. I remember Day 4 for myself and it wasn't easy at all. Do what ever it takes and it will be behind you. You are awesome.

[allport]

day 10 today, into double figures and feeling terrible, not because of sobriety, Ive got one of those colds that doesnt want to let go, my face hurts my back hurts and I feel like Ive got a golf ball in my throat. I dont know if its anything to do with stopping drinking but since I feel so bad I havent even been tempted, theres always a silver lining if you know where to look, lol.

[BrixtonBear]

Please can I come back to this thread? After 26 sober days, I made the mistake of taking a drink on Saturday with disastrous consequences.

It reminded me that I cannot control it. I crawled out of bed at 5 o'clock on Sunday afternoon, feeling terrible - it was already dark outside, it was such a waste of a day of life.

I'm trying not to get overwhelmed with despair. Turning into an alcoholic was a slow, gradual "becoming", and my recovery and healing may also be a slow, gradual process, with lots of victories but occasional defeats. I know that if I keep trying I will win, eventually, in the end.

[ksplash5]

of course you can come back paddybear! dont be silly....you come back always , no matter what

i've read therough the weekends posts and it's great to read of the sucesses. you too paddy!, you sucessfully started day 1 on sunday.

I made it through some difficulty yesterday. I received a text message from a dealer offering free crack and it sent me into the squirrel cage of my thoughts for a bit. i erased the text message. but that wasn't good enough so i called an AA friend and had to leave a message. i needed more help and i called another AA friend and he answered. then the other one called me back after that. by the time I was done I was almost at my destination.
then by the time i got to my destination, as I look back now, My thoughts and urges never re-appeared for the rest of the day.

that's one difference in my recovery now. Somehow I am learning, because of doing or practicing, I am learning how to reach out for help as soon as the first throughts of using surface. I try to squelch it immediately. i call someone. or i go to a meeting.

so it's monday and the week has started. I don't really know how many days me, or mountianmagic have!, but we are doing it together (with the same clean date ), and in fact ALL of us are doing it together today.

for all of sobriety only counts in today, and in the moment. it's jnot something we can store in the bank really. oh it helps our confidence as we compile days, and it helps our brains and spirit as we Come to, but our sobriety only exists within the day, within this breath we are now breathing....

[CarolD]

PB....I was in AA and trying hard too....however
I was there 4 years before I actually quit drinking.

But..I did and so will you.

I used to say I was doing a recovery dance
2 Steps up...1 back...and slide

Good to see you are making a fresh start..

[CarolD]

That's a shame allport...Gentle
Colds are just plain miserable

Day 10 is super!

[CarolD]

ksplash5....powerful share on how to work through
difficult situations. Thanks!
:Well done...

[espresso]

PB just start over - 24 hours can start at any time of the day. Get to a meeting if you can for some support as well as SR.
Don't leave before the Miracle Happens
:ghug

[CarolD]

Good to see you shineing on espresso

Let's both enjoy another day of victory

[BrixtonBear]

Thanks Carol, Ksplash and Espresso.

I was feeling really devastated this morning, thinking that I'll never succeed, so your encouraging words have really helped me alot.

Thanks for encouraging me

[grrrr]

Hey PB, you will definitely succeed! You made it a long time without drinking, and still want to stop. We have all been struggling. Keep quitting and keep posting. Your experience just re-affirms that being sober gets you more out of life than drinking.

I see a lot of people moving forward on this thread. Catwings, glad you found your way here! It is great to see smokers on this thread too. I tried for years and years to quit my pot habit before I even realized how much of a problem alcohol could take up in my life.

All your posts are inspiring, a lot of success here. I wouldn't be at day 29 if it weren't for this thread.

K

[iamsomebody]

This is about the umpteenth time that I am on day 2. This time, I am just really really tired. Last night I was observing myself trying to convince myself that I deserve that drink, that it would be a "wasted evening" without the drink. Wow, that's ironic! I didn't realize it until I wrote it down. Boy, I can tell that this is just going to be a load of fun!

[Lindsay]

Hello everyone. I'm going to join in on this thread. I had 44 days and slipped. That was about a month ago. The "alcoholic voice" got the best of me. I think I've finally gotten over the disappointment of failing and am ready to get back on board. I had a hard time feeling with the failure...but have since accepted it and am ready to simply look forward.

I'm a fool to think I can drink in MODERATION. I can't! Saturday night I went out with friends...took more shots than I can remember, blacked out, and was finally able to get out of bed around 430-500 Sunday. That is no way to live.

DAY ONE.

[mtnmagic]

Hi Paddington - You bet that you belong right here with us no matter what. Please start on over again. We are here for you. You can do this.

ksplash - You post the most awesome stuff. BTW - I think we are on day 36 today. I loose track too. I had to count up from our thirty days to figure it out, lol. I needed the reminder of reaching out on the phone when I'm in a tough spot. Boy is that one hard for me. I don't want to bother anybody, don'tcha know?

grrrr - Wow 29 days. I felt kind of strange my 29th day. It was like my alcoholism was a little worried that I was really staying sober or something.
I ended up going to two meetings that day, cuz I really wanted that 30th day. Had cravings, but they went away with less time then I thought they would. Doesn't mean they don't come back, but each day I think we get a little bit stronger enough to deal with them better.

Hi iamsomebody - Welcome to this thread. You've got some great company.
Many of us a card holding members of the upteenth time starting over club.
Lot's of great support. You must know the drill by now. Nope it isn't going to be fun, or easy. That first week is horrible. You can get through it. Keep reading, keep posting and take care of yourself. The most important thing today is just not picking up. Everything else going on can wait. It really can.

Welcome Lindsay - Glad to see you here. That word MODERATION just doesn't compute with me at all. Drinking or any other way in my life, I have a problem with it. Glad you decided to stop drinking. Good for you on day 1.
Take care.

[CarolD]

Good to see members starting fresh and coming back here
Welcome to Lindsay


Together we can win ...

[Pam08]

day 14 for me..was a very bad night. but I am still sober. Very determined this time. I have to make it. Wish I could do it all at once. but I can't do it mentally. anyway. almost to 15 day and so wanting that first red chip...tomorrow makes me half way to getting it....I can do it..i can i can i can

[mtnmagic]

Congratulations on your two weeks Pam. Yes you can, can, can do this!!!
I want to do this all at once too. Sigh, just doesn't work that way huh?

[allport]

Well done on two weeks, im nearly there and it really helps to read about someone walking the road ahead of me, im keeping an eye on your progress hoping to get some tips, lol. Day 11 for me and I should have a good day ahead of me im going to my sisters graduation ceremony and although i should be proud and happy for her im just feeling a bit numb. Thats better than how i was feeling last night i was raging for absolutely no reason, just bouncin off the walls. How come when your emotions start coming back its always the rotten ones first?