60 days and under - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

HideorSeek · 11-01-2008, 09:13 AM

Hi everyone!

I'm going to start this thread because I can't find it anywhere else! Then again, I'm pretty cyber challenged, so if it's out there, please excuse the duplication...

Anyways, having always lived on the 2 week and under thread, I am amazed that I belong here. Believe me, I'm thrilled to say the least!

My issues now are less physical and more emotional and mental. I do still get demon thoughts at 5pm, but being on Antabuse squashes any sabotaging thoughts I may have. However...my mind on the other hand...I am finding it hard to "stick to my side of the street" (in AA lingo). My baser self keeps plaguing me with thoughts such as "how come I'm doing all this work, and you're still (fill in the blank)", or trying to stay centered myself when others are wallowing in the cup is half full stuff. I KNOW that I can only be responsible for myself, but ACCEPTING that fact and BELIEVING it in my heart of hearts and not letting resentments sneak in (bad news for ME), is another matter altogether.

Or perhaps putting it a different way, I'm having a hard time knowing when to let go and "to my own self, be true". Again, I THINK that I should assess any given situation (to assess if I have any control over it or not), figure out if I SHOULD jump in (or let go) and establish my boundaries (ie not rolling over and playing dead if I think that someone is being unfair to me). Does that make sense? My confusion is evident because it doesn't even make sense to ME! But I'm trying. Progress, not perfection, right?

NewDayNow · 11-01-2008, 09:22 AM

A 60 day and under thread is a great idea. Glad to hear about the progress. I guess it Will be awhile before any of us are ready for the perfection thread.

Great to be sober, that's for sure

Ed

HideorSeek · 11-01-2008, 09:25 AM

Well, I know that I, for one, will never be posting on a perfection thread! LOL. Thanks for chiming in NDN!

ananda · 11-01-2008, 09:53 AM

HS....wow...you just described exactly where i am at today!!!!!!

If i want to stay sober i think this is the sort of thing i will have to learn to do better at.

No real answers...i do know that i have to be ok with that i may swing and go to far in one direction or the other as i attempt to learn how to do this stuff...trying a new behavior i may over do it a bit to start with. Fortunately people here are fairly kind about it when i mess up....

not much helpful to say about it HS...just that i'm there too!

HideorSeek · 11-01-2008, 11:29 AM

Hi Ananda:

I'm always finding paradoxes in my life, maybe that's why I'm so indecisive! LOL! Anyways, I know that you have far more than 60 days, but please stay, because we need your wisdom!

NewDayNow · 11-01-2008, 11:33 AM

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trying a new behavior i may over do it a bit to start with

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Your cool Ananda!!!!!!!!!!

NewDayNow · 11-01-2008, 01:46 PM

Ok, So I'm bored. Beautiful day, maybe time for time for a walk.

HideorSeek · 11-01-2008, 03:39 PM

Hope you had a nice walk NDN! I have recently taken up Yoga and aerobics...any delusions I may have harbored about being fit, have gone down the tubes! Very humbling, let me tell you.

I hope Twin and Trying so Hard find this thread, NDN...we can't be the only ones in this category in the entire cyber galaxy, can we?

least · 11-01-2008, 03:51 PM

It's probably way back on page 10 or something. I know what you mean about being happy to have finally gotten our of the two week thread. I was going to set up housekeeping in there cause I couldn't seem to leave.

I know also what you mean about the mental stuff. When my physical addiction was gone I had to deal with life sober, and it was (still is) hard, but taking my life and sobriety one day at a time is working. I can only live one day at a time so may as well live for today, cause it's all I've got right now!

HideorSeek · 11-01-2008, 04:49 PM

Ooo, Least, I'm so glad that you are here too! Please stick around and, BTW, congratulations on your 101 days! You are amazing!!!!!!

least · 11-01-2008, 05:45 PM

It IS amazing. I was such a hopeless case, a basket case, a chronic relapser. I was telling someone else that I went thru the drive thru the other day and the guy didn't go get my 'regular' bottle of wine, but came over to my car and asked where I'd been for the last four months! I was often the first person there when they opened at 8 am. How embarassing. But no longer, that is in the past and it can stay there! I'm so tickled to be sober 111 days. Sixteen weeks tomorrow! Yippee!

Sobriety rocks! And it saves money and trouble too.

NewDayNow · 11-01-2008, 08:55 PM

I don’t like being alone especially when I’m not working. So yep, the walk did some good. A beautiful day here in the woods of Virginia.

60 days seems a little more manageable then 90 days, where I’ve been posting. Just can’t see that far ahead. Hopefully, Twin and TSH will show up soon. Voetsod should be around 67 days.

Good to see you doing so well Least.

This finishes 49 days of sobriety for me

Hay! 60 and under

Ed

NewDayNow · 11-01-2008, 10:03 PM

Hay, Lets start this day out right------- Have a little joke for ya.

A farmer friend of mine just down the road has one of the only out houses still standing after Halloween. He was thinking about pushing it over himself when he was approached by a man that wanted to rent it. Well sure he says, “I’ll rent that out house to ya”. That night there was a light on in that out house and the next morning a television antenna on top. The farmer thought it was a little odd, but “what the heck, none of my business”. The next morning the farmer noticed that there were two antennas on top of that out house. Well, this time his curiosity got the best of him. So down to the out house he went to find out why.

Well getting a little late for me, so

TO BE CONTINUED

50 days sober

HideorSeek · 11-02-2008, 07:38 AM

and....and ??????

NewDayNow · 11-02-2008, 07:54 AM

Way too much time on my hands!

HideorSeek · 11-02-2008, 03:12 PM

You Goof, but we love it!

TryingSoHard · 11-02-2008, 04:05 PM

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Originally Posted by HideorSeek

I hope Twin and Trying so Hard find this thread, NDN...we can't be the only ones in this category in the entire cyber galaxy, can we?

I'm here, I'm here!

I was searching for this the other day, too. I went back at least 10 pages and never could find it! So thanks, Hide!!

I participated in a 5K today! By no means did I run the whole thing but I did run SOME of it... and I finished it. LOL I'm tired now!!!

NewDayNow · 11-02-2008, 04:18 PM

I had to google that one. A 5k race is 3.1 miles. that's 4.99km for our friends on the other side of the pond.

Cool!!!!

NewDayNow · 11-03-2008, 06:37 AM

Not positive but I think this is the start of 51 days sober for me.

Can't seem to figure it out at the moment. I'm late for a job right now and stumbling around trying to get ready. Hope this isn't another case of dry drunk.

NewDayNow · 11-03-2008, 06:49 AM

Correction:

It is 51 days
I'm not dry drunk
I don't have to be anywhere for 4 hours

I'm having a sober senior morning. That's a good thing, right?

HideorSeek · 11-03-2008, 09:32 AM

I'm right there with you, NDN, only I'm starting to have more senior moments than non. Yippee, TSH, you're here! let's see if we can lasso Twin! Anyways, speaking of senior moments, I have recently taken up Yoga and Aerobics. Any thoughts I have had about being relatively fit and flexible have been dashed! Congrats on your 5K and thanks for joining us!

, all of you!

NewDayNow · 11-03-2008, 06:59 PM

Well, that's it for me today. Rough day on the old job site.

See ya all tomorrow,

Ed

HideorSeek · 11-03-2008, 07:28 PM

Hi again!

It's nighty-night for me as well. I'm crabby tonight. 4 of us were out to dinner, all partaking (but not excessively) except for me. It doesn't bother me if others drink, but I THINK it bothers me when everybody BUT me is drinking. I don't know, I have to ponder this more. Anyways, I cut out and have come home to get some alone, get it together and stop feeling sorry for myself time. I think that I'm feeling underappreciated and criticized too. So I'd best keep only my own company or I think I may say something I might regret...not to you all, but the ones around me. Sorry for pouting and thanks for letting me vent. I think I need a good night sleep. I'll be better in the a.m....

bostonluv · 11-04-2008, 12:49 AM

It's so good to see this thread up and running again - even if you had to make a new one HiderSeek.

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Anyways, having always lived on the 2 week and under thread, I am amazed that I belong here. Believe me, I'm thrilled to say the least!

I'm not amazed because I knew you could do it. It's wonderful and makes me happy to see how far you are coming. Give yourself a big pat on the back for all your struggles and accomplishments!

11-01-2008, 09:13 AM	#1 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	60 days and under Hi everyone! I'm going to start this thread because I can't find it anywhere else! Then again, I'm pretty cyber challenged, so if it's out there, please excuse the duplication... Anyways, having always lived on the 2 week and under thread, I am amazed that I belong here. Believe me, I'm thrilled to say the least! My issues now are less physical and more emotional and mental. I do still get demon thoughts at 5pm, but being on Antabuse squashes any sabotaging thoughts I may have. However...my mind on the other hand...I am finding it hard to "stick to my side of the street" (in AA lingo). My baser self keeps plaguing me with thoughts such as "how come I'm doing all this work, and you're still (fill in the blank)", or trying to stay centered myself when others are wallowing in the cup is half full stuff. I KNOW that I can only be responsible for myself, but ACCEPTING that fact and BELIEVING it in my heart of hearts and not letting resentments sneak in (bad news for ME), is another matter altogether. Or perhaps putting it a different way, I'm having a hard time knowing when to let go and "to my own self, be true". Again, I THINK that I should assess any given situation (to assess if I have any control over it or not), figure out if I SHOULD jump in (or let go) and establish my boundaries (ie not rolling over and playing dead if I think that someone is being unfair to me). Does that make sense? My confusion is evident because it doesn't even make sense to ME! But I'm trying. Progress, not perfection, right?

11-01-2008, 09:22 AM	#2 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	A 60 day and under thread is a great idea. Glad to hear about the progress. I guess it Will be awhile before any of us are ready for the perfection thread. Great to be sober, that's for sure Ed __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-01-2008, 01:46 PM	#7 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Ok, So I'm bored. Beautiful day, maybe time for time for a walk. __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-01-2008, 03:51 PM	#9 (permalink)
least recovering Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: USA Posts: 4,704	It's probably way back on page 10 or something. I know what you mean about being happy to have finally gotten our of the two week thread. I was going to set up housekeeping in there cause I couldn't seem to leave. I know also what you mean about the mental stuff. When my physical addiction was gone I had to deal with life sober, and it was (still is) hard, but taking my life and sobriety one day at a time is working. I can only live one day at a time so may as well live for today, cause it's all I've got right now! __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Whatever happens, I won't drink today. sober since 7/14/08.

11-01-2008, 05:45 PM	#11 (permalink)
least recovering Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: USA Posts: 4,704	It IS amazing. I was such a hopeless case, a basket case, a chronic relapser. I was telling someone else that I went thru the drive thru the other day and the guy didn't go get my 'regular' bottle of wine, but came over to my car and asked where I'd been for the last four months! I was often the first person there when they opened at 8 am. How embarassing. But no longer, that is in the past and it can stay there! I'm so tickled to be sober 111 days. Sixteen weeks tomorrow! Yippee! Sobriety rocks! And it saves money and trouble too. __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Whatever happens, I won't drink today. sober since 7/14/08.

11-01-2008, 09:25 AM	#3 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	Well, I know that I, for one, will never be posting on a perfection thread! LOL. Thanks for chiming in NDN!

11-01-2008, 09:53 AM	#4 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 7,557	HS....wow...you just described exactly where i am at today!!!!!! If i want to stay sober i think this is the sort of thing i will have to learn to do better at. No real answers...i do know that i have to be ok with that i may swing and go to far in one direction or the other as i attempt to learn how to do this stuff...trying a new behavior i may over do it a bit to start with. Fortunately people here are fairly kind about it when i mess up.... not much helpful to say about it HS...just that i'm there too!

11-01-2008, 11:29 AM	#5 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	Hi Ananda: I'm always finding paradoxes in my life, maybe that's why I'm so indecisive! LOL! Anyways, I know that you have far more than 60 days, but please stay, because we need your wisdom!

11-01-2008, 03:39 PM	#8 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	Hope you had a nice walk NDN! I have recently taken up Yoga and aerobics...any delusions I may have harbored about being fit, have gone down the tubes! Very humbling, let me tell you. I hope Twin and Trying so Hard find this thread, NDN...we can't be the only ones in this category in the entire cyber galaxy, can we?

11-01-2008, 04:49 PM	#10 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	Ooo, Least, I'm so glad that you are here too! Please stick around and, BTW, congratulations on your 101 days! You are amazing!!!!!!

11-01-2008, 08:55 PM	#12 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	I don’t like being alone especially when I’m not working. So yep, the walk did some good. A beautiful day here in the woods of Virginia. 60 days seems a little more manageable then 90 days, where I’ve been posting. Just can’t see that far ahead. Hopefully, Twin and TSH will show up soon. Voetsod should be around 67 days. Good to see you doing so well Least. This finishes 49 days of sobriety for me Hay! 60 and under Ed __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-01-2008, 10:03 PM	#13 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Hay, Lets start this day out right------- Have a little joke for ya. A farmer friend of mine just down the road has one of the only out houses still standing after Halloween. He was thinking about pushing it over himself when he was approached by a man that wanted to rent it. Well sure he says, “I’ll rent that out house to ya”. That night there was a light on in that out house and the next morning a television antenna on top. The farmer thought it was a little odd, but “what the heck, none of my business”. The next morning the farmer noticed that there were two antennas on top of that out house. Well, this time his curiosity got the best of him. So down to the out house he went to find out why. Well getting a little late for me, so TO BE CONTINUED 50 days sober __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-02-2008, 07:38 AM	#14 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	and....and ??????

11-02-2008, 07:54 AM	#15 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Way too much time on my hands! __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-02-2008, 03:12 PM	#16 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	You Goof, but we love it!

11-02-2008, 04:18 PM	#18 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	I had to google that one. A 5k race is 3.1 miles. that's 4.99km for our friends on the other side of the pond. Cool!!!! __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-03-2008, 06:37 AM	#19 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Not positive but I think this is the start of 51 days sober for me. Can't seem to figure it out at the moment. I'm late for a job right now and stumbling around trying to get ready. Hope this isn't another case of dry drunk. __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-03-2008, 06:49 AM	#20 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Correction: It is 51 days I'm not dry drunk I don't have to be anywhere for 4 hours I'm having a sober senior morning. That's a good thing, right? __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-03-2008, 09:32 AM	#21 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	I'm right there with you, NDN, only I'm starting to have more senior moments than non. Yippee, TSH, you're here! let's see if we can lasso Twin! Anyways, speaking of senior moments, I have recently taken up Yoga and Aerobics. Any thoughts I have had about being relatively fit and flexible have been dashed! Congrats on your 5K and thanks for joining us!, all of you!

11-03-2008, 06:59 PM	#22 (permalink)
NewDayNow Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: USA Posts: 443 Blog Entries: 1	Well, that's it for me today. Rough day on the old job site. See ya all tomorrow, Ed __________________ *9-14-08 The rest of my day starts right now*

11-03-2008, 07:28 PM	#23 (permalink)
HideorSeek Member Join Date: Apr 2008 Location: massachusetts Posts: 429	Hi again! It's nighty-night for me as well. I'm crabby tonight. 4 of us were out to dinner, all partaking (but not excessively) except for me. It doesn't bother me if others drink, but I THINK it bothers me when everybody BUT me is drinking. I don't know, I have to ponder this more. Anyways, I cut out and have come home to get some alone, get it together and stop feeling sorry for myself time. I think that I'm feeling underappreciated and criticized too. So I'd best keep only my own company or I think I may say something I might regret...not to you all, but the ones around me. Sorry for pouting and thanks for letting me vent. I think I need a good night sleep. I'll be better in the a.m....