For Those with Less than 2 Weeks Sober Part 6

[Mariposa18]

Good Morning Everyone~ I hope you are all having a great and SOBER weekend =)

Well, today is day 14 for me! It feels like yesterday I was starting over on Day 1 after my Thanksgiving relapse, so angry for having messed up. Now I realize that's what it took for me to get really serious about this. The relapse wasn't a huge thing, it wasn't months of drinking but a couple of days, but really that's all it took. I feel much better everyday and I know I've made the right decision.

Stay Strong everyone and God Bless~

[Omega Man]

Proud of you Mariposa!
If you can make 2 wks, you can make 30 days! Stay strong and keep going.

[sicilia1414]

Hi everyone, sorry I have been MIA for a few days...I needed a few days off to just rest and relax and get away from the computer.

Mari, I am in the same postion you are, my emotions are so up and down. And if I see one more fcuking commercial on TV for Smirnoff Vodka or Captian morgan I am going to kill someone.

We did pick a bad time to get sober around the holidays, but I am sure it will just make us stronger in the long run!

And don't be embarrassed about the BIG BOOK you silly girl! Checking out that book at the library will be a baby step for you. So many of us alcoholics care way too much what other people think. We have to learn how to say - "fcuk everyone else, this is about me getting better". Please try to go to the library again and do it. That is one of the main reasons why I am forcing myself to go to AA meetings. I HATE HATE HATE them, but I know that over time, it will get less and less scary. I need to learn how to open up and be able to talk to people about my issues and struggles. I think that you getting up the nerve to get that book at the library will be very empowering for you.

I bought a big book at my first AA meeting, and I have been reading out of it every day. Please try to get one.

Today is my 2 weeks! yay!

[Omega Man]

Big Book is available on-line. No need to venture out in the cold
Big Book On Line

[CarolD]

sicilia1414 ....I am so tickled for you
Congratulations on your 2 weeks!

[CarolD]

Steem...thanks for sharing your interesting thoughts.

But I find it silly that it's the only drug that you can quit that people will look at you like you're crazy when you say you've given it up.

It's my exerience that those people are also drinkers.
Many people go Ho Hum...
When I told my non drinking parents I had quit....
"That's good....how's the weather in D.C.?"

[gravity]

Originally Posted by sicilia1414

And don't be embarrassed about the BIG BOOK you silly girl! Checking out that book at the library will be a baby step for you. So many of us alcoholics care way too much what other people think. We have to learn how to say - "fcuk everyone else, this is about me getting better". Please try to go to the library again and do it. That is one of the main reasons why I am forcing myself to go to AA meetings. I HATE HATE HATE them, but I know that over time, it will get less and less scary. I need to learn how to open up and be able to talk to people about my issues and struggles. I think that you getting up the nerve to get that book at the library will be very empowering for you.

I used to hate going to meetings too but I kept going. At the time, I didn't want anyone to know that I am an alcoholic and attend AA meetings. What I have found is that people who love me are very supportive and everyone else just doesn't care!

I do remember vividly a meeting at about my 3 month sobriety mark. I felt at home! What a rush!

Most of my first posts were on this thread. That was last December. Thanks to AA, SR, supportive family members, and inspirational readings, I have not had a drink!

A sober life is a good life. Once the obsession is gone, the peace is incredible. It takes hard work, a bit of frustration along the way, and patience but it can and will happen.

[ksplash5]

good sunday evening everyone.

I had some strong urges today but didn't act on them. I let the first one go and then when it came back it was even stronger. i could just see myself for a second watching myself start the process of getting high. but i let that one go. and the next one.

i think it's a good thing to have urges. i'm getting more and more confident that i can walk through an urge and not be fooled by my old habits. they do nothing good for me or the planet.

thanks for listening

[ksplash5]

it's another day.....and the opportunity to continue on in sobriety.

the opportunity to continue to change from a life of a taker to a life of a giver

the opportunity to start and sustain a new second half of life

the opportunity to follow your dreams

the opportunity to love instead of hate

[least]

Ksplash, you are such an inspiration! I love reading your posts. I always learn something useful!

[November77]

Hi all! sorry I have been so swamped with school and work. This semester is a little tougher than the last one. So I'm trying to juggle everything at once. Anyway just wanted to check in and say Hi

[Mariposa18]

Hey Steam and November! Nice to see you guys are doing well =)

[dbauer00]

Day 1.
This is the time. I have no control over alcohol. I want to stop drinking. I've quit before but returned with a fury. I demonstrate all of the signs of alcoholism.

[Mariposa18]

Welcome to SR DBauer~ You can do this. There is a lot of wonderful support and information here. This 2 week thread helped me tremendously, so post as much as needed, we are all here for you.

[dbauer00]

Thanks.
I'm dealing with intense anxiety and some DT. I'll get in bed early and put day-1 behind me.

[downtown3]

bauer this is a great place...good luck to you. I am going on day 9 and it feels wonderful. Being able to relate to so many and hearing so many success stories truly is an inspiration. If so many have already overcome why not us as well? Keep at the good fight and stay strong.

all the best

[Mariposa18]

Downtown~ Congrats on Day 9 =) Keep up the good work and I'll see you on the 15 Day and beyond thread soon!

Stay Strong~

[CarolD]

dbauer00......Welcome to our SR recovery community

When you mentioned D.T.'s I got concerned....

De toxing from alcohol can be dangerous
even if you have done it before.
I hope that your octor is aware of what your doing.

Please don't hesitate to call 911 or go to an ER
in case your symptoms get worse.
Here is information....

This is from my files...from N.I.H.
(United States National Institute of health)


If you plan to stop drinking all at once, you MUST have medical supervision for your detox if any of the following are true for you:

1. If you have a history of blood pressure that is higher than 140/90.

2. If you have used more than a six pack of beer daily, more than six 4 oz. glasses of wine or more than eight ounces (half a pint) of liquor per day for over a year.

3. If you have had prior withdrawal symptoms, such as depression or agitation.

4. If you have ever had seizures for any reason, and in particular if you have had alcohol DT's.

5. If you are using any other (either illegal or prescription) drugs in combination with the alcohol. This particularly includes benzodiazepines such as Valium, Librium or Xanex.

Withdrawal from significant or long standing alcohol use can be a serious process. Keep yourself safe as you make this change. You are taking a very important and brave step.

Withdrawal symptoms can include depression, insomnia, sweating, tremulousness, agitation, irritability, and brain "fog."

Bleeding, swings in blood pressure, convulsions, heart palpitations and hallucinations...means the ER.

Withdrawal usually starts 4-6 hours after the time you usually have your alcohol. If you drink every day at 6:00 PM, you will begin to experience discomfort that evening. If you have been a heavy drinker, your doctor may prescribe short term medication which will minimize the possibility of having seizures during detox.


Glad to see a new member...

[dbauer00]

Thanks Carol. I'm doing better today. Not going to drink. Plan to go to a meeting and get a sponsor. D

[LaDita]

I'm starting Day 8 today. I woke up at three am and could not go back to sleep. Started to cry and then had intense feelings of anger.

I cannot wait until the holidays are over (no money, no one to spend it with) and start the new year. I have a really good feeling about the new year.

[CarolD]

Originally Posted by dbauer00

Thanks Carol. I'm doing better today. Not going to drink. Plan to go to a meeting and get a sponsor. D

...Good for you!
I consider Steps were the beginning of my solid recovery.
A guideline for enjoying my new sober life.

thanks for checking back...

[CarolD]

Originally Posted by LaDita

I'm starting Day 8 today. I woke up at three am and could not go back to sleep. Started to cry and then had intense feelings of anger.

I cannot wait until the holidays are over (no money, no one to spend it with) and start the new year. I have a really good feeling about the new year.

...Well done on your sober days!

I t can relate ..I've been alone for most holidays

Several times...I went to the airport
found service people who were traveling to chat with.

The first year I was sober I volunteered to help
feed the homeless at a church. A lesson in gratitude for me.

I allso up my AA attendance ..includeing the parties!

I too am looking forward to a new year
of joy in recovery.

[dbauer00]

Thanks for the kind words!

Day-2 in the books. I feel much better today. No shakes and much of the anxiety is gone. I found a group that meets early every morning and it's on my way to work. I'll be taking my coffee there.

I want to share a bit of my story.
I've known for many years that booze was at the core of most of my problems. I have attempted to mask my alcoholism with exterior achievements, (e,g,. work, running, school, and things). My wife of 20-years has tolerated me but has also asked me to drink "normally". I DON"T KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. I plan everything around getting drunk. I make sure I don't have to drive. If wine is served, I worry about getting my share. If I don't have work; DRUNK. I'll drink beer, wine, Jack, or whatever else is available. I do most of my drinking at home to avoid trouble with the law. When I travel I drink in my room.
I was once a decent athlete but no more. At 46 my drinking has degraded my health both physically and mentally. I look bad because my health is declining. I know that I must stop. Thanks for your concern. Dave

[gravity]

Originally Posted by dbauer00

I'm doing better today. Not going to drink. Plan to go to a meeting and get a sponsor. D

Good stuff, Dave!

Last December, I got a sponsor, started working the steps and went to my first meeting. Do your best and your life will change dramatically. I feel like a different man, excited about living. It can be done!

[trio313]

this forum and others along with meetings reinforces my strength and faith in god and the program.if I can do this anybody can.I am not full of doom & gloom because I don't use ,I like to be sharp &aware of whays going on around me.
peace