For Those with Less than 2 Weeks Sober Part 6 - Page 10 - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Snowbunnie · 12-02-2008, 01:14 PM

Day one over here - wow, I just read the stickie that explains what is happening physiologically to us when we drink. What a mess.

SB

November77 · 12-02-2008, 02:06 PM

Mariposa,

Cigs. I have smoked weed in the past.
This sucks. I wonder who is classified as a 'normal drinker' as opposed to someone who 'drinks too much'? I'm curious. Because it appears to me that isn't very many of the normal ones left, at least not in my circle.

Mariposa18 · 12-02-2008, 02:45 PM

Snowbunnie~ Welcome =) I hope you continue to post and come here for support~

November~ I've smoked a few Cigs the past few days when around my Mom and FIL. I don't buy any though, that's one thing I've managed to not fall back into! lol

From what I read a "normal" drinker is no more than 2 drinks a day for a man and 1 for a woman. Even when I thought I was doing "good" I'd usually have at least 2. That doesn't last long though, before I know it I have a few nights where the bottle is gone in no time!

Chook · 12-02-2008, 03:54 PM

Hi everyone

Well it is now day 8 for me. Apart from one 9.5 day stint about 8 months ago, this is the longest I've gone without a drink since 1991.

I am really scared about this weekend coming. We have yet another couple coming to visit us from back home in Perth and my husband told me last night that he will definitely be bringing drugs. Either speed or coke he's not sure. Our visitor just said, "oh yeah - I will be bringing a good time with me".

. We left Perth because of all that last year. I got really pissed off and I said that I was definitely not going to have any. I asked hubby to tell our friend that he better not do any of that in front of me.

Im really scared. I feel strong enough to face that and stay sober now, but I will be tired from work on Friday night and happy to see our friends, I hope I can get through this.

steamvessel · 12-02-2008, 04:14 PM

Day 3 for me. I set a new date of this last Sunday this last week as my sobriety date, I had too many things going on for me to give it a serious start last week. I haven't had a smoke in 8 days. I drank hard, intentionally, on Saturday and told myself this is it. I paid the consequences the next day with a brutal hangover. I'm feeling good now, and I really want to do this. But talk is cheap so I'm just going to have to prove that I mean it this time.

**CarolD** · 12-02-2008, 04:43 PM

Snowbunnie ....

sicilia1414 ...

Day one is better than day zero
Congratulations to the two of you

Welcome to our 2 weeks thread

Mariposa18 · 12-02-2008, 05:24 PM

Chook~ I'm sorry, but it is YOUR home!!!! Tell your Friends, Thanks but no thanks and to leave that crap at home far away from you. That's simply not right, it's like when I asked my Parents not to bring wine to Thanksgiving and they brought it anyways, 3 bottles, 2 of which I drank.

I think this early in recovery things like that are such a hard thing to get through. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. But seriously, I'd tell them to not even bring that crap to your house.

Mariposa18 · 12-02-2008, 05:26 PM

Steamvessel~ Good for you for starting over and wanting to make it stick =) Stay Strong, you can do it! From all the recover threads I've read, it's all worth it~

sicilia1414 · 12-02-2008, 08:26 PM

Hey ya'll!! I just found this thread! sheesh there is so much to read on here that my eyes are killing me!!!

I am on day 2 and feel like CRAPOLA. I think i just had a mini anxiety attack a few minutes ago. I had gone grocery shopping and finished putting everything away, and then i realized that i didn't know what to do. I am trying to keep my mind occupied so i don't think about drinking, but i really have nothing to do right now, hahah. my place is cleaned spic and span and laundry is done. i am too shakey and jittery to sit and watch tv....

steam/chook, keep it up!!!! every day will get easier. (hopefully)

sicilia1414 · 12-02-2008, 08:34 PM

and can i just tell you how many times i have heard the word alcohol or drunk today?? seriously is god messing with me?

every radio ad, every commercial, even the episode of my favorite TV show right now is about drinking.

wtf.

Chook · 12-02-2008, 11:31 PM

Mariposa thankyou for your support. Yes I will try to be very hard on anyone who tries to make it hard for me at this early stage. I just hate being the nazi - but I'm determined nothing is going to stop me now I've made it this far.

Sicilia welcome to this thread and well done on day 2. Keep it up and yes, you are so right, it does get better

Mariposa18 · 12-03-2008, 06:30 AM

Sicilia~ I feel you about hearing the words alcohol or drunk every time you turn! lol I was watching Charlie Wilson's War last night and the guy is drinking in almost EVERY scene! Yeah, I had to change the channel! lol Do you enjoy reading? I know it's difficult for me to do right now because I can't seem to find the patience for it, but maybe it would work for you =) A series that I simply couldn't put down this summer was the Twilight series, I know I'm a 31 year old grown ass woman but they are good! lol Easy reading even though they are huge books, maybe you'll like them and that will give you something to do =)

Day 3 for me today! I woke up feeling MUCH better. I had a good breakfast and got rid of all the junk food in the house! I was thinking and realized that I treat my body like a garbage can =( I mean, it sounds bad but if I"m being honest it's very true. I drink entire bottles of wine at a time, take out and junk food whenever I get the chance, smoking cigarettes when I'm around smokers...IT'S RIDICULOUS!

I've done this all my life. I even remember twice in HS when I took overdoses, I would starve myself for weeks at a time (and I was a size 4!) I Honestly can't remember many times when I felt good, happy, content with my body or myself. That's one thing I'm worried about, that I will start to try and work through the feelings of why I've always felt this way and drink, because that's how I've dealt with it before. Or that I'll continue to overeat and gain back all the weight I've lost.

I don't want to keep doing this to myself. I don't want to drink, I don't want to smoke, I don't want to overeat...I want to feel happy and love myself without feeling the need to put things in my body that will hurt me. I want to look at myself in the mirror and like who I see, I want to feel proud of myself and not feel like I fail at everything anymore. I just want to get better...

Sorry so long, I guess I had more on my mind that I thought! If you made it this far, thanks, I appreciate it =)

Jakey · 12-03-2008, 08:56 AM

Hi all - Day 10 for me today! I think its the longest I have gone without a drink in 16 years. Physically I feel pretty good but mentally I'm a mess. Drinking has been a huge part of my life for so long I am still trying to figure out what to do now that its gone.

I know that it is a good thing its gone but I really never wanted to have to make this choice. I just wanted to be a normal drinker, if there is such a thing. It still hasn't really sunk in yet that I am never going to have another drink. Just thinking about it makes me sad.

November77 · 12-03-2008, 09:56 AM

Chook - I would be furious as well. That is so disrespectful to you. That takes a lot of nerve for someone to sit there and tell you they are going to do it whether you like it or not. Wow. I would have gone through the roof and then some. I don't blame you for being plenty pissed.

That's like someone saying to me, "Oh hey, I'm going to bring a gallon of rum and drink it right in front of you."

Right now if someone put a drink in front of me, I would not be able to say no.

You do NOT need the extra temptation.

~November furious with you~

November77 · 12-03-2008, 10:01 AM

Jakey - Oh don't I know it. I know exactly how you feel. I really did not want to quit either, but, my behavior was out of control ect. Not a good thing.

It's been 16 going on 17 days for me, and I'm still missing it. I'm still very vulnerable and when I get angry, I want a drink. Like today for example. I wanted to throw the towel in. I had a crappy morning and was ready to say to hell with it all.

My emotions are like on a rollercoaster ride. It's not a fun process I'm afraid.

But, I'm hoping that eventually I'll feel that I don't ever need a drink or want one. *crossing fingers*

Just hang in there....

November77 · 12-03-2008, 10:02 AM

Jakey ~ By the way CONGRATS on 10 days!!!

Jakey · 12-03-2008, 10:10 AM

Thanks November! I am on that same emotional rollercoaster and you're right, it isn't fun at all. I hope your day gets better, don't throw in the towel!

November77 · 12-03-2008, 11:04 AM

Sicilia ~ Oh yeah, I know what you mean. Ad's everywhere, and every movie I watch people are drinking like fish. Now, since I quit drinking I've been receiving this wine magazines. I never got any when I was drinking. Figures.

Snowbunnie · 12-03-2008, 12:30 PM

Hi everyone,

So glad to return and see Miraposa and Sicilia again today.

Day 2 here after about six months of attempts. This process feels like a really bad, disfunctional break-up. Long, drawn-out, on-again, off-again, painful and I miss the patterns/habits that had been established. It seems like everything is different and new. That can be good and bad, I'm not all that fond of change. Everything has changed, yet nothing has changed.

Thanks for the support, it lightens my spirit to know that we are here doing this sober thing together.

SB

November77 · 12-03-2008, 02:23 PM

Snowbunnie ~ I feel the same way. It's really hard.

November77 · 12-03-2008, 02:31 PM

Oh my gawd... a wine ad on the radio just now... what gives? I never noticed so many ad's before.

beachbum617 · 12-03-2008, 02:51 PM

Is it me or are the evenings SOOOO LOOONNNGG now?? It's amazing to me...

Mariposa18 · 12-03-2008, 02:56 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by beachbum617

Is it me or are the evenings SOOOO LOOONNNGG now?? It's amazing to me...

It's not just you! I swear sometimes it feels like the days have 48 hours! lol

Mariposa18 · 12-03-2008, 02:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by November77

Oh my gawd... a wine ad on the radio just now... what gives? I never noticed so many ad's before.

I never noticed before either November and now it's all I see! I was watching Football with Hubby on Monday and I told him "Could they possibly have more Beer commercials?"

He smiled at me and said "Let's watch something else!" lol

Jakey · 12-03-2008, 03:04 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mariposa18

I was watching Football with Hubby on Monday and I told him "Could they possibly have more Beer commercials?"

No kidding! It seems like half of the commercials during a football game are beer ads.

12-02-2008, 02:45 PM	#228 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 947	Snowbunnie~ Welcome =) I hope you continue to post and come here for support~ November~ I've smoked a few Cigs the past few days when around my Mom and FIL. I don't buy any though, that's one thing I've managed to not fall back into! lol From what I read a "normal" drinker is no more than 2 drinks a day for a man and 1 for a woman. Even when I thought I was doing "good" I'd usually have at least 2. That doesn't last long though, before I know it I have a few nights where the bottle is gone in no time! __________________ ~Sobriety is the best way to be in touch with reality as it is. Which is the best way to change reality to how you want it to be.~ Sober since 12-01-08

12-02-2008, 04:43 PM	#231 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,869	Snowbunnie .... sicilia1414 ... Day one is better than day zero Congratulations to the two of you Welcome to our 2 weeks thread __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

12-02-2008, 05:24 PM	#232 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 947	Chook~ I'm sorry, but it is YOUR home!!!! Tell your Friends, Thanks but no thanks and to leave that crap at home far away from you. That's simply not right, it's like when I asked my Parents not to bring wine to Thanksgiving and they brought it anyways, 3 bottles, 2 of which I drank. I think this early in recovery things like that are such a hard thing to get through. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. But seriously, I'd tell them to not even bring that crap to your house. __________________ ~Sobriety is the best way to be in touch with reality as it is. Which is the best way to change reality to how you want it to be.~ Sober since 12-01-08

12-02-2008, 05:26 PM	#233 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 947	Steamvessel~ Good for you for starting over and wanting to make it stick =) Stay Strong, you can do it! From all the recover threads I've read, it's all worth it~ __________________ ~Sobriety is the best way to be in touch with reality as it is. Which is the best way to change reality to how you want it to be.~ Sober since 12-01-08

12-03-2008, 06:30 AM	#237 (permalink)
Mariposa18 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 947	Sicilia~ I feel you about hearing the words alcohol or drunk every time you turn! lol I was watching Charlie Wilson's War last night and the guy is drinking in almost EVERY scene! Yeah, I had to change the channel! lol Do you enjoy reading? I know it's difficult for me to do right now because I can't seem to find the patience for it, but maybe it would work for you =) A series that I simply couldn't put down this summer was the Twilight series, I know I'm a 31 year old grown ass woman but they are good! lol Easy reading even though they are huge books, maybe you'll like them and that will give you something to do =) Day 3 for me today! I woke up feeling MUCH better. I had a good breakfast and got rid of all the junk food in the house! I was thinking and realized that I treat my body like a garbage can =( I mean, it sounds bad but if I"m being honest it's very true. I drink entire bottles of wine at a time, take out and junk food whenever I get the chance, smoking cigarettes when I'm around smokers...IT'S RIDICULOUS! I've done this all my life. I even remember twice in HS when I took overdoses, I would starve myself for weeks at a time (and I was a size 4!) I Honestly can't remember many times when I felt good, happy, content with my body or myself. That's one thing I'm worried about, that I will start to try and work through the feelings of why I've always felt this way and drink, because that's how I've dealt with it before. Or that I'll continue to overeat and gain back all the weight I've lost. I don't want to keep doing this to myself. I don't want to drink, I don't want to smoke, I don't want to overeat...I want to feel happy and love myself without feeling the need to put things in my body that will hurt me. I want to look at myself in the mirror and like who I see, I want to feel proud of myself and not feel like I fail at everything anymore. I just want to get better... Sorry so long, I guess I had more on my mind that I thought! If you made it this far, thanks, I appreciate it =) __________________ ~Sobriety is the best way to be in touch with reality as it is. Which is the best way to change reality to how you want it to be.~ Sober since 12-01-08

12-02-2008, 01:14 PM	#226 (permalink)
Snowbunnie Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Edina, MN Posts: 37	Day one over here - wow, I just read the stickie that explains what is happening physiologically to us when we drink. What a mess. SB

12-02-2008, 02:06 PM	#227 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Mariposa, Cigs. I have smoked weed in the past. This sucks. I wonder who is classified as a 'normal drinker' as opposed to someone who 'drinks too much'? I'm curious. Because it appears to me that isn't very many of the normal ones left, at least not in my circle.

12-02-2008, 03:54 PM	#229 (permalink)
Chook Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Coolum Beach Queensland Posts: 14	Hi everyone Well it is now day 8 for me. Apart from one 9.5 day stint about 8 months ago, this is the longest I've gone without a drink since 1991. I am really scared about this weekend coming. We have yet another couple coming to visit us from back home in Perth and my husband told me last night that he will definitely be bringing drugs. Either speed or coke he's not sure. Our visitor just said, "oh yeah - I will be bringing a good time with me". . We left Perth because of all that last year. I got really pissed off and I said that I was definitely not going to have any. I asked hubby to tell our friend that he better not do any of that in front of me. Im really scared. I feel strong enough to face that and stay sober now, but I will be tired from work on Friday night and happy to see our friends, I hope I can get through this.

12-02-2008, 04:14 PM	#230 (permalink)
steamvessel Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: Portland, OR Posts: 977	Day 3 for me. I set a new date of this last Sunday this last week as my sobriety date, I had too many things going on for me to give it a serious start last week. I haven't had a smoke in 8 days. I drank hard, intentionally, on Saturday and told myself this is it. I paid the consequences the next day with a brutal hangover. I'm feeling good now, and I really want to do this. But talk is cheap so I'm just going to have to prove that I mean it this time.

12-02-2008, 08:26 PM	#234 (permalink)
sicilia1414 new and scared. :( Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: chicago, il Posts: 114	Hey ya'll!! I just found this thread! sheesh there is so much to read on here that my eyes are killing me!!! I am on day 2 and feel like CRAPOLA. I think i just had a mini anxiety attack a few minutes ago. I had gone grocery shopping and finished putting everything away, and then i realized that i didn't know what to do. I am trying to keep my mind occupied so i don't think about drinking, but i really have nothing to do right now, hahah. my place is cleaned spic and span and laundry is done. i am too shakey and jittery to sit and watch tv.... steam/chook, keep it up!!!! every day will get easier. (hopefully)

12-02-2008, 08:34 PM	#235 (permalink)
sicilia1414 new and scared. :( Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: chicago, il Posts: 114	and can i just tell you how many times i have heard the word alcohol or drunk today?? seriously is god messing with me? every radio ad, every commercial, even the episode of my favorite TV show right now is about drinking. wtf.

12-02-2008, 11:31 PM	#236 (permalink)
Chook Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Coolum Beach Queensland Posts: 14	Mariposa thankyou for your support. Yes I will try to be very hard on anyone who tries to make it hard for me at this early stage. I just hate being the nazi - but I'm determined nothing is going to stop me now I've made it this far. Sicilia welcome to this thread and well done on day 2. Keep it up and yes, you are so right, it does get better

12-03-2008, 08:56 AM	#238 (permalink)
Jakey Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: PNW Posts: 87	Hi all - Day 10 for me today! I think its the longest I have gone without a drink in 16 years. Physically I feel pretty good but mentally I'm a mess. Drinking has been a huge part of my life for so long I am still trying to figure out what to do now that its gone. I know that it is a good thing its gone but I really never wanted to have to make this choice. I just wanted to be a normal drinker, if there is such a thing. It still hasn't really sunk in yet that I am never going to have another drink. Just thinking about it makes me sad.

12-03-2008, 09:56 AM	#239 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Chook - I would be furious as well. That is so disrespectful to you. That takes a lot of nerve for someone to sit there and tell you they are going to do it whether you like it or not. Wow. I would have gone through the roof and then some. I don't blame you for being plenty pissed. That's like someone saying to me, "Oh hey, I'm going to bring a gallon of rum and drink it right in front of you." Right now if someone put a drink in front of me, I would not be able to say no. You do NOT need the extra temptation. ~November furious with you~

12-03-2008, 10:01 AM	#240 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Jakey - Oh don't I know it. I know exactly how you feel. I really did not want to quit either, but, my behavior was out of control ect. Not a good thing. It's been 16 going on 17 days for me, and I'm still missing it. I'm still very vulnerable and when I get angry, I want a drink. Like today for example. I wanted to throw the towel in. I had a crappy morning and was ready to say to hell with it all. My emotions are like on a rollercoaster ride. It's not a fun process I'm afraid. But, I'm hoping that eventually I'll feel that I don't ever need a drink or want one. crossing fingers Just hang in there....

12-03-2008, 10:02 AM	#241 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Jakey ~ By the way CONGRATS on 10 days!!!

12-03-2008, 10:10 AM	#242 (permalink)
Jakey Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: PNW Posts: 87	Thanks November! I am on that same emotional rollercoaster and you're right, it isn't fun at all. I hope your day gets better, don't throw in the towel!

12-03-2008, 11:04 AM	#243 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Sicilia ~ Oh yeah, I know what you mean. Ad's everywhere, and every movie I watch people are drinking like fish. Now, since I quit drinking I've been receiving this wine magazines. I never got any when I was drinking. Figures.

12-03-2008, 12:30 PM	#244 (permalink)
Snowbunnie Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Edina, MN Posts: 37	Hi everyone, So glad to return and see Miraposa and Sicilia again today. Day 2 here after about six months of attempts. This process feels like a really bad, disfunctional break-up. Long, drawn-out, on-again, off-again, painful and I miss the patterns/habits that had been established. It seems like everything is different and new. That can be good and bad, I'm not all that fond of change. Everything has changed, yet nothing has changed. Thanks for the support, it lightens my spirit to know that we are here doing this sober thing together. SB

12-03-2008, 02:23 PM	#245 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Snowbunnie ~ I feel the same way. It's really hard.

12-03-2008, 02:31 PM	#246 (permalink)
November77 Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Posts: 48	Oh my gawd... a wine ad on the radio just now... what gives? I never noticed so many ad's before.

12-03-2008, 02:51 PM	#247 (permalink)
beachbum617 Member Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: MA Posts: 25	Is it me or are the evenings SOOOO LOOONNNGG now?? It's amazing to me...

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